In the Same Boat

Adults say that love is far more difficult than teenagers. They carry too much burden. The word "love" seems simple, but there are always so many stories behind it that people think twice before they dare to say it.

Of course, there are many things that cannot be said.

At their age, it is not the time to dare to love and hate, let alone the time to act recklessly.

Yao Zhan hasn't come out to his family yet, once he reveals it, it will definitely be a bloodbath. In addition, rumors have spread inexplicably at the workplace. The acceptance of homosexuality in this society is not as high as everyone imagines. If they are really together , I can only keep it a secret, and there will be endless troubles.

Yao Zhan is now able to express his feelings to Qu Yiheng, which is already a major breakthrough. He has no other choice, he is afraid that Qu Yiheng will really leave.

A farewell 15 years ago, they missed each other for 15 years.

People always say, how many decades can there be in life, he wants to say, how many 15 years can there be in life.

Fifteen years, that's not fifteen days. They have gone from the high-spirited boyhood to the age when they can't help themselves and speak insincerely. They are in their thirties. If they miss this time again, it will be hard to say when they will meet next time.

Another 15 years?

Yao Zhan doesn't want it.

The world is so big, so many people get lost while walking, and he knows how difficult it is to meet someone he likes.

Yao Zhan can't give up everything for love, he is not so free and easy, but he hopes that Qu Yiheng will give the two a chance, and they will spend the rest of their lives guarding each other's secrets on the edge of the city, which is very good.

"Yao Zhan." Qu Yiheng looked up at him, "But we don't know each other well, you know."

"Not knowing doesn't affect my love for you."

"Affected." Qu Yiheng said, "I'm not a very good person, very boring. You may just think it's good to be with me now, but you won't be able to stand it after a long time. The more you get to know me, the more you will find out about me. It won’t take long for you to regret what you said today.”

"Everyone is the same." Yao Zhan said, "Everyone is not perfect, and I didn't assume that you are a perfect man. I also know that in the future we will get along countless times. Quarreling, maybe two men will fight when they are together, but so what? There are so many couples in the world, there is no such thing as a lifelong harmony and no conflicts. We want to be together, for sure You have to get used to it slowly, accept it slowly, and be tolerant and understanding.”

How could Qu Yiheng not understand these principles, but he still didn't dare to nod.

It's not that the previous unsatisfactory relationship made him no longer believe in love, it's just that he thinks that love is beautiful, but it will go to the end in the end. At that time, it will be very tiring at the end.

He doesn't want to repeat the same mistakes again.

This can probably also be called giving up food because of choking.

"Yao Zhan, I think it's good for us now." Qu Yiheng said, "Don't you think so?"

"Do you think it's okay?" Yao Zhan propped his hands on the sofa, encircling Qu Yiheng, "Your expression and eyes tell me that you don't think this is good."

Qu Yiheng looked at him, and said word by word: "It's true."

Yao Zhan was discouraged, he knew that Qu Yiheng was running away.

"Okay." He stood up, sat back down, drank all the wine, "You are too stubborn."

"You see, my flaws are starting to show."

Yao Zhan was amused by his words: "Did you do it on purpose?"

"No, that's the kind of person I am."

"Whatever you want." Yao Zhan said, "I'm not arguing with you, but between us..."

"Still pao friends." Qu Yiheng said this word in front of Yao Zhan for the first time, "If you think it's okay, go on, if not, I can leave tomorrow."

Yao Zhan felt that he was really going to be mad at him, so he stretched out his hand and pinched his face hard and said, "Okay, I won't suffer."

That night, Yao Zhan became ruthless and made Qu Yiheng beg for mercy.

In fact, he felt that the other party liked him, and Qu Yiheng would not hide it, he had already shown his feet.

Yao Zhan found out, Qu Yiheng has to "grind", anyway, there is no rush, take your time.

Qu Yiheng didn't leave and stayed at Yao Zhan's house, but he talked less than before, and he would not go to Yao Zhan's unit to find him.

On Sunday, Yao Zhan still went to the appointment. He met the niece of the vice president. She was very beautiful and had a good temperament. When he saw him, he smiled and said, "I'm really sorry, but I came here today to talk to you. Make it clear."

Yao Zhan was very surprised, he didn't expect this matter to be resolved more smoothly than he expected.

The girl has a boyfriend abroad, but the boyfriend is several years younger than her and is still studying. Her family thinks that if she waits, the bamboo basket may be empty in the end, so they let the two break up and give her Yao Zhan was introduced.

Yao Zhan was happy when he heard this, and made a friend with the girl, and encouraged her to strive for her true love by the way.

Yao Zhan said: "It's not easy to meet someone who likes each other. There is nothing to be afraid of waiting. As long as the two of you always look in the same direction, you will definitely be able to reach the end together."

The girl looked at him with a smile: "You are so happy because you don't want to go on a blind date with me, right?"

Yao Zhan smiled: "To be honest, it's true."

When I went home that day, Yao Zhan was in a good mood. Qu Yiheng was making soup in the kitchen, and he went straight to put his chin on the other's shoulder.

"solved."

"What?" Qu Yiheng actually knew what he meant and just pretended not to remember.

On Sunday, Qu Yiheng engraved the matter of Yao Zhan going on a blind date in his mind. Ever since the other party went out, he was anxious. He was afraid that he would be swallowed up by anxiety, so he simply went out and bought ribs to make soup.

It's better to find something to do for yourself than to think about it at home.

"The vice president's niece," Yao Zhan said, "is beautiful and a nice person. We will have dinner together when we have a chance."

Qu Yiheng stopped holding the spoon.

"I told her that I have someone I like," Yao Zhan kissed his ear, "Guess who it is?"

"Don't guess." Qu Yiheng avoided him, blushing.

If you don't guess, don't guess, and Yao Zhan doesn't force him, he said take your time, then be patient and boil the frog in warm water.

"Frog." Yao Zhan deliberately teased him, "What kind of soup is this, it smells so good."

"Ah?" Qu Yiheng turned to look at him, "What?"

Yao Zhan leaned on the chair and smiled: "Frog."

"... I don't understand you."

Seeing Qu Yiheng's face full of question marks, Yao Zhan laughed and went to change his clothes.

During the few days Qu Yiheng was here, he was not like a canary who was kept in custody, just waiting for Yao Zhan to come back to make love with him. In addition to cooking for the hard-working Dr. Yao in different ways, he also started to prepare his own food. work.

What to paint and what form to present, his mind is full every day.

Sometimes he would go to the study room and stare at the luo man he drew in a daze, or flip through the books on Yao Zhan's bookshelf.

Dr. Yao has a lot of books, but most of them are professional books, which Qu Yiheng can’t read. The few literature books are new at first glance. They are placed on the small bookshelf at the far end, and they seem to have never been opened. .

Qu Yiheng read them one by one, and sometimes he could capture some inspiration from the book.

He enjoyed the feeling of hiding in this small attic, lying on the soft carpet, put the book aside when he was sleepy, pulled the blanket over the chair, and fell asleep.

Very comfortable, as if mundane chores have been forgotten.

Yao Zhan came back very late most of the time, he was very busy, Qu Yiheng actually felt a little distressed.

One night, Yao Zhan hugged him and sighed. Qu Yiheng asked what was wrong. Yao Zhan said, "A child was sent here with injuries all over his body."

Qu Yiheng didn't continue to ask, but just caressed Yao Zhan's face lightly. Doctors are not easy, they face a lot, bear a lot, and they often have nothing to say when they are tired.

On the weekend, Shao Wei finally saw Qu Yiheng.

He led his son and went directly to Yao Zhan's house. When he entered, Qu Yiheng was washing vegetables, waiting for Yao Zhan to do it.

"Uncle Qu!"

Before Shao Wei could say hello to Qu Yiheng, his son had already hugged Qu Yiheng's leg like a koala.

Qu Yiheng was thin, and was thrown by this little fat man who looked like a steel cannon, and he almost lost his footing.

He wiped his hands with a smile, bent down and picked him up.

"Do you remember me?"

The little fat man circled Qu Yiheng's neck and said, "My dad said you are my godmother."

Shao Wei scratched his head in embarrassment, and said with a hey smile, "Tongyan Wuji, Tongyan Wuji."

Qu Yiheng looked back at Yao Zhan, but Yao Zhan winked at the little fat man triumphantly.

Shao Wei is one of the few friends who knows about Yao Zhan's sexual orientation, and he is also the only one who knows about Yao Zhan's thoughts on Qu Yiheng. During the meal, he didn't say much about the relationship between the two, but just reminiscing about the past with Qu Yiheng and talking about the past. thing.

After chatting like this, Qu Yiheng suddenly realized that in fact, he hadn't paid attention to many things before, and even the names of some classmates did not match his own. After all, it has been 15 years, and he can only remember people who are very important to him.

Shao Wei told Qu Yiheng how many bastard things he did with Yao Zhan back then, fighting, smoking, chasing girls. Of course, Yao Zhan helped Shao Wei chase girls at that time.

"That's my mother." The little fat man ate his face full of oil, "Shao Wei married my mother when he was in middle school."

"Eat yours!" Shao Wei pulled his son's head vigorously, "Don't interrupt the children when adults talk."

Qu Yiheng looked at the child with a smile, and said, "It's so good, the first love can meet the person who will be with you for a lifetime."

Yao Zhan gave him a piece of meat: "Speaking of which, you can define first love for me."

"Huh? What do you mean?" Shao Wei asked.

Yao Zhan said: "First love, does it count as first love when two people fall in love, or does unrequited love or secret love count as first love?"

"I think I have to fall in love." Shao Wei said, "First love, first time in love, is that what it means? When in love, two people have to talk."

"Then what do you think?" Yao Zhan asked Qu Yiheng.

Qu Yiheng looked at him, thought for a while, and replied, "As long as you are in love, it's fine. The first time you are in love, I think it's your first love."

Yao Zhan smiled and nodded.

That night Shao Wei and his son were sent off. They stood downstairs in the community. Yao Zhan pressed Qu Yiheng's shoulder and said, "So, you should be my first love."

Although at that time, I didn't realize it.