[Comprehensive] Why am I not dead yet?

The moment Merlin was summoned as a heroic spirit, he knew clearly that this was a distorted world.

Different from the countless singularities that Chaldea had repaired before this, this is a time period close to the Age of Gods. In the sense of magic, it is the watershed that separates the Age of Gods from human society. The decline of the Age of Gods and the rise of the human race are the meaning of this era and also magic. The reason why the king set the last human rights burning here.

Slaughtering human beings, revival of the gods, reprogramming human principles, and condescendingly leading human beings to his so-called perfection with the posture of the magic king, this is the ultimate goal of the human law-burning Getia.

The gods of this world are not the guides of human beings. This is not surprising. The world is so big, and the mythology system has different appearances under the support of different cultural backgrounds in different countries. Gods who sacrifice themselves for human beings naturally also exist. Like the Sumerian mythology system, the gods are only based on the reason of "creating convenient individuals to work for the gods". In other words, the gods in the Sumerian mythology are not particularly friendly to humans.

The so-called three-goddess alliance was nothing more than a means used by the Magic King to cover up the real ultimate enemy——the original mother goddess of Sumerian mythology, Tiamat at the level of the creator god.

It is precisely because of this similar attribute that the gods of this era are willing to join forces with the Magic King to "exterminate all human beings who can continue to develop subsequent history." They are moving around for this purpose, but also because the three goddesses check and balance each other. The containment treaty gave humans a chance to breathe.

For this reason, King Gilgamesh of Uruk, who has the clairvoyance that can peek into the future prediction results, dismantled other cities, built walls with materials, collected food, trained soldiers, and built the largest and last city to protect the world. ——It is the absolute warcraft front today.

He used magic to put the consciousness of the god Tiamat into a deep sleep, and won Uruk's last respite.And at the request of Gilgamesh, looking for a way to solve the current situation.

This is not something that can be easily done by killing or eradicating the alliance of the three goddesses. The three goddesses are just a cover, in order to prepare for the land clearing before the god Tiamat wakes up, in order to completely cut off the future of human destruction , Merlin told the story of Tiamat only once.

It was Marduk who defeated Tiamat, but what really made Tiamat fail was the step of breaking away from the protection of monsters. Considering it from another perspective, from a mythological point of view, Tiamat was protected by monsters or It is the eleven monsters with the support of Tiamat that even the gods should be afraid of; so Merlin thought, if he doesn't think about how to defeat, but "kill the eleven monsters again" in front of Tiamat If this matter, maybe it can really save the world.

At first glance, a very simple matter.

Tiamat wanted to destroy the world, so she found a way to defeat her through mythology and reappeared here——

but……

He knelt down in a corner of the palace and covered his forehead. The colic in his heart made him so painful that he couldn't breathe, and he was dripping with cold sweat.

……what's up.

Because at first he thought it was just a death at the level of a heroic spirit—that is, even if he died, it would not matter much if the memory of the branch returned to the seat of the heroic spirit—so he was too serious about this matter at all.

Anyway, they are all dead heroic spirits, so what's the point of dying again to save the world?

Merlin has no feelings that really belong to him, and making such a judgment is actually only a matter of course for him.

In the final analysis, he is only a half-human, half-dream existence, a vicious guy who has intelligence but can't understand how important human feelings are. To put it bluntly, he can understand the reasons for human beings' sadness, sorrow, pain and happiness, and can also judge from the perspective of common sense and the reactions of others Figure out what kind of response you should make.

But what kind of feeling do those emotions bring to human beings?

He didn't understand these things at all.

——Before the heart was put into his chest, he had maintained such a life, although even now that he had pain, he still couldn't really understand what a human heart is.

Why lament?

Why sad?

Why do you have to suffer so much for someone who has nothing to do with you?

Merlin didn't understand these things, but at this moment, he felt very clearly the "emotions" that really came from him——

When that person brushed past him expressionlessly, he suddenly recalled that he had seemingly ignored the elf woman who was looking at him from a distance as if nothing had happened countless times, and turned his head to continue to move closer to him because of his handsome appearance. The ladies and ladies who chatted and chatted.

It was the first and only time I saw myself in such a picture, what did you say at that time?

Ah, right.

"——No, the lady over there is probably just passing by, hahahahahaha... No, no, it's not a lover, it's just a guest you don't know?" At that time, I looked at the suspicious noble lady beside me. He waved his hands and explained.

The reason why it was said only this time was because that time she just stood there and waited, and did not come over to say anything to him.It wasn't until Merlin blurted out that sentence that he turned around and left calmly. Vivienne's reaction was so calm that he was a little scared by being so calm.

——Supposedly, at this time, shouldn’t he rush up and splash water all over his face, or encourage the mermaid to drag himself into the water as he did when he was a child until he almost drowned?

After he went back, when he carefully mentioned this matter, Vivienne just smiled at him and said softly: "Anyway, I'm already considered a loser, so why should I lose my last demeanor? That lady loves you, ma'am A child's first beautiful date must never be interrupted for some boring reason."

Obviously it should be very sad, the knight Gawain who accompanied her that time looked angrier than her.

But why don't you tell me, Vivienne... because you know that I will only react correctly, not really understand your heart.

...It's so uncomfortable, Vivienne.

I'm so sick right now that I'm dying.

The white-haired man clenched the cloth on his chest with trembling fingers, shivering and huddled in the corner of the wall, the despair from his chest almost drowned him to suffocation.

Have you ever felt such pain?

The unintentional succubi can only rely on this opportunity to feel the heart... But it really hurts, the eyes can't see clearly, the ears can't hear the sound, and the emotional pain can really spread to the nerves and heart. The flesh and bones extending to every inch of the whole body invaded the bone marrow with endless despair, and even the lips and tongue, which were good at words, became uncontrollably stiff, until the throat was numb to the point where he couldn't breathe.

—I killed your heart, my dear Vivian.

And this time, I made the decision to let you die, another sense of killing the meaning of your existence, let you kill with your own hands what you have insisted on.

will you hate me

Will you still have feelings to hate me?

He thought about these questions in a trance, until someone appeared in front of him.

The man was dressed in white, with blond hair and golden pupils, and a gorgeous lapis lazuli chain was wrapped around his wrists. He jingled as he walked, but it sounded very tight. The voice stopped beside him. Merlin raised his head, and Lian Su lowered his head condescendingly. look at him.

"I haven't seen you for a long time, but I don't know that you still have this habit. Is it a bad habit developed by Avalon? Are you still shrinking here? It's late, and the king asked me to take you to a place to rest."

"...Vivian?"

Merlin raised his head, staring blankly at the familiar face.

The woman pursed her lips, and after a long while, she hummed very lightly.

The magician lowered his eyes and tried hard to raise the corners of his mouth but found that he couldn't do it at all.

……shit.

——I can’t stop laughing.

If you can't laugh... wouldn't it be the same as before?

I have been deliberately imitating the painful and sad appearance of human beings, making gestures as if I really have feelings, and making the other party's heart soften again and again, and finally chose to continue to indulge my actions.

When Merlin finally had the chance to get close to her, his first reaction was to quickly back away, burying his face behind his sleeve.

Seeing this, Lian Su just sighed lightly, and then squatted down on one knee in front of Meilin. She rested one arm on her bent knee, and reached out with the other hand to touch the top of his head, and when he raised his head cautiously, she pointed The belly lightly rubbed against the slightly reddened corners of the other party's eyes.

The magician heard the woman in front of him ask in a tone he was all too familiar with: "What's the matter, Merlin."

...The same tone as when they were young, a voice that could make him feel at ease and comfortable at any time.

There was only Vivienne's voice, a gentle, helpless voice that seemed to indulge everything to the end no matter what happened.

For him, only in front of this person can be regarded as the last Avalon.

——The utopia that belongs only to him.

The Flower Magician raised his hand tremblingly, and held the palm next to his cheek.

And she didn't refuse.

The Dream Demon stared greedily at the bright and beautiful face in front of him, how long could he look at it?He hasn't seen the gentle Vivienne for too long, and the only impression left in his memory is the indifferent and solemn Lake Elf after his heart was dug out. The time of imprisonment in Avalon is too long , so long that he almost couldn't remember her face and voice.

"...Vivian?"

Lian Su didn't move.

He tentatively leaned forward and put his head next to her neck - she still didn't have any rejection.

Immediately afterwards, those long and slender hands tremblingly reached out, caressed her thin back little by little, and pulled her into his arms!

Lian Su was shaken by him, and subconsciously raised his hand, what he grabbed was the muscular shoulder covered under the magician's robe of Merlin.

Her fingers trembled, and her eyes subconsciously fell on his broad back—to be exact, it was where the heart beat.

"...Vivian, my Vivian. You're back...you didn't abandon me, you're really still here."

Merlin suddenly didn't realize it, he sighed softly with a voice as if he was about to cry.

At this moment, he didn't care about apologizing to his past, what happened in this world, what kind of thoughts the woman in front of him had towards him, whether she wanted to use him or kill him. Will reappear here, those have nothing to do with him now...

——For him, it would be good if she was here.