healer love letter

When she turned her head and left at Gaole Restaurant, Li Ying didn't think about the future at all, and didn't have time to think about it.Originally, I was full of joy and went to send blessings to Boss Gao, wishing him a successful opening of his new restaurant, and also wishing Boss Gao a smooth and happy next year.It happened so suddenly that Li Ying was caught off guard.His reason was overwhelmed by his emotions, and he didn't have time to savor what Boss Zhao meant.He focused all his attention on the word double, his heart was crushed by a heavy stone, and he fell down desperately with himself.

In Li Ying's ten-minute dream, she saw another sad ending. In that ending, Gao Le calmly lived his own life, and gradually forgot him as a name without any heartbeat.

This even made him think of giving up, of escaping, and of retreating.

Originally, I was alone guarding the empty loneliness and sadness, thinking about how to get through this long dark night.But Gao Le came, standing in the wind until his heart softened, so he had to open his defenses and invited him into his house.

Li Ying lost her rationality and principles almost the moment she saw Gao Le. Now he could clearly see Gao Le's eyebrows and feel the warmth in his embrace.The curvature of the corners of his mouth when he spoke, the small movements of his hands when he hugged him, the smell of perfume left on his clothes, his deep voice.

All these specific details were like a blunt knife, sharpening Li Ying's heart.

Originally, when he turned to leave, what he thought was to close his eyes, and if he couldn't see it, he didn't want to miss it.What happened afterward was all a blurred picture of imagination.

But now he came, entered his room, hugged him, and he stood in front of him clearly, and all the imaginary scenes began to materialize.This made Li Ying clearly see what kind of life he would lose if he broke up with Gao Le.

There is no carefully prepared breakfast in the morning, no hot milk when it is cold, no hugs when you get into the car after get off work, no good night kisses in front of the French windows, no fireworks, no love poems, no laughter, no him.

Li Ying panicked all of a sudden.

Can't live without him.

I can't live without him.

This specific and small sadness almost tore him apart.

Gao Le spoke word by word, his voice was very soft, like a fluffy feather, which could be blown away by the wind at any time.Li Ying felt pain every word in his heart, the feather fell into the bottom of his heart and turned into a sharp sword.

Gao Le grabbed his hand and said, if you are not used to talking about love, I think this word is too heavy for you.So far, I will not overstep the distance to you, I like you, very, very much.

This is what Li Ying said before. He said that all the love from books and other people's mouths can't move him, because he will be afraid.When he was a child, his mother's deformed love terrified him and made him struggle in pain for a long time.

Now there is a person who does not expect you to have the same fiery response to him, he is willing to tolerate and accommodate.

He said that if you feel that love is too heavy for you, my current feelings for you are limited to liking.

In order not to burden you, I don't have to talk about love.

Li Ying's nose was sore, her eyes became hot, and tears welled up.He looked at Gao Le and thought, how could there be such a gentle person in this world.

How can there be such a gentle person in the world.

The original Li Ying was like a castle built on the wilderness, impregnable and unbreakable.He was sitting in the castle, his small body frozen in the midsummer day, with his arms folded in a protective posture, his eyes fixed on the locked doors and windows.

He lived alone for a long time, raining in summer and frost in autumn, sun in spring and snow in winter, day after day, year after year, until there was a sound outside the door.

That person is a hippie, he never knows how to follow the rules, and he never plays cards according to the routine.Holding a copper hammer and silver gun, he smashed the windows and the door, and then the sun burst out, and countless voices broke into the house, illuminating the pitch-black room brightly.

The man stood at the door with a silver gun against the light, with a wild smile on his face, but there were countless gentle chrysalis coming out of his eyes.He hooked the corner of his mouth and smiled at him.

He said I like you, I like you very much.

Li Ying's body, which had been curled up all year long, was finally shaken.

He held out his hand, and he took it.

The city defenses collapsed suddenly, thousands of gravels and sand covered the sky, and the man called Gao Le led him out of the endless darkness step by step.Stepping on the fragments of the past, we walk towards a peaceful and soft future.

It was past one o'clock at night when the two of them had finished their conversation, so they ran back and made a fuss at this moment, neither of the two of them would want to get up tomorrow.When Li Ying moved away, she only brought a change of clothes and frequently used books, most of her personal belongings were left untouched here.Li Ying asked Gao Le if he would like to sleep here for the night.

Boss Gao has a big house and a big bed.Li Ying asked him if he was afraid that he would not be used to sleeping in this kind of small bed in the rental house. After all, this specification was much lower than Boss Gao's latex mattress.

Gao Le looked at Li Ying with sincere eyes, and said, "I will sleep wherever you sleep."

In one sentence, Li Ying lost her temper.

He took a pillow from the sofa in the living room and went into the bedroom. He saw Boss Gao sitting like a puppy, his eyes following him.

Li Ying put the pillow on the bed, took off her slippers and sat on the edge of the bed, looking at Gao Le. "What do you see me doing?"

Tonight, I let go of my past, and let Li Ying see the scar hidden in her heart. It stands to reason that the two have evened out, but Gao Le knew that this scar was forcibly exposed by outsiders. , the meaning is different, he is afraid that Li Ying has not calmed down, so he deliberately lowered the decibel when speaking.

"Are you still angry?"

Gao Le's eyebrows drooped, and the corners of his eyes drooped obediently, looking innocent.The person who usually laughs and scolds is very lively, now has a quiet aura, obedient like a puppy waiting to be fed.

Li Ying shook her head, and put a new pillowcase on the pillow on her own.His slender fingers picked up the pillow, and as soon as he pulled off the old pillowcase, the pillow was snatched from his hand.

Gao Le said, I'll come and change the pillowcase easily.He put the changed pillowcase on Li Ying's side, took the pillow by himself, and put it on the head of the bed here.

"Are you used to sleeping with pillows?" Li Ying asked him.

Normally, the pillow is flat, and it will collapse into one piece when you sleep on it, just enough to put the back of your head in it.The pillow is relatively bulging, and the filling inside is too full, and the headrest will be subjected to a strong reaction force, making it very uncomfortable to sleep all night.Li Ying originally thought of giving up the pillow to Gao Le and making do with it for the night, but Gao Le snatched the pillow away first.

"With you here, I'm used to sleeping no matter what." Gao Le showed a brisk smile, looked at Li Ying, moved forward a little, and got closer to him.Ask, "Are you really not angry?"

"Hmm." Li Ying's eyes dropped, and she didn't meet his gaze.

"Then can I hug you?"

Before Li Ying could speak, she was hugged into a warm embrace.Boss Gao's arms were strong and strong, holding Li Ying tightly with both arms.It's like holding a lost and recovered gemstone in your arms, you have to hold it tightly in your arms, and you can't show it to others.

A scorching breath fell on the back of Li Ying's neck, and the tiny electric sensation made the back of his head numb.

Gao Le was greedy, hugged Li Ying and refused to let go, put the tip of his nose into the hollow of his shoulder, sniffing his body greedily.Li Ying's smell made him lose his mind, but he never dared to go any further.

"Actually." Being hugged so tightly, Li Ying had to put her hands on Gao Le's chest, and gently pushed him away.

The two separated a little, and Li Ying continued. "Actually, I'm afraid."

"What are you afraid of?"

"Afraid of everything." Li Ying forcefully squeezed out a vague smile.

"I'm afraid I'm a wave in your vast ocean, I'm afraid I'm a shooting star in your endless night."

"Fleeting, brilliant but not long."

"How could it be?" Gao Le took Li Ying's hand, and gently circled his thumb with his thumb. His hand had thick oars from rock climbing before, and Li Ying's hand, which had only held a pen, was delicate and soft. Roughness draws crisp and numb circles on his softness.

"You are an isolated island surrounded by the ocean, the brightest morning star in the long night. I can embrace you for the rest of my life, and you can guide me in the direction of my life."

Li Ying's uneasiness and worries were easily conveyed by him in such a few words, and then the two fell into silence for a while.Gao Le looked at him, raised his left hand, and gently smoothed his eyebrows with his fingers.

"Every time I see you frowning, I feel very uncomfortable. I feel that I haven't done well, which makes you unhappy."

Li Ying shook her head as if to refute.

Gao Le was still stroking between his brows, with a faint smile on his face.

"You recently." Gao Le licked his lower lip, bit it lightly, and then asked, "Do you still have nightmares?"

Gao Lezai hadn't talked to Li Ying about his nightmares or his mother since the first time he talked about the past.In my heart, I hope that he will forget about these things quickly, don't have nightmares, and don't take sleeping pills.He did not see Li Ying taking sleeping pills these days when the two lived together, but he knew that Li Ying had always been a light sleeper, and would open her eyes suddenly every time she heard something.Gao Le was afraid that he sometimes had nightmares and dared not tell him, and he didn't know how to ask.Since it was another night talk today, he decided to ask Li Ying face to face if he would have another nightmare.

Li Ying was forced to retreat by Gao Le's gaze, so she had no choice but to tell the truth, "Sometimes, but not many." He quickly explained again. "Only occasionally." As if afraid that Gao Le would not believe it, he explained again, "It's really occasional."

The light in Gao Le's eyes dimmed a bit.

"why did not you tell me?"

Li Ying didn't look up, her eyes were fixed on her sheets, and the hand held by Gao Le moved slightly.

"I'm afraid you're worried."

Gao Le took a deep breath and let it out again. Looking at Li Ying, he opened his arms again.Boss Gao's arms were neither long nor short, just enough to wrap around Dr. Li.

"Did you see the scar on my shoulder?" Li Ying pulled the collar of her pajamas a little, revealing a fair shoulder. There was a light-colored scar on the skin of his left shoulder, which looked like a drop of water flowing freely. , four to five centimeters long from top to bottom, the scar is conspicuous but not conspicuous, the color is close to the skin, but how such a scar is left on the shoulder is unpredictable.

In fact, Gao Le saw it when he was sleeping for the first time, but he didn't ask.Firstly, Gao Le didn't want to continue to ruthlessly open Li Ying's wound, and secondly, he wanted to tell him when he felt that the time had come.In fact, sometimes this is what it takes to fall in love, to leave a respectful distance for each other, and not to break the casserole and ask the end of everything.

"I was disobedient once when I was a child. She burned it and used a ignited woven bag. It dripped and fell right on this place."

Gao Le's whole body tightened after hearing this, and even his arms tightened even more, holding Li Ying tightly.

Originally, after hearing Li Ying's narration, he had lingering fears about the crazy mother he said, but at that time he thought that at least she would not be so stupid and cruel as to hurt his own flesh and blood.

It turned out that she could indeed do such a thing, but Li Ying was not willing to tell him.

Gao Le's heart seemed to be pierced with dense needles, leaving dense bleeding spots on his heart, so painful that he dared not breathe hard.

He hugged Li Ying in his arms, lowered his head and slowly searched for the scar with his lips.His kiss fell there, as soft as a butterfly, one after another.

"Not anymore."

"It's not a burn, it's a hickey mark left by me." Boss Gao couldn't help himself, and the words he said contained a bit of painful pampering.

I want to have your joy, and I want to help you share your pain.

"From now on, kiss here every day, until there are only traces of me left here."

The author has something to say:

I crookedly said: Dr. Li is too pitiful for Liao!