Glass [entertainment circle]

Cheng Nan didn't know what it meant to others.

On that night when he was a minor and an adult, he sat quietly by the window sill, calmly recalling the memories of those years.

If memory has color, his past 18 years must have been black and white.

The part of memory belonging to her mother Qi Xuan became blurred and degenerated into black and white photos with illusory negatives.

At that moment, Cheng Nan felt strange and strange. You must know that woman had left a strong mark in his life.

In TV dramas and movies and novels, the word mother has a lot of meaning.

The first words most people utter are mothers, tenderness, love, tolerance, and all good words can be added to them.

People will gradually forget things that are too long ago, but Cheng Nan's memory still retains the initial impression of Qi Xuan, even if it is a little blurred.

When Qi Xuan was young, she used to be a dancer in a song and dance theater. She was naturally beautiful and good-looking, with bright eyes and sweet dimples, which fascinated many people.When Qi Xuan was working in the theater, she was often favored by the audience, and every time the performance was over, she would get a bouquet of flowers, sometimes more than one bouquet.

Cheng Siming fell in love with her at first sight.

In the early years, he was not a highly respected professor. At that time, he was just a poor student from a poor family, and the tuition fees for college were earned by himself during vacations.After falling in love with Qi Xuan, Cheng Siming would go to the song and dance theater to watch her performance when he had no classes, and even sent her flowers like other men did.

At the beginning, both classmates and colleagues of Qi Xuan laughed at him, saying that he was a toad who wanted to eat swan meat, but Cheng Siming's pursuit of Qi Xuan was still rain or shine.

One night half a year later, Qi Xuan gave herself to him, and three months later, she married him.

At first, Cheng Siming's parents firmly opposed it. People at that time were very traditional, especially Cheng Siming's parents.

They were unwilling to accept a daughter-in-law who was unmarried and had children first, nor did they want Cheng Siming to get married during college.

But the love of young people is irresistible, the more suppressed, the more turbulent.

In order to marry Qi Xuan, Cheng Siming almost severed ties with his parents.In the end, he got his wish and became Qi Xuan's husband.

Eight months later, their son was born, and Cheng Siming named their child Cheng Nan.

Cheng Nan remembered that when he was young, Cheng Siming would often hold him on his lap and teach him to write and speak.And Qi Xuan is the perfect mother, always with a gentle smile on her face.

Everything changed when Cheng Nan was six years old.

Cheng Siming accidentally found out that Qi Xuan cheated on others, and it was his student who found out about it. He was angry and shocked, but also felt ashamed.

Soon, Cheng Siming calmed down and filed for divorce. There was only one request, and Cheng Nan should take care of himself.

But he soon learned another truth - Cheng Nan was not his and Qi Xuan's child.

It turned out that when the two had a relationship, Qi Xuan had already found out that she was pregnant, and the other party walked away. She chose the honest Cheng Siming as the receiver after uneasy thinking.

Cheng Nan also remembered the afternoon of his sixth birthday, the atmosphere in the room was not as harmonious and harmonious as usual.

It was dusk, neither of the two adults turned on the lights, and the air was filled with hot and boring factors.

Cheng Nan stood at the door of the bedroom with his head up, watching his parents quarrel with frosty faces in a daze.The word they said most was divorce. At that time, he didn't understand what these two words meant.

No one accompanied him to eat the birthday cake. After that day, Cheng Nan was taken away by Qi Xuan and moved out of the home where he had lived for six years. From that day until he was 15 years old, he never saw Cheng Siming again.

As Cheng Nan grew up, he began to understand the meaning of the word divorce, and he also knew why he turned a deaf ear to Cheng Siming and Qi Xuan every time he mentioned it.

In the second year after Qi Xuan's divorce, she married a man named Zhang Qi. Zhang Qi was a sports coach with a rough personality and informality.Many times when Cheng Nan was present, he didn't shy away from it, and directly put his hand into Qi Xuan's blouse or skirt pants. Once, Cheng Nan even broke his affair with Qi Xuan in the living room.Zhang Qi also knew about Qi Xuan's incident, so he often laughed and cursed carelessly.

If a mother wants to be a leader and educate her child, she must build respect and love in her heart.

Qi Xuan, who bears the title of a bitch in Zhang Qi's mouth, naturally cannot do this.

From the age of seven, she gradually lost her aura as a mother in Cheng Nan's mind.

When Cheng Nan was ten years old, Qi Xuan divorced again and married a doctor named Wen Ran.

Wen Ran has a gloomy temperament, and hates Cheng Nan more than Zhang Qi.

Cheng Nan's classmate lived in the building opposite Wen's house. There is no impenetrable wall in the world. What Qi Xuan did was passed on to the children through the adults.

From the fourth grade, Cheng Nan's life in school was not easy. He was labeled as the son of a bitch and matured prematurely. Some of them didn't recognize him.

After Cheng Nan entered junior high school, Qi Xuan and Wen Ran divorced and became very depraved. Whenever Cheng Nan came home, Qi Xuan would most likely be entertaining her guests and had no time to pay attention to him.

Cheng Nan learned to wash and cook for himself, and manage his life by himself.

After Qi Xuan broke up with Cheng Siming, he never celebrated his birthday again.

When reunited with Cheng Siming, Cheng Nan was solving the problem with his fists.

A few boys in the next class took advantage of Qi Xuan's affairs to make provocative words, but he couldn't bear it, so he raised his hand and knocked the head boy's nose.The others attacked them in a fit of anger, but Cheng Nan's ruthlessness did not let him down.

When Cheng Siming called him, Cheng Nan turned his head with a hurt face, and was hit in the eye socket by the rushing person because of a moment of trance.

The pain raged on his face, he couldn't help himself, tears flowed down his face.

Everyone thought it was because of pain, only Cheng Nan knew it wasn't.

A few days later, Cheng Siming took him out of Qi Xuan's home.

After graduating from junior high school, Cheng Nan moved to a brand new city and a brand new middle school. No one here remembered his background or his past.

But he himself will never forget, so he has always been alone, and he gradually got used to it.

When Cheng Siming took him away, Cheng Nan still had some joy in his heart. He thought he had regained what he had been missing for a long time.

But soon these joys disappeared.

Cheng Siming is willing to continue raising him only because of pity and sympathy.

They are not biological father and son, and Cheng Siming no longer smiles at him, teaches him or does things with him like he did when he was a child.Their relationship is just living together, a relationship without any emotional entanglements.With Qi Xuan's past actions separating them, they can no longer get along as close as a real father and son.

Cheng Nan also gradually understood that something lost is lost, and it is impossible to come back.Just like when he returned to Cheng Siming, the other party did not celebrate his birthday as he did when he was a child.

It's been too long, I forgot about it.He thought, in fact, there is nothing wrong with it. Birthdays on the lunar calendar are hard to remember.

Most of the time, Cheng Siming would not ask Cheng Nan to do or not to do anything, except for one thing.

He forbids Cheng Nan to dance.

When he was young, Qi Xuan often danced with Cheng Nan to show Cheng Siming. He inherited Qi Xuan's dancing talent, and he could imitate some complicated dance moves nine out of ten just by watching them once.

Cheng Siming hated this, because whenever he saw Cheng Nan dancing, he would think of that woman, the woman he hated the most.

He hated public performances of any kind, thinking publicity was cheap and cheap.

After learning that Cheng Nan applied for the art college of University A and was successfully admitted, the first dispute broke out between the two.To be precise, it was Cheng Siming's unilateral anger.

He couldn't understand why Cheng Nan had to dance and do things against his will.

He has obviously left behind the dignity that most men value most, and is willing to raise Cheng Nan. The latter is also very upbeat and has been admitted to A University, which is ranked among the top universities in the country. What about the big interest, which annoyed Cheng Siming.It's just a done deal and it cannot be changed.

Because of his lack of support, Cheng Nan tried his best to avoid conflicts and never practiced dancing at home.

But Cheng Siming knew that he did not give up dancing, and the relationship between the two was still deteriorating little by little.

After graduation, Cheng Nan entered the entertainment circle, which violated Cheng Siming's taboo.

Because Cheng Nan's deceased biological father was in the entertainment industry, their relationship was close to breaking down at that time.

Recalling his thoughts when he just graduated, Cheng Nan already felt very distant and strange.

He has traveled for more than 20 years, was admitted to the university that everyone dreams of, and has outstanding dancing ability.

But he lacks plans for his future, he doesn't know what he wants to do, what kind of person he wants to be.

So he entered the entertainment industry ignorantly, trying to find a different life that belonged to him.There is also a secret and subtle thought in entering this circle, that is, if Qi Xuan has the opportunity to see herself, she may regret it a little.

If she hadn't been willing to give up her custody, Cheng Nan might not have chosen to leave with Cheng Siming, but Qi Xuan still gave up on him.

In the past 20 years, Cheng Nan has received very little love from parents to their children.He was not always able to accept it calmly, and he had a hard time in the middle of the night.It's just that I have experienced too many disappointments, and finally I have completely lost my desire.

Moonlight Entertainment is a well-known entertainment company in the industry and has cultivated many well-known artists.After entering the entertainment industry, Cheng Nan successfully signed a contract with him.

This stay is two years.

During the two years, he had many chances to make his mark, but to get the chance, he had to pay something.

When the female boss of the company took off her clothes and lay half naked on the bed, looking at him winkingly, Cheng Nan turned and left without hesitation, giving up this excellent opportunity in the eyes of others.

Not surprisingly, he got two years of snow.

In fact, if he wanted, big-name advertisers, well-known directors, and those who had given hints in private could give him a chance, but Cheng Nan didn't grab it.

Dang Jing once persuaded him, but Cheng Nan still did not change himself.

Later, when he went to Haixing, although those behind-the-scenes activities disappeared, the opportunities also decreased.Cheng Nan had no complaints about this.

Just when he thought he would spend his life lonely and silently, he met a person.

It was an afternoon in mid-June, as usual, he was dancing a very skilled dance in the [-]-square-meter dance studio.

Raise your hand, swing your arm, turn around.

He knew that someone was standing outside the glass wall watching him dance, and he ignored it.

When the dance was over, he stopped, wiped his sweat and turned around.

The man pushed open the glass door and walked in with the light.

"Hi."

That was their first meeting.