sick white moonlight

01

On the day of canonization, two rows of officials stood in silence, watching the prince walking slowly in front of him with a dignified posture.

Eyebrows are delicate and moist like jade.Wearing a crown on the top, there are nine white beads on the front and back, and crystal beads on the two.

The top of the green Luo and the lower garment of the red Luo are all embroidered with mountains, dragons, fires and tigers.

He wears double jade rings and holds a jade sword.

Step by step up the stairs, the people behind gradually drift away.

Looking at the emperor on the throne ahead, his mood became complicated.

What is waiting for him?

He An is still unclear, but he can only go on like this.

In the central palace, the queen, concubines, and several princesses were waiting quietly.

"The crown prince is here!" There was a soft cry from outside the hall, and everyone in the hall cheered up.

"It's really here." Standing in a corner, Chu Ying sighed secretly.

Looking outside the door, a group of guards walked into the hall with one person in their arms.

The bright red color is so bright, the light from the corner of the eaves enters the front of the hall, and it is printed on the top embroidered with complicated patterns. Looking from a distance, you can't see what the pattern is, but it hurts your eyes. .

Chu Ying stared at it in confusion for a while, probably nothing will change.

This man finally became the prince.

In the future, he will be the supreme emperor, and even the master of the country under his feet.

As for myself, what is the future like, but I can't think of any reason to look forward to.

Or, in the end, just go with the flow, muddle through, watching the changes in this world, the ebb and flow.

Seeing the elder brother with this body ascending to the throne, watching Xiao Xiang, whom she admired, stepping up to the imperial court, going through three dynasties, from a small scholar to a high-ranking minister who is worshiped and chased by others, supporting the power of this country , until the end left a name in history.

Isn't this the perfect ending for a character like him?

As for myself, I am just a passer-by, a small person who travels through history, or just a random accident. Those who stop by are lucky to experience this period of time many years ago. As for more, I am afraid I can't find them.

It's just that at this moment, she never thought that there are still so many things that make her regret, annoy her, and hate her, waiting for her to experience, experience, and integrate.

It wasn't until it was polished by time, and the edges and corners were worn away by the world, that it revealed its true face, and obtained a complete, bright and clear white pearl, which was cherished in people's hearts.

Finally, she also found her own lover.

02

When Chu Ying woke up, it was summer.

The sun outside the window was very strong, and the dazzling sunlight made her blink.

The laughter and noise from her side gave her an illusion for a moment.

There are brown tables and chairs, and there are many chalk marks on the blackboard in front of it.

The blue and white school uniform is conspicuous and eye-catching, and the black braid dangles with people's walking.

I'm afraid it's not, I'm dreaming.

Obviously, he is already very old.

Obviously, her grandson was born.

It's been a long time since I've seen such a scene, Chu Ying thought faintly, this dream is really nostalgic.

"Ling Fang, you finally woke up."

Shaking her shoulders, Chu Ying turned around and looked at the woman standing beside her.

No, it should be my former classmate, or my good playmate Wu Jiaying.

"Last night, why did you go? In the previous class, I saw that you were sleeping all the time. Fortunately, the teacher didn't bother to care about it."

Chu Ying couldn't help pinching her thigh hard, and a burst of pain pierced her bones.

She put down her hands, lay down on the table, and couldn't help covering her eyes with her hands.

Is she really back?

Tears flowed uncontrollably, and my eyes blurred.

"What's the matter with you, Ling Fang?" A low greeting came from the ear.

Chu Ying didn't answer, she hadn't heard the name Ling Fang for a long time.

Even, she will forget.

In the eyes of others, she is the princess of Jin who married three times.

It was the woman who was rough in the first half of her life and blessed in the second half.

Her surname is Chu and her first name is Ying.

After four dynasties, the people around her left her one after another, and in the end, they finally came to her.

It's just that she never thought that she would come back one day.

She once remembered that back then, she and her husband went to Buddhist temples to offer incense.

The abbot said she was a blessed person.

At that time, she had just married for the third time, and she was full of pessimistic attitude towards life and feelings.

I just thought that this sentence was just a joke to her.

Now it seems that she is indeed a blessed person.

In this world, there are few people who have experienced her.

She obviously just closed her eyes, and when she opened them, she returned to the past.

This is really unbelievable, obviously she is already like a rotten tree, her life is about to come to an end.

But now, she has regained her future and a young body.

03

Two years later, the sun was scorching, and XX University was full of people at this time.

At the reception desk for freshmen, people lined up.

Chu Ying was carrying some luggage and was about to join them.

The parents around her are still nagging, asking her to take good care of herself.

If it is the same age, most of them are already impatient.

Going to college undoubtedly means being able to break free from parental discipline. Students who have just been admitted to college are already eager to try and become eager.

But Chu Ying still listened carefully to her parents' words. She knew that her parents were very worried about her, especially the major she chose was not only an unpopular major, but it was also difficult to find a job.

However, her parents are undoubtedly very pleased that she was admitted to this university.

This is a key university, and the major she chose is among the top in the country. Although the major is unpopular, it has rich teaching resources and well-known tutors, which are very conducive to future academic development.

Without the 50 years of experience, Chu Ying never thought that she would choose such a major, such a difficult, lonely, and poor life in the eyes of outsiders.

However, she had already enjoyed wealth and splendor in her previous life.

In her previous life, she had obtained everything that ordinary people could hardly obtain. In this life, she only wanted to do her best to do something for the lost dynasty, the lost building, and the people buried in the torrent of history.

"Hello, junior. Please fill in your personal information." The boy in front of him lowered his head slightly, his voice was hoarse, but very stable.

Chu Ying sat down, filled out her personal information, and put down her pen.

"Sister, you can go to the 23rd floor to get the key."

The boy raised his head, his complexion was yellowish, his eyes were dark, and he was very energetic.

Chu Ying stood up, looked at the boy's face, and couldn't help but be engrossed.

This face was so much like someone she knew.

How could she not know each other, even though they were old and gray-haired, after all, they had lived together for so many years, she accompanied him to many places to serve as an official, and she raised two lovely children for him.

She and he watched the children grow up and have children until they were both growing old.

She watched him doing practical things for the common people, running around for the survival of the country, the official became bigger and bigger, and the age was getting older. Finally, he resigned from office and went back to hiding. Together with her, he found a beautiful woman near the capital. A place to enjoy your old age.

In fact, she is guilty.

If it wasn't for her, if it wasn't for her, it would be impossible for him to fail to be the prime minister in his whole life.

Shangzhu, he cut off the position of Zaifu, an extremely human minister.

Based on his qualifications and merits, in Shenzong's first dynasty, after Xiao Xiang left, the only old man in the court, besides him, is anyone else.

But just because he married her, he lost that qualification, that title.

Even if he is favored and has enough power, he still can't occupy the glory he deserves in the history books.

"What's your name?" Chu Ying couldn't help asking.

"Oh, my surname is Lin, and my name is Xuan." Although the boy was a little puzzled, he still answered.

After hearing this, Chu Ying was a little disappointed.

This is not his name, her husband, the man who accompanied her all her life, surnamed Yang, first name Chengxuan, style name Zichong, name Xueyuan.

Where is her son Chong now?

The company I have long been used to, but now I wake up in the middle of the night, but I don't know where I am.

03

"Are you a law major?" Chu Ying asked again.

"How did you guess it?" The man was slightly curious.

"It's nothing, it's just a random guess." Chu Ying smiled lowly, ready to leave.

The man didn't say anything more, he looked at the pretty and peaceful woman in front of him, and left slowly, with a touch of loneliness in his back.

The figure gradually drifted away, the man hurriedly stood up, pulled an acquaintance next to him to sit down, "Help me watch the meeting, I'll come back later."

The person who was pulled over shouted, "Lin Xuan, are you leaving like this?"

After there was no response, the person sitting down muttered a few words.

"It's really not a brother, just go after a girl like this."

Chu Ying pushed a small box and walked on the road.The campus is very large, and the trees along the road have been planted for many years. They are very tall and strong, and the luxuriant leaves cover all the sunlight.

"Chu Ying! Chu Ying!"

A shout came from behind, and Chu Ying subconsciously wanted to turn around, but was stunned.

After more than two years, this is the first time she has heard this name in this era.

"Chu Ying!" Another shout came, "Ling Fang, I still remember you, I lied to you just now."

Chu Ying stopped and looked at the tall man in front of her.

"Chu Ying, I'm Chengxuan." He gasped and whispered.

"I know, do you still remember?" the person in front of him asked.

Chu Ying was speechless, nodded, and burst into tears.

It turned out that she wasn't the only one here.

He was there, he was still there, and he was still willing to be with her.

"Don't cry, don't cry." He was at a loss and whispered softly.

"Where am I still and where am I?"

Chu Ying closed her eyes, yes, he is still there.

Even if he doesn't say anything, he doesn't know what happened to him and how he came here.

But when I saw him, my heart was at peace.

04

That year, shortly after their second grandson was born, she told him a story.

She said that once there was an ignorant and ignorant girl with loving parents and a good learning environment.However, she didn't cherish it at all. She grew up carefree and never suffered any pain.She wasted her time recklessly and never regretted it.

Until one day, she found that she went back to the far, far past and became a princess in a deep palace.

This princess is very ordinary, but she is talked about because of her marriage.

She was married at a young age to a handsome young general.

Everyone said they were a match made in heaven, a match made in heaven.

But not long after, her husband was given to death for offending the emperor.

Later, she married a personable and handsome Tanhualang.

People said that she was really lucky, her father was so kind to her, and the husband-in-law chosen for her was always such a talented person.

People around her always said to her, Princess, you must live a good life, you must cherish this marriage gifted by God, and you must thank the emperor in the palace, because he has treated you so well.

But, but, it seems that only she remembers those terrible pasts.

That day, officers and soldiers rushed into the house armed with weapons and arrested everyone except her.

The handsome general had a ferocious face, held a weapon, and brought a few personal guards, still resisting.

But in the end, he looked at himself who was still confused, and sneered.

She heard the general say to her, "It turns out that Emperor Dog has such an idea. It turns out that he doesn't care about your daughter at all."

She was still confused, even at a loss.

The entanglement of political interests is too far away for her.

She didn't know the disputes in the court, the fights in the local area, and even less what the general did to offend the emperor's heart and end up in the end.

It was only later that she found out that the reason she married the general was to secure the general's heart.

The general is from the border, he is the son of the general, and there are many border forces behind him to support him.

The general's family has been stationed at the border for many years, and the nearby powerful families are basically attached to his family.

And he is the best successor in the family.

The general, who is powerful in military force at a young age and powerful in the imperial court, is deeply loved by the soldiers, and even more deeply rewarded by the court.

But in fact, the court has long been dissatisfied with his family.

The imperial court believes that the general and his family have seriously violated the interests of the Jin Dynasty, and even the imperial court has always suspected that the general's family has been colluding with the neighboring countries in the north.

Originally, the emperor did not want to marry her to the general.

However, just as the war broke out again, the general won the victory and was ordered to enter Beijing.

The emperor changed his mind and asked her to marry the general, who made him feel safe.

The General and his family were indeed deluded, and did not proceed more cautiously.

Soon, the court obtained enough evidence to root out the general and his family.

Only two years after she married the general, she lost the general and became a well-known widow.

Later, maybe it was guilt, maybe it was to make up.

The emperor quickly chose a husband for her, and this time, she got a husband whom everyone envied.

He is young, handsome and extraordinary. Although he was born in a poor family, he has amazing talents and learning.

This time, everyone said that she was really lucky.

However, only she knows.

Her new husband didn't like herself, nor was she satisfied with the marriage arranged by the emperor himself.

He is ambitious, longs for fame and wealth, dreams of being high in the temple and ascending to the top of power, and believes that this is the ambition that a scholar like him should have.

However, when he agreed to marry the princess, he lost this possibility.

He has wealth and glory, a noble princess, and the emperor's favor and favor, but he will never have the opportunity to go to the real center of power and hold power.

Gentle and rich, he is deeply addicted, but also deeply resentful.

In the end, he was involved in the struggle between the government and the opposition, involved in the struggle for imperial power, and once again angered the emperor.

She was sentenced to reconcile with him, she stayed in the capital, and he was exiled to the remote southern barbarian land, where the climate is hot and poisonous gas spreads.

The day before he left, she went to see him off.

He didn't say much, maybe he still had a conscience, and before leaving, he told her that he was obsessed with obsession, that his heart was higher than the sky, and that he had wronged her.

In fact, she didn't understand either.

She knew that he didn't love herself, so naturally, she never let herself fall in love with her.

She knows that the person who falls in love first will always be hurt first.

Therefore, she never dared to open her heart easily and give too much emotion.

She suppressed her feelings and tried her best to be a qualified and virtuous wife in the eyes of outsiders.

She lived carefully, cherishing this hard-won life.

The emperor brother who has been the prince for several years told her to relax, don't think too much, don't care about other people, make yourself happy and live for yourself.

However, she couldn't do it.

She couldn't stop caring about other people's opinions, she was afraid of being out of place, so she always covered up, always whitewashed the peace.

However, the peace will be broken one day.

This time, she lost her husband, lost her support, and lost her family.

In fact, she didn't understand why she had to live like this, as if she had lost herself.

She even feels that she has lost the ability to be happy, she is so unfortunate that no one loves her.

05

The emperor's father died, and the elder brother who was already the prince ascended the throne and announced it to the world.

That year, her former idol Xiao Xiang entered the capital and became a seventh-rank Beijing official.

In this era, she has only been here for five years, but she seems to have lost the motivation to live.

To marry and have children is the destiny of women in this era.

As a princess, she has the supreme glory.

At the same time, she was constrained by such an identity.

What she wants is very little, just a piece of ordinary happiness, so that she can feel at ease in this era of ups and downs.

However, happiness is so hard-won.

She was going to marry again, and this time, it was the emperor's brother who personally pointed out the marriage.

She actually knew that people outside the palace had already called her Kefu.

The groom was someone she knew, a friend of Xiao Xiang's.

His appearance is not handsome, and his complexion is even slightly dark, which is not in line with the preferences of the Jin people.

He always puts on a serious face and rarely gets along with others gently.

He was always inarticulate and clumsy when facing her.

But he is undoubtedly a very capable person, and he has been praised by many people in the court.

However, he took the initiative to tell the emperor that he was willing to marry her, who had been married twice.

When they first got married, she was puzzled, and he didn't explain why he married her.

He has been kind to her like that for ten years, holding her at the tip of his heart, fearing that she will be hurt in the slightest.

Day after day, year after year, she really understood.

He really loved her, even though he never said it.

He doesn't have rhetoric, he just does it.

She regained the vitality she didn't have before, and she began to go out of the house with his encouragement to see the real world.

She no longer complains about herself, no longer blames others.

She learned contentment, tolerance, and reason.

He was an official outside, and she went with him.

She is his good wife, helping him earnestly and doing her best to run their family.

He never ignored her, and put her first in everything.

Be considerate of her, forgive her, support her.

He was an enlightened ancient who always encouraged her to try and realize what people now see as fantastic ideas.

Sometimes, she always wondered if what she was doing was meaningless and completely out of line with this era, he always said to her, don't be afraid, Yinger, and me?Besides, if you don't try, how do you know that you can't do it, and what you do is meaningless?

Little do you know, you are so special.

He always said that to her.

In fact, she just wanted to say that you are the real special.

In this world, in this era, how many people can be like him, who do not regard their wives as vassals, but as equals, cherish and love them, and guide them everywhere.

He was so patient and so accommodating.

Later, she thought, she really fell in love with him.

She is willing to bear children for him and give everything for him, but he always tells her that you should take good care of yourself and cherish yourself.

She smiled silly at that time, maybe sometimes women always look forward to a perfect love, and when it comes, they are willing to give everything.

In fact, they were not without quarrels.

Even, the longer we get along, the more we can discover each other's shortcomings.

But at that time, they were already connected as one, able to understand each other and be considerate of each other.

So, on that day, she didn't want to hide it anymore.

She asked, do you believe that all women in the future will be able to study in school with men.

She asked, do you believe that people in the future will be able to transmit voices thousands of miles away, and even see each other.

She asked, do you believe that people in the future will be able to travel thousands of miles a day, travel across oceans, and even fly into space.

He said Thaksin.

She said he didn't believe it.

He said, how could I not believe it.

He hugged her tightly, I know, I know, even if others don't believe what you say, I will believe you.

She also said, in fact, I am just a ghost living in this body.

I'm not a princess, and I'm not a smart person. I just know more than some people because I come from the future.

I can't afford compliments from others, she said.

I lied to almost everyone. I used a body that didn't belong to me and enjoyed everything she should have.

I am a selfish person and a cowardly person.

I am afraid, I am afraid that one day suddenly, everyone will know my true face.

He just held her in his arms and said softly.

You are just my Yinger, my wife, and the mother of my children.

Everything you have, you deserve.

You are so kind and don't want to hurt anyone.

How can you not deserve my love like this.

Finally, he also spoke to her.

he loves her.

It's just that he didn't tell her that he fell in love with her the first time he saw her.

In past and present lives, love is immortal.

The author has something to say: come back secretly and continue to update... Fanwai actually writes more casually, I want to try a different way of writing for a change of taste