The ten-year trace of the soul of chess

This night was destined to be a sleepless night.

Enter the rattan house.

After acquiescing to Toya Ryo to take the light away, Shinto and his wife were silent for a long time in the living room.

The door has been closed, and the two children have clearly left for a while, but Mitsuko's thoughts seem to have left the room with them.

She began to keep thinking about the moment when the line of defense in her heart was completely loosened.

Feeling her husband put her shoulders on her shoulders, Mitsuko came back to her senses as if she had just woken up from a dream.

She still asked her husband worriedly: "Is our decision really right?"

Taya house.

Putting down the phone, Ming Zi looked at the empty home in front of her, suddenly not knowing what to do next.

When her eyes settled on a photo of Liang's childhood not far away, she felt a slight movement in her heart, and then she got up and walked to the study.

On the leftmost side of the second shelf of the bookcase, several photo albums of the same style are neatly placed.On the back of the album, the corresponding Arabic numerals were marked by the careful hostess.

However, when Mingzi took the first album, she found that the second album next to her was missing at some point.

In a rental apartment.

Bright lights lie side by side.

After saying "good night", no one spoke again, but they all knew that no one fell asleep.

The quiet atmosphere was broken.

Liang asked Guang softly: "What are you thinking?"

In the darkness, Guang stuck out his tongue: "It was discovered." But he didn't want to hide anything, and said frankly, "There are many things."

Liang smiled: "Isn't there not enough brain cells? There are so many things."

Guang turned his face to the side: "You know?"

"Well, it's all projected." Liang turned sideways and hugged Guang into his arms, "What should I say when I see Taya's mother tomorrow? How are Mom and Dad now? What did Taya tell them? Did they say anything outrageous to Taya? Didn't they?"

Light involuntarily opened his eyes slightly.

Liang knows, Liang really knows!

Light stopped talking.

While there was a hint of frustration in my heart, there was also warmth and pride.

In this world, there is really such a person who understands him, and even understands himself better than him.

He stretched out his arms and hugged Liang back, and then corrected, "It's wrong, it's not 'Taya', it's 'Liang'."

Maybe it was due to psychological preparation, maybe it was because of Liang's company and blessing. The next day, when Hikari followed Liang back to Taya Mansion and stood in front of Mrs. Akiko holding hands, his heart was unprecedentedly peaceful.

Mrs. Mingzi's face was somewhat tired, but her expression was still gentle.

Her eyes swept over the hands they were holding together, and when she looked at Liang again, she said straightforwardly: "Xiao Liang, can I have a chat with Shindo-kun alone?"

Liang's heart gave a slight "thump".

He looked at Hikari inquiringly, felt that Hikari squeezed his hand lightly, and nodded to his mother.

As if she was afraid of her mother's embarrassment, she found a suitable reason for her in a considerate manner: "The flowers at home are about to wither, and I will go buy some more."

Follow Mrs. Akiko into the Japanese room, and gently close the wooden door.

After Mrs. Mingzi sat down, Guang hesitated for a moment, and sat down opposite her.

In a sitting posture.

Guang didn't know whether it was right for him to do so. After sitting down, before Mingzi could speak, he handed a handwritten letter to Mingzi. At the same time, he lowered his head and said solemnly: "Please allow me to introduce myself again. My name is Jin. Fujimitsu, born on September 61, Showa 9, graduated from Hasase Middle School, his family members include: grandfather Shinto Heihachi, father Shinto Masao, mother Shinto Mitsuko, current occupation is a Go player, and his favorite person is Ta Yaliang, my favorite food is..."

Mingzi glanced at the handwriting quickly, and interrupted Guang in the middle of speaking: "Shinto-kun, with all due respect, you keep saying that you like Xiao Liang, but what do you know about him?" She met Shang Guang's gaze and said, "You don't even know that Xiao Liang asked to be discharged early."

Light was taken aback, and suddenly felt his throat was a little dry.

Before coming here, he had imagined countless times that Mrs. Mingzi might ask him questions, but when she opened her mouth, he was still speechless...

Liang himself asked to be discharged from the hospital.

The reason for this can only be guessed by the brain.Liang wanted him to relax, he was waiting for him to see him, but he unilaterally cut off contact with Liang...

Guang clasped his hands unconsciously, feeling a pain in his heart.

On the other side, Ming Zi continued to speak calmly: "Xiao Liang originally wanted to leave the hospital three days earlier, but his recovery was not satisfactory at that time. Later, under the persuasion of the doctor, he was only discharged one day earlier. Mr. Jin Teng, Although he kept everyone from you, I still want you to know that it is my selfishness as a mother."

Guang opened his mouth several times, but was too confused to say a word.

He only felt as if there were hands growing out of the ground, trying to pull him into the boundless darkness.

The courage he had built up with great difficulty seemed to be falling apart, so he bit the tip of his tongue hard, calmed down, and said slowly, "I may really not understand Liang. He can often guess what I'm thinking, and I But I can’t see through him. But I know that he is not as strong and independent as he appears on the surface, he will be sad and confused, and feel lonely and helpless, and he is not as the outside world evaluates him. What a 'cheser'. In my eyes, Liang is not elegant at all, he will choke people speechless, he will get angry and lose his temper, and of course, sometimes he will do some very childish things."

He would take several sips from the rim of the cup he just drank, and would call his name repeatedly.

Guang smiled: "Very, very childish."

While talking endlessly about Liang, Guang seemed to completely forget that his mother, the "noble chess master", was sitting across from him.

His eyes are crooked, like a handful of broken gold sprinkled in his eyes, star-studded: "I like to see Liang Xiao, and Liang's smile is like a treasure to me. To see his smile, as long as I I am willing to do anything within my ability.”

"The current me is indeed too bad, but if understanding a person is a long-term accumulation process, then I believe that the brightest I have seen must be no less than you, and I have been working hard to get closer to the most real bright .”

After finishing talking, I realized that I was talking too much.

The embarrassment caused his face to turn red immediately, and he wished he could look away from Mrs. Mingzi's eyes immediately.

But he persisted.

Although his actions may be labeled as "arrogant" by Mrs. Mingzi, he still wants to say that he still feels that he is not wrong.

In the few minutes after Guang's voice fell, Mrs. Mingzi didn't say a word.

There is still a gentle smile on her lips, but her eyes are looking at the light with prudent sternness, as if she wants to put what light said on a fair scale to weigh the truth and the truth.

After a long time, Guang saw her expression gradually soften, and then said: "It is undeniable that the too special growth experience made Xiao Liang lack a lot of experience that his peers should have, and it also made him mature and sensible prematurely."

"Since he was very young, he didn't need me and his father to worry too much. Xiao Liang cherishes everything he has. We bought a schoolbag for Xiao Liang. He has used it for many years and has been using it for many years. Very new."

"He tried to make everyone happy with him, and when he found that he couldn't be 'as good as everyone', he started to do subtraction. Throwing away some that he didn't care about, deliberately ignoring some that he cared about, and finally The rest, he will firmly grasp in his hands. For example, "

"you."

— Go.

Akiko's words, which almost coincided with Guang's thoughts, shocked Guang's heart.

Ming Zi seemed to see through his thoughts, and asked with a smile, "You think... I want to say Go?"

Light was surprised again.

Mingzi looked at the light and smiled: "Xiao Liang works hard, harder than anyone else. Sometimes I wonder if his father is not a foreigner, but just an ordinary salaryman, can he be like other children? Same, living an ordinary but carefree student life? Did he choose Go because of his father, or because he really likes it? Over the years, has he forced himself or regretted it?"

"I think Liang should be 'very fond' of Go." Accidentally, he said what was in his heart, and Guang quickly shut his mouth and stopped talking.

Ming Zi still smiled: "I thought so too." She looked at Guang, "However, the relationship between Xiao Liang and Go is not that simple." Ming Zi said, "Because of Go, Xiao Liang did get a lot, but Lost a lot too, maybe even lost more than gained."

"Shinto-kun, you may have heard that Xiaoliang's chess ability has reached the level of a professional chess player as early as the age of 12, but he has not taken the professional exam for a long time. No one knows the reason. Later, he suddenly decided No one knows the reason for taking the professional chess player exam. The real reason." Ming Zi paused and said, "But now that I think about it, maybe it's all related to you."

A look of surprise flashed in Guang's eyes.

Mingzi's reaction to the light was not surprising. She smiled and continued: "I still remember that afternoon. It was raining heavily outside. When Xiaoliang came home, he was completely soaked. I quickly fetched a towel for him. Wipe. He was standing at the porch, looking so small. He looked up at me, like a wounded animal, unwilling and sensitive. He asked me, Mom, do I really have the talent to play Go?"

"Not long after this, I heard your name from his father. Xingyang said that there was a kid who was the same age as Xiao Liang, named 'Shin Teng Guang', who defeated Xiao Liang in the clubhouse. Go player I don't really understand the matter, but as I said before, Go is an important thing that needs to be firmly grasped in Xiaoliang's hands. So, when the fortress he built with great difficulty is caught by you When the big wave easily crushed Xiao Liang, he panicked. He began to rehearse the game record day and night, and asked him what happened, but he always shook his head. The professional exam, which he was already hesitant, was completely shelved by him. During that time, Xiao Liang was still playing Go, but he looked so lonely, even more lonely and silent than before. I was so worried that I even thought, since Go made Xiao Liang so unhappy, why did I let him go? Continue to sink in?"

Speaking of this, Mingzi paused, and smiled again: "But it turns out that I seem to be wrong again." She said, "Although Go has hindered Xiaoliang's normal communication with peers to a certain extent, but It also attracted another part of people to him. His previous loneliness and silence were not caused by Go, but just the lack of a way for him to reconcile with his surroundings. Ashamed to say, in this regard, both his father and I is incompetent."

When saying these words, Akiko kept looking at the light.

As if knowing what Mrs. Akiko was about to say, Hikari's heart beat wildly involuntarily.

Then, he heard Mingzi say: "Thank you, Jindo-kun. Although Xiaoliang rarely talked about Go in front of me, I know that you are behind every change in Xiaoliang. Maybe you I don’t know it myself.”

Ming Zi said, and suddenly asked: "I accidentally looked through the photo album yesterday, and found that the photo album at home was missing a copy. I don't know Shinto-kun, have you seen anything like it?"

Guang was taken aback for a moment, and then the photo album that Liang had shown to himself before flashed across his mind.

His heart flickered and he didn't know what Mrs. Mingzi wanted to say, so he nodded honestly.

Ming Zi didn't continue talking, just smiled knowingly as if he had expected it long ago.

Guangyuan didn't like sitting upright very much. He felt that sitting upright was one of the punishments for modern people. Even if he was playing chess with the elders, he would often sit cross-legged in the middle of the game.

But this time is different.

He dare not be disrespectful, dare not be lazy.

Even though his legs were already numb/numbed at this moment, he still tried his best to straighten his upper body and maintain a sitting posture.

Seeing Guang's reluctance, Akiko was both helpless and amused: "Shinto-kun, you can relax a bit and don't be so rigid."

Ke Guang shook his head and said with a smile, "It's okay." After finishing speaking, he said truthfully, "It's a bit hard, but it's okay. You are Liang's mother, so I don't want to be rude."

At the end, Guang boldly asked again: "Excuse me, when is your birthday?"

"Why don't you ask Xiao Liang?" Ming Zi said as gently as possible.

He just heard what Mrs. Mingzi said behind the scenes.

He suppressed the urge to interrupt her, and after listening to her finish, he explained patiently: "I want to ask you personally, and I want to hear your answer personally. I want you to know, I respect you and I value you."

Guang was a little nervous. When he was sitting, his hands had no place to rest, so he clasped his kneecaps tightly: "Because you are Liang's mother. Without you, there would be no him, so your birthday is equally important to me."

After finishing speaking, he subconsciously bit his lip.

I was talking nonsense, and I don't know if Mrs. Mingzi can understand.

Unexpectedly, Mrs. Akiko announced her birthday.

Guang was ecstatic, wishing he could find another pen to copy in his palm—even though it is not difficult for a professional chess player to memorize a string of birthdays.

This conversation, rather than a confession, is more like a retrospective journey to get to know Liang again.

After this conversation, the sensitive and delicate young man in Mrs. Mingzi's mouth, and the arrogant and vicious chess player in Guang's impression seem to have passed through a long time tunnel, and finally merged together.Some bright choices and ideas, he seemed to finally be able to understand and understand.

A small piece of frosted glass that once separated the two seemed to be broken, and he could reach out and touch the little person.

At that moment, Guang seemed to pick up his courage again.

He looked up at Ming Zi, and said firmly, "I will always look at Liang, stay with him, never leave him alone, and never let him have any problems. If you want, I will take care of you like Liang does." You and Taya-sensei, so, can I beg you, give me a chance?"

long silence.

Looking at the boy's sincere handwriting in her hand, Ming Zi admitted that she was shaken.

The young man in front of him was cheerful, honest, full of vigor and vigor.

If she was just Xiao Liang's friend, she would like it very much.

However, she also knew exactly what kind of answer she was looking forward to.

That's not something she can give in a short while.

"Jin Teng-kun," Ming Zi called softly after a long silence, "I accept your handwriting, and your feelings for Xiao Liang... I also understand. But I still can't accept you for a while, Today, can I ask you to go back first?"

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