impatience

They didn't do anything that night. The two of them wrapped themselves in blankets and watched the stars on the balcony. Mo Ziyi huddled in Luo Fei's arms and looked at the night sky with bright eyes.

He said: "Did you know that many of the elements in our body were formed after the stars were scattered during the big bang. In a sense, we are the same as the stars in the sky."

"Then after we disappear, maybe we will be recombined into other things and scattered in different places." Luo Fei said, "But we may meet again, maybe we will become two leaves."

He pointed to the dark and far-reaching forest in front of him, and his voice sounded like the only real existence in the dense night: "On this mountain, I am on this tree, and you are on that tree, but when the wind blows, we They bumped together wobbly."

"Well, then we may fall at the same time, slowly wither, and finally become a gust of wind, and it's hard to tell who is who." Mo Ziyi took a deep breath against the night wind, "Just like now, we are blown by others face."

"The gust of wind blowing you may have a story, has it told you?" Luo Fei lowered his head and asked him.

"I said it." Mo Ziyi looked up at Luo Fei, "It seems to tell me that now is the best time."

"Yes." Luo Fei said.

The past has been wasted, the future cannot be owned, only this second is the best.

After breakfast the next day, Luo Fei drove Mo Ziyi back to the city.

The two of them didn't talk much along the way, probably because they knew that parting was imminent, and it was useless to say anything. Silence is the best attitude to suppress emotions.

Arriving at Mo Ziyi's neighborhood, Luo Fei finally spoke, his voice a little hoarse, and he said, "I'll take you up."

"Okay." Mo Ziyi took off his seat belt and pushed the door to get out of the car.

He couldn't refuse.

The two got on the elevator and watched the numbers increase one by one. Luo Fei couldn't tell what mood he was in now, he just felt depressed and heavy, and his heart beat with indescribable pain.

Walking to the door, Mo Ziyi raised his head, in his dark eyes was the calm that Luo Fei dared not look directly at: "I'm going in."

"Ah."

The air was so still that it made people panic, and the sound of beeps when Mo Ziyi pressed the password was particularly ear-piercing.

Until the door was closed, they didn't look at each other again, and they didn't say another word. The crisp "click" sound when the door was closed was like an invisible lock cast by fate, locking the door between them. The door is firmly locked, forever isolated, airtight, and cuts off all connections and gazes.

Don't say anything, don't say goodbye, don't say take good care of yourself, there is no tomorrow, there is no need to say goodbye or ask.

There is no earth-shattering resentment or obsession, the paper-thin relationship between them seems to be unable to bear those too strong emotions, but even so, Mo Ziyi still feels that he has been overwhelmed by those emotions that cannot be let go .

He leaned against the door, thinking of Luo Fei's eyes just now, the things inside were too heavy and complicated, whether it was the extreme restraint, the unbearable pain, or the guilt or reluctance, each of them made him feel sad. He couldn't bear it, and couldn't help but want to shed tears after one more look.

In fact, Mo Ziyi was indeed crying. He leaned his back against the door, lowered his head and covered his eyes, sobbing and tears were filled between his fingers, his body trembled uncontrollably, his heart seemed to be pulled into a ball, Even breathing is painful.He suddenly thought vaguely that the two had known each other for so long, and Luo Fei had never called his name once.

Just like Mo Ziyi never said that he likes them, they all have the most fragile string in their hearts. As long as the string is not broken, they may be able to keep deceiving themselves until the day they completely forget it.

Luo Fei stood outside the door with his head down, only one door away from Mo Ziyi.He realized that he had finally lost something precious, that he could never get it back, and he was not entitled to have it again.

He is a deserter, he is a coward, in comparison, Mo Ziyi is more frank and brave.

When Luo Fei returned to the company, Luo Ming's face was very ugly.

"Ding Yan hasn't eaten for two days, go and explain to her parents yourself!"

"Explain what?" Luo Fei looked at him indifferently, "Whether it's worth it to trample on someone like me, she knows in her own mind, I'm going to work, so don't bother me if you have nothing to do."

Luo Fei knew very well that he didn't need to go to Ding Yan. Ding Yan knew that he was back, and she would definitely show up on her own initiative.

So when Ding Yan walked into the office, Luo Fei's face didn't fluctuate at all, and he didn't even bother to look up.

"Where have you been?" Ding Yan's voice trembled a little. She didn't even put on makeup, her complexion was pale, and her hair was a little messy.

"I went to my uncle." Luo Fei looked at the information, "You know, most people can't go to his place, and it's useless to tell you."

"Then you should at least tell me, instead of leaving without saying a word."

"I lost my phone."

Ding Yan looked at Luo Fei, she knew that the person in front of her had too many reasons at her fingertips, she couldn't get any sincere words from him at all, even if it was a lie, Luo Fei didn't bother to make it up.

"How can you do this, I'm your girlfriend..." When Ding Yan said the word "girlfriend", her voice was slightly weak, and she herself felt that the title was ironic.

"Really?" Luo Fei finally raised his head, his eyes were calm, "Then I apologize to you, it won't happen in the future."

"Luo Fei, do you have to be like me?" Ding Yan's eyes gradually turned red, "I'm going to get engaged soon, why do you still have this attitude?"

"I told you clearly enough, I can give you anything, except for feelings." Luo Fei flipped through the information, "It's your own choice, don't blame me, I'm poor at acting, I can't show love There is no obligation to act as a competent boyfriend, our marriage contract is essentially a commercial marriage, so don't ask too much of me."

"Besides, what do you care about with me, gay?" He suddenly looked up with a smile, "I don't owe you money, and I haven't promised you anything, I just need to have a clear conscience, anyway, it's not a day or two to be called a scumbag Well, I'm not a good person."

"You just fell in love with a boy now." Ding Yan insisted stubbornly, "When you let go, you can still fall in love with girls again."

"Ah, is that so?" Luo Fei closed the file, stood up, looked down at Ding Yan lightly, and said slowly, "First, even if I like girls, I won't like you. You know, when we were together before I can't even move my mind, let alone now."

"Second." Luo Fei picked up the coat on the back of the chair and put it on his hands casually, but his tone was subtle and serious, "How did you know that I would put it down? Maybe I will only love him in the future? "

He said, bypassing Ding Yan and going out.

Ding Yan had no time to react to Luo Fei's words, she eagerly reached out to grab him: "Where are you going?"

Luo Fei sideways avoided her hand: "Go and meet my dad."

Ding Yan looked at Luo Fei's back, trembling all over, she gritted her teeth and clenched her fists, trying to hold back the tears in her eyes.