I love you and hate you, ask if you know

Along the Huangpu River, the whistle sounds.

The sky is so blue.Pieces of green that are fresh and tender to the point of dripping water, drilled out of the ground, climbed up the branches, and gradually dyed the streets and alleys of Shanghai Beach.

Spring has finally come.

In the afternoon, the sun was shining brightly.

In front of the wide open window, Ming Louduan was sitting in a wheelchair, with an old photo lying in the middle of the blanket neatly covering his legs.He quietly lowered his eyebrows, staring for a long time at the shy boy in the photo and the bright and flamboyant girl beside him, caressing the familiar outlines over and over again with dripping hands, the black pupils as deep as the vast sea overflowed with endless love The tenderness and desolation make it a farewell-like nostalgia.

The warm wind hits the face, and the fresh and refreshing air is mixed with the faint fragrance of flowers, which washes away the smell of medicine in the ward.Minglou took a deep breath and looked up into the distance—towering sycamores, familiar streets, girls selling flowers along the street, children playing by the roadside, couples strolling arm in arm, endless pedestrians and vehicles... The irresistible exuberance in this beautiful city is reflected in the eyes and engraved in the heart. Every bit of it is the deep concern and reluctance that cannot be let go but is helpless.

When Wang Manchun tiptoed to push the door and entered, what he saw was a dazed and absent-minded person in a pale golden sunlight.He quietly stared at the window, with a lonely and melancholy expression, which faded away from the sharpness and invulnerability in front of others, and the hazy and soft profile curves unabashedly exposed the deep hidden fragility and sadness.Wang Manchun had a sore nose, and couldn't help but went forward and hugged him.

"What do you think?"

"It's nothing, look outside." Minglou involuntarily raised the corners of his lips, only Aizong was tender in his deep eyes.

Wang Manchun tightened her arms, lowered her head and buried her face in his bony shoulders, rubbing against his neck until the tip of her nose and lips touched the skin of his collarbone.A soft voice came out from the base of his neck depressingly with warm air:

"Sitting with the window wide open like this, be careful not to catch cold."

Ming Lou was made numb and itchy by her, but his eyes were dazed and he didn't know where they fell. His satisfied smile was tinged with a bit of desolation for no reason, and he still spoke calmly and gently as always: "It's so good Sun, it's okay. Man Chun, you're too nervous."

"You recovered so quickly, I'm afraid it's not real, I'm afraid it's just a dream."

She sighed softly, tilted her head slightly, and leaned closer to him.His hair was intertwined, his neck was intertwined, and his breath faintly brushed over the top of his head.She hugged him quietly, feeling the distressing emaciation, wishing she could cling to him like this forever and bask in the spring sunshine.

Minglou quietly closed his eyes, and when he looked up again, there was already a bottomless tranquility, and he said with a slight smile, "If I don't get better soon, I'm afraid you'll flood this place with tears and you won't be able to compensate. Alright Don't worry, am I fine?"

He patted her hand comfortingly, glanced at her pure white jade wrist full of bruises and scratches, and immediately rolled her sleeves and frowned lovingly: "Are you still talking about me? Such an adult I don’t even know how to protect myself! How did that lunatic teach?”

"Oh, it's all right!" She quickly pressed her cuff to prevent him from taking a closer look: "It's all a minor injury. The teacher saved me, and you still blame him?"

Minglou didn't talk to him, but put on a serious face and said in a serious tone: "From now on, you are not allowed to walk alone again, let Ah Cheng accompany you. If he has something to do and can't leave, he will ask others to follow you. Do you hear that? "

"Brother..."

"This is the order of the poisonous snake to the poisonous moth, there is no discussion."

"Yes, my Chief Ming." She pursed her lips in response, muttering with a delicate and displeased face: "The teacher didn't care about me so much!"

"It's just that I'm too used to you girl!" Minglou couldn't help but touch the tip of her nose, just like how he coaxed the little girl who liked to cuddle in his arms and act coquettishly many years ago.

Wang Manchun smiled sweetly, then lowered his head to touch his shoulder, and said casually, "Did Ah Cheng tell you? The shot that saved me was really beautiful! I learned how to shoot sniper shots at the military school. , The instructor is not a teacher. Later, in actual combat, I have never seen the teacher do long-range ambush and precision aiming. I really didn't expect that the teacher is actually a sniper master who hides his secrets!"

She spoke beamingly, full of admiration.Minglou only raised his eyebrows slightly, and replied lightly: "Crazy, naturally you still have some skills."

"Yeah." Wang Manchun didn't say anything anymore, the arms around his shoulders tightened willfully, and her face was close to his neck like a cat, greedily absorbing his body breath, Ren Qianzhen was full of tenderness and attachment. full pouring.

Minglou gritted his teeth secretly.The deep and almost hopeless grief surged and condensed in the deep and boundless eyes, and then slowly faded away.He finally said lightly the words that had been suppressed in his chest for a long time:

"Manchun, my eldest sister has already contacted the hospital in Zurich. We will leave for Hong Kong tomorrow morning."

Wang Manchun trembled, and raised his head suddenly: "So fast?"

"Yes." Ming Lou Qiang continued plainly: "You know my eldest sister, she doesn't like this place. She would rather I take a rest in Hong Kong first, and then go to Zurich from Hong Kong."

"Although Shanghai is close to Hong Kong, it takes three hours by plane. Can your body take it?"

"Doctor Akita said yes. Otherwise, my eldest sister will not be at ease."

Wang Manchun was silent for a moment, her eyes blushed unknowingly, but she nodded with a smile, "That's fine."

She still wanted to say something, but she choked up for a while, and the handsome and picturesque sword-browed eyebrows and stars in front of her eyes suddenly blurred.Clearing her throat, she turned her eyes away as if avoiding, her eyes fell on the photo inadvertently, and suddenly understood the sadness reflected in his eyes when he just entered the door and the solemnity of telling herself not to walk alone anymore.The pain in my heart was unstoppable, and the smile on my face became more and more calm:

"Don't worry, there are me and Ah Cheng here in Shanghai. You see, you are not here these days, Ah Cheng has taken care of everything well, right? Don't worry, go with Sister Ming Jing and recuperate well, don't make her worry anymore. I will take good care of Ah Cheng for you, and myself..."

She spoke quickly, urgently and neatly all the way, and was suddenly pulled into the familiar and wide arms by a strong force.His suddenly pressed lips blocked what she said below.

The fiery and lingering kiss burned the sky and the earth in an instant.I wish they could merge into one and melt into each other's body.

Wang Manchun closed his eyes.Tears finally fell down freely.

The warmth of hugging each other tightly, the sweetness of kissing each other, this moment of happiness and intoxication is enough to endure the rain and snow on the long road ahead.

Even if there is no hope for the rest of my life, let me bloom with all my heart in this moment.

enough.

Enough is enough, she said to herself.

In the empty bathroom, the faucet was running.Wang Manchun huddled in a corner and cried faintly.

You don't have to force yourself to smile and pretend to be relaxed.Tears, bursting the embankment, generally can't stop.

At this moment, she is not the ruthless female devil of No. 76, nor is she the gull and poisonous moth in the spy sea.She was just a simple woman; a woman who got love but couldn't keep her.

In the helpless despair that drives people crazy, he can only vent by crying in the end.

The sudden sound of the door opening made her hurriedly lower her head, and disguised herself to wash her hands and face in front of the sink.When he calmed down, he raised his eyes again, and what he saw was a familiar and dignified face.

"You..." She was a little surprised.

Ming Jing's once frosty face has long since become amiable, but still has a sense of scrutiny.Silently staring at the haggard face in front of her, sympathy and pity gradually appeared in her eyes that turned from sharp to soft.

"Is Miss Wang all right?"

"Ah, it's okay." She forced a smile: "Just now a gust of wind blinded my eyes, just wash it off."

"We're leaving tomorrow. If Miss Wang is free..."

Ming Jing hesitated to speak as if he was thinking about something, and asked carefully and politely, "Before I leave, I want to talk to you. Is that okay?"

"of course can."

Wang Manchun suppressed the surprise in his heart, and led Ming Jing into Akita's private lounge: "It's safe here. If Chairman Ming has anything to say, please feel free to say it."

Ming Jing pondered for a moment looking out the window, and said, "Miss Wang, you know that I never talk around in circles."

Wang Manchun nodded, feeling even more confused, unable to guess her intentions at all.

"There's one thing I've always wanted to ask you: Since you have such a strong affection for Minglou, why didn't you want to go with him back then?"

Like a thunderbolt striking his face, Wang Manchun was stunned and speechless for a moment, even though he had been hiding everything he had practiced for many years, he couldn't hide his astonishment and confusion at this moment.

"What? Didn't he ask you to go with him?" Ming Jing was also extremely astonished seeing her like this.

Wang Manchun was in a turmoil, unable to get the point out of all the clues, so he calmed down and said reluctantly: "How could Chairman Ming have such an idea? You are a relative who depends on each other. No matter what, he will never be able to disobey you of."

"No, no. Miss Wang, you know that's not the case."

Ming Jing was extremely calm, and shook his head firmly: "You should know him like I know him. Just let go? No, not Minglou, not to you. It's impossible."

Wang Manchun's heart was shocked, and he was speechless, listening to Ming Jing's serious expression about the past:

"Minglou's departure was very sudden. I remember that there happened to be an emergency at the company that day. I came back very late and went to bed. I didn't think it was wrong until Minglou didn't come home the next night. I asked Mingtai and said it was the day before I didn’t see his elder brother. I was a little panicked. You know, Minglou has always been very good, and his life is very regular. If he can’t go home because of something, he will definitely call to say hello.”

"I thought of a possibility at the time, and hurried to his study to check. Sure enough, there was a letter hidden in his drawer. As for the content, as you can imagine, it was exactly the same as the farewell letter he left me this time. I am full of I thought he eloped with you. When I didn’t want to rush to school, I found that you were rehearsing in the troupe in good order, and you seemed to be completely indifferent to Minglou’s departure.”

"I almost exploded with anger. I thought that you, like your uncle, only valued the wealth and prestige of the Ming family. Once you lost the title of the eldest mistress of the Ming family, you refused to go with Ming Lou. After a long time, Minglou didn't write any letters, and he didn't mention you again. I think he must be very sad. I was both distressed and relieved, thinking that he finally saw your true face clearly, and he wouldn't be stupid anymore."

"Later, I said that in the salon because I was afraid that he would be seduced by you and hurt by you again. It turns out that things are not what I imagined."

"But I don't understand. Since Minglou had made up his mind at that time and even wrote the letter to me, he should have arranged everything early. Why did he leave alone without you in the end?"

Wang Manchun gritted her teeth tightly, her eyes filled with tears.My mind was chaotic, and it took a long time before I said in a trembling voice: "Regarding his departure, senior brother didn't give me any explanation, nor did I ask."

Ming Jing sighed faintly.

They all know Minglou.What he didn't want to say, he couldn't ask no matter what.

"This time Minglou traded his own life for yours. Seriously, I'm not surprised at all. Minglou has never said it for so many years, but I understand everything."

Ming Jing suddenly plucked up the courage, and spit out the words that had been holding back in his heart: "Miss Wang, I must admit: Back then, I was indeed the one who overreacted."

"You don't have to say that. I was too much that day on the 76th..."

"No, not the same."

Ming Jing closed his eyes, and said slowly: "It was a long time after Minglou's accident that I finally figured it out. You deliberately went too far at that time, not only to remove the suspicion for Minglou, but also worried that in the end, he would still I can't bear to be soft-hearted towards you, right? You thought that if you hurt me and Mingtai, and touched his bottom line, he would only have hatred for you, and there is no love at all. Only in this way can he be ruthless and pull you out to save him Myself. Am I right?"

Wang Manchun smiled sadly: "Unfortunately, I still miscalculated."

"You still underestimated his love for you. Do you know? That day you threw me half of the handkerchief that covered Mingtai's nails, and yesterday Ah Cheng asked me for it carefully, using excuses to weave a basket. In fact, I I knew in my heart that Minglou wanted to keep it."

Wang Manchun tried to stabilize his mind: "Chairman Ming, thank you for telling me this. But, I can't go with you."

She took a deep breath, with a solemn expression: "I'm sorry, this time is different from the past. No matter how much I want to, I can't leave my fighting position."

"I see."

Ming Jing hesitated for a moment, and reached out to hold her hand: "Actually, I'm not trying to persuade you to go together. I just want to say—take care."

"You, Ah Cheng, and Mingtai, you all will be safe and sound. After victory, our family will be reunited."

"Sister!" Wang Manchun stretched out his arms, and the two women hugged each other.

Years of old grievances were resolved once.

"Okay, stop talking."

Ming Jing secretly wiped away his tears: "Go back quickly, Ming Lou must be waiting impatiently. You and Ah Cheng have a regular meeting tomorrow morning, so today is the only time left to accompany him."

"By the way, big sister, do you have a discount for booking such an early flight?" Wang Manchun asked suddenly and casually.

"Where is there any discount! Minglou insisted on taking the earliest one. Actually, I wanted him to take a good rest, but he was unconscious a few days ago. But he was anxious to leave early. I Thinking, that side is safe after all, just follow him."

Wang Manchun lowered his head and straightened his hair, and replied lightly, "Oh."

Morning glow, like blood.

On No. 76, Wang Manchun stood quietly by the window.On the desk behind him, the secret telegram he had just received had been reduced to a pile of ashes in the ashtray.

That was a short reply from Yan'an sent by the organization in response to her request not to hesitate to break the law.

Cobra: Joined the party in 1928, hibernated in 1932, revived in 1934, hibernated again a month ago.

A few numbers did not help her to reveal the truth of the year.

But these are not important anymore.

What she wanted to know most, Der Spiegel had already given her the answer.

There was a faint roar in his ears.

As far as the eye can see, in the clear sky, a silver-white plane is rushing into the clouds.

In the cabin, Minglou leaned on the back of the soft sofa.His face was as pale as paper, his body trembled slightly, and he tried his best to restrain all kinds of discomfort.The nerves that had been tense were finally relaxed.

Stretching her hand into her pocket, she took out the things she had secretly stuffed in when she was parting, unfolded——

A sparkling platinum wedding ring lay quietly in the middle of a handkerchief embroidered with lotus flowers on both sides.

Minglou's hands slowly tightened, and his long and deep eyes looked through the window, as if seeing the sky far, far away.

"On the day of victory, Man Chun, I will come back to marry you."

sorry Sorry--

Lied to you one last time.

"This is the last one."

Green injection, pushed slowly into the vein.

"How long can you hide from her?"

"A long time. As long as you don't reveal your secrets."

"Your family..."

"Ah Cheng knew it earlier. I will persuade my eldest sister to cooperate."

"Zurich is not the end of the world!"

"There is a lot of war in Europe. Although Switzerland is neutral, it is fighting on all sides. It is reasonable to be unable to contact for a while."

"Don't forget what she does! She will keep looking, keep looking..."

"Look for it. As long as you can't find it, there is still hope."

hope.

This was the last thing he could do for her.

"On the day of victory, Man Chun, I will come back to marry you."

"it is good."

Finish