my school boy

Shen Shucheng drove away Tang Dong, who was making noise around him, and ordered a Huainan beef soup alone in the cafeteria, but couldn't finish it at all.

He still remembered that the first time Hetian Yu came to the cafeteria to eat, he also ate this dish.

Looking at the steaming beef soup in front of him, Shen Shucheng held his chin and didn't know what to do.His soup ladle was stirring repeatedly in the bowl, taking out the vermicelli and throwing it back again. The splashed soup accidentally fell on the clothes of the person opposite. The person stared at Shen Shucheng, who was in a state of despair, and said. He said "Crazy!" and walked away.

Shen Shucheng suddenly felt a little regretful for his slowness.

If you hold Tian Yu in your arms during the Mid-Autumn Festival, if you get an apple at Christmas, if you fall on the ground in the snow and look up at Tian Yu, if you can put your head in the movie theater At the moment of slipping, it would be nice if I could be clear about the thoughts in my heart, and it would be nice if I could express my thoughts to Tian Yu.

In this way, maybe the person walking beside Tian Yu is himself.

Unfortunately, there is no if.It's a pity that even if there was an if, would I really say it so carelessly?How could Tian Yu accept such a love of himself who has accomplished nothing, the one of the same sex?

How absurd.

What's more, with such intimacy, besides being his girlfriend, there is no other possibility.

Now that he already has a girlfriend, it means that his orientation is different from his own.

Shen Shucheng sighed, the only thing he can do now is to bless and persuade.

He silently took a sip of the soup, but it was still tasteless.Shen Shucheng looked at the limp fans soaked in the soup, and said to himself, just let this feeling be sealed in his heart forever, and don't let anyone know about it, and don't cause trouble to anyone.

……

It was still Friday, and it was still five o'clock in the afternoon, and Tian Yu still came to the office on time.Shen Shucheng still couldn't calm down.

He drank several sips of the longan and red date tea in the thermos cup before he moistened his parched throat.

Tian Yu also noticed the abnormality in the office at this time. Shen Shucheng no longer babbled gently as usual, but awkwardly held the longan red date tea and took another sip.

"Mr. Shen, I..." Tian Yu bit the bullet to find something to talk to, "Mr. Shen, do you know which places are more fun in Jiangcheng during the Ching Ming Festival holiday?"

"Ching Ming Festival holiday?" Shen Shucheng's heart trembled, and he immediately came back to his senses.Now that I already have a girlfriend, it's the right thing to take my little girlfriend out to play on Ching Ming Festival.

But Shen Shucheng's fingers were extraordinarily cold.

He calmed down before opening his mouth slowly, "It's normal to go out with your girlfriend more. I heard that there are a few places suitable for dating. Let me list them for you?"

The second monk Tian Yuzhang couldn't figure it out, "What... what girlfriend?"

Shen Shucheng took a deep breath, "It's okay, it's not middle school anymore, you don't need to hide your relationship."

"I didn't hide it..." Tian Yu was in a daze, "No, I don't have a girlfriend."

"No?" Shen Shucheng was startled, "Didn't a little girl hold your hand last time?"

"That, no, it's my sister, come and see me..." Tian Yu said softly.

Thinking about it this way, Shen Shucheng did remember that there was a sister named Tian Miao written in Tian Yu's file.

Knowing that it was a misunderstanding, a stone in his heart finally fell to the ground with a plop and smashed to pieces, but Shen Shucheng could only hide his joy, rubbing his hands secretly and curling up the corners of his mouth, bending his eyes into crescent moons, pretending She looked relieved, "That's right! Let me just say, how can a college bully like Xiaoyu be in a hurry to fall in love?!"

Tian Yu finally explained the so-called "girlfriend" to Shen Shucheng, and heaved a sigh of relief.

"Xiaoyu, let's go to the cafeteria to eat Huainan beef soup tonight."

"For...why?"

"No reason, just want to drink."

Shen Shucheng watched the sparrows chirping outside the window with satisfaction.

Finally satisfied, Hetian Yu ate a meal of Huainan beef soup. Shen Shucheng was in a good mood, but still uneasy. He walked along the scenic belt along the river alone, and suddenly thought of his grandfather who was the first to notice this.

For some reason, Shen Shucheng always felt that his grandfather would be the only one who could understand his feelings.

Remembering that Shen Shucheng hadn't come to see Dou Enze for a long time since he was sick last time and was discharged from the hospital two years later, so he went to Dou Enze's house instead.

Xiuyun and Dou Enze had just finished their meal. Dou Enze was lying on the rocking chair, reading the newspaper and drinking Pu'er tea from a porcelain cup.

"Oh, grandpa, where did this good tea come from? It's so fragrant, I haven't smelled such a fragrant tea for a long time." Shen Shucheng rubbed his hands and glanced at Dou Enze with a guilty conscience.

Dou Enze poked his eyes out of the newspaper, and smiled lightly, as if he had read his mind, quite playfully.

"Didn't your father bring this back when he went to England for a meeting last time?" Xiuyun put the leftovers in the refrigerator and explained for Dou Enze, "I told him that it's fine to go out and have a good meeting. The two of us brought something, and we insisted on listening, and we haven’t drunk the red wine last time.”

"Xiuyun." Dou Enze took a sip of the tea in his cup, "There seems to be no vinegar in the house. Aren't we eating dumplings tomorrow? Go and buy some vinegar."

"Eating dumplings?" Xiuyun was taken aback, "When did you say you were eating dumplings?"

Dou Enze frowned and winked at Xiuyun. Xiuyun understood, knowing that the two of you had something to say, and went out while getting dressed, "You can eat dumplings if you want. I'll buy some for Shucheng by the way." Go back and eat the fruit."

After Xiuyun left, Dou Enze put down the cup in his hand, got up from the recliner, straightened his dark blue sweater, and coughed softly.

"Grandpa, you are not in good health, why don't you add a coat?" After finishing speaking, Shen Shucheng took a small thin padded jacket on the sofa as if to put it on for Dou Enze.

However, Dou Enze waved his hand and walked towards the study, "Although I am old, I am not so immature, so tell me, what's the matter here?"

Shen Shucheng took a deep breath, thinking that he really couldn't hide anything from the old man, lowered his head and said, "You sent grandma away, you should know why I came here."

Dou Enze stopped, "For what happened to that young man last time?"

Shen Shucheng scratched his head, "The old man knows things like a god, and I really can't hide my affairs from you, old man."

Dou Enze's eyes sank, as if he didn't hear Shen Shucheng's flattery, "Come on, come to the study and talk to me."

When Shen Shucheng walked into the study, Dou Enze closed the door again, "What's wrong?"

I thought that I was free in front of Dou Enze at ordinary times, and I could explain everything that happened recently without any worries, and then asked him to give me some advice and guidance, but when Shen Shucheng's words came to his lips, he found that he had to Tell an elderly person that he is still a boy who wants to hook up with a freshman when he is old, but he can't say it.

"I..." Shen Shucheng hesitated, as if he had a stone in his mouth, "I am, that...Tian Yu, you can see it, but I, I only know myself, that ,like him……"

The voice became weaker and weaker, Shen Shucheng stood stiffly and straightly in front of the desk, looked at Dou Enze looking straight at his hot cheeks, felt like a middle school student caught in a puppy love, anxiously lowered his head and waited for him rebuke.

"Heh..." Dou Enze just snorted softly instead of being reprimanded.

The study room was unexpectedly quiet, and Shen Shucheng was extraordinarily nervous. His nose was dripping with sweat. He pricked up his ears to catch some sound that could be relied upon in the quiet air, but there was only the rustling sound of the current flowing into the desk lamp.

"So?" Dou Enze put on his presbyopic glasses, and was too lazy to look at the bewildered young man in front of him. Instead, he set his sights on a photo framed in an exquisite photo frame on the desk. Young people are quite similar.

Shen Shu collapsed like a deflated ball.

"I don't know, I just feel that I don't know how to deal with it." Dou Enze's eyebrows were twisted into a character splayed, not having the usual idleness of a dude, but a little more panic that is not easy to see usually.

"I don't know if he is the same as me, or if he is willing, or if he is willing, what my feelings will bring him."

Shen Shucheng's worry was not unreasonable.After all, he had heard with his own ears that what Tian Yu wanted most was a light for him in the city, a simple life of three meals a day.

His own love will undoubtedly make him the center of the vortex, it will become the talk of the square dance aunts after dancing, and it will make him "that small group of people" in this world.

But in this mean world, if you walk on the ordinary avenue, even if you spend your whole life doing nothing, no one will criticize you.But if one day you find a road that you want to go but no one cares about, then this road will inevitably be full of thorns of abuse and ups and downs of ridicule.

And this mean world is usually not friendly to any "that small group of people".

Shen Shucheng didn't know if it was the right way to drag Tian Yu into this quagmire.Shen Shucheng even felt selfishly that if he secretly liked Tian Yu and kept him from knowing, after Tian Yu went abroad, or found a job, and stayed away from him, he could put himself in the category of "passer-by" In the future, when I meet the person I love again, even if I still fall into a bigger turmoil, it is good that this turmoil is not caused by me.

The idea is the idea, and it is another matter to do it. Seeing the person you love jumping around in front of your eyes, you can't bear to just pretend that you don't notice anything and let him go.

Dou Enze quietly looked at Shen Shucheng who was struggling with left and right in front of him, and suddenly smiled.God, always in the long years, give you one joke after another.

He looked at Shen Shucheng's clear and melancholy eyes, the confusion about the future was very similar to himself back then.

It was probably the same when I looked at Dou Kouran's eyes back then.

The author has something to say: up to four chapters!Let them be together!

The next chapter is Memories.

In fact, I want to portray Dou Enze and Dou Kouran very seriously. I really want to write the character of Dou Kouran well, but the writing skills are still not enough...

Thank you for being here.

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Shen. Chicken Soup. Worker:

The world is mean, but I still love it.