In the Same Boat

Qu Yiheng liked to hear Yao Zhan say such things, but he was afraid that the other party would say them.

Human beings are so contradictory, just like Yao Zhan said about love, he wants to reach out and hold it, but he is afraid of losing it in the future, so he will add a scar to himself for nothing.

Yao Zhan said, "Then am I your first love?"

Qu Yiheng looked at him: "Let's go, we're going back."

He avoided talking about it, and Yao Zhan was not angry, so he followed him with a smile on his face, and held his hand as soon as he got into the elevator.

"I have to go back in a few days." Qu Yiheng said, "Before I agreed to the teacher's application to participate in an art exhibition, I must get ready."

When he said he was going back, Yao Zhan held his hand tightly.

"When are you going to leave?" Yao Zhan asked.

Qu Yiheng thought for a while: "The day after tomorrow."

"So suddenly?"

The elevator door opened, Qu Yiheng walked out, but Yao Zhan stood still.

Qu Yiheng pulled him out: "I also have my own affairs, I can't always rely on you."

Yao Zhan didn't speak, his heart was like a sponge, it was filled with water at first, and then it was squeezed dry again.

Originally, he thought that Qu Yiheng could stay here until after the [-]th holiday, but he didn't expect that this person would leave before the holiday came.

"Then..." Yao Zhan opened the door, and the atmosphere suddenly became tense after the two entered the room, "Can't you draw here?"

Qu Yiheng laughed when he asked, "You don't have anything at home, how can I draw?"

Yao Zhan felt that he was asking a ridiculous question, let go of Qu Yiheng's hand, and went to the balcony to smoke by himself.

"We are too far away." Qu Yiheng walked to him and took his cigarette over to smoke, "Otherwise I could come to you with a drawing board to draw."

Yao Zhan looked at him in surprise, then smiled.

No matter whether Qu Yiheng was telling the truth or just trying to comfort him, he felt much more at ease.

"It's too far." Qu Yiheng said, "1353 kilometers."

Yao Zhan can be sure that Qu Yiheng loves him, but he just refuses to admit it.

At night when they lay under the quilt, he kissed each other's shoulders and said to him, "Why are you hiding so many things from me?"

Actually not much, Qu Yiheng knew it, but he didn't want to say it.

Yao Zhan said that he is mysterious, and mystery is often the catalyst of love. Once the mystery is lifted, you will find that it is actually very boring inside, and the love will soon fall apart.

Qu Yiheng felt Yao Zhan's fingers stroking his tattoo, and he said, "It's all unimportant things, there's no need to mention them."

"Isn't it important?" Yao Zhan said, "But you have them all tattooed on your body."

There was a time when Qu Yiheng liked to record all his experiences in some form. At first it was painting, and later it was tattooing.

He felt that even if some experiences were not pleasant, he had walked through them step by step, and tattooed them on his body, like a medal given to him by fate, always reminding himself of everything to be grateful for and remembering not to make stupid mistakes again.

"It's a date," he said, pointing to a tattoo just below his collarbone.

Yao Zhan looked at that place, a string of numbers, of course he knew it was the date, since the first time he saw it, he had guessed countless times what that date meant to Qu Yiheng.

"Anniversary?" he asked.

"Yeah." Qu Yiheng said, "The day I won the award for the first time."

This is a pleasant experience, and it is a memory that has supported him for a long time.

Yao Zhan stroked the inconspicuous string of black numbers with his fingers, and said, "That year you were a freshman."

"Yes, not long after I started college, I was the teacher's baby at that time." Qu Yiheng smiled and said, "I was very excited when I won the award. I felt that I was about to become a well-known artist. It was very meaningful, so I went to get this date tattoo, which is my first tattoo."

He smiled, and Yao Zhan looked at him and smiled.

"What about the second one?"

Qu Yiheng leaned forward and kissed him, but didn't answer.

The two fell asleep, or rather, closed their eyes and pretended to sleep.

Qu Yiheng has five tattoos on his body, today is the first time he told Yao Zhan about their origins, and he only told one.

He remembered the story of "One Thousand and One Nights". In order to survive, the girl told the story to the cruel king every night, and she couldn't finish it at one time, to whet her appetite. Later, the king couldn't do without her.

Qu Yiheng hid in Yao Zhan's arms and laughed. He suddenly wanted to try to see if the story he told had such a magical effect.

Yao Zhan told him more than once that he loves him, but love is not just words. To make him believe and be willing to accept, they need mutual trust and dependence.

Obviously, they still don't know each other now.

Qu Yiheng is just an ordinary person, and he is also greedy for tenderness. He has reasons why he can't accept Yao Zhan, but he also has his own plans.

Qu Yiheng left as soon as he said, no matter how reluctant Yao Zhan was, he still didn't seem to miss it.

"Then when will you come again?" Yao Zhan frowned as he sent him to the airport, extremely irritable.

Originally thought that they had a long "holiday", but unexpectedly, Qu Yiheng suddenly announced that the "holiday" was over. After living together for so many days, Yao Zhan really didn't want to imagine the scene where he would be left alone when he went home.

In this way, Qu Yiheng was really ruthless, allowing him to see the beauty of the life of the two of them, and then left without looking back.

Qu Yiheng was afraid of him in middle school, but now it seems that Feng Shui has changed.

"I don't know." Qu Yiheng said, "I have to go all out to prepare my works in the days to come. This exhibition is held every five years, and many people want to try it."

"Then there is always a time limit?" Yao Zhan said, "One month? Two months? Or half a year?"

He didn't think it would work, no matter if it was a month or two months. Although he didn't show much in action, he was indeed pursuing Qu Yiheng.

In other words, I am still thinking about how to pursue it.

"At least three to five months."

Yao Zhan wants to smoke.

Three to five months, if Qu Yiheng didn't see him for such a long time, then it is estimated that the two of them would really have no chance.

He was very irritable, and wanted to tell Qu Yiheng that he should just come here to paint, but he remembered the conversation with Shao Wei before, they had already taken root in their respective cities at their age, so he rashly made such a request or request to Qu Yiheng, In fact, it is too much.

"Okay." Yao Zhan didn't say anything else, but turned on the car stereo.

Qu Yiheng was very surprised because the song was "The Answer Blows in the Wind".

He quickly sank into the song, looked at the rapidly receding scenery outside the car window, and thought of his difficult days.

During that time, if only Yao Zhan was there.

But if they met again at that time, Qu Yiheng probably wouldn't develop any relationship with him.

Everyone at the airport looked in a hurry, Qu Yiheng stood at the security checkpoint and said goodbye to Yao Zhan.

"I'll text you when I get off the plane."

"Call." Yao Zhan said, "If you're not here, at least let me hear your voice."

Qu Yiheng lowered his head and smiled, "Okay."

He turned to leave, but was grabbed by Yao Zhan.

"Wait a minute." Yao Zhan dragged him to the bathroom with big steps and fast speed.

Qu Yiheng followed without knowing why, and was dragged into the toilet cubicle by Yao Zhan.

"There are people outside." Qu Yiheng panicked for the first time, he did not expect Yao Zhan to be so courageous.

"Never mind him." Yao Zhan put his arms around Qu Yiheng, and kissed Qu Yiheng regardless of his struggle.

Qu Yiheng couldn't bear this, so he pushed him away hard.

"Yao Zhan, you can't do this."

Yao Zhan sighed and rubbed his aching temple: "You think too much, I just want to kiss you."

He said, "I won't do it here with you, but I just can't bear the thought of you leaving."

Qu Yiheng looked at him, but the other didn't look at him, but turned around to touch the cigarette in his pocket.

Suddenly, Qu Yiheng's heart seemed to be filled with something, swollen, like a flower bud suddenly opened, and a butterfly flew out of it.

He smiled, leaned forward, pulled Yao Zhan over, raised his head, and kissed him proactively.

The two kissed for a long time until Qu Yiheng's cheeks were flushed.

They let go of each other, and Qu Yiheng asked, "Is it alright?"

"No." Yao Zhan frowned and said, "But there is no other way."

There is no way, nothing can keep you, I don’t know how long it will take to meet again, and I don’t know how you feel to me when we meet again, I don’t want you to go, I’m greedy for the smell and temperature of your body, but I can’t There is a solution, you must go.

"Let's go." Yao Zhan gave him a hug, and stepped out of the cubicle first.

Qu Yiheng was afraid that someone would look at him strangely after going out, so he waited for a while before going out. When he reached the bathroom door, he found Yao Zhan standing there waiting for him.

"You are welcome to play there when you are free." Qu Yiheng's words were very official, which made Yao Zhan smile wryly.

"Can you change your style?" Yao Zhan asked, "It's just to give me some comfort."

Qu Yiheng looked at him, and suddenly smiled, with a hint of doting in it.

He said, "If I haven't been here for a long time, I hope you can visit me."

Yao Zhan was coaxed to be happy like a child, and took the opportunity to give him a hug: "Okay, let's go."

The last time it was Qu Yiheng who sent Yao Zhan away, this time it was Yao Zhan.

Looking at the back of the other party getting further and further away, Yao Zhan knew for the first time that it was so bad to send someone away.

The phone in his pocket kept vibrating, but he ignored it. His mother called just now, but he was with Qu Yiheng and couldn't answer it, because when he was chatting with his mother, he would inevitably mention his girlfriend.

Yao Zhan felt that coming out had to be put on the agenda.

He promised Qu Yiheng that as long as the other party is willing to be with him, he will immediately confess to his family. The other party has not agreed now, but he has to show sincerity.

Qu Yiheng had already passed the security checkpoint, and there was no one in sight.

Yao Zhan took out his mobile phone, and sure enough, the first thing his mother said was to ask how the vice president's niece was doing on the last blind date.

"I'll go home on the weekend." Yao Zhan said, "We'll talk about it when we go back."

After hanging up the phone, he sent a message to Qu Yiheng, without saying anything else, telling him that he planned to go home on Sunday and come out.

As soon as the message passed, Qu Yiheng called.

"Why so suddenly?"

"Not suddenly." Yao Zhan said, "I have been preparing for more than ten years."

"But before you...you couldn't help yourself?"

"That's at work." Yao Zhan found a coffee shop and sat down, "People at work are noisy, and many things are difficult to handle. Of course, we have to hide it, but at home, I told you that I would come out of the closet. Can’t talk doesn’t count.”

It is impossible for Qu Yiheng not to be moved. This is the first time he met a person who was willing to come out because of him.

He said: "Yao Zhan, why don't you wait a little longer. Parents don't accept this kind of thing. Take your time."