【Love and Producer】Behind

I went to the rest area at the boarding gate and sat down, because there was no traffic jam unexpectedly, and it would be nearly an hour before boarding.

At [-] o'clock in the evening, the airport was crowded with people, surrounded by a row of duty-free shops, and many people carefully selected goods in them.

After casually laying out my passport and boarding pass on my lap, I took my mobile phone and slid down the Moments interface several times in a row, but there was no news I wanted.

Laughing at myself, even though I know it's impossible, people always have a little bit of expectation... I relax and lean on the back of the chair, looking at the sky that has gradually darkened outside the floor-to-ceiling glass...

……

There are many afternoon tea shops on the roadside of Shizi Lane. Sitting in the open air, you can feel the fresh breath brought by the occasional wind, and your heart is like the bubbles in soda water, gurgling and jumping.

Han Ye handed over the re-filmed mobile phone. Looking at the neat edges and the bubble-free screen, I couldn't help but praise the ancestral film.Then after taking Bai Qi's power bank and connecting it, the battery icon popped up on the screen of the phone, and the whole person felt gradually filled with joy.

It's hard to imagine that 10 minutes ago I was so embarrassed that I didn't know how to face Bai Qi, who I hadn't seen for many years, but now I can sit down and face him so calmly.

I always feel that it has been a long time since the day we parted, and I think he should look like a mature adult.But now it seems that time and years just flowed quietly like a river, except for turning him into a better person, it didn't take away much.His amber eyes still shone with the same brilliance as when he was a teenager, the kind of brilliance that I remember deeply.

"Aren't you planning to be a policeman like your elder brother?" I complained after I was relieved from Han Ye's one-on-one interrogation-like conversation.He rolled his eyes at Bai Qi who seemed to be replying to the message on his mobile phone. After imagining his appearance in a police uniform, a strange picture appeared in his mind, and he couldn't help giggling.

Han Ye next to me was bewildered and looked at me who suddenly laughed inexplicably until my shoulders trembled slightly, and Bai Qi glanced over with some doubts.

"It just occurred to me...that, Brother Bai..." I covered my mouth and tried to calm down and said, "There seems to be a police officer among the Black Cat Sheriffs, also named Baige..."

"Pfft...Senior, you're still so talented!" Han Ye burst out laughing, but held back after sneaking a glance at Bai Qi.

Bai Qi put down the phone, with a helpless expression on his face, but he said with a hint of nostalgia: "You... are still exactly the same as before."

I saw the faint smile on the corner of his mouth, and my chest throbbed violently, and suddenly I didn't know where I was.There is an illusion, as if my 17 years old was just last year...

However, the ideal story in my mind had just begun, and the reality immediately smashed down.Perhaps whenever you expect something more, the result will always run counter to it.

Accompanied by the sound of high-heeled shoes, the girl's figure got closer and closer, and her face became brighter with delicate makeup.Han Ye called the boss and asked the waiter to add an order. Just as Bai Qi was about to introduce, the girl smiled and looked at me, just like in high school, her eyebrows and eyes were very cute.After we hadn't seen each other for a long time, Bai Qi and Han Ye were a little surprised.

I remember walking late in the third year of high school and saw Youran dragging a box of materials to the stairs with difficulty alone, with a heavy-looking schoolbag on her narrow shoulders.I don't know where this sense of mission came from, so I walked over instinctively, went down two flights of stairs, turned around, picked up the box of materials, and helped her to the piano room.This was the first time I spoke to her, and I felt her good family education and politeness. She thanked me three times along the way.Even when we meet occasionally on campus, she will take the initiative to come over to say hello.

When I heard Han Ye full of complacency and touting himself as the great contributor to Bai Qi's leisurely relationship, I gave him a thumbs up.In between drinking drinks, I sent a text message to my friend to ask her to come out to pick me up, and then I listened to them talk about recent events, and we will do food interviews together later.

Not long after, friends rushed over.I shirked Bai Qi's invitation to have dinner with the three of them on the grounds that I had to go back to prepare for tomorrow's wedding.

"Senior sister, I'm going to be a bridesmaid~" Before leaving, Han Ye winked at me gossipingly, "Do you have a date yourself?"

"You don't care about me!" I just kicked up as before.After giving him another big white eye, he warned fiercely: "If you keep doing this, Brother Bai's light bulb, you will be beaten to death sooner or later!"

"Heaven and earth conscience! I made an appointment with the boss to do an interview today, but Brother Bai insisted on following along..." Before Han Ye could finish speaking, Bai Qi, who was raising his hand to beat him, was so frightened that he jumped to the other side. On one side, "Boss, save me!"

Seeing Han Ye's dog-legged appearance, I couldn't help laughing, and Bai Qi on the side also retracted his hand and lowered his head to straighten his cuffs.

"Let's have a meal together after we've been busy. It's true...it's been a long time." Bai Qi turned against the light, with a bit of unquestionable certainty in his plain tone.

The wind blew over the few locks of hair on his forehead, brushed against the straight bridge of the nose, and there was a gentle but somewhat unreachable light in his eyes.

There was overwhelming throbbing in my heart again, but I had no choice but to suppress this love forcefully.Then she looked at him seriously and nodded.

"it is good!"

……

After graduating from high school, our family moved out of Lianyu City because of my father's job change. I thought I didn't care about it long ago, but I didn't expect that when I came back again, I would be beaten back to my original shape in an instant.I haven't forgotten him, and even find myself thinking of him suddenly and uncontrollably.

Just like my friend asked me on the way back that day, you still like him, right?I nodded, then shook my head helplessly, with a dazed look and a bit of crying.

You never know how much you like someone until you see him with someone else and suddenly feel it all.

In fact, fate has long been doomed. The hero and heroine in the story are them, and they belong to them at first and in the end, and I may be a passerby who complains too much.

At that time, I felt that I was not impossible, just like a wishful thinking fool...

After checking the boarding pass, I sat in the window seat.Looking at the warning lights arranged in an orderly manner on the airstrip outside, the aperture became more and more blurred, and my eyes gradually lost focus.

My family was very surprised, why I suddenly agreed to study abroad.When my friend knew about it, he said it was an escape, and I smiled noncommittally.

indeed.

He is still a dead end that I haven't been able to get out of. Sometimes I even think that if I still can't get out, then I will just store this feeling with nowhere to go and stay in this dead end.

but…

This is obviously something that should be given up. If I stay where I am, as long as I smile at me again, I will still continue to struggle with that bit of nostalgia and impossible expectations without hesitation.

I don't want to do this anymore.

This may be the sudden enlightenment.

But it seems that there is still a long time to let go of the distance.

It’s a pity because I can’t get it, so I will never forget it.Those who are still uncontrollable in their hearts will have a little bit of expectation, so they will take a photo of the boarding pass after checking in the luggage and post a rare Moments update.

However, he wouldn't care.

"...Then you can ask your sister if you can." The voice of the conversation in my ear pulled me back from my thoughts.

The young mother took a little girl about six or seven years old and sat in the two vacant seats next to me.The little girl had two cute rabbit hair ornaments tied on her braids. She looked at her mother, then turned her head and blinked her big eyes to look at me expectantly.

It turned out that the little girl wanted to wait until dawn to change seats with me and sit by the window to look at the sky.I smiled at her, agreed, and then chatted with the mother and daughter.

"Sister, have you been staying in New Zealand since then?"

"I don't know, maybe I will stay for a long time..."

When the plane closed the cabin door, the voice announcement also started to sound. I sent a WeChat message to my mother to let me know that it was about to take off.

"Ma'am, I need to trouble you to turn off your mobile phone and other electronic devices~" The flight attendant's pleasant voice came from the aisle, "You can put on your seat belt."

"Ok."

I slid my fingertips on the screen a few times quickly, I lowered my head and took one last look at the message prompt, then sadly clicked to confirm to shut down.

Sure enough, most disappointments are self-inflicted.

"The night sky over there is really beautiful, you know... I saw a very bright star last time..."

The innocent little girl was still excitedly talking about what she had seen and heard before, without realizing that I was a little depressed.

The brightest star?

The dazzling amber color appeared in front of my eyes.

The brightest star I've ever seen was the man's eyes...

☆, end

Received You Ran's WeChat message telling him that he got up late, and when he was told to go out half an hour late, Bai Qi had already arrived downstairs at her house.

Yesterday's task was more difficult than expected, and the team was not completed until early in the morning, and a trace of fatigue flashed across Bai Qi's face.After standing under the tree, he replied to her, don't worry, take your time, remembering that Youran should be in a hurry, the corners of his mouth curled into a nice arc.

After looking through the news in the work group, I glanced at the 12 unread Han Ye profile pictures.When I clicked in, I saw a few lines of exclamation marks, Bai Qi felt a little pain in the head, when will this kid stop being surprised.But when he saw the following lines of text, he was startled suddenly, and even his fingers paused slightly.

She went abroad to study...

After unhurriedly scrolling down, I found the news of the conversation with her. In fact, I didn't talk about anything except after I reunited and added friends in Love Language City that day.

[You are already friends, let's start a conversation now]

[Baige Baige, call Baige~]

[What's wrong? ]

[Picture expression] A photo stolen from the circle of friends, put Bai Qi's head on the face of Sergeant Baige, and added two lines of words below, my brother Bai in the society, I am handsome and don't talk much.

[………]

Seeing this expression at the time, Bai Qi was speechless.However, this is really her style.

Click on the first post in her circle of friends. In the photo is the entire ticket and half of the passport, accompanied by a sentence: I will go to heaven later, everyone, I will miss you!It shows that it was sent 14 hours ago.Looking at Han Ye's long list of comments below, I suddenly feel a little dazed...

Bai Qi remembered that his first impression of her was not very good, and then he felt that this person's thoughts and actions were a bit unbelievable, but... unexpectedly interesting.

Bai Qi remembered that she had single eyelids, and her bangs would always curl to the side because of poor sleeping posture.When he smiles, he is a bit bold, showing two canine teeth, and there is a faint dimple on the right cheek.Once when the three of them were sitting on the roof, Han Ye asked her why she had dimples on one side, and she said that these were not dimples, but were bitten by a dog when she was a child.At that time, I was taking a sip of the drink and almost choked.

Such a bland intersection in high school seems to have been generated inadvertently.She often followed behind him silently, would talk about insignificant topics, and would firmly remember what he said, but never asked him what he didn't want to mention.Occasionally, when I saw him across the corridor, I would smile and wave to him. Occasionally, I passed by on campus, and when I turned around, I accidentally missed my sight together.Slowly get used to blowing the wind together, eating together, walking together, talking and laughing together, squandering those free moments together.

Fragments of memory fragments slowly surfaced...

Although it is not deep, and I seldom think of it, but I have not forgotten it.

Bai Qi recalled that muggy early summer evening, with a little humidity in the wind, and the noise of vehicles surrounded her ears, she followed behind her as usual.He wanted to say goodbye to her as soon as he walked through this intersection.Just as the signal light flickered and jumped to red, her cry sounded behind her.

It was his full name, loud but with a little trill.Bai Qi turned around and looked at her who was holding onto the shoulder strap of her schoolbag tightly with both hands, her cheeks were flushed a little, but her eyes shimmered with unprecedented firmness, as if she had made a great determination, as if she was going to say a lot important things.

But she just stood there motionless.Bai Qi approached with some doubts, and suddenly realized that there was no sound around, even the fine dust floating in the light of the setting sun was still.

It's that guy, the guy with the ability to stop time evol.

Bai Qi stayed in place for a while, but there was still no movement.What is that guy doing?After walking a few steps impatiently, I suddenly felt, that's fine, let's leave like this, without saying goodbye.

But after walking a few steps, he stopped unconsciously. He raised his head and looked at the dark clouds floating a little not far away, feeling that it was going to rain soon.Bai Qi sighed, and there was an emotion that he couldn't explain lingering in his heart.After a while, he turned back, picked up the girl who was still standing there, and headed towards her house.

This was the second time Bai Qi had such close contact after the time he sent her to the hospital.Although the girl is quite tall, she is actually much thinner than she looks.At this moment, the ends of her black hair brushed against the back of his neck, a little itchy.

Put the girl under the eaves at the door of her house, so that even if it rains later, she won't get wet.It's really strange, Bai Qi caressed the slightly itchy back of his neck, maybe after staying with Han Ye for too long, he even started to feel a little dick...

Bai Qi glanced at her, turned around with his hands in his pockets and left slowly.Halfway along the way, the leaves that had been stationary in mid-air spun in front of my eyes and fell to the middle of the sidewalk.The street scene returned to normal, and he was taken aback for a moment before continuing to walk forward.

But a little bit of annoyance popped up in my heart for no reason, why time stopped at that time.

So... what is she trying to say?

…………

"Bai Qi! Bai Qi!" Xiaoqiao's hand shook a few times in front of her eyes, together with a familiar voice, "What are you thinking?"

"..." Bai Qi came back to his senses, looked at the phone screen that had already gone dark, and said lightly, "It's okay."

The girl took his hand and asked a little excitedly: "Bai Qi, have you checked Moments? Senior sister, she left to study abroad yesterday!"

"I know." Bai Qi's tone was as flat as ever.

"Why are you so excited?" You Ran swayed to stop in front of him, looking over in disbelief.

"Why am I so excited?"

"..." Youran was at a loss for words for a moment, and then there was a bit of complaint in her tone, "The one who left is the senior sister! The three of you have such a good relationship... Besides, you clearly agreed to have dinner and play together next time, why is the senior sister so sudden?" I went abroad...you don't even know, when you were in high school..."

Bai Qi listened to her thoughts, squinted his eyes and raised his hands to block the glare of the sun.The blue sky above the head is clear and transparent, and there seems to be a straight airplane cloud in the distance, dividing the blue sky.With the passage of time, the clouds from the end gradually become thinner and blurred, which is not real, but it is as peaceful as the years spent with that person.

Not deep, even very light, but can not be forgotten.

Bai Qi took Youran's hand and walked forward, with an extremely gentle expression on his face, and the corners of his mouth slightly raised seemed to be full of anticipation...

"See you soon..." he said.

The author has something to say:

In the beginning, I just wrote it after hearing that I would get SSR for food production. The writing style is not good, and I wrote it in fragmented time, so I thought about where to write, and it was not very coherent.

Thank you for those who have read it, I wish you all the best of luck ヾ?≧?≦)o