my school boy

29-Fire tree and silver flower

At this time, dense crowds of people had gathered in Jiangcheng University's Ten Thousand People Square. Shen Shucheng led Tian Yu through several layers of crowds before squeezed into the front row in embarrassment.The current headmaster of the school is speaking New Year's greetings. Behind the headmaster stands an ancient bronze clock. On three sides of the clock, the school motto of Jiangcheng University is engraved in small seal characters—sincerity, simplicity, and courage.

The next link after the principal's speech was Dou Enze's speech.

Although Dou Enze is old, he still walks in awe-inspiring manner without anger. He looks at the crowd below, or couples hugging each other with bright smiles and whispering, or friends chatting with each other, or It was the whole family of Jiangcheng University's faculty and staff, holding a playful one or two-year-old child in their arms.Seeing the commotion below, the director at the side came over and signaled to Dou Enze, asking if he should make a message first to quiet down the people below.

Dou Enze waved his hand and picked up the microphone.

"Students and teachers, as the new year comes, I wish you all a happy new year." Dou Enze's voice was deep and deep, and the people below heard the old principal start talking, as if by magic, they suddenly fell silent, and the rest of the The man stands on tiptoe and looks forward.

Dou Enze adjusted his presbyopic glasses, pursed his lips and smiled calmly, "As you all know, Jiangcheng University has a New Year's bell ringing ceremony every year, and it has become a part of Jiangcheng University's campus culture. The bell ringing ceremony , has a special meaning to me as an old man." Dou Enze paused, raised his eyebrows and then said slowly: "When I hear the bell, it is the time when I feel most at ease, which means that my land The health care method is very appropriate, and I lived for another year."

The students below laughed kindly, and Dou Enze also laughed a few times, then drooped the corners of his mouth and returned to a serious expression.

"A student once asked me why the bell is ringing during the New Year. I don't know if everyone has such doubts." Dou Enze squinted his eyes, and the crowd below was completely silent.

"Ringing the bell is not only to bid farewell to the old and usher in the new, but also to tell everyone that the old year is about to pass and the new year is coming. It is also to condolences to those souls who paid the price of their lives for the establishment of Jiangcheng University in the universe. If there are souls in the world In one word, I hope they can come back in the new year to see that the education business they created with their own hands will be passed down from generation to generation, and let them know that their efforts were not in vain.”

"This world is much better than before, but it is still not good enough. I hope that because of your existence, we can have a more equal, open and fraternal world. You are scholars, scholars, you should set your heart for the world and make a living Let the people establish their lives, inherit the unique knowledge for the saints, and bring peace to all generations, I am already old, and this era belongs to you after all."

There was thunderous applause from the crowd below. In the ocean of applause, Dou Enze rang the ancient bell. The distant bell resounded in the square, arousing cheers from the crowd. At the same time, several fireworks exploded in the sky. They bloomed one after another, and the roaring sound was endless. The crowd squeezed Shen Shucheng and Tianyu together. Shen Shucheng leaned into Tianyu's ear and said softly, "Xiaoyu, Happy New Year! Be sure to be happy."

Tian Yu was taken aback for a moment, then grinned and nodded showing her white teeth, "Mr. Shen, you too!" He thought in his heart, as long as he can be by your side, it would be great.

Dou Enze looked at a group of young but high-spirited college students, and nodded in relief, but his eyes fell on the galaxy in the distant sky.

If Dou Kouran was still there, if he could see that the group of teenagers in front of him had achieved academic success, had their own ideas and feelings, and would no longer be easily bewitched and fooled, how great it would be.

Under the fireworks, no one saw Dou Enze's dismal smile, the happiness belonged to them, and he had nothing.He suddenly felt that, probably because of global warming, the climate this winter was much warmer than when Dou Enze was young.

At that time, Dou Enze's family was assigned to live in a brick house in the countryside--this is already considered the best treatment here, and it was specially allocated by the brigade to his family of intellectuals, a few miles away from the house. Outside is a small ruined temple.The small dilapidated temple no longer enshrines Bodhisattvas. Instead, tables, chairs, benches and walls were painted with pot ash, and a primary school was built. Dou Koran and Dou Enze were the most educated people in the brigade, and they were arranged by the team leader to teach the village Before the rooster crows in the morning, Dou Enze has to go to the temple to ring the bell to call people in the village to come to class. Later, he goes to a middle school in a farther place to teach philosophy and English. It's already a black sky where you can't see your fingers.

On a winter night, firewood was lit in the small house, and the four of them sat around the firewood to dispel the winter cold.A pot of rice was cooked over the firewood.It is said to be rice, but a lot of water has been added. It looks more like porridge, but it is all the food for the four of them today.Some diced meat was put in the rice, and the oily smell wafted out along the steamed water vapor. It was given to him by a literate farmer when get out of class was over today.

Dou Enze was young, a few sips of bland soup could not fill his stomach at all. Seeing his unhappy appearance, Dou Kouran poured half of the rice porridge into his bowl, and then poured The diced meat in it was given to him.Dou Enze looked at the fat and fresh meat in the bowl, swallowed, and was about to eat, when Xiuyun cursed eloquently.

"You are not big or small, what is this for? It is obvious that everyone eats and drinks their own amount, why do you want to eat more and occupy more, and others will not live?"

Xiuyun slammed the words in her mouth on Dou Enze, causing him to be confused. Dou Enze thought to himself that Dou Kou dyed it for him, why is she angry?He didn't know what was going on with Xiuyun, that stinky girl. Even though he listened to Dou Kouran's words and gave in to her in every possible way, she liked to argue with him more and more.It was Wang Xue who came out to smooth things over: "Xiuyun, what's the point of arguing about it, we're all a family, and Ozawa is also at a growing age."

But Xiuyun persisted, and gave Dou Enze an angry look, "He is as old as Chen Zhima rotten millet, and he still has a body, a fart!" She frowned and said worriedly: "Even if you say that you have a body, , it is also the child in your belly who needs nutrition, when will it be his turn?!"

The child in the belly?The news came so unexpectedly that Dou Enze's eyes went dark, and he couldn't react for a while, so he looked at Dou Kouran in panic, but Dou Kouran's eyebrows were filled with surprise, and his voice was trembling with excitement: "Xiaoxue, Xiuyun Is it true?"

A blush appeared on Wang Xue's face, she lowered her head shyly, and nodded lightly: "I haven't been feeling well for the past two days, I just asked Xiuyun to accompany me to the doctor today, I wanted to tell you later... This girl Xiuyun..."

Dou Enze originally comforted himself that Dou Kouran was only reluctantly together with Wang Xue for the sake of the marriage contract.Hearing the news, I just felt like I was about to faint.

Xiuyun was full of ambition, as if she had won a battle, "You bastard, do you think this meal should be given to you?!"

However, Dou Enze's face was as dark as the sky outside. He gritted his teeth, glared at that girl Xiuyun, and pushed the rice in front of him, "I won't eat. Go for a walk." Then he rushed out the door.

Dou Enze found a dark hill and sat down on the ground, burying his hands in his arms.Looking from the top of the mountain, there is a flickering kerosene lamp in my home. The warm yellow light in the darkness announces the warmth and harmony of this home. Thinking that in the near future, this home will usher in a young child. There is a new life, and there is a bit more vitality in the lights.

But happiness is theirs, I have nothing.

Thinking of this, Dou Enze's heart twitched.The two eyebrows were unconsciously twisted together.He felt extremely wronged. Dou Kouran loved all the people in the world, loved those peasants who faced the loess and their backs to the sky, taught them how to read over and over again, and also loved the bully-headed boys at school, who taught them how to play ball and swim with them Schopenhauer Rousseau, he also loved his wife deeply, and had the crystallization of his love with her. This child may have deep eyes like Dou Kouran, and a gentle personality like her mother.He was even willing to give his love to that girl Xiuyun who came to provoke him whenever he had nothing to do, and was willing to bring him a flowery rope from the city to tie his hair, but he was unwilling to give some love to himself.

Maybe there is, but that kind of love is not what Dou Enze wants, it's not the kind of love that he takes for himself.

From the beginning of this relationship, it was doomed to be wishful thinking, not to be loved.

Dou Enze wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and bit his sleeve desperately, even if there was no one around, he felt extremely embarrassed when he remembered how he was crying.

"You! You're so nice...why are you still crying! Tell my sister to see that I bullied you again!" Xiuyun saw Dou Enze rushing out angrily, thinking that she had offended him with her knife and mouth, and followed behind He came here behind him, but saw Dou Enze crying with his voice suppressed. The few words he said were just to argue with Dou Enze, but it aroused such a big reaction from him, which made him panic even more.

Dou Enze glared at Xiuyun fiercely with red eyes, "I want you to take care of it!"

"Why don't you know what's good and what's wrong! I obviously... I just care about you!" Xiuyun took two steps back, stood in the distance, stared at the black figure in front of her, and wanted to hear what he had to say.Dou Enze gritted his teeth and did not speak.

Xiuyun walked on tiptoe hesitantly to Dou Enze, lowered her head to look at the young man who buried her head in his arm, opened her mouth a few times, and finally said: "I said, it's my fault about the dinner tonight, yes, sorry."

Dou Enze turned his head away, held back his crying, and said indifferently, "It has nothing to do with you."