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The school bell rang, and the students rushed out of the teaching building and rushed to the cafeteria—except Li Yurong.

He saw his grandmother sitting downstairs in the dormitory and his classmate Qiu Ning from a long distance away, so he couldn't help but frowned and walked forward.

"Why are you here again?" Li Yurong asked coldly.

Qiu Ning shuddered suddenly, then turned around guiltily.

The old lady stood up suddenly from the wicker chair, and called out happily: "Rongrong."

After shouting, the old lady seemed to suddenly realize that her grandson didn't welcome her, so she whispered, "I'll bring you something to eat."

Li Yurong took two steps forward, picked up the food bag in her hand, and said coldly: "You should go, the bus will be crowded late."

"Rongrong, if grandma wants to talk to you, just say a few words." The old lady held Li Yurong's hand reluctantly for her grandson.

"Talk while walking." Li Yurong also took her hand, and forced her to walk towards the school gate.Because of too much strength, the old lady staggered a bit.

"Li Yurong, your grandma came to see you kindly, so can't you talk to her?" Qiu Ning thought of her grandma, couldn't see it, and helped the old lady talk.

Li Yurong raised his head, revealing his eyes full of sarcasm under his bangs: "You don't know anything, so don't meddle in your own business."

The indifference of the young man borders on meanness.

Qiu Ning frowned, her upbringing prevented her from arguing with her classmates in public, so she had to watch the two go away in the sunset.

The old lady was chatting with Li Yurong all the way, and Li Yurong didn't answer a word, and pulled her straight forward.

As the sun sets, in the cold winter wind, the old lady's hunched back and Li Yurong's back are reflected into two elongated silhouettes by the setting sun.

Qiu Ning hesitated for a while, then walked in the opposite direction to the overcrowded cafeteria.

She has always known that family is not a perfect fairy tale, nor is it an eternal safe haven. Parents will fight coldly, quarrel, and go their separate ways in despair. It is precisely because she knows how precious family love is that she can't bear to see a An old lady who resembles her grandma is treated with indifference by those she loves.

But that's someone else's story after all.

At that time, she had already decided to let this story go lightly, not to open the scars of others under the cover, but since the scars already existed, it would not heal because it was not uncovered.

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The evening self-study in high school lasted until ten o'clock, and it was already the third year of high school. Although the study abroad class did not face the heavy pressure of the college entrance examination like other classes, but in such an atmosphere, everyone was more serious than before.

Qiu Ning finished her homework during evening self-study and previewed tomorrow's lessons. The life assistant arranged for her by her parents suddenly sent her a text message, saying that her parents were arguing at home, and the housekeeper wanted her to persuade them.

Since the grandmother who loved her the most passed away, such things happened more and more frequently, three times in just half a year.Thinking of her grandma who passed away half a year ago in the winter, Qiuning's eyes suddenly felt hot.

Her grandma, very similar to Li Yurong's grandma, is a stooped old lady who believes in Buddhism and likes to buy her all kinds of delicious food.The person who loves her the most in this family is neither her father nor her mother, but her grandma, the only one who gave her unreserved love.

For a moment, Qiu Ning wanted to turn off the phone, let them quarrel forever, and finally divorced immediately.

But in the end, she will still fulfill her duty as a good daughter, and she knows she will do so, because the education she has received since she was a child does not allow her to let go of her burden at this time.She didn't know how long she could bear it, maybe one day, she would leave this repressive family and look for her own life.

Qiu Ning asked the teacher for leave during the evening self-study break, and walked towards the back door of the school, where the driver's car would be waiting for her soon.

The back door of the school is very low, and the uncle in charge of the door has already returned to the small room next to the door. The curtains are drawn, but there is no light on, and he may have fallen asleep.

Qiu Ning stopped in her tracks, took off her schoolbag, took out her wallet from it, took out a [-]-yuan Renminbi as a tip, folded it and held it in her hand, and then walked to the door of the hut to knock.

A familiar voice suddenly came from the shadow behind him, getting closer and closer. The person seemed to be on the phone, and the voice was gently blown to Qiu Ning's ear by the summer night wind.

"Grandpa, um... I know, I was studying by myself last night."

It's Li Yurong!This guy ran away from his evening self-study again and wanted to climb over the wall and go to an Internet cafe.

I don't know why, at this moment Qiu Ning subconsciously dodges into the shadow behind the guard's house, not wanting Li Yurong to see her.

"...No, I don't want to go to England, I plan to go to America." Li Yurong walked to the back door while answering the phone.

"It's because he is in the UK, so I don't want to go. Anyway, he has a new wife now, oh, he seems to have given birth to a daughter, why should I disturb the happy life of their family of three? Respond to him, ha ha." The young man smiled mockingly.

Qiu Ning immediately understood what he was talking about—Li Yurong's father was in England, and he remarried and gave birth to a daughter.Li Yurong's grandfather wanted him to apply to a British university so that his father could take care of him, but he didn't want to have anything to do with his father.

"That's it, Grandpa, I have class later, let's talk about it next time, you pay attention to your body... and grandma." Li Yurong was about to hang up the phone.

The person on the other end of the phone seemed to say something, Li Yurong stopped suddenly: "I didn't do anything to her! It was her who did something to me! Our canteen is very good, don't send me any more food, I don't lack food Yes! Now I just want to ask her to stop talking about her mother. My mother has been dead for so many years. Please let her let her go, and let me go! She is already crazy, and I am about to be driven crazy by her! Those things are not my fault!"

After hanging up the phone, Li Yurong stood by the door and didn't speak for a long time.

The straight-line distance between the two was less than five meters. If it wasn't for the dim light, Li Yurong would have been able to see her. Qiu Ning took another step back, hiding herself in a deeper shadow, but stepped on a plastic bag on the ground , made a rustling sound.

"Who's there?" Li Yurong immediately heard the movement and asked in a low voice.

Qiu Ning knew she couldn't hide it, so she replied, "It's me."

At the back gate of the campus at night, the street lights were off, only the faint light from the street lights on the road outside the school gate illuminated the figures of the boy and the girl.

Li Yurong looked at her coldly, as if thinking about how much she had heard.

"I won't say anything about you." Qiu Ning said first.

"It doesn't matter." Li Yurong said indifferently.

"Are you going to skip class again?" Qiu Ning asked.

"Oh, Miss Ye Qiuning is going to meddle in her own business again? Why don't you tell me why you are here? Do you want to skip class too?" Li Yurong asked with a mocking smile.

"My teacher and I asked for leave," Qiu Ning said.

"It has nothing to do with me, just don't bother me." Li Yurong said, walked to the railing of the wall next to the back door, first threw the schoolbag over, and then stepped on the fence nimbly and turned over.

Seeing that he had turned over, Qiu Ning silently walked outside the guard's room and knocked on the door: "Master, are you there? Please open the door for me."

There was no response from inside the door, I wonder if he fell asleep.

Li Yurong's taunting voice came from outside the school gate: "It's a waste of time. He often goes out to drink at night, and I don't know where he is now. You can either climb over the wall, or stay in school and obediently attend self-study classes."

Over the wall?

Qiu Ning had never done such an outrageous thing before.

Probably seeing Qiu Ning's hesitation at this time, Li Yurong hooked the corner of his mouth: "I'm sorry you don't have the guts, miss."

"It has nothing to do with guts. I don't need to risk breaking my leg to climb over the wall. I can call the teacher and someone will answer the door." Qiu Ning said lightly.

"Things that can be done in one minute, if you insist on delaying for half an hour, then just wait here obediently." Li Yurong sneered and was about to leave.

Seeing that Li Yurong was about to leave, Qiu Ning suddenly couldn't just watch him leave like this.

Six months ago, she would have chosen to remain silent, but half a year later, with the death of her grandma, she suddenly could no longer remain silent.

"Li Yurong, your grandma was very kind to you, and my grandma used to be so kind to me too, but she has passed away...I regret it, regretting that I didn't spend more time with her when she was still around." Qiu Ning stepped forward, Loudly said to Li Yurong, "When you leave the country, you won't come back once a year. She will grow old slowly. When you see each other, you will lose one side. Cherish the time now and treat her better."

Li Yurong stopped in his tracks. He turned around with a sneer and asked the girl behind the school gate: "What do you know? Do you know her? Do you know me? You don't know anything, but here are some great principles. Is it interesting?"

"I don't know, but people's feelings are similar and interlinked. She comes to see you again and again, even if you dislike her, she still comes because she loves you!"

Li Yurong laughed out loud as if he had heard a big joke, Qingjun's face was full of sarcasm.

The lights on the side of the road outside the school gate illuminated his brows and eyes, and Qiu Ning actually saw the flickering tears in his eyes.

"No, you're wrong, she hates me." At this moment, Li Yurong suddenly tore open the wound on his body, and showed her everything naked, "Because my mother died to save me!"

That's right.Qiu Ning recalled the old lady's sentence "I don't blame Rong Rong", and everything became clear.

"She loves me because I am the only continuation of her mother's life. She needs 1 reasons to love me and forgive me. But to hate me, she only needs one reason. I killed her only daughter!" The smile on Li Yurong's face gradually became indifferent and sharp. He suddenly broke out and asked hysterically, "She's gone crazy! Do you know how it feels to be cursed viciously a thousand times and ten thousand times? It's like this when she goes crazy She only loves me a little, but hates me so much. OK, I accept, I confess, I try to atone. But one day I won't care, I just want to get out of here and live my own life, it's ok huh, miss?"

This passage was filled with his vaguely crying accusations.After speaking, Li Yurong turned and left.

"Li Yurong, she told me that she doesn't blame you!" Qiu Ning ran to the fence and shouted to Li Yurong.

The boy turned his head and showed her a distorted smile: "I don't blame her, I just owe her."

Everyone makes mistakes, but no one should take full responsibility for it.The one who scolded the mother was the grandmother, the one who ran away with the child was the mother, the one who lost the toy and ran to the middle of the road was him, and the one who caused the accident was the drunk driving truck driver.

No one knows that all kinds of accidents will eventually brew such a tragedy.

Thirteen years have passed, and this wound still lingers in his heart, as well as in grandma's heart, and no one heals.Maybe they will spend their whole life waiting for time to heal this wound.

At this moment, Li Yurong just wants to escape from the suffocating environment, and he wants to have a new life.

The author has something to say: When the boss was in adolescence, he was a boy with a relatively explosive personality.

Escaping from his family was not his original intention, but his desire for home and family.On the contrary, running away from the family is the alienated form of his emphasis on the family. Because of the importance, he is disappointed with the status quo and tries to escape from the family that is gradually collapsing, thinking that this will fix everything and stop suffering from it.

But he always comes back because he cares.

Time will smooth out the edges and corners of youth, but as long as the original intention remains unchanged, a person will be a youth until death.