pig like age

18

Maybe because of my personality, I don't have too many growing pains.

Once I have troubles, I will play quietly alone, or go to my seniors to practice sparring.Exercising vigorously will make me forget my troubles.

But now, I am very confused.I have been looking for information on the Internet for a long time, and my head is a mess.

In fact, I know very well in my heart that I should not exclude girls.I can easily find their beauty.Just like Ji Shuyu, her soft lines under the lamp that day were breathtakingly beautiful.There is really a feeling of intoxication and obsession surging in my chest, strange and vibrating.

But this doesn't prove that I'm Lala or T, right?

There are many names on the Internet, what lace, TPH.According to the description I should be T?But I don't think that the appearance of the dress determines the nature of the inside and outside.I also like to be taken care of, like to act like a spoiled child, and the most important thing is that I identify with my gender.

In the middle of the night, I lay on the bed and turned the cake.He vaguely heard Ji Shuyu come out to fetch water again.

My home is three bedrooms.There are two windows in her room, one is full sun and the other is partial sun.It is very dry in autumn.In fact, I lived in that room at the beginning. Later, when I was about to take the college entrance examination, she said that the room next to the street was too noisy, so she changed it with me.

Ji Shuyu always gives way to me, and it seems that he has never quarreled with me since I can remember.Except for a period of time when I was rebellious, I didn't care much about her.I know that I have a bad temper, and basically she is tolerating me.But she can guess my thoughts, and sometimes I think this is more scary.

I couldn't sleep anyway, so I called her into my room again.

She wore a white cotton dress and a blue shawl.Very beautiful.I said, "Ji Shuyu, have you ever been in love?"

She drank the water, not surprised.Because I have asked her several times to insinuate or express my feelings.

The answer is always: "Why do you ask this?"

I know she didn't in college.Everyone seems to know that Ji Shuyu, the president of the student council and the face value of the Normal University, doesn't have a boyfriend.That's why many boys are not in a hurry to find a girlfriend. All their eyes and hearts are on Ji Shuyu, and they just wait for her to be their girlfriend one day.I don't know if this is the reason why most girls from Normal University hold hands with boys from other schools.

But it doesn't exist now, doesn't mean it didn't exist in the past.There is one thing I still remember.I remember when Ji Shuyu was in high school, when she lived in school, one day she came back suddenly and locked herself in the room.Later, my phone was about to be rang off by a boy, but she didn't answer it.Also told me not to pick up again.

Fortunately, my parents were traveling abroad at that time, and if my mother received a call, things would become a big problem.So I won't talk too much without her telling me.Later, I occasionally asked her what was going on, and she just said it was fine.

"Isn't that a simple suitor? You even told him your home phone number?"

"He asked someone to ask."

"Then do you like him?"

"Like?" She smiled: "Would the person I like do such a naive thing?"

I was very naive at the time, and basically agreed with Ji Shuyu's words, only thinking that he was the craziest of her countless suitors.Later, Ji Shuyu might have made it clear to him, and the matter was over.

But gradually, something felt wrong.Will an ordinary suitor make her sad?

Ji Shuyu is too independent and has a strong personality, even I don't know the softest part of her heart.Which lucky guy will get her favor?

Can't imagine.

I was lost in thought, when I realized that she was looking at me with doubts in her eyes.With a sudden and clear tone, he said: "I'll sleep with you today, you can chat whatever you want, I'll chat with you." After speaking, he climbed to the empty seat next to me.

I don't sleep well, so my bed is a 1 meter bed.Seeing her lying down next to me made me feel a little embarrassed.

"What's wrong?" she asked, raising her eyebrows.

I also think it's nothing, it's not the first time to sleep on the same bed, but... my mentality is different now... so different...

Ji Shuyu is so smart that you don't have to say anything, but she knows everything when she sees it.I think she must be suspicious of me, so she wants to sleep with me so that she can take the opportunity to observe me.

I lay down, nervous.

Ji Shuyu turned off the lights.

"Xiaochen, the school will organize the student union and party branch to go to Miyun for military training. Did you know about this?"

"I don't know, I haven't heard of it."

"Do you want to go?"

"I'm not in the party branch of the student union, why should I go?"

"At the end of the military training, there will be a military training summary meeting as usual, and there will be a program. Song Xianxian from the Art Department can't go because of leave. The school leader remembered you for the performance that day and told you to follow."

"Don't go."

"Really not going?"

"No. It's too late to hide, if you can choose, you will definitely not go."

"No choice," she said.

"No way?"

"The school leaders value you and let you go, do you dare to go?"

"Which school leader is so blind!"

"Little Secretary Zhu."

As soon as she said Xiao Zhu, I became wilted.He is the secretary of the party committee of our school parallel to the principal, and the performance was for him and the upper-level leaders he brought.We once guessed that there must be someone above him, otherwise he could be the secretary of the party committee in his 30s?

We both lay in silence for a while, and gradually became sleepy.Suddenly, I felt a soft temperature on my hand... I was so scared that I sat up suddenly: "What are you doing!"

Ji Shuyu didn't say anything, turned on the light, with a puzzled look on his face: "I still want to ask you."

Yes, isn't this behavior between sisters very common?Ji Shuyu always liked to hold other people's hands to sleep.Holding a doll without hands is a habit developed since childhood.It's been so long since I slept together that I forgot.

"Aha, I thought..." I thought why I thought, I'm so abnormal.

Ji Shuyu said, "Have you been confessed recently?"

"what?"

"By a girl?"

"what!"

"I didn't feel right when you asked me that question last time. Why do you ask this?"

"..."

"Xiaochen, there are some things you have to deal with and face on your own, but I don't want to see you go the wrong way."

"I'm not……"

"Whether you are lesbian or not is not the most important thing. What is important is that you have to figure out whether you are. Otherwise, it will cause harm to yourself and the people who like you."

"Then am I?" I was about to cry.

"This is your problem."

"What should I do if it happens?" I cried with a sad face.

She didn't answer me, but got out of bed and brought me a book "The Second Sex". "check it out."

I flipped through a few pages indiscriminately, and my heart was in a mess, so I couldn't be in the mood to read.

"It's really hard to have a younger sister who doesn't have any roots." Ji Shuyu sighed.

"What time are you still talking sarcastic!"

"However, with a beautiful sister like me, if you like girls, you have to lower your aesthetic standards, otherwise it will be difficult to find a satisfactory one."

"Ji Shuyu!"

"Okay, okay, I'm really angry. I just want to tell you that no matter what your sexual orientation is, I will support you in finding true love."

But what she said really calmed down my restlessness.Also a little moved.

If I were a lesbian, would I be happier than other lesbians?Because there is such a sister who is perfect both externally and internally.