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"If this matter is true to what you said, he accidentally fell into the pool by himself, and he can't... say that you are a murderer."

Li Qingchi said: "I'm not saying that I became a murderer because of my yelling. I mean, where I saw and didn't see, my existence is one of the reasons for all his misfortunes. This It's not that I don't kill Boren, Boren died because of me...but that I live to drink his blood and eat his flesh...do you understand?"

Nan Junliang said: "...I can't fully understand how you feel, I can only imagine it roughly."

Li Qingchi asked: "Do you think I'm disgusting?"

Nan Junliang said: "That's not true. After all, you didn't want to hurt him."

Li Qingchi suddenly hugged him and said, "Thank you." Then he said, "Don't tell your cousin these things, he won't understand."

Nan Junliang agreed.

Then he suddenly asked: "Qingchi...do you have a...cousin named Li Yu?"

Li Qingchi was stunned for a moment, thought for a while, and replied: "Li Yu... I don't have any impression..."

"What about Li Lu's cousin?"

Li Qingchi said: "Cousin Li Lu, I know, hey, you actually know her?"

Nan Junliang was a little strange, and said: "Li Yu is Li Lu's cousin. It seems that the relationship is very close. They grew up together...You really have no impression?"

Li Qingchi thought for a while and said, "Actually, I haven't met Sister Li Lu many times, so I don't know her relationship very well. Besides, because of the relationship between my parents and my mother, many relatives see us as relatives. It's not very pleasing to the eye, except for the blood relatives who are inseparable from my father, such as my uncle and my aunt, even my uncle has almost cut off contact with my family."

"Sister Li Lu is also very cold to my father, but she is very kind to me."

Nan Junliang hesitated for a moment before asking, "What did your father do?"

Li Qingchi said: "As a son, it's hard to say anything about him. But objectively speaking, what he has done is simply not worthy of being someone's father."

Nan Junliang asked, "You really haven't investigated your brother's current situation?"

Li Qingchi said: "...I dare not."

Nan Junliang: "!?"

"After my father stopped talking, I questioned my uncle and my aunt, and they advised me not to ask anymore, because even if I knew the truth, I couldn't do anything... If he died, I would wear the shackles myself; If he is alive, then it would be the kindest thing for me not to bother him."

"I can't do anything now, it's better not to know."

Nan Junliang understood his thoughts, but sighed inwardly.

There is nothing wrong with Li Qingchi's thinking, but his consideration is not comprehensive enough.He probably didn't think about how far he was ready.And when he feels that he is really ready, will the other party still need him to make any sacrifices and make up for it?

But there is no need to remind Li Qingchi of these.Because so many years have passed, in fact, it may be too late to do what I want to do now.

Nan Junliang affirmed his thoughts even more.

If he's going to do something, it's better to start doing it now instead of waiting for "when".The time may never be ripe, but the situation will not allow him to wait forever.

Nan Junliang was thinking about it, but he suddenly heard Yan Ximin's voice, saying, "What are you doing in the corner?"

Li Qingchi was taken aback, and said, "Why are you here?"

Yan Ximin said: "Who told you to buy water and didn't come back for a long time!"

Nan Junliang said: "Talking. I'm in a bad mood, and Li Qingchi is comforting me."

Li Qingchi didn't expect him to take the initiative to take the blame like this, and in astonishment, he gave Nan Junliang a complicated look.Nan Junliang met his gaze, but turned away as if nothing had happened.

Although he didn't return any expression, Li Qingchi's heart was inexplicably soft.Nan Junliang looks cold at first glance, and his tongue is stinging, but after getting along for a long time, you will find his inner tenderness-although if you say these nasty words, Nan Junliang will definitely put on a poker face again because of shyness.

After hearing this, Yan Ximin sized up the two of them for a while, but his face was inexplicably gloomy.

He is not good at hiding his emotions, and it will be obvious when he is unhappy, so Li Qingchi can see it right away.In fact, Nan Junliang must be able to find it at a glance, but he lowered his head and was immersed in his own world, so he must not bother to care about such things.

Anyway, Yan Ximin is a typical unhappy person. It is not surprising why he is unhappy about things, and Nan Junliang doesn't think there is any need to care about it—maybe he will be fine after a while.

He didn't say anything, and Yan Ximin felt even more aggrieved.Li Qingchi wanted to explain to ease the atmosphere, so he tried to talk to Yan Ximin: "There is no special meaning, don't think too much, it just happened to be talked about."

Then he said, "You talk a lot at home, I don't think you're squeezing me out, do you?"

"What's the difference?" Yan Ximin said, "We are..."

"Cousin!" Li Qingchi said directly for him, "You have a younger brother and you are awesome, okay?"

Yan Ximin thought for a while, and approved Li Qingchi's words, but he still felt stuffy and suffocating.

He also felt a little too petty.As a boy, this attitude is a bit too condescending, not grand at all.But he just didn't feel happy, he didn't even know that his jealousy was so strong.

...Is it because Li Qingchi has such a good relationship with Nan Junliang?Pure nonsense!Although Li Qingchi and him have known each other since childhood, their relationship has always been based on fate. When they were in the same class and at the same table, they naturally got along day and night, and their relationship was very close, but before when they were in different classes, their relationship was the same.

Whether it's Yan Ximin or Li Qingchi, it's not that they didn't have other close friends before, but Yan Ximin is not such a possessive person, and any friend is not allowed to be nice to others.

He thought to himself: Is there something wrong with me?

Deep down, he probably already knew the answer.It's just that for various reasons, he didn't want to admit it and didn't have the guts to admit it.

After returning home in the afternoon, Yan Ximin took homework and followed Nan Junliang into his room without throwing down his schoolbag. Instead, he closed the door and threw himself on his bed.

He asked himself: am I sick?

Ask over and over again, and each time the answer becomes clearer.

He's about... really sick.

Or maybe there is some curse on Nan Junliang.

Nan Junliang, apart from being a bit handsome, has no cute personality at all.She doesn't say anything in her heart, has a bad temper and has a vicious tongue, likes to show off but even makes people... really... not cute at all.

Yan Ximin is not considered to have opened up emotionally, but he was less interested in girls in the past.Of course, it may also be because he himself is more hairy than many girls, so it is difficult to get along with them most of the time.

But even so, it's hard for him to imagine himself becoming gay.

Not to mention Wei Lingzhu who has always been bluffing, even his father might not be able to accept this kind of thing.Under normal circumstances, it would be impossible to accept it, let alone... the target is his own cousin.

Yan Ximin was lying on the bed with his eyes closed. Sulai didn't like to look at people's faces straight away. The arrogance and beatings that were complained by the girls receded. He showed his handsome eyebrows. It didn't look annoying at all, but a little Very pitiful.

He lay on the bed for a while, then turned himself over for a while, and after lying down for a while, he felt inexplicably relieved when he thought that Nan Junliang was just across the wall.

But this kind of peace of mind is empty, with an inexplicable sense of tragedy.

He thought of many things.

He likes Nan Junliang, but what about his cousin?Do you like yourself a little bit?The answer is no without thinking—Nan Junliang looks easy to talk, but he is actually very cold.There are so many girls in the class who show affection to him, but he is not special to anyone.If he was not the other party's cousin, Nan Junliang's attitude towards him would be similar to that of other people. He was kind and easy to talk to, but he was absolutely neither enthusiastic nor proactive.

Yan Ximin laughed mockingly.

Nan Junliang is heartless, he thinks this is really good.

It would be really great if I could continue to be so heartless.

Yan Ximin knew in his heart that his relationship was probably doomed to end without a problem, because no one knew better than him what was between them.If he wanted to be with Nan Junliang, he might have to destroy the world—but even if the world around them were really destroyed, Nan Junliang might not like him.

Nan Junliang himself was as cold as a stone.

I never thought that liking someone would be such a painful thing.

But even in pain... Yan Ximin struggled to get up from the bed, turned out the paper, and thought... I have no other choice.

He tidied up his appearance in front of the mirror, making sure that he would not show any flaws.Yan Ximin knew in his heart that the slightest expression of this feeling would surely lead to death.On the contrary, if he doesn't show it at all, he can get along with Nan Junliang forever.

From the moment he realizes this, every day after that may be the death of this relationship.So from this day on, he had better live every day as if it were his last.At the same time, he'd better cover up his unreasonable thoughts, and act with all his heart to deceive himself.

Yan Ximin has never been a good actor, nor is he good at hiding his feelings.But from this day on, he seems to have learned the most exquisite performing arts without a teacher.

He took his homework and walked out of the bedroom, only to meet Wei Lingzhu standing at the door eating walnuts again.Yan Ximin was taken aback, but forcibly controlled all his emotions, and said, "Mom, are you pretending to be a ghost to scare people?"

Wei Lingzhu couldn't help but looked at her son one more time.

She felt that her son seemed to be different today, but she couldn't tell what was different.After looking at it for a while, she gave up the entanglement and said, "Scared you? Why? Afraid I will nag you?"

Yan Ximin said calmly, "Nan Junliang is smart and has good grades. I study with him, there are only advantages and no disadvantages. I really don't know why you can't think about it?"