my school boy

Shen Shucheng immediately ended the heartless reminder, threw the phone on the bed, muttered "Fuck", crossed his hands on his chest, narrowed his eyes, the light in those peach blossom eyes darkened into an unfathomable ocean, The thick black eyebrows were knitted together, and he looked at the wall clock on the wall.

01:30am.

It's so late, still on the phone?Shen Shucheng raised his eyebrows.

He opened the window of the room, and it was still snowing outside the window, probably because of the high water content. Unlike the silent heavy snow in the north, the snow in the south rustled on the leaves on the tiles and roads, as if it was performing a winter waltz, one note at a time The notes struck Shen Shucheng's heart.

Over there, Tian Yu went back to the dormitory and lay on the bed, listening to Cao Kefan's stormy snoring, turned over irritably, and covered his head in the pillow.

When the eyes are closed, it is Shen Shucheng's face.He put his hand in his palm, pulled himself gently into his arms, he rubbed his head and hit his forehead with moist hot breath, he bent down and put his bright red lips on his On the eyelids, then down to the tip of the nose, and then down.

The phone rang untimely, and Cao Kefan's snoring became much weaker to his surprise.

Tian Yu closed her eyes and was annoyed at first, then thought that Shen Shucheng might be calling so late, she grabbed the cell phone next to her pillow in panic and joy, but the caller ID showed a series of unknown numbers.

He pressed the answer button, lowered his voice and asked, "Hi, may I ask you..."

"Tian Yu? Ah... Well, I'm Dong Yan... Do you remember me?"

Tian Yu said softly "um", then asked in a low voice: "May I ask what's the matter?"

The other end of the phone froze for a moment, and then there were a few awkward smiles, "Well, happy new year, I saw you when the bell was ringing today, and I wanted to say hello to you, but there were too many people, so I didn't go. "

Before he finished speaking, Tian Yu replied calmly, "It's okay", and felt that it was impolite, so he just added "You too, Happy New Year."

The voice on the other end became visibly brighter, "The final exam will be in two weeks, can I ask you to study together? I'm not doing well in several subjects, can you help me?"

"I...I don't really like studying with others."

"It's like this... Well, I'll contact you again if I have any questions. Don't blame me for disturbing you."

"Well. Go to bed if you have nothing to do, it's too late."

Dong Yan's voice softened a lot, and he said "good night" softly before putting down the phone.

Tian Yu was lying on the bed, thinking of the exams during the exam week, quickly planning the precious review time before the exam week, and one thought couldn't be stopped in his mind - he must get the first place to be eligible to like him.

He closed his eyes, wanting to continue the dream just now.

During the New Year's Day holiday, Shen Shuben wanted to ask Tianyu to go for a walk in Bailu Mountain, but before he had time to talk to Tianyu about going to Shen Wanjun's laboratory to participate in a scientific research project, he received bad news from his mother, "Shucheng, you wait I will go to the hospital to see my grandfather, he is hospitalized, I just went on a business trip this morning, and I won’t be back for a while.”

The health of the elderly is always bad. When hearing the news, Shen Shucheng was so frightened that his legs gave way, and hurried to the hospital. When he arrived at the hospital, Xiuyun gently closed the door and came out of the ward.

Shen Shucheng was out of breath and asked, "Grandma, what's wrong with my grandfather?"

Xiuyun raised her index finger and put it near her mouth to signal him to keep his voice down, and then said softly, "Your grandfather just fell asleep. He caught a cold when he went home last night. He coughed all night. Today he came to the hospital for an examination. Let's stay in the hospital for a while."

Sweat dripped from Shen Shucheng's forehead, and he asked again, "Then what's going on now, isn't it a big deal?"

Xiuyun patted Shen Shucheng's hand, and said in relief, "It's normal to get sick when you get older, so don't worry too much."

Shen Shucheng breathed a sigh of relief, held Xiuyun's hand, and frowned, "Grandma, you've been busy for a long time. I'll stay with grandpa in the hospital. Go back and rest quickly."

Xiuyun glanced worriedly into the ward, as if she was worried about the hairless grandson in front of her.

Shen Shucheng was a little anxious. Grandpa was already in the hospital. If something happened to grandma at this time, wouldn't the house be messed up?He tilted his neck and tightened his brows: "Grandma! Go back and rest quickly, you are already old, how can you hold your back! Don't worry about your grandson."

Seeing that Shen Shucheng couldn't be screwed, Xiuyun could only sigh, "Then I'll go back to rest first, make some soup for him, and bring it over at night."

Shen Shucheng walked into the ward with light steps. Dou Enze was lying on the bed and fell asleep, his face was pale, his lips were purplish red caused by lack of oxygen, and the wrinkles on his face formed interlaced ravines, writing the vicissitudes of time.Dou Enze occasionally coughed once or twice in his sleep, Shen Shucheng hurriedly covered Dou Enze's body with a tighter blanket.

"Brother Button..." Dou Enze whispered in his sleep.

Hearing this nonsense, Shen Shucheng was startled, he searched his memory for the names of people older than Dou Enze, but found no trace, and suddenly thought of the black and white photo he saw in the study that day.

Dou Enze said he was his elder brother.

Is it the elder brother that Grandpa never forgets?

While thinking wildly, Dou Enze woke up from the babbling and coughed heavily. Shen Shucheng hurriedly handed over a cup of hot water, served Dou Enze to drink it, raised the pillow, and helped Dou Enze to sit up , Dou Enze waved his hand, "How can you be so delicate, where is your grandma?"

"I asked grandma to go back to rest, and she said that I would bring you chicken soup later." Shen Shucheng was afraid that Dou Enze would catch a cold, so he took the cotton coat from the hanger and put it on for Dou Enze, while Dou Enze was getting dressed, He asked tentatively, "Grandpa, Brother Button... who is it?"

Dou Enze froze with his hand stretched into one sleeve, raised his eyes, glanced at Shen Shucheng, and coughed dryly again, "My deceased brother, how...how did you know him?"

Shen Shucheng pursed his lips, and tucked up the quilt for Dou Enze, "In your dream, you kept calling this person's name."

Dou Enze raised his eyebrows, and the sadness in his eyes flashed away without a trace, "This man is so old that he is too nostalgic. Dreaming is a thing of the past."

Hearing that he didn't want to talk about Brother Button anymore, Shen Shucheng shrugged, lowered his head, and stopped asking.But I heard Dou Enze say: "I haven't told you a story for a long time, let me tell you."

Shen Shucheng raised his eyebrows, his eyes sparkled, and he nodded repeatedly.

"A long time ago, there was a poor boy who was taken in by a wealthy family as the companion of the young master of the family. The master of the family was kind and sent the two of them abroad to study.

But the poor boy, overthinking his abilities, fell in love with the young master at home. "

Shen Shucheng, who was leaning on a chair while drinking water and listening to the story, was startled by this sentence, choked up and coughed, "What... what? You mean that poor boy? Like that young master?"

Dou Enze's eyes were clear, "Surprised?"

Shen Shucheng hesitated to speak, and said cautiously, "There are very few people who can accept it in society now, let alone at that time..."

Dou Enze curled his lips, feeling sorry for him, and continued talking.

"But that young master doesn't like him. The young master gets married and has children, and now he has a normal life. His feelings for him are brotherhood, not love."

"Well, then what?"

Dou Enze laughed miserably, and shook his head, "In an era that can't tolerate this kind of emotion, what can happen to an emotion that would never respond to it?"

"Then..." Shen Shu intentionally realized that the protagonist in the story must be related to the buttoned brother Dou Enze called out in his dream, "Which person in the story is that buttoned brother?"

Dou Enze looked at the snow-covered tree trunks outside the window, put his hands on the radiator beside him to check the temperature, and put a bag of milk left by Xiuyun on the small table on the radiator, his Adam's apple moved slightly, but he lowered his head Say nothing.

"Grandpa, is Brother Button the young master?" Shen Shucheng rang the nurse's bell when the medicine in the hanging bottle was dripped out, and thought for a while. If I have never met this person in my life, then there is only one possibility.

"He, he shouldn't be here, right?"

The nurse came into the ward with the medicine bottle, and Shen Shucheng made room for her to change the medicine. He looked at Dou Enze's slightly hunched back, in the large hospital gown, with the aura of berating Fang Qiu in front of the teachers and students of the school. There was nothing left, only the loneliness and withering like the dead wood in winter outside the window, and he realized that the old man who had accompanied him from childhood had entered the last years of his life.

Grandparents seem to be like this. From the moment we open our eyes, they are old, making us think they have never been young, and let us think they are strong enough to fight death.But the process of our growing up is also the process of their death.The exuberance of one life seems to be achieved by the exhaustion of another life.

Thinking of this, Shen Shucheng felt ashamed in his heart—for such a Dou Enze, he didn't know anything about it in his life.

If Brother Button is gone, what about the poor boy who likes him?

Dou Enze didn't mention that person. Could it be that this poor boy caused Brother Button to leave?

Thinking about it this way, everything makes sense--Brother Button is Dou Enze's best friend, and the companions around him are deeply in love with him but can't love him. In the end, they turned against each other. It hurts, so naturally I don't want to mention the sinner's name.

After changing the medicine, Shen Shucheng thanked the nurse softly, sat on the small white bench again, looked at Dou Enze's hunched figure, "Grandpa, you don't need to say anything, I, I understand everything."

The author has something to say: Dou Enze: Understand?understand p.

Shen Shucheng: This bad old man is very bad, he didn't tell the truth if he saw through it, which made me chase after my husband's crematorium in the end.