healer love letter

Originally, there was nothing to do on the first day of the Lunar New Year, and neither Gao Le nor Li Ying had any relatives to leave. At first, Gao Le planned to go to pay New Year's greetings to his father at night, but when he called, his father said that there was no one at home, and he went to Hainan for the winter.His mother is even more amazing. Last night, he was stuck saying Happy New Year to him, and then asked him if he wanted to go to the United States to register for marriage.

The thought of deceiving his son to his side has not been forgotten across the Pacific Ocean.

After eating at noon, the two sat in the living room, watching the endless replays of the Spring Festival Gala on TV.Someone added a friend on Li Ying's WeChat. He picked it up and saw that it was Chen Er.Gao Le's eyes were still fixed on the TV, it seemed that he didn't know anything about this matter.

Li Ying agreed to Chen Er's friend request and watched the other party typing.

Chen Er: Doctor Li, do you have time this afternoon?

Li Ying glanced at Gao Le calmly, then looked away, looked at the phone and started typing.

Li Ying: Is there something wrong?

Chen Er: If Dr. Li is okay, I want to talk to Dr. Li this afternoon.

talk?

Li Ying thought of Chen Er last night, every time he hesitated to speak, he thought it was really related to Gao Le, and he treated him as his own brother.

But what did he ask himself to talk about, and how did he talk about it?

Chen Er: I think you should know something about Song Yan.

When Li Ying saw the word Song Yan, her pupils dilated suddenly, and she subconsciously turned her head to look at Gao Le. She was also afraid that Gao Le, who was used to observing words and expressions, would see something from his expression changes, so she turned her head halfway, and she said abruptly. Suppressing it, forcing myself to lower my head, adjusted my breathing, and stared at the phone without distraction.

About Song Yan.

To be honest, it would be self-deception to say that he didn't want to know anything about Song Yan.This is the nature of human beings, they are vain and love to compare, and they will involuntarily want to compare themselves in everything.It seems that it is such a great thing to get a slightly better one, and it is worth feeling proud. 28 Gao Le said that night, he told Li Ying that he was not Song Yan's substitute, but even so, he still didn't want to talk about Song Yan.Since he said he didn't want to talk more, Li Ying naturally couldn't ask.The matter of pressing the hatchback is not shown, but this matter may gradually become a knot in the heart. If it is not solved, it will always be a knot.

Anyone who has a knot in their heart is uncomfortable.

Li Ying replied, yes.

Chen Erding's time was three o'clock in the afternoon. They were in a coffee shop on the first floor of the commercial center of their new restaurant. Li Ying agreed and said that she would be there on time.

Since Gao Le said that he didn't want to mention Song Yan again, Li Ying definitely couldn't tell him the truth, and he was going to go out to talk to Chen Er about Song Yan.When she was about to go out in the afternoon, Li Ying said that she hadn't finished sorting out some materials in the counseling center, so she wanted to go there.Gao Le didn't doubt it, he just asked if he wanted to send it.

"No need." Li Ying put on the down jacket that Gao Le handed over, and asked him to help her wrap the scarf like a rice dumpling, so that only two eyes remained.Li Ying had to manually open a gap to expose her mouth and talk to Gao Le. "I'll go early and come back early. You can wait at home."

No one was in the mood to pack things up in the morning, and one or two dishes were simply reheated for lunch, and the rest were piled on the dining table as they were.Normally, Gao Le would definitely be called a housekeeper, but this year's New Year's Eve, whoever wants to help him clean up, let's mess up first.

"I'm going to work, you clean up at home." So Dr. Li, who was about to go out, found a job for Gao Le.

"Should I clean it myself?"

Li Ying had already put her hand on the doorknob. Hearing what Gao Le said, she paused and turned her head, looked at him and said, "If you haven't finished cleaning when I come back, I will help you."

"Then I'll clean slower." Gao Le smiled.

"Alright." Li Ying suddenly let go of the doorknob, took two steps towards Gao Le, and gently touched Gao Le's face through a thick scarf. "wait me back."

The coffee shop that Chen Er mentioned is easy to find. It’s on the west side of the first floor. Happy New Year typography.

Li Ying pushed the door open and went in. The wind chimes on the glass door jingled, and someone stretched out a hand from the innermost position on the left hand side and snapped their fingers. Li Ying followed the sound and looked over.

"Doctor Li, here." It was Chen Er.

Li Ying walked over, sat down and untied the scarves layer by layer, exposing her tightly covered face and finally able to breathe freely.

"Doctor Li, what would you like to drink?" Chen Er handed over the menu, but Li Ying didn't take it. He folded the scarf on his lap, sat upright, and looked at Chen Er.

"Boss Chen, let's keep it simple. We didn't come out for coffee today."

Chen Er took back the menu and smiled with his head down. Chen Er is honest and honest, so his smile always gives people an extremely sincere feeling.He laughed and said, "Although what Dr. Li said is correct, it's not appropriate to sit dryly and speak with a dry mouth. Well, let me order it for Dr. Li."

The waiter was called, and Chen Er ordered two cappuccinos. While waiting for the coffee to be served, Chen Er chatted about something else.

"Old Xu fed you a lot last night, did you feel okay when you woke up this morning?"

Li Ying actually wanted to say it was okay, but Gao Le seemed to feel that it was not okay, but there was no way to say such words. Dr. Li felt embarrassed, so he nodded slightly and said it was okay.

"Old Xu didn't do it on purpose, he's just crazy. Seeing Dr. Li, he feels close and wants to have a few more drinks with you."

"I know."

The music in coffee shops is generally soothing. In order to enhance the atmosphere, most coffee shops deliberately play some pure music to create a relaxing atmosphere for customers, and inadvertently prolong their seat time to increase consumption.

Today's music is classical music. Li Ying doesn't understand music, but she can tell it's Chopin's Serenade.

The coffee beans used in the cafe are very fragrant. In the production area, there is a girl wearing a mask who is learning coffee latte art, looking serious.She stared intently at the coffee in her hand, and kept shaking the direction of the condensed milk with one hand, as if she was not satisfied with the pattern that emerged, her brows slowly frowned.

Chen Er's coffee cup was served, and Li Ying held the coffee cup weakly with her own hands, warming her hands with the heat from the cup wall.

There were a lot of polite reminiscences, and now I'm going to get down to business. Hearing Chen Erdong babbling, Li Ying was actually a little anxious, but she couldn't speak to remind her. She could only follow his rhythm with a calm face, nodding from time to time Head up, or give him a response with a hmm.

"Doctor Li." Chen Er's eyes suddenly fell silent. "Gao Le, did you mention Song Yan to you?"

"I mean, did he talk about the two of them?" Chen Er thought that Gao Le would never say such a thing. Ever since Song Yan was cremated and taken away by his parents, Gao Le never mentioned it again. After passing the word Song Yan, he knew that Song Yan was a scar in his heart, which could not be healed, but could only fester slowly.

"Old Xu told us all about Lao Zhao's visit last time. I don't know what Lao Zhao's big mouth told you. I'm not defending Gao Le today. I just want to talk to you. Tell me, Gao Le is a nice guy, really nice." Chen Er looked serious.

Li Ying is used to being a psychological counselor, and usually when encountering such a situation, she will automatically assume her professional identity as a psychological counselor and become a good listener.Holding his coffee cup, he looked at Chen Er, nodded from time to time, and asked him to continue speaking as he wanted.

"I met Gao Le earlier. We were classmates in high school and lived in the same dormitory." Chen Er's high school days are far away from him. Now that he thinks about his school days of playing basketball and doing morning exercises, he can only lament how time flies.

"I remember once I lost my tuition fees, and Gao Le secretly helped me pay them. My family was very poor at that time, and the family only provided for me. My younger sister really wanted to go to school, but my father said that it was useless for girls to go to so much school. , I’m going to get married anyway in the future.” Old Xu sighed at this point, lamented that his father was stubborn and old-fashioned, and also lamented that he was powerless and helpless.

"Things like losing tuition fees are a fatal blow to me. I want to die, but suddenly in the morning, Gao Le gave me a roll of money and said that it was dropped under the bed. Let me see if it is right. mine."

Perhaps Li Ying could imagine Gao Le rolling up his money and throwing it under the bed, then pretending to be surprised to find it, and showing it to Chen Er.But this kind of clumsy acting requires the cooperation of others, otherwise it will not take shape at all.

"Of course I know it's his money. My tuition fees are all saved by my parents. There are not so many bills, and there are not so many new money just taken out of the bank. " Chen Er smiled, picked up his own coffee, and took a sip. "But I can't help it. If I can't pay the tuition fee, I will drop out of school. It's hard for me to get from a small village to where I am today. I don't want to give up."

"At that time, I told myself that I was committed to brother Gao Le."

Now Chen Er is working tirelessly to manage the entire restaurant, and he still has a little idea to thank Gao Le for his kindness back then.At that time, Gao Le used that clumsy method to protect a young man's sensitive and fragile heart, and inadvertently pushed the young man's life path further afield.

"The first time I met Song Yan was when Gao Le returned to China. He knew I was in the local area and asked me to go out for a drink. That night he asked me to come out with someone. When he introduced me, he said his name was Song Yan. It's his object." Chen Er laughed again, this time with the calmness after the embarrassment was resolved, and also the shallow ridicule of himself at that time. "I was young at the time, so I didn't understand these things. Gao Le said that Song Yan was his partner, and I thought he was kidding me. He turned out to be very serious."

Chen Er stopped, imitating Gao Le's demeanor and tone," cleared his throat and said, "Song Yan is my partner, I asked you out for a drink today to tell you this, I'm a crook, but I won't force you to break it If you don't accept it, it doesn't matter if you don't accept it. I understand. If you are willing to continue to be friends with me, we will continue to be the same as before. If you don't like me, just say it. From now on, we don't need to meet each other. The choice is yours. "

At that time, Chen Er was a well-behaved office worker who had just stepped out of university. It was the first time he heard about such a thing, and seeing the serious expression on Gao Le's face that was not joking at all, he felt that if he didn't make a statement, he would I will lose my friend Gao Le immediately.After a strong thought struggle, he drank all the wine in the glass with a sullen head, and then replied to Gao Le with a red neck, as if he was ready to be generous at any time.

"Gao Le, I made you a friend because of you, not whether you are straight or crooked. The brother I believe will never change for the rest of my life."

Later, many times when Chen Er recalled his behavior at that time, he thought it was funny. He thought how determined he was to accept homosexuality as his friend, but after getting along with him, he realized that the homosexuality he accepted after doing a lot of ideological struggles was not at all. Demons and goblins, not to mention ghosts and monsters, they are ordinary or even a little ordinary, they are ordinary lovers.

They also ate and drank, and cried and made noises when they were drunk.When they have a dispute, they will quarrel with red faces. After the cold war, one party will always apologize first.

It turned out that they were just ordinary people.

Chen Er, who came to this conclusion, seemed to have seen through the world of mortals suddenly.

"Song Yan looks pretty good-looking. He and Gao Leshi met when they were studying abroad. They are roommates. To say that the two of them haven't been in love for a long time, it was a simple roommate relationship at the beginning. You can eat some snacks from me. I will help you look up papers, catch up with dues, and write papers together. We have been roommates for several years, maybe two or three years, and then we slowly became a couple."

"It's just that the two of us are roommates, and we've known each other for too long. Suddenly, we can't change our relationship. It's like an old couple who have lived together for a long time. There is nothing too new and exciting."

The love between Gao Le and Song Yan is a matter of course. I remember that once the two of them watched a gay movie together. At the end, they looked at each other, as if they suddenly read what they wanted from the other's eyes.So it was a matter of course, Gao Le asked Song Yan, are you, Song Yan nodded.Song Yan asked Gao Le if you were, and Gao Le said that he didn't think so, but after watching this movie, he seemed to feel that I was.

The two stared at each other in silence for a long time, until the flames in each other's eyes burned their whole body uncomfortable, and then they retracted their gaze a little uneasily.

But neither of them dared to do anything that day.

The only change was when Gao Le was cooking at night, he asked Song Yan if he would eat braised pork rice.In my impression, Song Yan doesn't like greasy things very much, but the pork belly in the refrigerator really doesn't know what to do with it.But as soon as the question was asked, Song Yan nodded and said yes. Gao Le was stunned. He was going to explain that there were limited ingredients in the refrigerator, so he had to make braised pork rice.

As a result, Song Yan looked at Gao Le sternly, and smiled to reveal the dimples on the corners of his mouth. "Don't you like to eat?"

Gao Le suddenly felt that the fine wine hidden in Song Yan's dimples made him completely drunk.

"Later, Gao Le returned to China to start a business, and Song Yan came back with him. The two of them actually didn't have much time to talk about sweet love. They were more like each other's support. How difficult it is to do catering, no one has connections and no resources, it's all Gao Le Step by step." Chen Er has always said that Gao Le is the old hero of their restaurant, which is absolutely true, without Gao Le's single-minded persistence, this restaurant would have been ruined long ago.

"Gao Le has a bad stomach now. He drank it when he saw a client. He drank it day and night, and his stomach was almost perforated. When Gao Le went to talk about business, Song Yan made soup for him at home and helped him. To make up his body, sometimes Gao Le fell asleep when he came home, and Song Yan would help him change his clothes and wash his hands, and he was always meticulous."

"I once asked Song Yan if it was troublesome for you to take care of Gao Le every day. As a result, he smiled cleanly and said no trouble, if you like it, it's no trouble."

Chen Er sighed.

"Song Yan is a very nice person, but God is too unfair to him."

"He died in a car accident. It was raining that day. The raindrops were thin and dense, hanging in the air like fog, and the visibility was not high. On the way home, he collided with a car head-on, and the car was drunk and speeding. Look, it's obviously the fault of the other party, but Song Yan's life has to be taken. Sometimes I think, why, why don't you say that God doesn't open his eyes to see, there are so many bad people in this world. There are so many, why not let Song Yan go."

Rao Li Ying, a third party who has never experienced it, can hear the sadness and pain conveyed in this story, and Gao Le, as the first person with a close relationship, experienced grief that others cannot bear.

"Song Yan was picked up by his parents after his cremation, and Gao Le never mentioned his name again. In the first half a year, Gao Le worked like crazy. He went to the hospital. But after he came out, he was the same as before, unable to rest at all. I knew he was thinking of Song Yan, and wanted to paralyze himself with this kind of continuous work."

"But people's hearts can't be filled no matter what. Once you show a little slack, longing will take advantage of it."

"One evening later, he brought a big box to my house and asked me to burn it all for him. I opened it and saw that it was full of Song Yan's things. His clothes and photos, he liked The glass cup, the oil painting he painted. I asked Gao Le if it was all burned? He nodded and said that he couldn’t sleep these nights and suffered from insomnia all night.”

Both of them fell into this story together. No one drank coffee, and the originally warm coffee cooled down bit by bit.

"Later, he stopped working. He spent every day in bars, nightclubs and discos. When he got drunk, he slept all night the next day, and continued to go after waking up. I advised him, but he didn't listen. In fact, I know that he has a plan in his mind, but he just didn't dare I was alone at home. He changed the house and the decoration style, but the person in his heart seemed to have taken root, and he would never forget it. "

"Until later, he met you."