Yesterday was like Death

The dazzling light came on suddenly, and I closed my eyes uncomfortably.

Gu Ni stood by the door, looking at me in confusion: "Why don't you turn on the light?"

I sat on the couch with what Tang Li had given me—a sonogram dated last week.

"I'm thinking about something." With my fingertips, I caressed the shadow that had already taken shape. It turned out that I could see the feet and head in four months.

"What are you looking at?" Gu Ni leaned over to take a look, and said "Yo", "Which pregnant woman's sonogram is this, eh, it looks like a daughter." After saying this, she paused for a few seconds, Suddenly recalled.She stared at me in disbelief, pointed to the ultrasound image and said, "Gu Tang, what's going on? Whose is this?"

She must have thought that my style was not right, that I made some girl's belly bigger.

I stared at her, looked at her for a long time, waved the paper in my hand to her and said: "This is the child of me and Xi Zonghe."

She didn't understand. After pondering for a long time, her slender eyebrows raised slightly.

I simply said it all: "He bought test-tube babies made with my sperm, you know that same-sex test-tube babies are now available in California..."

"I know!" Gu Ni bit her lip, folded her arms and began to walk back and forth in front of me, "California has always been open in this area, same-sex reproduction, artificial uterus, three-generation test tubes... can help those who want to have children all over the world. Humans breed the most healthy and perfect embryos. I am a medical professional, how could I not know?! But are you crazy? Selling sperm? Gu Tang, how short of money are you? ”

I understand her irritability and shock. After all, I have experienced this a few hours ago, but I don't accept her accusation: "Who would think that the money is too much? A tube of 100 million, you won't sell it?"

I was still very surprised at that time, there are so many excellent sperm and egg donors, more beautiful than me, higher IQ than me, and there are many people with better genes than me, why Xi Zonghe paid a lot of money to buy my sperm.He also secretly speculated whether he was a fool with a lot of money.

Now I understand, because he just likes me and wants to have a baby with me.

"Not for sale!" Gu Ni yelled at me angrily, "I bought your sperm for 100 million, think that the other party is out of his mind! Who knows what he is going to do?"

I gave her a blank look: "Are you suffering from persecution paranoia? Or is it a paranoia that everyone wants to harm your brother?" I shook the paper, "Now the problem is not why I sell sperm, but the The child's other biological father didn't know that he wanted to be a father."

I told her about the entanglement of this matter, she was stunned for a while, and then sat next to me, and even gave me some science.

"As long as Xi Zonghe decides not to want the child, he can stop the umbilical cord blood supply with a single phone call, and stop the pregnancy within minutes."

What she said was really appalling. I was hesitant about this matter. I didn't know whether to tell Xi Zonghe or how to tell him. Now that I listened to her, I couldn't make up my mind even more.

But there is one thing I am sure of. I looked sideways at Gu Ni and said in a deep voice, "I will never let him do this."

If one day when he recovers his memory and finds that he killed the long-awaited child with his own hands, he will definitely collapse.

That's too cruel...

I looked at the sonogram back and forth, and I couldn't help but think how cute this child would be after birth.

I hope the child's eyes look like Xi Zonghe, his eyes are the most beautiful I have ever seen.

The face shape should be like mine, my face shape is softer, only girls with my face shape will look good...

I was lying on the bed, holding the sonogram up to my eyes with a little moonlight outside the window. I couldn't actually see anything, but I just wanted to see it.I didn't put it down reluctantly until my eyes were sore, and pressed it to my chest.

I have a child now.

I have a child with Xi Zonghe.

I slowly curled up and hugged the piece of paper tightly into my arms.

I love him.I close my eyes.I am not a heartless person.

I told Tang Li that I would try to communicate with Xi Zonghe about the child. If Xi Zonghe really didn't want to raise the child, I would ask him to transfer the custody to me.

Tang Li listened on the phone, and sighed that she had the password of Xi Zonghe's mailbox, so she could handle the reproductive center temporarily, but it would inevitably reveal her secrets after a long time, so let me deal with this matter as soon as possible.

I also wanted to do it as soon as possible, but Xi Zonghe regarded me as an allergen and had already blocked my contact information, and his schedule was so busy, I couldn't find a chance even if I wanted to.

In February, the weather is getting colder. I am about to set off to the warm southern islands to record the first episode of "Big Brand Farmhouse Music". Before leaving, I wanted to talk to Xi Zonghe, so I asked Tang Li about his itinerary and chose him Visit at home one day.

I was still worried about whether I would be able to enter the gate, but when the security guard at Hengyue Villa saw that it was me, he opened the gate and let me in.It may be that Xi Zonghe didn't have time to update the visitor blacklist, they still thought I was a resident here.

I parked the car in front of the gate of Xi Zonghe's house and rang the doorbell.There was light in the house, but no one came to open the door for a long time.

I was not reconciled, so I pressed a dozen times in a row, and the doorbell kept ringing, making it extremely noisy in the silent night.

Finally, the door opened, and a tall figure came out of the room. I thought it was Xi Zonghe at first, but when he got closer, I realized it was Guan Dan.

He walked up to me and talked to me through an iron gate: "Gu Tang, we are having a party inside. Xiaohe is a little drunk and has already fallen asleep."

His meaning was very clear, Xi Zonghe didn't want to see me, so he told me to get lost.

I looked up at the mysterious and quiet building in the dark, and when I glanced at the sun room on the top floor, I suddenly caught a glimpse of a figure.Standing under the hazy moonlight, the man was tall and slender. He had been there since when, and he didn't know how long he had been looking at it.It's just that before I could take a second look, the other party's figure flashed and disappeared in front of my eyes.

"I really have something very important to tell him." I looked away and discussed with Guan Dan, "Is it okay to just say a word?"

Guan Dan shrugged helplessly: "You know his temper, and I can't help it, sorry."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and left, no matter how I called him in the back, he didn't look back.

I grasped the gap of the iron door, tightened my ten fingers little by little, pressed my forehead against the cold metal, and finally let out a long sigh, wishing to expel all the tiredness and stagnation in my heart.

After being powerless, the anger suddenly rose, I shook the iron door violently, made it creak, and then kicked it up.

After doing all this, I stood still for a while, until I was shivered by the cold wind, and then slowly walked to the car.

A few days later, I took Wenwen to fly to the southern island to record a program in a village called "Bailang".

The night before the official recording, everyone stayed in a hotel near the airport.This show is also mysterious enough. Not only is there no news about it to the outside world, but internally it is also unknown which guests each will have.

Sang Qing inquired for a long time, but only found out about a female artist.This news is too tasteless, it doesn't make any difference whether you ask or not.I used to think that he was the most gossip among the agents, and among the gossips, he was the best at leading artists. After this incident, I have to take back this evaluation.

Generally, before recording a program, there will always be a director to check the process. I waited until nine o'clock before the two chief directors came to my door.

As soon as I opened the door and saw the young girl among the two, I was instantly stunned.

I was told before that the two chief directors are young people in their 30s and [-]s, and I don't think there are familiar faces among them.

"you……"

One of the chief directors of the program group turned out to be the girl I rescued on the plane.

I thought about it for a while, no wonder the program team invited me to participate in this variety show, it was to repay my favor and reciprocate.

The girl gave me a sweet smile: "I wanted to thank you personally for a long time, but I never had the chance. Fortunately, you signed this variety show. Let me introduce myself, my name is Jiang Yan, and I am mainly in charge of the screenwriter. This is Cao Xi, in charge of the show. Director of photography."

I maintained an unbelievable, foggy state and shook hands with the two of them.

Although Jiang Yan is young, she is surprisingly sophisticated and speaks very clearly.Cao Xi is older, calm but not dull, he was responsible for producing many word-of-mouth variety shows before, and he is a young director who is rising rapidly.

The two of them combined their swords, and they ambitiously wanted to produce an extraordinary variety show that would shock the world.

"A total of fifteen photographers participated in the shooting, ten of them are responsible for following you when you go out, and the remaining five will remotely obtain directional images through hundreds of cameras pre-arranged on site in the main control room next to the venue. This program will not have too many staff members appearing on the scene, after all we still want to present the most natural state, too many people will make amateurs nervous, which is not conducive to filming."

"This is actually a business program. Everyone needs to have a clear division of labor. The shopkeeper, the waiter, the cook, the cleaning, and the purchaser. We will not pre-set who must be who, but we will tell you that you must do it from it when the time comes. Choose."

"The recording of the first episode usually takes three days and two nights. The only place in the whole house without a camera is the bathroom. Pay attention to this."

After talking about some precautions and program flow, the two got up and said goodbye.

"The last guest should have arrived, we have to re-process with him."

Cao Xi went out first, followed by Jiang Yan.Just as I was about to close the door, she suddenly whispered to me: "Come on!"

I looked into her bright eyes, this girl really regarded me as a lifesaver and wanted to help me.

It's not that she doesn't know my current situation, and it's not that she doesn't know that maybe no one is optimistic about me except her.But she still cheered me on and wished me success.

"Okay." I pursed my lips and nodded slightly.

God is not too dirty, in the wind and rain, at least it gave me some warmth.

The next day, when I got on the bus and went to Bailang Village, the recording of the program started.

Follow the director in the car and ask me what kind of people I hope the guests will be this time.

I thought for a while and said, "Good guy."

The other party was not reconciled to my concise answer, and asked: "Then who do you most want to do the show with?"

Sang Qing gave me training before I came to record the show, saying that this kind of show is always going to be hot and conflicted, and the ordinary and unattractive characters are destined to be disgusted by the audience.After all, variety shows are for entertaining the public, if they fail to entertain everyone, they will become street goods.

I deeply believe that this variety show is the key to my life and death, so I can't rush.

"Xi Zonghe." It wouldn't come true anyway, so I just started talking nonsense, "We were filming together not long ago, it's a good match, and it should be quite interesting to do a variety show with him."

The car stopped at the head of the village, and I dragged my luggage and walked on the trail for 5 minutes before I finally found the farmhouse surrounded by cameras.

The two-story building is surrounded by green plants, the garden is full of flowers, all kinds of dry goods are drying in the yard, and there are chickens walking leisurely.From the outside, it is the kind of small farmyard commonly seen on TV.

I stepped into the gate and searched for the figures of the other guests: "Is anyone there? Hello?"

Am I the first?

I just walked to the middle of the yard, and a person slowly stepped out of the house.

The upper body is a thin black sweater, and the lower body is jeans. He looks tall and long-legged, as if he is on a catwalk, but his face is indifferent and alienated, making it difficult to get close to.

"Xi, Mr. Xi?!"

With a bang, my suitcase fell to the ground.

He was dignified and awe-inspiring, showing me a fake smile that couldn't be fake anymore, the corners of his mouth were cramping.

"What a coincidence."