impatience

Mo Ziyi took a shower first. He was standing by the table, combing his hair with his fingers while looking down at his phone. Luo Fei came out of the bathroom, walked behind him, hugged him from behind, and kissed his neck sideways.

Mo Ziyi put down his phone and was about to turn around, but Luo Fei pushed him harder on the table.

The cold temperature of the table spread to his chest through the thin fabric, stimulating his brain. Mo Ziyi instantly recalled the feeling of being pressed on the coffee table in the private room that night. It was also so cold. The people behind him It was also so hard that he couldn't get up and struggle.

The fear and pain in his heart suddenly filled up, and Mo Ziyi seemed to hear the chaotic music and mocking voices in a trance. He closed his eyes and shook his head in panic: "Don't—"

This "don't" is different from the soft and sticky one before, it is real, trembling, crying with panic, panic and resistance, it is a clear call for help.Luo Fei's heart skipped a beat, and he immediately came to his senses. He pulled Mo Ziyi up and hugged him face to face, hugging him tightly, patting his thin back again and again: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry , don't be afraid, it's okay..."

Mo Ziyi's body was trembling slightly, his eyes were pressed against Luo Fei's chest, his clothes were wet with tears, and his voice trembled: "I...I can't forget..."

He forced himself not to recall countless times, but after all, it was a real event, and he couldn't completely forget it. Although Luo Fei arrived in time, Mo Ziyi only needed to feel the despair of being dominated by drugs and suppressed When I think about it, I still tremble all over and feel palpitations.

Luo Fei hugged him and tried his best to comfort him: "It won't happen again, I promise, don't force yourself to forget, just remember, they will never appear in front of you again, no Someone will hurt you again."

"I want to go back to my room." Mo Ziyi wiped his tears on Luo Fei's body, raised his head, and looked at him with wet dark eyes, "It's a bit cold."

"Okay." Luo Fei picked him up, and Mo Ziyi obediently leaned on his shoulder, blinking his eyes.

When he thinks of this incident by himself, he always feels flustered and scared, but now being hugged by Luo Fei, he feels that he has been comforted to a large extent, as if his heartbeat is not so strong, and he seems to be surrounded by a sense of security.

Luo Fei put him under the quilt and fell asleep himself. He stretched out his hand to hold Mo Ziyi in his arms, stroked the back of his head, and said softly, "Don't be afraid, I'm right beside you."

His tone seemed to be coaxing a child. Mo Ziyi never thought that Luo Fei would speak with such a voice and tone.

Luo Fei was too honest at the moment, just hugged Mo Ziyi, stroked his head, and breathed steadily on Mo Ziyi's forehead.

Mo Ziyi's nose was a bit congested, and he had just cried for a while, so he sucked his nose from time to time, and occasionally coughed softly.

"Lie down well." Luo Fei said as he got up, "I..."

Mo Ziyi immediately went to hold his hand, and the panic was evident in his dark eyes: "Where are you going?"

Luo Fei's heart softened for a few seconds, and he began to tease him again with a serious face: "I'll go first, remember to cover the quilt when you sleep at night."

Mo Ziyi's mind suddenly went blank, and his voice was weak: "But..."

"But what?" Luo Fei tucked the quilt up for him, "Have a good rest, I won't bother you anymore."

As he spoke, he opened the door and went out. Mo Ziyi huddled under the quilt, blinked and looked at the door, and then he heard the sound of the door being closed from the living room.Mo Ziyi's head was a little dizzy, and the place where Luo Fei had been lying was still warm, but he had left now.

Mo Ziyi slowly buried his face in the quilt, feeling a little wronged and empty in his heart, obviously just now it was a room for two people, suddenly it was only him left.If Luo Fei had never been here, Mo Ziyi could have lived comfortably, but now, he couldn't bear such a quiet atmosphere.

After sniffing his nose twice, Mo Ziyi closed his eyes, but his heart was blocked, and he really didn't feel sleepy. He tried not to think about Luo Fei, but he couldn't help thinking of his voice and what he said, as if he was still there. It echoed in his ears, back and forth, disturbing his thoughts.

After an unknown amount of time, Mo Ziyi closed his eyes and still did not fall asleep, but he heard the sound of the door opening from the living room.

He opened his eyes almost immediately, threw off the quilt and jumped out of bed, opened the door and ran out.

Luo Fei was closing the door. He was wearing a cotton jacket and was carrying a bag in his hand.

When he turned around, he saw Mo Ziyi standing in the living room looking at him.

Mo Ziyi's hair was a little messed up from the sleep, a few strands of curly hair floated up and swayed on top of his head, his eyes were wide open.

"What's the matter? I just left for a while, and you are so eager to see me?" Luo Fei joked, took off his cold coat and put it on the counter next to the entrance, and then glanced at Mo Ziyi, Frowning, "It's fine to run out in pajamas, why don't you wear slippers?"

He bent down to pick up a pair of slippers from the door, and was about to walk over to put them on for Mo Ziyi, but Mo Ziyi took a few steps away, jumped up and threw himself on Luo Fei.

Luo Fei hugged him very quickly, let go and threw the slippers on the ground. He carried Mo Ziyi to the room, with his lips against his neck, and asked, "Tell me, do you miss me?"

Mo Ziyi didn't speak, just put his arms around his neck, and when he was put back on the bed, he raised his head and asked, "What are you going to do?"

"I'll buy medicine for you." Luo Fei shook the bag in his hand, "I'll go and boil some hot water. You lie down on the bed and take medicine later."

"I don't want to take medicine..." Mo Ziyi crawled into bed, "Medicine is bitter."

"You have to eat bitterness, otherwise it will be even more bitter if you have a severe cold." Luo Fei rubbed his head, put the medicine on the bedside table, and went out to boil hot water.

He came back after a while, opened the quilt and sat down, stretched out his hand in front of Mo Ziyi: "It's so cold outside, my hands are numb from the cold."

Mo Ziyi thought for a while, and stretched out his hand to carefully cover the back of Luo Fei's hand. Unfortunately, his hand was too small to wrap it around Luo Fei's hand. Luo Fei then opened his hand and wrapped Mo Ziyi's hand in it. In the palm of your hand, say: "This is the same."

Mo Ziyi's eyes lingered on his and Luo Fei's hands for a moment, then raised his eyes, looked straight at Luo Fei, and asked, "Have you treated others like this before?"

Luo Fei met his dark eyes, and for some reason his heart beat faster, and he said, "No."

"Then you..." Mo Ziyi hesitated, "Then why did you treat me like this?"

If it was before, if the other party wasn't Mo Ziyi, Luo Fei might have said neatly: "Why else, I like you."

But at this moment, looking at Mo Ziyi's eyes, he wanted to back down for the first time in his life. He was afraid, afraid that after he said those words, Mo Ziyi would think that he was pushy or too hasty.Mo Ziyi was already willing to accept kissing and sleeping with him, but Luo Fei was not sure if he could accept being with him. Before confirming his intentions, Luo Fei couldn't easily say anything.

What's more, after what happened last time, he already felt that he couldn't face Mo Ziyi anymore, and he also felt that he was not qualified to say that he liked him, and he was not qualified to ask Mo Ziyi to be with him.

"I..." Luo Fei avoided Mo Ziyi's gaze and lowered his eyes, "I want to do my best to compensate you, and I also like to get along with you like this, I am very happy with you..."

Oh, it's really because I'm sorry, and it's because I don't have to be responsible for it, so I can relax and get along, and don't need to think about anything else.

Friends with benefits is really a very relaxed relationship, enjoying the same happiness as when you are in love, but you don't have to worry about the responsibilities that you should bear in a normal relationship.

Mo Ziyi didn't look at Luo Fei anymore, but gently pulled out his hand and said, "The water may be boiled, go and have a look."

"Okay." Luo Fei got up, opened the door and walked out, his back seemed to be escaping.

He stood in the kitchen, pulled out the plug, took out the water glass, but he didn't dare to step into that room again, he felt that he was cowardly and unbearable, and he was not worthy to face Mo Ziyi's eyes at all.