In the Same Boat

Yao Zhan suddenly felt that he might have been a little too lucky. Obviously, he did not do a good job, which made his family and loved ones wronged, but in turn, Qu Yiheng took the initiative to comfort him.

Yao Zhan said, "Sorry, I broke my promise."

What he meant was that when he got along with Qu Yiheng, even if he hadn't confirmed the relationship yet, he should come out as soon as possible. What's more, this time his mother met Qu Yiheng directly, and in such an embarrassing situation, he really shouldn't .

But this sentence turned into another meaning in Qu Yiheng's ears, he thought Yao Zhan had given up on him.

"I'm sorry, I broke my promise", seven words, turned into seven knives, bit by bit to peel his skin and bones, he felt pain, pain everywhere, standing in the living room, his fingers were burned by the smoke.

"Yiheng, did you scare you today?" Yao Zhan didn't realize that the other party had misunderstood, rubbing his eyebrows, and said helplessly, "I'm really sorry, but I will deal with it as soon as possible."

"It's okay." Qu Yiheng said, "I respect your decision."

Yao Zhan smiled: "Thank you."

Both of them were silent, but their moods were completely different. Qu Yiheng threw away his cigarette butt because his finger was burned, and the cigarette butt that was not extinguished fell on the floor, burning a hole in the newly bought carpet.

The smell floated into Qu Yiheng's nose, he looked down, but was indifferent, just watched.

"You haven't slept yet?" Yao Zhan asked, "Is it because of me?"

Qu Yiheng didn't know what to say, he was more sad than angry and disappointed.

He said to himself, it's okay, aren't you already used to Qu Yiheng?Because of the same reason, I have been abandoned twice, once as a stranger and secondly as an acquaintance, this is the third time, what are you afraid of?

"I'm going to sleep," he said.

When he spoke, his voice trembled, and tears still fell out as soon as he spoke.

Qu Yiheng felt that he had cried too much in the past few years. It was embarrassing for a man in his 30s, but he couldn't control it. No matter how he tried to explain himself, he was still very sad.

He thought that Yao Zhan was different, but he didn't expect that everyone is the same.

Qu Yiheng thought: My fault is my fault. It is my own problem from beginning to end. I should not pin my hopes on others.

"Are you crying?" When Yao Zhan suddenly realized this problem, his heart ached. Qu Yiheng was already sensitive, and he had an unpleasant experience in this area before. He should have thought that the other party would not be better than him, "Yiheng , I'm fine here, I'll take care of it soon, don't worry."

"I'm not worried." Qu Yiheng said, "But, I hope you don't become the kind of person you hate."

Yao Zhan couldn't understand his words: "What do you mean? What's wrong with you?"

"Yao Zhan," Qu Yiheng raised his face, trying to hold back the tears, but the tears flowed down the corners of his eyes all the way to his neck, and he said, "I was looking forward to you so much, I thought I finally escaped that..."

He paused, and finally said: "But it's not all your fault, but I hope, I sincerely advise you, I don't have to be with you, but I don't want you to be the most shameful That kind of person."

"Ah?" Yao Zhan was completely taken aback, "What kind of person?"

"Cheat marriage." Qu Yiheng said, "I didn't say this because I can't be with you anymore, I just think that we can't harm others or ourselves."

Yao Zhan was silent for a long time, and finally realized that Qu Yiheng might have misunderstood him.

He smiled wryly and said, "What are you talking about? Whom am I lying to? Are you lying to me? I think Ming Mei is marrying, do you want to marry me?"

Qu Yiheng was stunned, and forgot to shed tears.

"You are at home?"

"Ah."

"Wait for me," Yao Zhan said, "don't cry. Although you look good when you cry, don't cry."

It was almost five o'clock when Qu Yiheng opened the door, and he hadn't slept all night. Yao Zhan looked miserable just like him.

"You shouldn't have come," he said.

Yao Zhan squeezed through the door, hugged him, and buried his face in Qu Yiheng's neck.

"I'm here to find some courage and strength," Yao Zhan said. "My mother is not easy to deal with. If you don't let me charge, I will be tortured to death by her."

Qu Yiheng hadn't recovered from the emotion just now, the tip of his nose was red, his eyes were red, like a rabbit with a cold.

He patted Yao Zhan and said, "So, what do you mean?"

"You may be really stupid," Yao Zhan said, "Did you misunderstand something? Why should I cheat on marriage?"

"Didn't you say that, you broke your promise."

Yao Zhan suddenly realized, and sighed, "Stupid, have you eaten away our tacit understanding?"

"what?"

"I mean," Yao Zhan kissed his ear, and said softly, "I'm sorry for you, because I've been in too sweet a relationship with you recently, and I forgot about coming out of the closet."

There is nothing more reassuring tonight's Qu Yiheng than this sentence, he really thought that he and Yao Zhan had reached the end before it even started.

"Sorry, I misunderstood."

Yao Zhan smiled: "You didn't refute me."

"Rebut what?"

Yao Zhan let go of him and stood up straight in front of him. After the two looked at each other, they stepped forward and kissed Qu Yiheng's lips.

After the kiss, Yao Zhan licked the corner of the other's mouth, and said, "I just said that we are in love."

Qu Yiheng's eyes flickered, and he lowered his head slightly.

"You like me too, right?" Yao Zhan gently squeezed Qu Yiheng's chin, forcing him to look at him, "Do you love me?"

Qu Yiheng looked at him, and after a few seconds of silence, he said, "Yes."

At five o'clock in the morning in the autumn, before the sky was fully lit, Yao Zhan hugged each other tightly and held him tightly in his arms.

None of them spoke, and each other's hearts were beating like thunder. Qu Yiheng felt the reaction of Yao Zhan's body. While stroking each other, he asked, "Are you in a hurry to go back?"

Although he felt very guilty, Qu Yiheng wanted it.

Two people, from the door to the bedroom, the clothes scattered all over the floor declared their desire for each other.

Qu Yiheng thought it was amazing, he had never been so greedy for someone's kiss, he and Yao Zhan started with sex, but in sex, he found the sweetness of love.

Before this early morning, they had done it many times, used many postures, and even got familiar with each other's most sensitive parts. Every time they did it in the past, it was only about the flesh/body. In the early morning, they are more satisfied.

On the big bed in the bedroom, the two men made the furniture in the room blush with shame. The moon and the sun took over, and they whispered to each other during the transition, gossiping about the two for a while.

Qu Yiheng was led by Yao Zhan, climbed to the clouds and then dived into the bottom of the water. He felt drunk for a while, and drowned for a while. He uttered a cry for help, but soon, this voice was covered by another voice, which came from his body And the deepest part of the soul, set off against Yao Zhan's breathing, forming a lingering symphony.

When sex and love are perfectly integrated, life is the happiest.

Yao Zhan left after seven o'clock, he had to go back and see his mother.

Qu Yiheng didn't keep him, but advised him to be more patient and take his time.

Qu Yiheng's only family member now is Dou Yucong. He himself does not feel the pressure to come out, but he understands that for most people, no matter what it is, what everyone desires most is the support of their family members.

In a relationship, if the family members never approve, then the possibility of the relationship ending in tragedy is very high, because there is always something lying there, which makes the two people's hearts always unable to be happy.

Family, lover, are all very important parts of life, and it would be a pity to lose any of them.

After Yao Zhan left, Qu Yiheng went into the bathroom to take a shower. He looked at himself in the mirror and found that there were many hickey marks on his body. He poked it with his fingers with a smile and liked it very much.

While taking a bath, Qu Yiheng thought, let these hickey marks never fade away, let them always follow me and become the eternal mark of my life.

His mother was already sitting on the sofa when Yao Zhan came home.

"Why didn't you sleep a little longer?" He lay down at four o'clock and got up at seven o'clock, and Yao Zhan reckoned that his mother hadn't slept at all.

"Where have you been?"

He walked over and took a glass of warm water for his mother: "Mom, let's have a good chat."

Last night, his mother kept crying and scolding. She was in such a bad mood that she couldn't talk at all. Now she is much better, at least she is willing to sit down.

"Talk." Yao Zhan's mother picked up the glass and drank the water, "Did you go to see him?"

Yao Zhan said in his heart, you are still smart.

"Yes." He really wanted to do it step by step, but now it's like this, so he can only say one thing, "Mom, I have always been gay, and I have kept it from you for so many years, I'm sorry."

Yao Zhan's mother burst into tears when she heard her son's words. It was the first time in more than 30 years that his son said sorry to her so seriously, but it was unexpectedly because of this.

"Why?" His mother asked, "There are so many good girls, why do you have to find a boy?"

"It's not that I have to find a man." Yao Zhan said, "Oh, it's right to say that I have to find a man. I really can't help it. I only like men."

Yao Zhan took another glass of water and put it on the coffee table for her: "I know you won't be able to accept it or understand it for a while, so let's take it slowly? Homosexuality is not a problem, just like heterosexuality, there are many reasons I won't tell you, you all understand that I wanted to hide it from you for a few more years, but you saw it last night, and I found my lover."

"Just that guy?" Yao Zhan's mother cried with tears all over her face. She really never thought that her son would be gay. There was no sign of it. How could he be gay?She couldn't figure it out.

"Did he provoke you?" Yao Zhan's mother asked, "He hooked you up? Did he lead you astray?"

Yao Zhan smiled helplessly and said, "To tell you the truth, if you have to say who misled someone, it might be that I misled him."

"Don't talk nonsense!"

"I'm not talking nonsense." Yao Zhan restrained his smile, and said to his mother very seriously, "We are classmates in middle school. When I was in the third year of high school, I dragged him to have sex with me. Mom, tell me, who brought the two of us together?" Who was wronged?"