Glass [entertainment circle]

Because of his childhood experience, Cheng Nan formed his own personality, he lacked the ability to integrate into the group, and these changed after Deng Yuantian arrived.

He had a new teammate, and the two became roommates.

During the first week of meeting Deng Yuantian, Cheng Nan realized that he was different from the people he had come into contact with in the past.

When those brown eyes looked at him, there was light in them, making it impossible to see any worldly emotions from them, they were the cleanest eyes he had ever seen.

During middle school and college, Cheng Nan heard people around him comment on him. They said that he was like a cold stone that couldn't be warmed up, and that he had an aura that no one should enter.

What others said seemed useless to Deng Yuantian, he didn't feel normal, he often took the initiative to chat, and Cheng Nan would get a good night every night before going to bed.

He even noticed the wound on Cheng Nan's finger and brought him a band-aid.

It was only later that Cheng Nan found out that Deng Yuantian's blood vessels were much weaker than ordinary people, and it was difficult to try many things, such as piercing tattoos.

He said that he is very envious of himself, he has a talent for dancing, has a cool temperament, and does cool things.

At that time, Cheng Nan was full of doubts, and he would never be able to bear the word envy.Because from childhood to adulthood, the thing he gets most from others is called sympathy.

Sympathy and envy should have nothing in common.

Just like steel and ice will melt in the burning of fire, starting from that Band-Aid, their relationship has gradually broken the ice.

He began to respond to the routine of good night every night, and was no longer completely passive.

He got a "Happy Birthday" and a piece of cake for his birthday, the only birthday he's had since he was six.

Before going to bed at night, he said good night and closed his eyes. Even though he had brushed his teeth, there still seemed to be that sweet smell between his teeth.

At that time, Cheng Nan already knew that he would never forget his 24th birthday, and he would always remember that someone gave him a custom-made cake on this day.

Before participating in "New Generation Men's Team", Tan Xue finally found her and took Deng Yuantian out.

At that time, Cheng Nan felt uneasy and confused like never before.

He has just established a friendship with the other party, is this luck going to be taken back soon?

Fortunately, Deng Yuantian stayed on.After learning of his decision, Cheng Nan breathed a sigh of relief.

In the next two months, they stood on the stage together, faced difficulties together, and defeated their opponents together.

When you realize that you like someone, you often realize it in an instant, but the point where you are really attracted is hard to figure out.

He vaguely knew that the moment when he was tempted was around the third recording session, when Deng Yuantian sat in front of the piano and sang the song for him.

The people in the world who can speculate are only one in billions.

The luckiest thing to come to the world is to meet you.

At that moment, Cheng Nan clearly felt his heart beating wildly. He had never experienced such surging emotion before, and he lost all sanity under the bright lights.

How lucky he is.

Later, he quietly named the song he gave to himself "Aoyou".

Your dark eyes are the most vast universe I have ever seen.

Cheng Nan thought that he would like to go down together, travel the world together, and see all the scenery in life.

He wanted Deng Yuantian's eyes to keep looking at him, not to move away.

Soon, Cheng Nan fell from heaven to hell.

The relationship between him and Cheng Siming was constantly discussed by netizens, and he received a call from Lin Ben that night.

"Since Yuantian intends to form a CP with you, if you don't reject it, you should try your best to do business."

In the cool night wind, a thunderstorm exploded in his mind.

He suddenly understood why he got so many offers and overtures from Deng Yuantian.

It turned out that there was no such thing as being attracted, and those gentle and touching words were just illusions, but he actually took it seriously, and if he said it, he might be ridiculed by others.

He, Cheng Nan, has been in the entertainment industry for two years, yet he still hasn't understood those rules and routines. He is really naive and stupid.

The ridiculous thing is that deep down in his heart, he once had a little delusion sincerely, delusion that part of Deng Yuantian's feelings for him is called love.

That night he had a dream, in the dream he bullied Deng Yuantian down.

In his dream, he kept kissing those eyes, kissing away the flushed corners of the eyes and the falling tears.In the dream, he was like a wild beast on the way out, repeating in his mouth constantly, asking the people under him to keep looking at him.

In the dream, he was full, but when he woke up, it was nothing. From the beginning to the end, he was the only one floating in love and desire, and the others were calm and relative from the beginning to the end.

After blowing the night wind and having that dream again, he had a fever the next day.

Deng Yuantian accompanied him to the hospital, and after he came back with the medicine, two photographers came in to shoot the sideshow.

Facing the camera and watching the hot water Deng Yuantian poured for himself, Cheng Nan felt a tearing pain in his chest.

How much he wished that what Lin Ben said was false, and he didn't want the interaction between the two of them to be just a transaction and a show.

So, like a willful and ignorant child, he said something awkward: "Don't eat now, eat it at night."

The moment he finished speaking, he regretted it.

Sure enough, even though he quickly changed his approach and drank the medicine, Deng Yuantian was still angry.

In those few days, he was treated with alienation.

In the finals, standing on the stage again, Cheng Nan was terrified to find that Deng Yuantian's gaze was no longer on him, and this realization made him almost make a mistake.

Fortunately, after a false alarm, they finally succeeded in winning the championship. In the hug given by Deng Yuantian, Cheng Nan closed his eyes and hugged him tightly, and finally compromised with reality and surrendered to his humble love.

In fact, there is nothing wrong with being fake, at least he can deceive himself and pretend that he really got it.

After the final, Dang Jing stopped him.

"According to your personality, you probably haven't confessed yet, do you want me to tell you the truth?" Dang Jing asked half-truthfully.

Cheng Nan looked at him, then looked at the dark night sky, and said calmly: "No, you misunderstood. It's just firing CP, there is no unnecessary affection between us."

Yes, it's just his wishful thinking.

In the interview after the final, Deng Yuantian shook his head facing the camera, denying that he had ever been in a relationship, and also denied that he had an ideal type.

He knew that the other party was telling the truth, and he might still feel uneasy before, but after he could no longer understand this point, he felt calm at that moment.

Cheng Nan also noticed that Tang Yan glanced at him, with a mocking smile on his lips.

Right, he must be very naive in the eyes of others, he didn't even have the qualifications to get those good things, if he gets the illusion but becomes greedy, and wants to turn the fake into real, then it is wishful thinking.

From then on, he began to read CP Chaohua. During the carnival of a group of people, he also assumed that he was really in a dream, imagining that there was really deep love hidden in Deng Yuantian's eyes.

After the final, a group of them went to Deng Yuantian's home.

After Cheng Siming and Qi Xuan divorced, Cheng Nan almost never ate dumplings.

This kind of food has a deep bond with the family, and the stuffing is mixed with reunion and beauty.When alone, Cheng Nan never ate dumplings.

However, that day, he ate two bowls.In fact, you can eat more, but unfortunately no more.

The next day, they went to see the sunrise.

Before sunrise, Cheng Nan was sitting in the car, and Deng Yuantian was sleepy, so he closed his eyes and fell asleep unsuspectingly.

So, he did a wrong thing.

Looking at that angelic sleeping face, Cheng Nan couldn't control himself and leaned over. When he recovered from the torrent of emotions, his lips were already lightly pressed against Deng Yuantian's cheek.

What are you doing? !

He woke up from a dream, suddenly came back to his senses, sat up straight, but even though the touch was only for a second, the heart rate in his chest had climbed to an incredible height, and it took a long time to calm down.

That was the day he made a big mistake.

After the holiday, they returned to China and continued their busy work.

On the night of going to the grilled fish shop, he and Deng Yuantian were surrounded by crowds and had to escape.They hugged each other and hid in the room full of flour sacks.

Cheng Nan was delighted at such a close distance, but he didn't dare to keep his gaze on Deng Yuantian's face for a long time, and had to force himself to look away, fearing that if he continued to look at it, he would not be able to suppress the emotions in his chest.

If only time could stop at that moment.

After returning to the car, Cheng Nan held on to Deng Yuantian's hand and wiped off the flour bit by bit with a wet towel.

For a moment, he had an urge to raise his head recklessly, pour out his inner feelings very seriously, and wanted to tell the person in front of him that he could do many things for him, even if it was such a small thing, he would be happy with it.

Reason still defeated that impulse, and he didn't say it.

On the day of NO.18 in December, he received a call.

The kiss that fell on Deng Yuantian's face like a steal was captured by a hidden camera.

Former college classmates, Chen Jing and Ming Qihang found Cheng Nan with their photos.

They need his heat, and those photos are the best chips.

He himself doesn't care, but if the photos are exposed in front of the public, what kind of attack will Deng Yuantian receive, and what kind of eyes will he look at himself.

If all this happened, it would be the end of the relationship between them.

Chen Jing and Ming Qihang gave him a period of time, during which time, Cheng Nan couldn't sleep at night.

Wu Ze's father was admitted to the hospital during the period, and he hurried to the hospital. When he saw Deng Yuantian, he only said a word, and then entered the ward as if to escape.

He felt guilty for doing that.

After making the decision, on New Year's Day, Cheng Nan performed a play with Chen Jing and Ming Qihang.

That scene made them get the heat they wanted, and he also kept the most precious thing.

It's the best of both worlds.

After that incident, Cheng Nan thought a lot.

He didn't want to hide it any longer. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. Instead of continuing to torture himself, it's better to burn the boat.

What if he could really be that lucky.

Even if the probability is so small that it can be ignored, he is willing to give it a go.

So that day, Cheng Nan told Lin Ben that he didn't want to fire CP anymore.

He had shown courage in uttering that sentence, but fate soon broke his long-held confidence.

After Tang Yan and Yang Wenting chose to leave, Deng Yuantian quickly went through the contract termination procedures a few days later.Cheng Nan tried hard to contact him in those few days, but all failed.

He met Deng Yuantian for the last time, and when he asked him why he left, he got an understatement answer.

No reason.

When the door closed, Cheng Nan heard the wind and snow whimpering outside the window.

The room was empty, and his heart was also hollowed out.

The weather-beaten glass of the balcony finally fell to the ground under the attack of the strong wind, and the debris splashed and splashed in his heart, where it became bloody.

Looking back at the past, Cheng Nan realized that many things had changed over the years, but one thing about him remained unchanged.

That is, no matter what, he is the one left and left behind.

In the eyes of others, he is dispensable and can be discarded at any time.No one gave him sincerity, and no one else needed the sincerity he gave.

Qi Xuan took away [-] yuan when he handed over his custody to Cheng Siming, and Dang Jing took away his trust when he pushed him to the female boss.

He managed to rebuild trust with Deng Yuantian's help, and even developed love, but this person left again, and he was left behind again.

Only the vegetation that grows under the warm sunshine can have full and vigorous vitality.In the damp ditch, only jagged and weird hard rocks can lie.

And this hard rock has never been blessed by the sun.

Except when dreaming.

The nights he had seen were all black without stars, and later he thought he had a sky full of stars, but now he saw that it was all fake.

He still had to walk alone in the dark night, walking alone, like a lone wolf.No company, no helping hand.

Two months later, he finally struggled out and walked in front of people again.

Others still find him dazzling, but only Cheng Nan knows best that his heart is riddled with holes, and those wounds don't know when they will heal.

He forced himself to pull himself together and keep walking.

Because he still loves dancing, and life will always go on, and because only when he walks in the spotlight, can he have a chance to be seen, remembered, and never forgotten.

When alone, he spends almost all his time thinking about the other person.

After Deng Yuantian left, Cheng Nan found a small book under his bed. The book was used up, and it was filled with Deng Yuantian's words.

Maybe it's because I don't need it anymore, or maybe it's because I forgot to bring it, anyway, this little book is left here, and Cheng Nan takes it with him.

He always wears that camouflage jacket, and that black T-shirt, and when he puts them on, he brings back those fond memories.

Sometimes he also comforts himself, walking down with these memories, he is not too lonely.

In the summer, he accepted a movie script from Country D. The pay was not high, and he didn't show up much. Cheng Nan thought, maybe Deng Yuantian would see this movie in the theater and think of himself briefly.

Cheng Nan followed all of Deng Yuantian's social accounts, and knew that after he left Haixing, he traveled around the world, chic and free.

He knew that he had been to the banks of the Agami River, to Lake Kasti, and to have seen the aurora.

If there is a chance, he also intends to take a look.

In July, Deng Yuantian released the sound source of the new album on ins. There were ten songs. Cheng Nan bought the ten songs and put them on the mobile phone for a single loop. Every melody and every line of the lyrics is familiar to him.

In addition to these songs, he also played back the previous chat videos repeatedly, and often had the illusion of replaying, as if the person was talking to him and smiling at him on the other side.

This situation lasted until November, and it was not until the reunion with Tang Yan at a party that Cheng Nan heard another version of the story from the other party.

He was first shocked, bewildered, and then in disbelief.

impossible?How could he be wrong?

What Tang Yan said was false, right?

But at that moment, there was still a voice in his heart saying: You have never verified it, how do you know whether it is true or false?Why not ask for evidence?

If... it's true...

Cheng Nan ran back to the car and made two phone calls.

On the first phone call, he called Lin Ben.

In the silent night, he asked with a beating heart, whether Deng Yuantian had personally said that he would fire CP with him.

Lin Ben's answer was no, and the person on the other end of the phone said lightly: "Although he didn't say it, his meaning is obvious, that is, to get closer to you to increase the heat. Is there any misunderstanding? He just didn't say it clearly. .”

The sound echoed continuously on the eardrums, and his heart almost stopped beating at that time.

Yes, that's right.Everyone in the circle is used to this kind of thing, taking the initiative to get close because of profit, not because of emotional sincerity.

Everyone does things for a purpose, for their own benefit, not because of pure liking.

Whether it is Lin Ben or others, everyone uses such conventional things to view Deng Yuantian's behavior, and conveys the misunderstood purpose to himself.Everyone felt that his approach to Cheng Nan was due to impure motives, backlash, popularity, and hype.This kind of speculation may not be out of malice, but it still tarnishes that person's pure and transparent heart.

If he hadn't heard Tang Yan's words, he might never have known the truth.

On the second call, Cheng Nan called Ming Qihang.

Before the call connected, he had already guessed the answer.

Ming Qihang frankly admitted that he took advantage of Cheng Nan to go to the bathroom to get his mobile phone to read the chat records between him and Deng Yuantian that day, and then leaked Tan Xue's flight information to the paparazzi.

His mobile phone has a password, but the setting is too common, and the shrewd Ming Qihang quickly tried out the password.

June 6th is Deng Yuantian's and Cheng Nan's birthday.

After two phone calls, Cheng Nan leaned back in his chair, his senses almost paralyzed. He couldn't hear the wind or smell the night, only a person's smile kept appearing in his mind.

He felt ecstasy, and felt ecstasy.He wanted to laugh, but also wanted to cry without tears.

It turned out that what I most longed for had indeed already been obtained.It's just that he went the wrong way, so he didn't see the starry night sky.

The headlights suddenly turned on, illuminating the road ahead.

Cheng Nan restrained the trembling all over his body and held the steering wheel tightly.

He wants to reach that person's side as quickly as possible, and give him all the love in his heart.