healer love letter

Alcohol is indispensable in men's gatherings throughout the ages. In ancient times, there were green plums and wine to talk about heroes, and there were songs in the daytime to indulge in alcohol.

After drinking for three rounds, the body will heat up, the person will be more relaxed, and the words will be more considerate and considerate.

Old Xu was so happy that he wanted to sing, he clicked on the k-song screen and searched for an annual divine song We are different.He holds the microphone, and the colorful lights on the screen are reflected in his eyes.

"Next, we invite Comrade Xu, a famous folk artist, to bring you a pop song on the Internet. We are different." Xu made the announcement himself, stood in front of the screen, and bowed to the dinner table after the announcement.

In good conscience, Lao Xu can sing.For so many years, he has traveled far and wide, flying to different places and making friends with different people. Music is an important communication tool.He stayed in Japan for a while before and got to know the Chinese underground band. As a participant who became a monk halfway, he also served as their sub-vocalist for half a month. Every night, he sang under the bright lights of the building outside Ginza, and his life was crazy. .

Old Xu loves to sing, loves to make friends with singers, and listens to many songs composed by unknown young people.Those songs that contain great dreams and passions, those songs that carry hope.

When Lao Xu sang that we were different, his voice was domineering and free and easy, like a samurai who was about to finish his last glass of wine and go far away, coming and going in a hurry, leaving only a back.

we are different,

Everyone has a different situation

……

With a smile, Gao Le poured another glass of water for Li Ying.He moved to Li Ying's side, Lao Xu sang too loudly, surrounded by 360 degrees, it made his ears ring.If you want to talk to Dr. Li, you have to bite your ears, otherwise you can't hear clearly.

"Old Xu is crazy by himself, he is like this, don't mind." Gao Le turned his face sideways, almost sticking to Li Ying's ear.

Li Ying nodded and smiled at him.

"Is he drunk?" Li Ying asked him.Old Xu doesn't look like he's drunk, but he twists and sings while singing, which doesn't look normal either.

"No." After Li Ying pressed down his wine glass, he really didn't drink any more, so he poured himself a glass of warm water, picked it up and took a sip.Old Xu was still singing, and he sang so heartily that the veins on his neck were bulging, and there were also faint veins on his forehead.

"If he's really drunk, he's not singing this song." Gao Le chuckled, as if there was something in his words.

After sitting for a while, Gao Le wanted to go to the bathroom, so he patted Li Ying on the shoulder and said, "Just sit for a while, I'll go to the bathroom, and I'll be right back."Li Ying looked at him and nodded, then turned to watch Lao Xu sing.

Old Xu is really a makba, he sang three songs in a row without stopping to drink his saliva.

Now he started singing the blue lotus again.

Eyes half-closed, one hand pointed to the ceiling, as if pointing to the vast sky.

Li Ying began to feel that Lao Xu's heart might not be like his appearance.

According to Freud's psychoanalytic theory, everyone's subconscious is like a huge glacier hidden under the sea level, and the subconscious is much larger than the surface consciousness of a person.

In order to maintain the normal operation of human psychology and maintain individual safety, the human brain has a set of self-defense mechanisms.

Ego defense mechanisms are a set of instinctive responses that a person uses to protect themselves and to adapt themselves to reality by avoiding causing severe pain and anxiety.

For example, a child falls down in the public, and immediately grabs the collar of the weak child next to him after standing up and asks why the other party tripped him.In fact, the child who fell also knew that he was not tripped, but in order to avoid being the object of ridicule by others, his self-defense mechanism pre-empted the attack, eager to use this aggressive behavior to cover up his inner anxiety and fear of being laughed at. pain.

In Li Ying's view, Lao Xu's various incomprehensible and somewhat crazy behaviors are because his self-defense mechanism is protecting his fragile heart.

Holding the water glass with his slender fingers, his eyes fell on Lao Xu in front of the screen, wondering what story he had in mind.

Old Xu sat down after singing Blue Lotus, panting.I was too devoted to singing just now, and I wasted a lot of energy.He hurriedly stuffed a few more mouthfuls of mutton, poured himself a glass of wine, and drank it down with his neck raised.

Yu Lei, who had been drinking in a muffled voice, came over with a wine glass and sat in Gao Le's seat, next to Li Ying.

"Doctor Li." Yu Lei held up his wine glass.

Li Ying hesitated, and he ordered his cup. "I have water in me."

"It's okay." Yu Lei didn't put down the wine glass in his hand, but still held it in front of Li Ying. "It's just meaning, there are not so many forms." When he smiled, he gave off a very down-to-earth and reliable feeling.

Li Ying had no choice but to raise her glass filled with white water, and touched Yu Lei, the glass collided with a crisp sound.Yu Lei drank his wine in one gulp, and Li Ying took a sip as a sign of meaning.

"Doctor Li." Yu Lei sniffled. He didn't seem to drink as much as Lao Xu. His cheeks were red at the moment, but his tongue was still flexible, and there was no sign of stuttering or a big tongue.

So Li Ying thought he was sober.

"I don't know how far you and Gao Le are now. Gao Le didn't tell us so much, so he went to find someone secretly." Yu Lei chuckled. "I just want to tell you that Gao Le is actually quite a good person. Don't think he is very unreliable sometimes, talking like Lao Xu, but he is really a very reliable person."

Yu Lei put the wine glass on the table, pressed one elbow on the table, and leaned slightly against the table.

"So many years." It seemed that it was something unspeakable. Yu Lei opened his mouth, but then paused when he reached the edge of his mouth. Before he opened his mouth, he hummed a bitter smile.

"Gao Le has had a hard time for so many years. Now it seems that he can find Dr. Li, to be honest." Yu Lei raised his head, his eyes were sincere and revealing. "I'm quite happy."

"Really, I'm quite happy."

For some reason, Yu Lei's eyes were a little red. "If you are interested in him, you two will be good, and don't let him down."

Yu Lei extended a slap with his right hand, wiped it from the brow bone to his forehead, and rubbed his forehead left and right. "I may have had too much to drink."

As if raving, he repeated it again. "I may have had too much to drink."

Old Xu was thirsty from singing, so he took Chen Er and drank with him for several rounds.Chen Er discussed the quality of mutton with him today, and he gave a thumbs up and said that it was really a good sheep, a peerless good sheep.

good to eat!

Chen Er's crow's feet became more and more obvious after he got the affirmation.

Old Xu came to Li Ying for a drink with a wine glass in his hand, the burning thieves in his eyes never faded away, looking at Li Ying and a fox staring at the tender meat.

"Is it true that Dr. Li doesn't want a drink?" Lao Xu sat on Li Ying's left.

"Old Xu, don't be so shameless. You said that Dr. Li will drive Gao Le back in a while." Yu Lei stopped him from the other side.

"What can I give you as a gift from Lebi? Dr. Li, you have a drink with me, and I'll take you home."

"Come on, old Xu, don't drink and drive, don't drink while driving."

Old Xu snorted. "Don't drink while driving, I know."

After speaking, he pulled the chair and leaned against Li Ying.

The door behind him opened, and Gao Le walked in.As soon as he came in, he saw the wolf-like old Xu sitting on the left of Li Ying, and the blushing Yu Lei sitting on the right of Li Ying. Before the others stepped in, the voice broke into the room first.

"Why is this?" Gao Le walked in and closed the box door casually. "This is a two-sided attack. Do you want to eat Dr. Li?"

Yu Lei stood up to give up his seat to Gao Le, and returned to his seat with the wine glass.

"Old Xu, you are awkward, twist me again and break your legs."

Old Xu pouted. "I just want to have a drink with Dr. Li."

"Drink a fart of wine, hurry up and get out." He stared at Lao Xu.

Old Xu stood up holding his wine glass, and looked at Li Ying reluctantly.

"Doctor Li, I'll just tell you, Gao Le is very boring, you will definitely suffer from him." He patted his chest as he said, with an expression that Brother Xuan promises to make you satisfied.

"Go away!" Gao Le yelled.

Old Xu rolled his eyes and walked away. Since no one was drinking with him, he drank by himself. What's the big deal? Before he got to his seat, he was bored.

Seeing Lao Xu leave, Gao Le just sat down. After sitting down, he was not at ease. He was afraid that Lao Xu and Yu Lei would say something that made Li Ying unhappy, so he carefully looked at Li Ying's face and asked him.

"It's okay, Doctor Li. Old Xu is like that when he drinks too much. Don't be as knowledgeable as him."

Li Ying shook her head, her legs were folded together, and her hands were clasped on her thighs. This was a comfortable sitting posture.

"It's okay, I didn't say anything." He raised his eyelids and looked at Yu Lei, who was still holding his forehead, and his gaze fell into the wine glass in front of him.Compared with Lao Xu, he cared more about Yu Lei's words.

After drinking for three rounds and three rounds, the hot pot in the copper stove has long since stopped burning, and the solidified red oil is floating on the top layer, and there are leftovers that have not been eaten at the bottom.

A table of cups and plates was messed up.

Unfinished dishes, spilled wine, used tissues, empty wine bottles.

Just now Gao Le said that Lao Xu was not drunk, and he sang this song when he was drunk.Li Ying didn't understand at first, but when she saw that Lao Xu couldn't stand still and wanted to sing with a microphone, Li Ying finally understood what kind of sadness was buried under those seemingly indifferent eyes.

"Order a song for me, I can't fucking read the lyrics." Lao Xu sat closest to Chen Er, pushing him to help him order a song.

"Go, go and order a song for me, I want to sing."

Chen Er was pushed so hard that he had no choice but to put down the water glass in his hand. He drank too much wine, and now he just wanted to drink some warm water.

Old Xu didn't say what song he was going to sing, but Chen Erqing went to the karaoke stand with familiarity, knocked a few times, and helped him find a song by Liu Ruoying.

A must-have song for those in distress.

The prelude sounded, and Lao Xu was quiet.He stopped yelling, told dirty jokes and dirty jokes, and just sat quietly, facing the screen.

The quiet old Xu's eyes were red and moist.

"I don't have an ex, everyone I meet is my first love." Lao Xu smiled. "This is my motto in life, and it will be written on my tombstone when I die."

Several other people were holding wine glasses, and no one coaxed him. They listened silently and drank or drank water silently.

Only Li Ying kept looking up at Lao Xu, seeing the great sadness in his eyes.

The emotion that Lao Xu sang was different from the heroic and unrestrained singing of Blue Lotus just now. The later Lao Xu sang was bitter, like an overgrown lotus heart. Biting a bite, the bitter taste immediately spread on the lips and tongue.

My heart is very bitter.

There was a specious light in his eyes, maybe it was the light on the screen, maybe it was the tears in his eyes.

Li Ying looked at it seriously.

Old Xu sang emotionally.

At the end of the song, a tear slipped from the corner of Lao Xu's eye.He didn't wipe it, but put down the microphone, and spoke to the mess on the table, as if the crooked empty wine bottles were his loyal audience.

"It's said that first love is a scar in my heart that won't heal. Fuck the scar, isn't it that you can't forget your first love? The one you can't fucking forget is yourself! I can't forget that time when I was young and frivolous. I had no self-esteem, but my hands were empty. The long self!" Old Xu's eyes became more and more red, and when he spoke, the tendons in his neck burst, and tears kept slipping from his eyes.

"Invincible and vulnerable!"

"Poor! Sad! Lamentable!" Lao Xu poured wine for himself while talking, and drank while crying.

So vicissitudes and so wronged voice.

Yu Lei was the first to put down the cup, and he took Lao Xu's cup and put it on the table.

"Old Xu, you are drunk, I will take you back."

"Fucking big run, I'm going to pick up a big G tomorrow, shit, Gao Le." Old Xu's eyes were red, and he didn't know whether it was the effect of alcohol or tears. He slapped the table and turned his head to Gao Le . "Don't you fucking want to buy a big G, I will buy it, and I will open it for you first."

Holding a glass of warm water, Gao Le looked up at Lao Xu and smiled. "That's a good feeling."

Old Xu's tongue was too big, but he still smiled, Yu Lei went to pull him, and he struggled to squeeze closer to Gao Le.Squeezing to Gao Le's side, he held Gao Le's shoulders and talked to him in his ear. "I think Dr. Li is quite a nice person. You, just go forward when you should. Don't be a fucking old man and look back, man."

"Get the fuck out of here." Gao Le rolled up the paper he picked up to wipe his fingers just now, and threw it on Lao Xu.

Old Xu started singing again, his voice was hoarse.The tears were not wiped clean, and the tear stains hung on his face, like a dry stream.

he sings.

"Later, I learned how to love, but you have disappeared into the crowd."

The author has something to say:

Gao Le: Old Xu, can you stop singing?