[football] this god

Argentina won the World Youth Championship without any suspense.

After the initial great joy passed, Leo fell into an unspeakable loss.

"Is this how you feel after winning the European Cup?"

Leo excused his leg pain because he was repeatedly violated on the court today, so he declined the invitation of his teammates to go to the party to celebrate together. Oh was so violated that he didn't say anything.

But only Aguero asked, "Do you want me to accompany you back? Does it matter if your leg hurts?"

Leo didn't want to disturb other people's interest, so he refused Aguero's company, and went back to the room alone to lie on the bed and send text messages to Ronaldo.

Cristiano originally thought that Messi would have to participate in the team's celebrations no matter how lonely he was, so after watching the game, he simply washed up and got into the quilt to prepare for sleep.

Fortunately, he still saw Messi's text message.

"Although I know you are very weird, it is still too weird to play on your mobile phone at the celebration banquet-why don't you chat with Mr. Aguero?" Cristiano asked.

"You're jealous, although it's unnecessary." Leo wanted to laugh, but he pursed his lips trying to hold back, "I didn't go to the celebration dinner, I don't feel so good."

Although Cristiano knew that Messi's several falls during the game should be hard injuries, which would not affect the bones, ligaments and muscles, but he was still a little uneasy when he heard Messi say, "Does your leg hurt?"

"No, I just feel... lost."

"... Hello, the best player in the final of the World Youth Championship, what is missing?" Cristiano felt very speechless, "Is the trophy of the World Youth Championship too ugly? "

"I feel very disappointed, as if this thing can't satisfy me. After I got it, I was satisfied for a while, but soon I felt dissatisfied again." Leo tried to express his feelings clearly, but the language seemed to be unable to reach place, "Do you understand?"

Cristiano stared at the phone screen, and all sleepiness disappeared.

——"The Champions League champion, Cristiano, this year your Ballon d'Or is no problem." After winning the Champions League in 2014, Mendes said to Cristiano so happily.

Cristiano was lounging on the sofa in his living room, looking like he had lost the excitement of the night before, "Maybe, so is there any arrangement? I guess you got a new contract?"

Mendes obviously also noticed Cristiano's indifference, and his excitement faded a little because of this, "What's the matter? Did you encounter any unhappy things? Someone asked you a strange question?"

"No, why do you think so?" Cristiano turned his head to look at Mendes, as if surprised by his thoughts.

"I don't think you're happy," Mendes said bluntly. "I don't know why, but I guess you're not."

Cristiano turned over on the relatively narrow sofa, turned his face to the back of the sofa and said sullenly: "I know I should be happy, and I was really happy for an hour-but it's strange, after an hour I was happy I feel tired, and I don’t feel that way anymore.”

"You may just be tired." Mendes seemed relieved. "This season is too long. After winning the Champions League, you may just breathe a sigh of relief and feel tired-this is also normal. It's okay Cristiano , go to sleep, you will feel very happy when you wake up tomorrow morning.”

Cristiano wants Mendes to think this way, because otherwise he can no longer explain his feelings, so even if Mendes got it wrong, Cristiano still pretends to agree with him happily .

——"Maybe you are really dissatisfied, you just can't be satisfied with this trophy. You know you can get better." Cristiano recalled these and sent Messi a text message back, "You are indeed You can get better, so it's normal to be dissatisfied."

"But everyone else is very happy." Leo thought about his companions, and insisted stubbornly, "They didn't even get the best in the final of the World Youth Championship, and some of them didn't even make an appearance, but they were still very happy. "

"Other people? You are not someone else, you are Messi, remember?" Cristiano was amused by Messi's self-deception, "This is the best way to distinguish us from them, you know this truth, don't you?"

us, them.

Leo was pleased by this distinction.

"Did you feel the same way when you won the European Cup?" Leo returned to the original question, he wanted to find a companion for himself, and wanted to prove that Ronaldo was the same as him even in this matter.

But he might be disappointed today.

"No, I could only feel happiness at that time." Cristiano frankly denied Messi's speculation, "I was so happy at that time that all other emotions disappeared. "

Leo's smile at "us" and "them" disappeared.

"I feel good, everything I've gained since then is icing on the cake, and I feel that my greatest responsibility has been fulfilled—I'm no longer a sinner, I'm no longer a debtor, I'm free, I All the honors received are just honors and not some pathetic substitute." Cristiano typed here, scratching his curly hair, and suddenly felt the limitation of language, but he still sent it.

——“I am free again from today.” Cristiano said to Mendes in the summer of 2016.

Mendez was immersed in great joy, unaware of the hidden meaning in this sentence, "You are free, Cristiano, you are not only free, but also great."

Perhaps because Cristiano was so happy that day, he said what he was unwilling to tell Mendes anyway.

He said: "All I've been getting is a substitute for losing Euro 2004, but I can't be satisfied every day I don't get the real thing. The more I get the substitute, the more clearly I realize that it's all just nothing. The consolation prize I fought for the Euros, the more I realized the more pathetic I felt. And the more I did it, the more I was trying to get everything I could—it was an endless loop. But now it's different, now I'm free, I'm out of this cycle."

"I've done everything I can, and I'm free."

——But this life, Cristiano has never shown to any Messi of the year and now.

So Leo still didn't understand what Ronaldo meant, he buried his face in the pillow, and it took a while before he picked up his phone again to reply.

"Then maybe I'll just get everything I didn't get. Like the Ballon d'Or, like the Golden Boot."

Cristiano wanted to tell Messi a negative answer, telling him that the two examples he gave were the things he would most dismiss in the future.

——"I'm sorry." Cristiano said when he met Messi for the first time after the life node of the two of them in the summer of 2016.

He doesn't need to say anything about regret, he knows that Messi understands in his heart.

Messi just glanced at him and nodded with a straight face.

This is very unusual because Messi never gets angry with outsiders, he is always very polite and smiles a little bit when he is off the field, but that day he didn't smile at all, he seemed to be angry.

But Cristiano didn't understand why, if it was for the "unfortunate" thing, it would be too strange-Cristiano and Messi expressed their attitude towards each other in such a cryptic and frank way more than once, he thought This is the consensus between them: they have no other intentions, they just express their importance to each other.

So he felt baffled.

This inexplicable lasted for a long time, until they all retired, he heard Messi explain this matter-that was the only time Messi explained this.

"I've been hurting like I've had my legs broken and I know I'm not going to heal - but I guess you've forgotten that feeling, after all your legs were healed in the summer of 2016. And you , a man who is healed, and said to me that you are sorry. You did not intend to humiliate me, but I was humiliated anyway.”

He compared the national team's defeat to his own legs, and they all believed that if they didn't win the national team's adult international championship, it would be their greatest flaw-after all, their legs were their most valuable assets.

——Cristiano looked at Messi's text message and didn't know how to reply.

He didn't know whether he should directly tell Messi what he should pursue now, let him directly get the final answer and give up the process of searching, or let the other party go all the way to find the answer.

Cristiano didn't know what to do to love and do his best.

He thought about it for a long time.

"I don't know, everyone has their own answer, I think you should probably find what you want yourself," Cristiano replied.

Find what you want by yourself, maybe this is the meaning of life.Cristiano thought.