my school boy

Dou Enze can't remember how many years ago it happened, but he only remembers that the sunset glow that day was so red that it burned the entire hillside red.

At that time, Wang Xue's belly was not small, but the current situation became more and more tense, and Dou Kouran's previous family background was undoubtedly a stain, so he was driven into a small cowshed.

Wang Xue also suffered. With her big belly, she was walking around the street or writing self-criticism every day. The middle school and elementary school were also closed.The literacy class is no longer able to read, and those farmers who usually face the loess and their backs to the sky seem to be crazy, sticking big-character posters in the streets and alleys.

"Brother Button, I brought you some food!" Dou Enze sneaked into the cowshed from under a big locust tree, "Hurry up and eat."

Dou Kouran, who has not eaten a grain of rice for several days and is already skinny, is holding the corn. Thinking of Dou Enze who will suffer if others see him feeding him, he feels deeply emotional, "Zeze, I..."

"Brother Button, stop talking and eat quickly, don't let others see." Dou Enze looked around vigilantly and whispered.

Dou Koran devoured the corn in his hand. He hadn't eaten for a long time, and he choked hard on the corn grains, and coughed uncontrollably.

Dou Enze quickly patted Dou Kouran on the back, "Slow down, it's okay, I'll show you."

Fortunately, when the sun was setting, everyone was busy cooking food, and no one would devote themselves to the life and death of the people in the cowshed.After Dou Kouran finished eating, he finally regained some strength, and asked with concern, "Zeze, how is Xiaoxue doing, are you and Xiuyun okay?"

Dou Enze spit out a mouthful of phlegm, said what a fart in his heart, but replied dishonestly, "Brother Button, don't worry, no matter how cruel these people are, they won't make trouble with a pregnant woman. He Xiuyun would give her some of the food he received every day, so it was enough for her to eat."

The sun fell on Dou Kouran's eyes, refracting the light of tears, but within a few months, Dou Kouran's hair was already graying, and wrinkles also quietly climbed up his face like a creeper.

He patted Dou Enze's head, "It's really hard for you and Xiuyun."

"Let me tell you something, Brother Button." Dou Enze's eyes sank, "I know a ferryman and a boatman, and the friendship is not bad. He said that he will transport things to Hong Kong at the end of the year, and there can be one person in the boat. , I have a good friendship with him, when the time comes, I will watch over you, you can go directly, don’t you have a lot of classmates in Hong Kong?”

"You!" Dou Kouran was startled, God knows how dangerous it is to quietly transport a living person out by boat these days, "I'll go alone? If someone else finds out, what will you do? I'm leaving, what will Xiaoxue do? , what about the child in Xiaoxue's stomach?"

"Brother Button!" Dou Enze didn't have time to think so much, "Can't you go first? Stay here and wait for death?"

"I can't let you go, if I leave like this, you will have to bear the crime!"

"Brother Button, I'm doing this for your own good!" Dou Enze finally growled impatiently, looking left and right but didn't dare to look him in the eyes, and said in a deep voice, "I won't have anything to do with Xiuyun and Sister Xue, If it is really discovered, I will bear everything."

"No. No." Dou Kouran took a breath and flatly refused, "You can't do this, I can't let you suffer so much because of me!"

"What about you? Are you supposed to live here and suffer? What did you do? Killed someone or broke the law, and you want to sleep in this dilapidated cowshed and be used by those hillbillies every day?!"

When Dou Enze heard Dou Kouran's righteous words, he was almost pissed off by the heart of the Holy Mother who saved the world. He grabbed Dou Kouran by the collar and raised his arm roughly, "Look at you, you are all How thin have you become? These hands are used for teaching, educating people and writing articles! Not for feeding cows!"

Dou Kouran was as thin as dry wood, and Dou Enze swayed as soon as he grabbed it. Seeing Dou Kouran's sallow and thin face, Dou Kouran could only grab the hay in the cowshed, and threw it on the grass as if venting his anger. the wall.

Dou Kouran lost his mind for a moment, then pulled Dou Enze's hand away, but still tried to persuade, "Zeze, they are crazy, why are you crazy too?"

"Me? I was driven crazy by them!" Dou Enze said angrily, "I knew we shouldn't come back."

"Zeze, have you forgotten, didn't we come back for a better educational environment?"

After all, he persuaded with earnestness, "Isn't it because they have not received a good education that they are easily bewitched by people with ulterior motives? But we haven't achieved anything and we are going to flee. Ze, I can't do it."

"But!" Dou Enze almost roared, he didn't want to hear Dou Kouran tell him these great principles, he just wanted to keep the people in front of him alive, "You are so kind to them, they only want you to die!"

"I'm not afraid of death. My life belongs to them from the moment I set foot on the deck of the return ship?" Dou Kouran supported her bony body from the haystack, and patted Dou Enze's head , holding him in his arms again, with a soft voice, like soft clouds in the sky.

"But your life is not only theirs, but also mine!" When Dou Enze said this, tears and snot flowed out uncontrollably, and he pushed the person in front of him, obviously only gently As soon as he tried hard, he fell down and sat on the haystack again, "It doesn't matter if you don't like me, I just want you to be happy, why can't you even do this."

The clouds in the sky seemed to freeze, shining on Dou Kouran's astonished face, "What did you say...?"

Dou Enze wiped the tears on his eyelashes with his sleeve indiscriminately, "I said I like you! It's the kind of love you have for Sister Xue! I just want you to live happily!"

"You..." Sitting on the licorice pile, Dou Kouran stepped back, "You never told me..."

Dou Enze wiped his tears with his torn sleeve, and cried, "How can I tell you, I told you, you will definitely throw me out as a monster!"

Dou Kouran took a deep breath, looking at the teary-eyed person in front of her, she suddenly felt extraordinarily guilty—when did he have such feelings after all these years by her side?It would be great if he could meet someone worthy of entrusting his life before that, so that he wouldn't make a mistake and waste his life with himself.

"So many years..." Dou Koran muttered to himself, "So many years... I didn't know you were..."

Dou Enze opened his big eyes that were still dripping with tears, and choked up, "Is it a monster!"

I didn't hear the answer I wanted, but a few people rushed out from behind the tree, like mad dogs, "I knew this person not only has a problem with his composition, but also has a problem with his style!"

Another person responded loudly, "I didn't expect that even men would be spared!"

As if to tie up Dou Kouran with hemp rope, "Tie it up! Quickly tie it up! Let's see if he admits his mistake!"

"What are you going to do!" Dou Enze rushed to Dou Kouran and pushed the two away, "What are you going to do?!"

"It's okay! You don't have to be afraid of him! I saw it just now! He wants to hug you, but you refused him and pushed him away!"

Dou Enze shook his head frantically, "It's not like that, it's not like that!" But his body was pulled away by that strong man.

"It's me..." Dou Enze's head went blank in shock, and he was about to speak.

"It's my fault!" Dou Koran forcibly covered his words with a louder voice, he was tied up with a hemp rope and dragged a few steps, and one sentence seemed to exhaust all his strength, " I'll go back and write a self-criticism, you...don't embarrass him."

Dou Kouran mouthed to him, "Go home and wait for me."

But not everyone can wait, and not all homes can return.

Recovering from the memory, Dou Enze looked at the young face standing in front of him, with dark hair, no dense wrinkles on the face, and clear eyes-this is the appearance of a young man, and the young man Dou Enze is exactly the same.

He hadn't known what it was like to be young for a long time.

The tea in the cup was cold, he took a sip and put it on the table. There was an abnormal silence in the study, and after a long time, Dou Enze opened his mouth slowly.

"Not all love has to be spoken out. If your love is a burden to his life, you might as well bury it in your heart."

Shen Shucheng bit his lip lightly, his eyebrows trembled slightly, knowing that Dou Enze would not say anything more, but he still couldn't move, just stood in front of the desk like a dead tree.

It wasn't the answer he wanted to hear.

But let go of the subjective will in your heart and think about it carefully, this seems to be the most correct answer.

Shen Shucheng took a breath, and said slowly for a long time, "I understand, thank you, grandpa."

After spring, the wind blows on the face and there is a warmth.Walking home along the scenery along the river, looking at the lights in the distance, Shen Shucheng's heart sank little by little.

If my own non-existence can make Tian Yu's life better, if I am just his burden, then why should I stay by his side?

Perhaps it is also a good thing to look at him from afar, soaring in the sky and the sea.

……

Another sleepless night, Shen Shucheng forcibly took two tablets of melatonin before falling down in a drowsy drowsiness. Tian Yu's face in the dream was still a flawless and shy smile, but this When Shen Shucheng stretched out his hand to touch the smiling face, it suddenly flew into the sky like a hydrogen balloon and disappeared into the clouds.

Rationality and logic are the most useful things, and analysis can also be straightforward. Shen Shucheng even thought that if this happened to Tang Dong, he would be able to calmly analyze the pros and cons for him while eating drunk crabs.

But all rational logic, before the throbbing heartbeat, completely lost its convincing power.

When I woke up, it was raining outside the window.One spring rain and one warm, but Shen Shucheng could clearly feel the bone-chilling chill.In the final analysis, it is still difficult to settle down.

Without Tian Yu to accompany him for dinner on Saturday, Shen Shucheng suddenly had a lot of free time in his hands.

Seeing his son's distraught appearance, Dou Sikou thought it was something bothering him at work, and urged him to go out for a walk to relax.

However, with Shen Shucheng's footsteps, he walked to the Science and Technology Museum unconsciously.

At the entrance of the Science and Technology Museum, there is the Mobius ring that Tian Yu had seen together—he just felt the magic of this ring.There is no pros and cons of the Mobius ring, so even people who walk on both sides at the beginning will be able to meet each other one day.

But what about Hetian jade?It's like the people who stood side by side at the beginning, but the paths of life are different after all. One day, they will live completely different lives and have completely different worlds.

Shen Shucheng stretched out his hand, wanting to touch the Mobius ring made of steel.

"Sir, sorry, please don't touch the exhibits with your hands."

The commentary volunteer next to him kindly reminded him.