[Comprehensive] Why am I not dead yet?

——Death is actually a very vague word.

For the deceased, this word is a momentary thing, for the relatives and friends who love each other deeply, it is a long torture that lasts intermittently and may last for several years, and for the bystanders, it is just a sigh of nothingness.

The real impact it brings to others is not that there will be a reaction at the time. This reaction is very slow and slow. It may be one day after everything has settled, when you go home and sit on the bed, your palms are soft and cold Then you will suddenly wake up someone who used to sleep peacefully here, and the self sitting here accidentally coincides with a certain time in the past, as if someone who has already left here in the next moment will come out of the room, carrying Handing over a cup of hot milk and stroking the top of his head, the expression on his face was half helpless and half conniving, and he smiled and said what's wrong with you.

Immediately afterwards, all the memories will be like an intermittent thread, formed from the gap between the suddenly numb fingers and then dispersed, forming an invisible and traceless but extremely clear and profound thread, which is entwined around me again Le's body and heart were full of blood and flesh, at that moment, those wounds that had been healed and numb would burst into blood again, and the whole room was surrounded by this memory line.

Whether it is subconsciously looking up or avoiding eyes like evasion, it is useless, because there are traces of this person everywhere.

Where can I see it?

Bakugo Katsuki was better. The dull pain caused by the chain reaction of his death did not appear until a long time later. In addition, the residence that Lian Su took him to the last time was covered by thick fog and he could not find his way there. The place where he lived for ten years was also sold early, and there were very few personal items in the school office. He was unwilling to admit that the other party had really disappeared from his world for quite a long time.

Death, sometimes needs to be reminded by others intentionally or unintentionally.

But a big problem is that many people don't even realize that Lian Su is "dead", let alone remind Bakugo Katsuki with that sad atmosphere, and Bakugo Katsuki himself has always lived in a place far away from In the environment where the woman had traces, such coincidences constituted his insensitivity to "Lian Su has disappeared from this world", and also delayed his real comprehension of the true meaning of this word.

Aizawa Shouta, who is calmer and calmer, always chooses to avoid talking about this topic intentionally or unintentionally, and after that, All Might also learned about the real identity of the woman by chance. At that time, there was no other way to deal with it other than sighing helplessly.

It's been a long time since the passionate age when you would give up everything for a relationship, not to mention the two people who talked about it with beer cans are mature heroes who have experienced society and time. Their blood and painstaking efforts are all sprinkled on In a place that is completely different from love, one person has a slightly passive and cold temperament, while the other has been smoothed by society and time, even if he was so passionate when he was young.

In the later stage, there are always some people complaining vaguely that All Might has stopped moving after becoming famous, but who can say that it is not because the hero has passed the time when he can sacrifice everything.

The heroes on the altar do not have the right to show weakness or bow down, but they are still human beings, and human beings have limits, whether it is body or mind.

What's more, there are some things that really cannot withstand sacrifice and gambling at all.

——All Might can't afford to gamble that this society will be turned upside down again, and Aizawa Shota can't afford to gamble that his students' future and life unconsciousness will be destroyed in the hands of a person who should have died more than 600 years ago.

The world of adults is cruel and realistic. They noticed that Bakugo Katsuki was eager to try something, but they chose to ignore it because of the mentality of an elder looking at outstanding juniors...Maybe, there are so many more Little compassion.

They didn't forget that the original Lian Su appeared with Kiara Seshoin—and in terms of aptitude, Katsuki Bakugo was still far behind.

The reappearance of miracles is not something that can be interfered by human beings.

Bakugo Katsuki failed, failed again and again - he just vaguely touched a little bit of fur that laymen can see, the inner magic power, the source of mana, the way of drawing the magic circle, or his own level of magic waterway He didn't know it at all, and he tested it countless times like a fool. Even Bakugo Katsuki had to admit that he couldn't summon Liansu.

In the eyes of outsiders, for a long period of time, Bakugo Katsuki seems to have become calmer and calmer, but on the whole he is still the arrogant young man. Aizawa Shouta was faintly relieved by this, but it was a little vague. concerns, but unable to ask directly.

Because it's "normal" for someone to beat himself.

From the perspective of ordinary people's judgment of death, Lian Su's death is more thorough. The praise and lament after her death belonged to more than 600 years ago. With the beautiful rose petals, others can't even understand the numb and astonished expression of Katsuki Bakugo at that moment when he tried to hug someone but only hugged him until he was full of emptiness.

It is worth mentioning that the sports festival at that time had to be dismissed because of the sudden riot and the outside riots that lost the suppression of the heroic spirits. The enemy alliance's ultimate goal of killing All Might was forced to be exposed. The disaster seems to end with a completely farce-like ending.

In the end, the vague truth of the sports festival was only known to a few people in the school management. Bakugo Katsuki helped explain the connection and the details he knew, and the principal and a few others helped to speculate together, even if they didn’t know the final result. Who is the disappearing black shadow, but the physical reaction at that time cannot be ignored.

"...Let's regard it as the last blessing and protection of the living world by the dead in the past, miraculous protection."

In the end, the headmaster left such a comment, so everyone took this matter to heart and said no more.

Strictly speaking, Katsumi Bakugo actually died two people at the sports festival in his first year of school.

However, one of them is just a combination of dead bodies driven by instinct, and the other is a heroic spirit from more than 600 years ago, so strictly speaking, these two people should have died long ago.

After all, human beings only have one life, isn't this the most basic common sense.

At that time, the enemy alliance had all been imprisoned, and the extremely active hero killers suddenly disappeared after that. There was no other reaction in the school except for the amazing flower rain after the sports festival. Su—she existed for a very short time in the eyes of this year's students. Even though she has a strong sense of existence and is very popular, she has not made everyone obsessed with her to the point where she must be tracked down to find out a general whereabouts.

As for the provocation in the general class, the children said it was because of the teacher, and there was also a part of their own dissatisfaction with the hero class.

——In the school, traces belonging to a certain person were gradually erased.

With the joint cooperation of the school and the society, this riot gradually disappeared, but after a few months, everyone's study and life returned to the previous step-by-step.

On the other hand, Bakugo Katsuki became more and more silent, his eyes were faintly black, and layers of bandages appeared on his arms.

On that day, Aizawa Shouta brutally dragged the boy into the health room. After an afternoon of conversation, the next day, Bakugo Katsumi returned to the way he was when he first entered school.

...but there is still a difference.

Xiaosheng is still different from him in the past.

Izuku Midoriya, who grew up with him, knows this very well.

Now Xiaosheng, rather than recovering his original appearance, it is better to say that he has restored his "original appearance in the eyes of others" - the kind of wanton laughing and scolding blending into the crowd, but often in front of a cold-eyed onlooker The posture is very similar to someone.

...Yes, very much like the former Lian Su.

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——They once thought that the disappearance of the heroic spirit was a symbol of the end, but the storm did not stop.

Someone spent ten years weaving a huge net and buried it in this world, and diverted everyone's attention as if nothing had happened.

If Nezu had to say it much later, he would only say that they still underestimated that woman too much.

I underestimated a woman, underestimated the dead in the past, underestimated the king who once controlled a country and could influence future generations for decades and hundreds of years after his death.

...Actually, from the perspective of this society, it's hard not to underestimate Lian Su and the era she once led.

There is no personality, no technology. From the perspective of the present era, every page of history in that era is full of antiquity, blood, and absurdity that modern people can't understand at all.

"If I were in the same position, I would be able to do what she did back then." I don't know how many people have thought about this idea.

Principal Nezu noticed the existence of that net, but he didn't feel that it would pose any real threat—people's hearts are not a battle between steel and concrete. He can know that by destroying a line, he can trigger a series of chain explosions, but he has no confidence in himself. Whether someone in society will become what he wants.

Not to mention, he didn't even understand what Lian Su wanted to do.

——In the third year after Lian Su disappeared, there was an argument in the society called "why should people with no personality and weak personality be discriminated against?" When watching with mentality, under the eyes of countless supporters, it quietly burned into a scorching fire that wanted to burn everything;

In the fifth year, some people began to question the operation mechanism of heroes in this society. When the government faced chaos and violence, it would always be suppressed by professional heroes. It was a passive existence as a second stand: people worshiped heroes without limit, and evaluated the quality of individuality. It depends on the strength of combat power, and the guidance for children is not to show their strengths, but to rely on whether they are suitable to be heroes as the first criterion for judging whether they are good or bad;

At this time, some people raised doubts, and they turned their attention to those who spoke out. Without exception, they are all top people who have achieved fame in their respective fields. In addition, the biggest thing they have in common is that they had personality problems when they were in school. It was judged that he did not have the talent to become a hero, and after graduation, he did not choose the path of becoming a professional hero that most young people flocked to.

As a result, the rebuttal theory was forced to stop, and the denunciation on paper intensified, and gradually developed to the side.

In the sixth year, the perennial supersaturation of professional heroes began to decrease, and some people in society began to change their perspectives to observe their own personalities. Many people who were not suitable to be professional heroes but were unexpectedly suitable for other social professions left this industry and chose to truly develop themselves. own personality.

In the same year, All Might chose to retire and launched his successor Midoriya Izuku.

In the eighth year, Izuku Midoriya took over All Might's title of "Symbol of Peace" and became the number one professional hero; Katsumi Bakugo temporarily ranked second and was called "Symbol of Victory" by people.

...not a symbol of peace, but a symbol of victory.

In these years, Bakugo Katsuki has never lost in actual combat.

But he never seems to use his full strength. This is the boring reason why he was judged too arrogant and missed No.1. But in the end, he was never easily beaten with one hand, lying on the ground When I was out of breath, I never encountered the same "terrible" enemy again.

——The teacher who taught him is too excellent, excellent beyond this era, beyond the constraints of time.

In terms of strength, some people even say that he may be far above the number one hero Midoriya Izuku.

Many people can't understand why Bakugo Katsuki was so obsessed with victory and number one when he was young, but he became so much calmer when he grew up?

The reporter followed the clues and interviewed Shota Aizawa, the high school class teacher of Bakugo Katsuki's boyhood.Faced with this question, Aizawa Shouta, who was already showing signs of aging, just pondered for a moment, and then answered a vague answer that seemed plausible.

"When I was a teenager who knew nothing, I suddenly saw a vast and boundless sea that was completely unimaginable before. The shock and amazement I experienced for the first time... is something I can't even see after growing up. The existence of the replacement is precisely because I have seen the vast sea, so I don’t care what kind of scenery I see in the future.”

The reporters who interviewed were ignorant, and those who didn't know the truth interpreted this sentence as Bakugo Katsuki had witnessed All Might in its heyday when he was young, the symbol of peace in the past and the number one hero today. The difference is the sea of ​​youth and the scene of adulthood.

Some people have found what Katsuki Bakugo said when he was a child: he wants to surpass All Might.

Then "it is meaningless if the person who surpasses is not All Might, so he is not interested in being the number one hero today", this is the reason why Bakugo Katsuki did not use all his strength, right?

... This interpretation is also right and wrong.

He once had a person who wanted to surpass him, but there was no way to find traces of that person again, even if he only had the chance to say "Look, I can beat you" to the remaining traces.

In the tenth year, he finally saw that person's name again.

Behind this paper war without gunpowder and flames, behind those people who took to the streets with their flags high, behind that time that seemed to be forgotten by everyone.

——Another thing these guides have in common is that they also came from the general department of Xiongying High School and received the teachings of the same person.

...Look, what a horrible person.

Katsuki Bakugo was sitting in his office, looking at the stack of materials sent by his assistant in his hand, he couldn't help laughing while covering his forehead.

There is a person who spends more than ten years preparing for this move, and it takes ten years to complete this move.

Everyone is in the position she expects in her heart. Even Izuku Midoriya, who seems to be placed out of the chess game by her, has gradually integrated into it because of her childhood experience, and has become an important member of this personality equality movement. .

——Happy Ending.

For the vast majority of people, such an ending is undoubtedly a happy ending.

Everyone has their own shining life, no longer bound by the eyes of heroes, no longer bound by the social rules that are either good or evil.

Back and forth, 20 years.

Originally, Bakugo Katsuki thought that he could finally beat her once.

Originally, Bakugo Katsuki thought that he could finally forget about her existence.

...At first, Bakugo Katsuki thought that he could really dig that name out of his flesh and blood.

But that is impossible.

She left a mountain in his heart that could never be overcome, and after her, he would never be able to find any existence worth looking up to and chasing after.

He thought he could get rid of it, but in fact, he saw that everyone was mediocre and mediocre, and he was completely unattractive; the little movements of bowing his head and twisting his pen when reading and writing on weekdays were exactly like her; Someone commented that his battles as an adult were "every time a visual feast of violent aesthetics"...

Bakugo chases someone for too long, the faster he walks, the further away he is from others.

Originally, if Lian Su was an ordinary person, he still had time to watch her step down from the altar like All Might once did.

Heroes age and beauties grow old, this is a fate that no one can escape.

But Naihe Liansu will always be the special one.

She was extremely self-willed and left a glorious life in the distant era, and she appeared in front of the child who knew nothing in the posture of her heyday. When she appeared, she left such an amazing impression on the boy's eyes that Even the way of leaving is grand like a gorgeous festival.

It seems that as long as that person exists in the field of vision, everything around him will quietly fade away all the colors.

She is not a flower withered on the branch, but a rose that is destroyed at the moment when it blooms incomparably gorgeous, and finally remembered with eternal gold.

And many years later, when he stood in front of the oil painting in the museum and looked at the portrait hundreds of years ago, he slowly realized one thing.

"Ah...she's dead."

He died more than 600 years ago, in a place that he couldn't touch anyway.