Glass [entertainment circle]

Only one light was on in the cafe, and Deng Yuantian sat at the table, listening to Cheng Nan talk about those things one by one.

So he knew what Cheng Nan really meant when he was talking to Dang Jing.

So he knew that there was no use between them, and someone else leaked Tan Xue's flight information.

So he knew that all the pain came from a misunderstanding.

They both liked each other, but no one said they liked each other, and a series of misunderstandings led to the final separation.

The pain that cannot be erased by the wonderful scenery gradually disappeared during this conversation, so that Deng Yuantian was almost at a loss when he heard the end.

The heartache for so long is actually unnecessary.

He was already loved, deeply loved.

In addition to being at a loss, realizing what Cheng Nan had experienced in the past ten months, his heart seemed to be soaked in bitter rain, full of soreness and self-blame.

If he had been braver back then and asked those words when Cheng Nan stopped him, they could have communicated with each other earlier, instead of being separated for so long and each being sad for so long.

The corners of his eyes were red, and his gaze was like that of a wounded animal.

Cheng Nan saw it, and his heart was surging. He stretched out his hand, carefully wiped the redness with his fingertips, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, don't cry."

Deng Yuantian's eyes were slightly wet, he raised his arm and pressed his hand firmly on his cheek, shaking his head.

His eyes were glistening, he rubbed his cheek against Cheng Nan's palm, then turned his head slightly, closed his eyes and kissed Cheng Nan's warm palm.

The tingling feeling flowed from the palm of his hand to his whole body, and Cheng Nan's whole body was stiff. At that moment, he didn't think about anything, and he couldn't think about anything.

Endless joy overwhelmed his consciousness.

The soft touch disappeared, Deng Yuantian let go of his hand, before Cheng Nan could slowly withdraw his hand, he had already stood up and reached across the wooden table between them.

When the distance between their faces was three centimeters, Deng Yuantian stopped.

His heart was beating so fast and so brave.

"Can I kiss?"

Cheng Nan's pupils shrank suddenly, and his Adam's apple slid up and down.

He didn't answer, but stood up directly, walked to Deng Yuantian's side, put his arms around his waist, and slowly lowered his head.

When the lips touched, a hot current surged through the body.

Deng Yuantian didn't know why, but his eyes suddenly became hot.

He trembled slightly, not because of fear, but because he was so happy at the moment, like a dream, that he didn't know if he was dreaming.Cheng Nan felt this, and tightened his arms around his waist.

It was the first time for two people to kiss, and no one was more skilled than the other.

They tasted each other's lips from different angles, sometimes hitting their teeth, but after a moment's pause, they touched each other's lips again.

He kept kissing until his breath became unsteady before stopping.

The gentle orange light and the moonlight outside the window kept silent tacitly, shining on a pair of lovers.

With their foreheads touching, Deng Yuantian hooked Cheng Nan's back neck, stroking the slightly prickly hair stubble with his fingers one by one, Cheng Nan lowered his eyes and obediently allowed him to move.

After a while, he whispered, "I love you."

After intertwining eyes for a moment, Cheng Nan lowered his head uncontrollably, pecked his lips, and said hoarsely, "I love you too."

After a few minutes, they left the cafe.

Before leaving, Deng Yuantian left all the money on his body as a tip.

They found a hotel nearby and asked for a room.

After a simple wash, Deng Yuantian lay on the bed, and when Cheng Nan came out of the bathroom, he stretched out his hand to him, asking for a hug.

Cheng Nan quickly went to bed, held him in his arms, kissed his eyes again, and said in a low voice, "Are you sleepy?"

"Not sleepy yet," Deng Yuantian looked at him, "I want to talk to you for a while."

"Okay, what do you want to say?"

"I want to hear what happened when you were a child, and what happened between you and your parents," Deng Yuantian paused, "but if you don't want to talk about it, it doesn't matter."

Cheng Nan hummed, and just said, "If you want to hear it, I'll tell you, but it might be boring."

"Will not."

Cheng Nan continued.

His way of narrating is very straightforward, without any emotional color, and many things will not be exaggerated. He will only stop to add when Deng Yuantian asks questions.

Even though he explained the cruel past very simply, there was no smile on Deng Yuantian's face from beginning to end.

His chest was uncomfortable, as if something heavy was pressing there.

He finally knew why Cheng Nan had such a personality when they first met.

Not only because indifference is a protective shell, but also because it is impossible to warm people's hearts when there is no expectation in life.

The countless sufferings in growing up have shaped his character, and also deprived him of part of his self-confidence—the self-confidence that he thinks he has a chance to be truly loved.

So he credulously believed falsehoods, doubted himself, and hesitated.

People who grew up in a normal and sound environment will not have such strong and deep self-confidence. It is precisely because of this that Deng Yuantian feels even more uncomfortable.

In fact, why not himself?

The past between him and Hawke when he was a child, and the words Tang Yan said, all these hit his heart deeply, digging out the self-doubt hidden deep in his heart: Is he not worthy of being liked by others? ?Not worthy of being loved?

Because no one treats him sincerely except his parents.

So standing outside Lin Ben's office, he quickly fled without daring to ask anything.

It turns out that love is also a glass maze, and they used to be two lost fools.

The winding road, which one can lead to the end, which person is the right one, which good things are real and not the illusion of the mirror of fate, they don't know.

They stood at both ends of the road, staggered forward in the maze, and when they looked ahead with eyes that no longer doubted, they found the true road.

After Cheng Nan finished speaking, Deng Yuantian also talked about his childhood.

When it came to Hawke, he could easily say it himself, but Cheng Nan got up sullenly, holding his calf.

Many years have passed, and the scabs have already faded away from the places that were cut open by the blade, leaving only a few faint pale marks.

"What is this?" His eyes fell on a fresh scar.

"I got hurt a little when I was in the polar region, but it's healed now, it doesn't hurt...it's gone..."

Deng Yuantian opened his eyes wide, staring blankly at Cheng Nan leaning down, his thin lips pressed against his healed wound, his kisses fell on all the painful sites, and he lingered pityingly.The edges and corners of his brows and eyes were softened by tenderness, and every arc was heart-pounding.

Soon, they were sitting face to face on the bed, hugging each other, and kissing again.

This time the kiss was no longer as jerky as the first time, Deng Yuantian felt extremely complete as his lips and tongue intertwined.

After the kiss, he panted slightly, rubbed Cheng Nan's chin with his hand, his brown pupils reflected the flowing broken gold, and his shallow smile was extremely innocent and moving.After a while, Deng Yuantian leaned over and kissed Cheng Nan's eyes.

He said: "They don't love you, I will love you."

He wants to give all the love he can give, and hand it over to this person together with himself.

They talked for a long time before they turned off the lights and said goodnight to each other.

This was the first time Deng Yuantian fell asleep quickly after experiencing ten months of long-term insomnia.

When he fell asleep, Cheng Nan opened his eyes, watching his sleeping face in the silence of the moonlight.

Without the previous misunderstanding, they will be together more smoothly.But Cheng Nan knew that the man ten months ago might never bring up those past events.

The estrangement is like a barrier, and all the twists and turns are just opportunities to break the glass. The tribulations make them all grow up, dare to face it directly, and dare to open their hearts to the one they love.

In the early morning of the next day, Deng Yuantian was awakened by a few birdsong.

He opened his eyes and looked to the side. There was nothing around him, and he was the only one on the bed.

But he smelled the fragrance, proving that what happened last night was not a dream.

He got out of bed, washed his face and brushed his teeth, then walked to the small kitchen to the east of the bedroom.

Cheng Nan was standing in front of the cooking counter, making breakfast with his back to the door.

Being hugged around the waist, Cheng Nan's hands stopped moving, he turned his head to the side, Deng Yuantian put his chin on his shoulder, bent his eyes and smiled.

"Good morning."

Cheng Nan also said, "Good morning."

"Are you making a sandwich?"

"Well, it will be ready soon, you can go outside and wait for a few minutes."

Deng Yuantian shook his head, buried his face on the side of his neck, and said vaguely, "I'll stay here with you."

How could Cheng Nan refuse, but the warm breath on the side of his neck was very provocative, making his body tense, and the movement of cutting lettuce suddenly became a little stiff.

After the two sandwiches were ready, Cheng Nan left some salad dressing on his hand. He picked up the paper to wipe it off, but Deng Yuantian raised his hand from behind, put his fingers into his mouth, and sucked off the salad dressing.

During the meal, Deng Yuantian talked about his plans for the next few years.

"I want to wait until next year to report at the university. Besides music, I want to learn something else, but I haven't decided what to study for the time being."

Cheng Nan said: "There is still half a year left, don't worry."

Deng Yuantian nodded and took a bite of the bread.

The month after he quit the showbiz, the media still came after him looking for news, but then he left for a trip, and after a few months, the enthusiasm of these troublesome people was gone.He released an album in country D in July, which was very popular, but because he only released songs and did not show up in public events, even if he was sunbathing on the beach with Matthew, he was not followed by anyone.In the future, he will still attend some occasions, but he does not plan to fully enter the entertainment industry.

He enjoys his current life, has enough personal space, and will not be disturbed excessively.

Deng Yuantian took another sip of milk and asked, "What about you?"

Cheng Nan thought for a moment and said, "Dancing will continue, and I want to develop into an actor."

Deng Yuantian blinked: "I remember you made a movie before."

Cheng Nan stared at him: "Have you read it?"

"It flashed on the TV," Deng Yuantian pursed his lips, and whispered, "I was still sad at that time, so I jumped off the stage."

Cheng Nan smiled faintly, and raised his hand to help him wipe the crumbs from the corner of his mouth: "It's okay, if you want to watch it, I'll watch it with you again."

When talking about Wu Ze, Deng Yuantian told Cheng Nan that they have always been in touch.

Father Wu has undergone several surgeries and is currently in good condition. If the surgeries are successful a week later, he will be able to recover.

This operation is very important, and he plans to go back.

After the two discussed, Deng Yuantian quickly booked the ticket.

Two days later, in the evening, the names of Deng Yuantian and Cheng Nan were both listed at the top of the hot search list.

The long-lost name aroused the curiosity of netizens, and they clicked in one after another.

In the photos sent out collectively by the marketing accounts, the two appeared together at the Capital International Airport.

Most importantly, their hands are still interlocked.