[Japanese Drama Doujin] Actually I Don’t Care About You

And you, I will hang my life to guard.Even if I don't have experience yet, I will work hard. "

There are two sources of human experience, one is the learned method of self-trial and error, try and experience, and then learn lessons, self-correction, this is the so-called failure is the best teacher; The axioms that have been fully verified, the learned methods that others listen to, avoid unnecessary sacrifices and waste, and avoid detours.

Facing the matter at hand, Kobayashi and Watanabe decided to consult with the elders after discussing it because they needed the opinions of experienced people as a reference.

When Kobayashi stepped into the head of the Izumi group, he suddenly felt like returning to an old dream. Although he didn't feel the reality, he came back with an inexplicable sense of déjà vu, worrying about what to do.Since the disclosure banquet with Watanabe, she hasn't been back to Kansai, and her contacts with everyone in the Izumi group seem to be slowly estranged.This kind of estrangement was not because she hated or didn't want to be in touch anymore, but after she recovered from her new life, she found that she hadn't sent a message to them for a long time, and they hadn't looked for her.

"Big Sister!" Xiao Lin heard someone call her that, followed the prestige, and saw Cheng Gong with dyed black hair and a suit.Wearing a pair of gold-rimmed glasses, he looked more mature and stable, at least on the surface, he couldn't see his youthfulness before.

"Well." Because Chenggong greeted her without any sense of unfamiliarity, the little embarrassment that Xiao Lin had before disappeared. She nodded in response, and asked Chenggong who ran up to her, "Mr. Are you there?"

After graduating from Si, He Quanren handed over the affairs of the group to Si to deal with, and often wandered around after he was free, just like an old man who has nothing to do after retirement.

"Oh, yes. He said that if you come back, you can go directly to the dojo behind to find him." Chenggong also waited here for Kobayashi because of what Izumi Ren said. Reverting to the familiar heartless look, he raised his hand and smoothed his three to seven hairstyle, and asked with a smile, "Sister, after you finish talking with the old man, do you want to stay for one night? I'll call Let the others go to the izakaya they used to go to together, let's have a good get-together?"

"Huh? No need, let's do it later. I'll invite you later." Xiaolin waved his hand and rejected Chenggong's proposal. She is not in the mood of a group of people gathering to drink and chat, and she is not in that physical condition. "Go get busy. I went to see the old man, and then I will take the evening Shinkansen back to Tokyo. Party or something, I will talk about it next time when I am not busy."

"Hey," Chenggong put his hands on the back of his head, elongated his voice to express his disappointment, and muttered as he looked at Kobayashi who was not interested, "But you didn't come back before, and what you are saying now is completely insincere social Words, big sister."

"It's social rhetoric!" Xiao Lin felt that he must have been dazzled just now to feel that Cheng Gong was mature and stable. He is clearly still a brat who can either ignore it or beat him up!Raising his hand and slapping Cheng Gong's head, Xiao Lin squeezed out his strength and said loudly, "Then you have long ears, do you want to listen to others? It's polite to ask you to do your work, and quickly disappear from my eyes!"

Cheng Gong covered his head and let out a scream, grinned and sucked in the air-conditioning and said, "It's more suitable for you, big sister, to be so imposing."

"Idiot." Seeing his stupid look, Xiao Lin couldn't help but cursed with a smile.

Kobayashi hasn't been to the dojo behind the main house for at least ten years. She went there because she and Si had karate lessons there, and then it gradually became empty.Kobayashi pushed the door and went in. The inside was clean and tidy beyond her expectations. He Quanren, who was wearing a white Taoist uniform, was sitting beside him, and when she opened the door, his sharp eyes fell on her.

Xiao Lin never understood He Quanren's thoughts, but this did not prevent her from thinking that He Quanren was a wise elder, and she respected him from the bottom of her heart.

"I'm coming in." Xiao Lin took off his shoes at the door, bowed slightly, walked into the dojo in small steps, and sat down beside He Quanren.Folding his hands in front of his abdomen, Kobayashi hesitated for a moment, and explained to Hequanren's oppressive gaze, "I don't know if you still remember, although I can't see it clearly, I am pregnant now, how do I think about it?" None of them are suitable for wrestling in the dojo.”

"Huh," He Quanren looked away, crossed his chest and looked at the empty dojo, and said loudly, "I know, there is no such thing as Alzheimer, will I forget?!"

Xiao Lin has long been used to talking loudly with Quan Ren, especially after he began to have some hearing loss a few years ago, he stubbornly didn't want to wear a hearing aid and let others take care of him.The twilight of a beauty and the end of a hero both make people feel sad, but what is more real is that the old people around them are a little older: apart from the extra effort of the people around them, it is the old man who realizes that his old age is causing trouble to others Afterwards, what I think in my heart is more speechless and profound than lamenting the world.

I want to live, I want to be like a normal person, live healthy and free from crime; but I want to die, if I live long enough, I can simply die without causing trouble to others.

"Yes, you haven't forgotten, so I came to discuss things with you today." Xiao Lin relaxed his body, changing from sitting upright to sitting with his legs folded by his side.

"Yeah, what's the matter, you came back in a hurry, and you still look frustrated?" He Quanren turned his head slightly to look at Xiao Lin, "Have you had a fight with that kid? You can convince him, so come back Want someone to beat him with a sack? Ahahaha—”

He Quanren laughed uncontrollably, with a ferocious expression and gloating laughter, if it weren't for...

Kobayashi didn't think about what it was or not, but she still couldn't get angry with him, took a deep breath, Kobayashi raised her voice over Kazumi Ren's laughter and retorted, "That's not the case, I just want to ask you some questions !"

Hearing Xiao Lin said that he had something to ask himself, He Quanren stopped his laughter and coughed lightly, "Cough, huh? What do you want to know from this old man?"

"What did you think when you adopted me, Si, and the deceased uncle?" Xiao Lin hardly heard He Quanren mention his dead son, and all she knew was that Si's parents died in a car accident when Si was young. Well, maybe the dead son was a wound to He Quanren, but Kobayashi wanted to know why He Quanren would let his uncle be born and raised by his side, obviously there were so many risks and negatives in the society.

Xiao Lin looked at the frowning and Quan Ren, held his left hand tightly with his right hand, and expressed his confusion, "I don't know whether to give birth to this child, because I didn't plan to want him before, but I don't want him when he comes." Knowing whether to let him go or not. I don't have the confidence to be a good parent and make him feel good about being in this world."

"That has nothing to do with the old man!" He Quanren disregarded the relationship loudly. He seemed to be uninterested and angry, "Didn't you think about this kind of thing? Born or not born or something."

"If there is a choice, I would like to stuff that brat Xiongya back into his mother's stomach to have a new life!" Xiong is the deceased son of Izumi Ren, "As a child, as a parent, how can it be so smooth? I don’t have any ideas or plans to raise a bunch of you brats, and the old man has taken care of you, haven’t you all lived well up to now?”

Living, looking at the world, having a group of friends who can drink and chat, and a lover who will accompany him for life, Xiaolin really does not feel that he was born unhappy.The pain and unhappiness of the past, the suffering and hardship of the future, Xiao Lin suddenly felt that the rope around her neck was gone.

People will always die, but before that, everyone has different experiences. Who chooses not to live because they know death?

Later, Xiaolin didn't chat with He Quanren any more, and the children who usually come back here to train after class flooded into the dojo.Kobayashi did not expect that He Quanren would volunteer to be the instructor of the nearby elementary school students' karate club. I hope these children will not be made to cry by this fierce-looking, loud, and deaf supervisor?Xiaolin hadn't decided whether she hoped that the children would be scared and cry, or be stronger, so she watched the children happily line up in front of He Quanren to receive candies.

"..." Gan い で す.

Having found the answer he wanted, Kobayashi returned to Tokyo happily.Before opening the house, Kobayashi simulated many scenes in his mind, and each ending ended with her and Watanabe's happy smiles.

"I'm back." As soon as Xiao Lin entered the door, he saw Watanabe sitting on the sofa waiting for her. There were red wine bottles and goblets on the coffee table.

"Welcome back." Watanabe stood up, approached Kobayashi and hugged her into his arms.

Kobayashi smelled the smell of alcohol on Watanabe's body, but she didn't hug him back. She stretched her arms to open the distance between the two, and asked Watanabe, who seemed to be a little drunk, "What's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing, I just drank some wine before you came back." Watanabe let go of Kobayashi's strength, then pulled her to sit on the sofa together, and poured a glass for her with a smile, "You can drink too, Don’t worry about the child’s affairs, just take it off later.”

"Just take it off before the deadline."

The so-called family

Watanabe Ryota is an Edoko born and raised in Tokyo.His father and mother are also very affectionate, and their story could almost be adapted into a version of a mischievous kiss-like Tokyo love story, but it has nothing to do with him.

Because a good couple is not necessarily a good parent, between husband and wife and parents