Declare war on depression, against day and night

The banquet was finally over, and the few remaining people were still watching TV and listening to the sound of firecrackers in the living room, drinking and eating melon seeds.Natsume Lizhou helped Bie Ming back to the room, Bie Ming politely said "thank you" at the door of the room, then closed the door and locked it.

This is the first dumpling he ate since he lived apart from his parents, the first New Year's Eve, and tomorrow will be the first New Year that Zheng Erba will pass.

He is very happy, drinking is his preference, and smiling is also his preference.

It's just a pity that Mao Shishi is not here.

This is his only regret.

Probably due to a bad cold, and drinking wine irritated his throat, he coughed badly while sitting by the bed.Bie Ming's right hand clenched into a fist from time to time, pressed against his lips and coughed non-stop, the kind of frailty and softness that didn't belong to an adult man suddenly fell all over Mao Shiyi's body.

"Meow."

It stepped on Bie Ming's thigh cautiously, and looked at Bie Ming worriedly.

Bie Ming reached out and hugged him in his arms, the corners of his eyes were moist because of coughing.

Mao Shishi stretched out his paws and gently touched Bie Ming's face. His face was flushed and hot. I don't know if it was caused by drunkenness or coughing.At this time, Bie Ming should really need someone to take care of him, right?Mao Shishi let out a long sigh in his heart, and didn't care about anything.

"Don't cry."

"eleven?"

Bie Ming heard the familiar voice, but thought it was his auditory hallucination.

He lay back on the bed, put his hands under Cat Eleven's creaking nest and raised it in front of his eyes, and smiled at it: "I heard his voice and thought...he was beside me. I My new year's wish is to see him tomorrow."

Mao Shishi and Bie Ming's eyes seemed to suddenly become deep and steady, no longer just the innocence and ignorance of a kitten.Suddenly, Mao Shiyi exuded fluorescent blue light all over his body, floating up and down in this small room like a night full of stars while eating sushi.

The weight in Bie Ming's hand suddenly disappeared, and Mao Shiyi really appeared in front of him.It was an ambiguous posture that overwhelmed people, but Bie Ming's movements remained the same, with his hands gently wrapping around Mao Shiyi's neck.

"Mao...Mao Eleven?" Bie Ming couldn't believe his eyes, "Am I dreaming? Did I drink too much?"

"Idiot." A familiar voice.

Mao Shishi let go of the strength in his arms, and instead supported his upper body with his elbows, he deliberately hit Bie Ming's forehead with his brain.Their foreheads touched each other, and many parts of their bodies touched each other. This was the closest they had been to each other for a long time.Whether physically or mentally.

Bie Ming's eyes filled with tears in an instant: "You...you really came back? Have you really come back to me?"

After speaking, it turned into a crying voice.

Because of being too excited, Bie Ming coughed violently, the tears from the corners of his eyes slipped down and disappeared behind his ears in his hair.

Mao Shishi likes that Bie Ming stares at him with moist eyes, likes to hear Bie Ming's uncontrollable coughing or coughing, and especially likes Bie Ming unconsciously saying his name on his lips, or accompanied by crying, or accompanied by Sigh.Just as Bie Ming stopped coughing, Mao Shiyi leaned over and took his lips.Bie Ming didn't want to infect him with the cold, so he struggled with all his strength.But Bie Ming's little effort didn't have any deterrent effect in Mao Shishi's eyes, instead he clasped his fingers and pressed Bie Ming into the soft bedding.

When the two kissed, Bie Ming felt like a little beggar to Mao Shiyi.

He never refuses anything from others, and always smiles, piously, and accepts obediently and gratefully.When he kissed hard, Bie Ming let out a few short muffled hums from his nasal cavity.

The more terrified and frightened he accepted it, the more Mao Shiyi liked it.

The aftertaste of drinking was still there, and both of them were deeply drunk.

Mao Shishi finished their first kiss and looked at Bie Ming's tightly closed eyes and slightly parted lips with satisfaction.

He stretched out his hand to paint Bie Ming's eyes until he gradually relaxed and dared to open his eyes to look at him.Mao Shishi suddenly laughed, lowered his voice next to Bie Ming's ear, and said in a provocative tone, "Did you eat garlic? Don't come near me, your mouth smells bad."

Bie Ming quickly got out from under Mao Shiyi, tightly covered his mouth with his hands, and curled up on the bedside without daring to breathe.As if feeling that it wasn't enough, he pulled his own pillow over to cover it, and looked at Mao Shiyi anxiously.

Mao Shishi moved to sit beside him angrily and amusedly, and he obviously felt Bie Ming's body tremble violently.

This person even took a joke seriously, he was really easy to bully.

He smiled helplessly, and there was a taste of happiness in it. He could only shake his head and sigh, and put Bie Ming in his arms, hugging him tightly.Mao Shishi naturally lowered his eyes to look at Bie Ming, showing a drowsy and lazy look under the dim light, kissed Bie Ming on the forehead, and said dotingly, "I said don't come near me , are you really so far away from me that you refuse to get close to me?"

Bie Ming held his breath and dared not speak.

Mao Shishi rubbed Bie Ming's red cheeks with the tip of his nose, and whispered, "You won't ask me to act like a baby? Huh?"

"sorry..."

"Tell me 'I'm sorry' is your coquettish? Do you understand coquettish? If you don't understand it, learn it. Don't just say sorry, you haven't done anything wrong."

Bie Ming was flattered and didn't know what to do, looking around with a pair of wet and red eyes, not at all stable.The heart is beating like a drum, and the blood all over his body seems to be rampaging in his body, hot and uneasy, and he can't settle down in Mao Shiyi's arms, that is, that stupid mouth, "I, I, I", there is no more words .

Mao Shishi was delighted to see Bie Ming's embarrassed face, whether he pinched his earlobe, rubbed his lips, or lowered his head to kiss his face, attacking gently and forcefully.

Bie Ming dodged to one side, then to the other, and accepted it if he couldn't dodge it. His ears hurt from being pinched by Mao Shiyi, so he raised his head to look at him.

"Do you miss me these days?"

Wouldn't it be embarrassing for such a straightforward question to be placed on a shy and shy boy?In fact, Bie Ming is not afraid of losing face, but for some reason, the lovesickness in his heart is stuck in his throat, and he can't get it out.After holding back for a long time, he replied in a thin voice, "Didn't you see everything..."

Mao Shishi wanted to laugh when he thought of how he was not interested in everything because he was not around, but he still wanted to take advantage of his words: "I only stayed by your side for one day, and I have to go out." What about the other four or five days? That’s how you came here too? Don’t you think you have a pretty good relationship with that Natsume Rikyuu?”

"I miss you very much." Bie Ming broke free from Mao Shiyi's arms, sat up straight and faced Mao Shiyi, "Since you promised me to accompany me to cure my depression, you can't treat me casually." Leave it alone."

"Did I leave you alone? I said, be back soon."

Don't sternly said: "The two of us have different perceptions of 'leave it alone'. You think that as long as there is a promise, it is fine, but I am not like this. In my opinion, no matter what you say to me, as long as it is You didn't take me away, as long as you didn't take me with you, you left me alone."

When Mao Shiyi heard this, his eyebrows on both sides were not raised as high as one side.I thought, hey, this brat, has he learned how to bargain? !If his temper is allowed to develop like this, will he not be able to go to the house tomorrow morning?

Probably because the expression on Mao Shishi's face did not change, and he did not criticize his speech, Bie Ming panicked a little, and secretly complained that he was too complacent.So the bones in his body were so frightened that he blinked and looked at Mao Shishi, like a child who has made a mistake.

Until Mao Shishi stretched out his hand and patted the top of his head, saying: "Okay, I won't leave you alone in the future."

Don't make a sore nose, and grabbed Mao Shiyi's wrist with both hands.

The current pampering and happiness are all given to him by Mao Shiyi, but what if one day, Mao Shiyi's heart no longer exists in him?What if one day Mao Shishi told him, I'm tired of seeing you, and I fell in love with someone other than you, what should I do?

Don't know what to do other than fear and fear.

Bie Ming's current state of mind is like he just started to face the increasingly cruel quarrels of his parents, a child who has nothing to do with maturity, his left ear is his mother's noise and screaming, and his right ear is his father's growling and threats.The little one, he was mixed in, no one was willing to help when they stretched out their hands, and no one was willing to take him away when the two left.

Mao Shishi was right in front of him, but Bie Ming felt that he was very far away from him.Unlike the relationship before tonight, you can ask him a little willfully, for example, I want to drink water, I want to hear you tell a story about monsters...

At that time, my thoughts towards him were also simple. If he agreed to me, then I would be grateful, then I would be happy to accept it, and listen to his voice ringing in my ears.If Mao Shishi rejected him, Bie Ming wouldn't be very surprised, because he knew that some requests were really willful, and Mao Shishi didn't necessarily have to satisfy himself.

But now, although it hasn't been said yet, the relationship between the two has changed.

For Bie Ming, Mao Shiyi's status in his heart has risen from "special" to "unique".

He began to anxiously observe the expression on Mao Shiyi's face and the small movements of his hands.When he was speaking, he also began to wonder whether his words would make Mao Shiyi feel uncomfortable back and forth on his lips.When he put Mao Shiyi's joys and sorrows first, his position in his heart was degraded very low, and Bie Ming once again tasted that kind of indescribable inferiority complex.

Bie Ming held onto Mao Shiyi's wrist tightly, and the tears that had subsided slowly returned, falling drop by drop.Mao Shishi didn't know why, and immediately took out a piece of toilet paper to wipe him, Bie Ming shook his head.

"What's wrong? Did you think of something sad?" Mao Shiyi held Bie Ming in his arms again, and pulled the quilt next to him to cover him, "Thinking of me leaving you behind? Tsk, didn't I say that?" , Wherever I go in the future, will I bring you there?"

Bie whimpered and shook his head: "No, it's not you, it's all myself. In the final analysis, I am too inferior. Even if I firmly believe that you will not leave me, I still feel insecure. I am afraid of letting you Upset, it makes you think I'm troublesome, it's because I've always been too willful, I'm too scared, I'm afraid that everything tonight is fake, I'm afraid that I'll wake up tomorrow and lose you again..."

Mao Shishi hugged him, rocking his body back and forth slightly like putting a baby to sleep.He freed one hand, held Bie Ming's right hand, put it on his lips and kissed again and again: "Don't Ming, don't Ming, what should I do to make you believe me?"

"I trust you. It's my fault..."

"May I swear to you? You will never lose me again. From today on, wherever I go, I will definitely, definitely, definitely take you there, okay?"

Don't cry more fiercely, even if you widen your eyes, you can't control the amount of tears. Mao Shiyi's face is right in front of you, but you can't see clearly.

Mao Shishi hugged his back, put one hand on his face, lowered his head and gently kissed Bie Ming's trembling lips.Bie Ming closed his eyes, let the tears flow on his face, opened his hands and hugged Mao Shiyi's neck tightly.The lips of the two kept touching like this, there was no further strategy, just rubbing lightly like this.Maybe Mao Shishi was telling Bie Ming that he was always there.

Persuading Bie Ming to lie down, he still cuddled tightly in Mao Shiyi's arms, with both hands curled up in front of his chest and his thumbs on his lips, with a self-preservation look that still refused to give in wholeheartedly. Smash it.

The world of the two began to become quiet, but the surroundings became more noisy, and the time seemed to be approaching zero.

Just when Mao Shishi thought Bie Ming had fallen asleep, Bie Ming suddenly grabbed Mao Shishi's hand and asked suspiciously, "Eleven, are we together now?"

The author has something to say: cleaning today, the blanket I usually sit on is really dirty...

Everyone must clean up these furry things carefully.