Two trees make a forest

Pingzhou is a small city in the southwest.Because it is surrounded by high mountains, the wars many years ago did not have much impact on it.It is lined with trees and the folk customs are simple, like a beautiful back garden, isolated from the hustle and bustle of the outside world, quietly located at the foot of Qingping Mountain, where people live a leisurely life with wild clouds and wild cranes.The new wind of the era of reform and opening up has not blown into this nice small city surrounded by mountains.Naturally, the rapid development of coastal cities is a bit far away from it.However, due to its geographical advantages, the government still introduced many factories of state-owned enterprises, embellishing the dense mountains more vividly, and injecting some fresh blood into the peaceful place of Pingzhou.

On January 1985, 1, the snow did not fall, and there was still some snow left in the loess-filled yard, and the cabbages in the garden were almost eaten up. squeezed out.I heard from those aunts that my arrival originally drew cheers from the whole family, but when she saw me below, the grandma who shouted the happiest suddenly shut her mouth, sat on a chair with a displeased face, and looked at me with angry eyes. My dad looked.My dad scratched the back of his head, took me from the midwife, and said with a smile: "It's okay, it's the first one, and I'll be the next one." Rolled out of the eyes, the point is that he didn't dare to make a sound, and quietly wiped his tears under the quilt.

Grandma looked angrily at my new father, who was still happily hugging me around, tilted his body on the chair, and said: "I hope she can bring more brothers to our Lin family."

My dad, who was in the midst of joy, took advantage of the situation and said: "Yes, bring more younger brothers. Bring more. Mom," my dad looked excitedly at grandma in a flash of inspiration, "Why don't you call her Lin Duoduo. "In this way, before I opened my eyes, I was given the ordinary name of Lin Duoduo.

My dad's name is Lin Dajian, he has been to school, and he has a desire to learn, so when the state-owned enterprises began to close factories in Pingzhou, my dad was recruited as a worker by the second factory because of his outstanding ability.Most of the workers in the factory are from Shanghai.With that appearance, everyone is arrogant; with that temperament, you can stir up a gust of wind when you walk; with that attitude, everyone is unwilling to deal with the locals.Relying on his intelligence, hard work, and no regrets, my dad won the favor of his master with his sincerity and taught him many professional skills.My dad went from an ordinary worker to a skilled worker step by step steadily, and his status in the factory was also rising steadily.When the house was allocated in the factory, my dad got a three-bedroom and one living room that was close to the factory and had a lot of square footage.At the time, my family was in the limelight.What made my dad even more happy was that after my family moved into a new house, my mother was pregnant again, and she was so happy that she finally added a new baby to the Lin family. Grandma named her Tianen herself, which means He is a gift from heaven to the Lin family.Although I saw Lin Tianen in the cradle being so stupid, I was still happy, because my mother could finally stand up straight and be a man, and she no longer had to whisper in front of grandma, submissive, for fear of saying the wrong thing or doing the wrong thing.Grandma even hugged Tianen all day long and never let go, saying the same thing in her mouth: "The Lin family finally has a descendant."

Although I was only four years old at that time, I couldn't understand the words between adults, but from their expressions, I still understood that grandma, my mother, and my father liked my younger brother more than me, the red, wrinkled little guy.Seeing that everyone was happy in the room, I moved out a small stool and sat on the balcony overlooking the yard below.The friends in the yard envy my family to live on the top, saying that the higher the place, the happier they live, but I don’t feel any happiness at all.The autumn wind is getting cold, I tightened my collar, unabashedly envious of the children in the yard, I don't have to guard my brother, I can play as much as I want, and I can cry and cry.

"Duo Duo," it was Grandma's voice, "Go and take out the trash."

I sighed. Since I had God's grace, my house's trash has been taken out several times a day.As long as I am at home, grandma will start calling me.I walked into the room weakly, and saw Aunt Liu downstairs came to visit Tian En, and kept praising him for being cute.I pursed my lips, muttering in my heart that I don't know how their eyes grow, such an ugly kid is so cute.I quickly picked up the trash can, and without looking, I knew who the culprit of the strong stench was just by smelling it.Holding my nose, I hurried downstairs.My family lives on the fourth floor, and there are only two families on this floor.There are four families from the first floor to the third floor.The deputy factory manager lives on the fifth floor.Every time I climbed up and down, I prayed that when my house could be moved to the first floor, there was not enough room, and at worst I would sleep on Tianen’s small bed.It's a pity that I am the only one who has sprouted such awareness in my family.

"Duoduo, Duoduo, won't you come and play with us?" It was Zhang Xiaoman who lived on the first floor who spoke.She was born petite, with two braids swinging back and forth very cutely.Since I moved into this building, I have been closer to her, probably because she shares the same surname as my mother, and my mother is also Zhang, named Zhang Xiaohong.

I was holding the stinking garbage in my hand, wondering if I should get closer to her.Li Shuang, who danced rubber bands with Zhang Xiaoman, spoke first: "Her family just added a little brother, so of course I have to go back and take care of him." Li Shuang also lived on the first floor. Her father used to share a workshop with mine, maybe it was Because of the jealousy that people often say, they have some opinions on my family, and even Li Shuang doesn't like me.She didn't want to see me, and I naturally didn't want her either. Holding the trash can, I raised my proud head and walked towards the trash dump as if I didn't bother to play with them.The others saw how arrogant I was, so naturally they didn't say anything, they just urged Zhang Xiaoman to jump quickly.

After I took out the garbage, I continued to look up and went upstairs without looking at them. I was afraid that they would see that I was faking it, so I rushed home in two or three steps.When I entered the door, I saw that Aunt Liu was still there, and she was hugging Tian En. My grandma was staring at Tian En, for fear that he would fall.Think about it, all day today, my grandma didn't look at me directly, and my heart felt sore, I put down the trash can and sat back on the small bench on the balcony in a fit of anger.My family didn't love me, my friends didn't want me, and my two tears couldn't hold back my eyes.I saw my dad come back with two bags talking and laughing with Uncle Liu.I seemed to have found another glimmer of hope. I wiped away my tears with a wipe of my sleeve, and stood on the balcony, looking forward to my dad's figure at the corner.Sure enough, after a while, I saw my dad, I walked over excitedly, obediently took the plastic bag from his hand, and followed him into the house.Unexpectedly, my dad, like everyone else, directly regarded me as air, and when he saw Tianen, he couldn't wait to hug him.I was so angry that I put the bag on the table and ran into my mother's room.A new cotton handkerchief appeared in the bag, which was most suitable for Tian En as a diaper.

After giving birth to Tian En, my mother's health became worse and worse. She was lying on the bed all the time. Seeing how wronged I was, she called me over, touched my little face, and whispered softly: "What's the matter? Who is it?" Bullied you?"

Finally someone was willing to care about me, and I immediately threw myself into my mother's arms and cried, "You guys don't want me anymore because of the grace of God."

My mother hugged me and comforted my hurt little heart with her unique gentle tone: "Duo Duo is so sensible, how could we not love you anymore. It's just that my younger brother is still young and needs more care from us. You should know Duo Duo When you were young, your father also loved you so much." I looked at my mother with big watery eyes, a little suspicious.My mother stroked my hair again, and said with a smile, "Really. Duoduo is like Tianen, we all love it." After taking this reassurance pill from my mother, I stopped my tears.It's just that I didn't expect that this reassurance pill disappeared after I kept it in my heart for more than a month.

My mother's mourning hall is located in the yard. That day I also moved a small stool and sat on the balcony. Looking down from above, I saw people coming and going, and it was very lively.My mother is gone, some of us are crying, some are laughing, some are making trouble, and some are sleeping.I don't know what should I do.Everyone told me that my mother just left and went to another place. I can't go to that place now, so I can only sit on the lonely balcony, sitting alone on a single stool, overlooking the downstairs All living beings.

During the period, Zhang Xiaoman came to me, frowned her pair of eyebrows that were not thick and said to me: "Lin Duoduo, don't be afraid, there is me." I just nodded without saying anything.Then Zhang Xiaoman squatted beside me and pointed to a white cloud floating in the sky, pretending to be an adult, and said to me: "My mother said, your mother just went up there. It's raining, that means Your mother is crying, when the sun is shining, it is your mother who is laughing."

I thought about it, and asked a lot: "What if a rainbow is hung?" I looked at Zhang Xiaoman, she looked melancholy, and didn't know how to answer me.I just asked myself and answered, so as not to embarrass her: "I guess, my mother is missing me. I hope I can find her through the Rainbow Bridge."

After listening to my explanation, Zhang Xiaoman kept nodding: "Yes, yes." Then she looked at me blankly again, "Then how do you walk up?" This question is a bit difficult, I tilted my head and looked at The cloud drifted away.The answer to this question was not figured out until Zhang Xiaoman's legs were sore from squatting, so we stopped bothering.Because Zhang Xiaoman's mother called her downstairs to eat.

Not long after, I heard Tianen's crying again in the room.I walked in dejectedly, and reprimanded Tianen who was shaking hands and feet: "It is because of you that my mother went to the sky. If you cry again, be careful that I will throw you down." I didn't expect such a fierce warning from me. He didn't frighten Tian En, or was overly frightened, and his cries became louder and louder.That hissing appearance suddenly reminded me of my mother smiling gently at me and waving at me. I couldn't help it, and I started crying too.

Not long after, I watched the thin grandma quickly pick up Tianen and coax Tianen, but she scolded me sharply, blaming me for making my younger brother cry, blaming me for being ignorant in such a situation, and blaming me for being a loser.I stood on the side and kept wiping my tears. The tears fell into the dirty clothes and fell on the cold concrete floor like a dam that opened the gate.The more I cried, the more uncomfortable I became.Because I cried, there is no longer that warm embrace that I can throw myself into, and I no longer feel lonely.

On September 1986, 9, my mother gave birth to me in the exclusive ward of Shanghai First Hospital.My name is Mu Xizi.According to my brother, I was carried out of the ward, and my father, grandparents, and grandparents rushed to hug me. My brother could only step on his feet to see what my little sister looks like.My grandfather works in the military region, my grandmother is a university professor, my grandfather is an old doctor in the first hospital, and my grandmother is a teacher of traditional Chinese painting.After my dad came back from the army, he worked in a state-owned enterprise in xx.Like my grandmother, my mother likes to draw, but my mother studied oil painting and worked as an art teacher in college.When I was born, my elder brother was already seven years old. He was the monitor of the class. He could play the piano and draw pictures well, and was loved by all the teachers.I am the little princess of my family. I have been held in the palm of everyone's hands since I was a child, and I will not be wronged in the slightest.But family doting on me doesn't mean I can be arrogant. I have to face the wall and think about my mistakes like my brother when I make a mistake.After I started babbling, my grandparents began to teach me Tang poetry and Song Ci, while my grandma held my little hand to draw, and my brother also acted as a little teacher to teach me.It may be that I cooperated too well. Everyone thought that I was smart and a child could be taught, so they taught me even more out of hand.Instead, my mother was a little estranged from me.So much so that my mother and my father filed for divorce, and everyone suddenly realized that the cracks in the family had reached the point where they could not be exchanged.According to my mother, I blamed my father for focusing on work, which made her feel lonely in her heart, so that a certain person approached her heart like a spring breeze and spring rain.The emotional entanglement between the two of them was divided, but this division made my grandpa and grandma angry, and I couldn't hold my breath. Grandma passed away not long after, and grandpa was also seriously ill in bed.My mother never mentioned divorce again.I was only three years old at the time, so naturally I couldn't remember these things, but I could feel that the house was no longer lively and the gloomy atmosphere was somewhat dignified.

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