sick white moonlight

01

I knew from a young age that I would be the emperor in the future, even though I haven't even become a prince now.

However, everyone in Dajin knows it.

In the future, I will inherit the throne, and this world will be mine from now on.

Because, my father gave birth to my son.

No, it should be said that I am the only child under my knees.

According to other people's words, as far as my royal father's body is concerned, he may die in a few days. At that time, who should take care of this world?

As you can imagine, there is no one else but me.

Of course, it is not ruled out that some ministers want my father's brothers to inherit the throne.

But, I know, that's impossible.

Because the entire imperial court knew that it was impossible for Xiao Xiang, who monopolized the power, to agree to this matter.

Besides, my father's brothers, only my second uncle can be regarded as a good person.

But second uncle, he was not serious since he was a child.

Now, he spends days and nights in the northwest area, guarding that territory well, and training his soldiers by the way, so he has no choice but to come back.

Of course, if someone suggested that the second uncle should be the emperor, there must be a few ministers in the palace wishing to hit the post and die.

As far as I know, every minister who taught me to read would give me the example of my second uncle who was playful when he was young. If I don’t study hard, I will have to stay in the northwest and never return to the capital.

In fact, I know that they are all lying to me.

In my life, I may never hope to go to the Northwest.

Unless I become the emperor in the future, I can drive myself to conquer.

It stands to reason that people like the second uncle would not have had the opportunity to be stationed in the northwest. In other words, it should be that all clans should have no chance to gain military power.

It's better, just like my fourth uncle, who is allocated a good place and can be his vassal king.

Almost, like my third uncle, he was locked up in the capital all his life, staying in his own mansion and being his idle king.

However, I don't want to call him third uncle?

Everyone knew he was crazy.

I don't know exactly when he started going crazy, and others don't care.

When I was young, I secretly asked people in the palace.

Only an older court lady told me that third uncle should have gone crazy long ago.

Since he was reprimanded by his father, Emperor Yongping, and could never enter the palace, he should have gone crazy.

The court lady told me that Uncle Sanhuang is a complete lunatic.

I asked her, why?

She just laughed without saying a word, and after a while, she spoke softly.

Your Highness, you are a good person. You don't know that in this world, some people are born to torture others.

For a person like this, it is best to go crazy and die early.

Almost everyone seemed to know that Third Emperor Uncle wanted to be the emperor, especially wanted to be the emperor.

In the end, because he didn't become emperor, he went crazy.

When I was young, I always wondered.

Uncle San is so stupid, what good is there to be an emperor.

When the emperor was so tired, the tired father couldn't even sleep soundly, and the tired prime minister always had endless things to deal with in the palace.

And I, even if I am only the heir of the emperor, I still have to work so hard at such a young age.

There are never-ending books, endless writing, and endless courses.

I am so envious of my second uncle's children who play polo every day.

There are always a large group of fun people by his side, playing with him to his heart's content.

Unlike me, I am surrounded by scholars, and there is basically nothing to talk about except books.

However, I have a secret that I never tell anyone else.

I remember, that day, there were only me, Father Huang, and Xiao Xiang in the palace.

I plucked up the courage to ask my father, why the third uncle is crazy.

At that time, I was really curious.

But the emperor didn't answer, but just gave me a casual look.

In the end, the father said that he was not crazy.

Xiao Xiang, who had finished sorting out the documents, also smiled, walked over, and handed his father a cup of warm tea.

Your Third Emperor Uncle is very smart, how could you be crazy.

I looked at Xiao Xiang and said with a smile, there was even a touch of bitterness between my brows.

Later, when I became the crown prince, I realized the truth revealed by my father and Xiao Xiang.

It turned out that Uncle Sanhuang had never been crazy.

He's just pretending to be crazy.

However, I didn't know that he had been pretending to be crazy for so long.

It's been so long that I can't believe it, it's been so long that I almost forgot that he was really pretending to be crazy.

02

The day Father went there, it was very cold and there was heavy snow outside the window. Although the palace was still warm, there was always a bone-piercing chill.

I heard my father say to Xiao Xiang, I'm dead, so you can release him.

At such an age and locked up for such a long time, it was enough.

I know that Father is talking about Uncle Three.

But Xiao Xiang was very angry, rarely very angry.

He said, what are you talking about.

How could you...how could you...don't go...don't go...

He lowered his body and put his face on his father's palm in front of the bed.

That was me, the first time I saw Xiao Xiang cry.

As for the father, he touched his face lightly, and there was a smile on his face.

Don't be afraid, I'll wait for you.

No one stopped them, I stood by the bed, silently watching them say their last farewell.

Several servants in the hall cried softly, and I couldn't help closing my eyes.

How terrible, obviously once, I was so resentful.

I hate that I know the relationship between Father Huang and Xiao Xiang.

Also, how could I not know.

After all, many people in the palace should know about it.

At least, I'm sure, the queen mother understands.

But now, I regret it a little.

I regret that I didn't tell my father earlier that I am not angry anymore.

I heard Xiao tell his father, let me tell you, I won't let him out.

If it wasn't for him, why would you suffer so much.

If it wasn't for him, how could you leave me.

Xiao Xiang didn't even hide it anymore.

I mocked a few words in my heart, but I couldn't laugh when I wanted to laugh.

That's right, the man I knew never shied away from questions.

No one knows, from before to now, he is so tall in my mind.

When I was young, everyone around me told me that he was my teacher and a minister of the court, and I had to listen to him carefully.

When I grew up, people around me told me that he was my subject, an ambitious minister with power, and he had to listen to me carefully.

How can a courtier not listen to the emperor's words.

If you don't listen, you will be disrespected and you will be exiled.

However, I know that he is different to me.

In fact, I really want to call him a father.

But, I know, I can't.

I have a royal father, a queen mother, and several aunts and uncles.

People often say to me, I have everything, I am the master of this world.

However, I often feel that I have nothing.

Because what I really want, I can never get.

So, what do I really want to get?

I don't know, or maybe, I know.

But, I never dared to say it.

03

When I was young, I was taught to study hard and learn how to be a good emperor.

I can't be playful, can't cry, let alone indulge myself.

Because, from now on, this world will need me to take care of it. If I even indulge myself, then this world will be in chaos.

Growing up, almost everyone said that to me.

However, there are two exceptions.

One is my father and the other is my teacher.

Of course, my teacher, they all call him Mr. Prime Minister.

People around me always tell me that I should listen carefully to what the prime minister has to say.

When I was young, I didn't understand; when I grow up, I still don't understand.

Obviously, I just need to listen to my father's words carefully.

Obviously, the prime minister will never stop listening to his father's words.

So, secretly, I always think, how stupid they are.

I'm such a smart brain.

As long as I can remember, it seems that my father's health has not been very good.

Later, I asked a favored servant next to my father.

This servant is named Huo Zhou, and he is a servant with good diction and knowledge.

He has been with his father for more than 20 years. Like his father, he loves to read and does not seek to understand.

Perhaps, this is part of the reason why he is favored.

He told me that it was because his father was assassinated when he was the prince, and since then, the root of the disease has fallen.

He also secretly told me that the assassination was instigated by Uncle San Huang.

That's why Uncle Sanhuang has been locked in the mansion and cannot go out.

He told me not to speak out, because the influence is not good.

Of course, I'm so smart, how could I say it?

In fact, there is one thing that most people know, but they never tell me.

Even, they thought I didn't know.

They don't know, but I already knew.

That's what my father told me.

I'm not actually the father's child.

My real father is actually the Second Emperor Uncle.

The Second Emperor Uncle who was stationed in the north and always cared about his soldiers.

I have always felt that the father is benevolent and kind. He always speaks so neither fast nor slow, and has never been angry.

He treats his courtiers so kindly that he hardly cares about the affairs of state, and he shares all his power.

Although there are always some unconvinced people who say in the court that he ignores political affairs and harms the country.

In fact, according to me, if the father really manages too much, they will definitely start to dislike the father again.

They are just dissatisfied with not getting more power.

After my father died, I became the emperor.

Xiao Xiang really let the third uncle be released.

This is not out of my expectation, after all, what the emperor asked and wanted, even though he objected, he would eventually do it.

I also went on the day that Uncle Sanhuang was released.

He is still crazy, no matter how you look at it, he looks like a real lunatic.

I'm even a little confused, is he really pretending to be crazy like what my father said?

That day, Xiao Xiang also came.

Xiao Xiang didn't say a word, acting in a business-like manner.

His handsome face was cold, and he lost the easy-going expression he used to have in front of his father.

I know he must be very sad.

It's just that if he doesn't say it, it's hard for me to mention it.

After all, it might be better for him not to mention it.

On the afternoon I came, Uncle Sanhuang was lying under a tree, with disheveled hair and torn clothes, rolling around.

He smiled foolishly and looked at the sky.

Until he saw Xiao Xiang, he suddenly burst out laughing.

The body trembled and rolled over with a smile.

I heard Xiao Xiang say, King Jing, you can go out now.

Uncle Sanhuang, like me, is surnamed Chu, with a single character Ning, also known as King Jing.

After Xiao Xiang finished speaking, he was ready to leave, not wanting to stay for a moment.

In fact, he didn't want to come.

I was the one who asked him to come with me.

I also wanted to leave.

Judging by Uncle Sanhuang's appearance, he is already a lunatic.

However, I didn't expect that when I left.

Uncle Sanhuang suddenly shouted a few words.

Chu Yan is dead, Chu Yan is dead, Chu Yan is dead.

The emperor is dead, the emperor is dead, the emperor is dead.

Xiao Lingyin, why don't you die, why don't you die.

I was shocked immediately. It turned out that Uncle Sanhuang was really pretending to be crazy. He actually pretended to be crazy for nearly 20 years, which is really unexpected.

As for what he said, I can actually understand it.

The father has gone, so why didn't Xiao Xiang, who loves the father, not go to accompany the father.

In fact, I was vaguely aware of it.

It must be the father who asked Xiao Xiang to stay, and the father forbade Xiao Xiang to go to him.

Otherwise, Xiao Xiang must have gone to accompany his father long ago.

I was suddenly a little lucky, and even thanked my father, he was the one who let Xiao Xiang stay.

I have become the emperor, and in the future, I will be alone.

Fortunately, Xiao Xiang can still be by my side for a while.

I, maybe I can only secretly call him father in my heart.

Father must know, he knows my admiration for Xiao Xiang.

When I walked through the courtyard gate, I heard Uncle Sanhuang shouting from behind me again.

I'm going to be emperor, I'm going to be emperor.

Come on, I am the emperor, so hurry up and drag this man down and behead him.

Suddenly, Uncle San Huang spoke again.

Concubine Ai, Concubine Ai, come here quickly and let me love you.

I looked back, and Uncle Sanhuang was still half lying under the tree, smiling foolishly.

I looked at the guard next to me suspiciously, and the guard explained.

King Jing has been like this for a long time.

Only then did I realize that maybe, Uncle Sanhuang was really crazy this time.

What is the difference between a normal person and a lunatic, maybe just pretending to be crazy.

On the way back to the palace, I suddenly became interested.

Father, what kind of person is he?

I don't understand and never will.

People in the palace always say that he is kind and gentle.

But in my heart, I always feel that he is lonely and difficult to get close to.

He and I, and most people in this world, are separated by such a thick film.

Except for Xiao Xiang, except for his father.

Maybe, he really loved Xiao Xiang!