Inhabit you as a forest

The snow that fell a few days ago has been stirred by the sun these days. It looks warm, but it is actually colder.

The lamps outside lit up along the trail of people, and the quiet and bleak winter night made the house more warm.

Wen Lian's legs seemed to be fixed in front of the bed, and she didn't even move when Sheng Qi walked out of the room.

"Let's talk."

In the third year of high school, she said the same thing, and the subsequent conversation made her completely break with Sheng Qi.

The memory came back, threw her out of the warm room, soaked in snow water, and dried in the new wind.

In the third year of high school, in early autumn, it was rainy, and the campus was full of the wet aroma of sweet-scented osmanthus.

The expelled summer only left an extremely obscure stroke in the diary, and the sweaty night was deliberately forgotten.

It is easy to catch a cold when the season changes, and being sick can be regarded as a stumbling block in the third year of high school.And the more anxious she was, the more she went back and forth, and soon she caught a cold, and her mother seemed more uncomfortable than her.

At that time, Wen Lian wondered whether her mother cared about her or was worried that her study progress would be affected.

There is no such thing as a weekend for high school students, and they only have a holiday once a month.Sheng Qi was unable to study due to her grandmother's illness, either in the hospital or in the classroom.

They can no longer be as close as they used to be.

When school first started in September, they made excuses to sleep together, and it seemed like they would never be apart.

But stepping into October, everything becomes bland.

Grandma Sheng Qi is in the hospital, and her aunt comes to take care of her occasionally.Wen Lian prepared many words of comfort, but Sheng Qi seemed to deliberately avoid her in order not to listen.

Once she couldn't hold back, she knew that Sheng Qi hadn't come home yet, so she waited in the corridor.She looked at her watch. She had to wait at most 10 minutes before going home, or her mother would find out that she was not in the room.

Fortunately, Sheng Qi's footsteps came soon, and he was quite happy to see her, "Are you waiting for me? I should have bought you some supper."

Her smile was the same as before, bright and beautiful, but it was not as free and easy as usual, as if it was tied to a rock and fell down.

Wen Lian forgot what she said, she said, "You have caught a cold again."

She stepped forward to hug Wen Lian, and gently stroked her head worriedly, "It will be fine if you don't get sick."

His eyes lit up and then darkened as Wen Lian put his arms around her waist. Enduring joy, he lowered his head and kissed Wen Lian's cheek a few times.

Wen Lian thought, Sheng Qi's worry was pure, and he would feel sorry for her and kiss her.

Sheng Qi wouldn't think about what to do when she was sick and unable to study.

Wen Lian still told her the prepared comforting words and encouraged her to study.It's the last year, and I can pass it with a lot of effort.

Sheng Qi agreed, but he didn't seem to take it seriously.

"I don't know when my grandma will be discharged from the hospital. I won't let her accompany me to study in the future. It is important to go home to take care of my health. I may have to live on campus."

"No matter where you live, we will meet when we have time, and you can come to my house to do your homework during the holidays." Wen Lian was reluctant to let Sheng Qi move away, but he still coaxed her first.

The most uncomfortable person is Sheng Qi, she can't have bad emotions.

Her cold didn't go well until the monthly exam, and she had a fever that day. It is reasonable that there would be no aggravation of the condition. Her mother took care of her very carefully.But maybe it was her poor health, or maybe she was too stressed, and she could barely walk.

In addition, the fact that Sheng Qi was going to live in school bothered her, so she had a splitting headache that afternoon, and she didn't finish the synthesis.

When I went back at night, my mother took her to hang the water with distress, and said that she would take half a day off to rest.

But after the results came out, that tenderness disappeared, and her mother's face was more ugly than ever.

Wen Lian was not the first.

The state of the first few subjects is not ideal, and there are a few big questions left in the comprehensive, and it is worthless, so how can I compete with the classmates who are eyeing it.

Although the sixth is not much different from the first, although the teacher knows that it is because of her body, she is advised to adjust her mentality.But this is the first time she fell, and once she fell, she was ranked five, from a lie far beyond No.2 to a mediocre existence.

She can adjust her mentality, but her mother couldn't do it, so she talked with the teachers of various subjects, and finally it was her turn.

"Ningning, Mom has something to talk to you about."

Wen Wei thought that the content of the conversation was nothing more than learning, whether it was criticism and encouragement, or a more compact study arrangement, she was tired of listening to countless principles.But she won't show it, patiently waiting for her mother to vent her anxiety.

But the focus of the conversation was not what she expected, and her mother brought up Sheng Qi.

She didn't know when she found out that she and Sheng Qi were too close, maybe they ran into each other sometime, or maybe they heard something from others.

"I wanted to ask you a few days ago, so I refrained from talking so as not to affect your monthly exam. But you passed the monthly exam like this, senior year, and you fell off the chain at the critical moment, aren't you in a hurry?"

Wen Lian listened calmly, and her mother asked her to stay away from Sheng Qi, so that she should not be delayed by her any longer.

"I'm not performing properly because of my body, it has nothing to do with her."

"Why doesn't it matter? Making friends is a waste of time. I used to see you happy, so I left it up to you. But what you have become now, doesn't she affect you? Are you learning from your cousin? Wen Xu has the capital Willful, do we have any in our family?"

Han Ruohua restrained himself and didn't make his words too harsh, but it was still too harsh for Wen Lian.She knows that she has no willful capital, she must go forward according to her mother's ideas.

Sheng Qi was her accident, she lost control after deliberation, she thought that she and Sheng Qi had emphasized that they would not fall in love, so what they did was appropriate.

But her mother uncovered that layer of desire, and her self-deception was extremely ridiculous.

She can't fall in love early, and she once taught Sheng Qi a lesson, but what are she and Sheng Qi doing?They have done everything between lovers, but they dare not admit that they are in love.

She didn't admit it.

From this, mother thought that they were playing around, following new trends, Sheng Qi was playful, and deliberately led her to go astray.

If you don't interfere now, Wen Lian will become a real gay in the future.

After the conversation, Wen Lian needed to find an opportunity to express what her mother meant in her own way.

During that time, a big incident happened in No. [-] Middle School. Several men and women bullied a girl, stripping her down to her underwear.The video was spread to the school group by the troublemakers, forcing the girl to almost commit suicide.

The leader of this matter is Wang Zhengyin.

Sheng Qi said, Wang Zhengyin and the others are not bad, at most they don't like to study, they have a good face, and they like to pretend.

But how can a person who is not bad do such a bad thing.

Wen Lian was attacked by gossip in junior high school and high school. It was also a kind of bullying, but it was silent and painless.

As a girl, she couldn't believe the despair of that client.

Wan Yuduo is also paying attention to this matter, and complained to Wen Lian that when the incident was not serious yesterday, he also saw Sheng Qi chatting with others drinking milk tea in the Internet cafe.

He asked Wen Lian to remind Sheng Qi not to make promiscuous friends anymore.

Wen Lian got angry immediately, "Don't remind me, it's useless."

She said it many times, but Sheng Qi didn't listen, thinking that they were friends, and friends should not stay away casually, it would be embarrassing.

Her grandma was sick and hospitalized, she was not in the mood to study, so she went to play games?

Or with Wang Zhengyin, will she know what Wang Zhengyin did?Sheng Qi's character would never participate in it, but didn't she know that she was also in that group.

Is she equally angry, or is she still looking for reasons to excuse her friend and persuade him not to be afraid?

Every time Wen Lian thought about it, the more pain he felt.

Mom was right, she couldn't concentrate on studying without being disturbed when she liked Sheng Qi.

She just gets distracted.Worried that Sheng Qi will not be taken care of, worried that Sheng Qi is in a bad mood, worried that Sheng Qi will not study, worried that she will learn badly.

Angry at her friends for being careless and opinionated.

How can a high school student have such an emotion?

And Sheng Qi, how could he be so disappointing?

Maybe it's not what Wan Yuduo saw or what she thought, she can ask clearly, and Sheng Qi will definitely explain.

But what's the use of asking?She can't be friends with her anymore.

Her mother said that if she didn't want to drive people away and get entangled with Sheng Qi, they would move.

Han Ruohua also said that if Wen Lian couldn't solve her own affairs, she would come forward and go to the hospital to see Grandma Shengqi.

Let her grandma tell Sheng Qi not to disturb Wen Lian anymore, she will destroy Wen Lian.

Grandma Shengqi is seriously ill, so she can't let her know about these things.

Wen Lian had no choice but to guarantee that she would break it by herself.

She originally planned to tell Sheng Qi to stop dating and study hard.

Don't contact her after graduation, she can only fall in love with boys, she doesn't like girls.

She didn't want Sheng Qi to know that it was her mother who couldn't accept it, and she couldn't fight it.It's not that I don't dare, but that I don't want to.

At the end of the day, my mother cried, she could not accept that her daughter was gay.In the future, she will be independent, unmarried and infertile, and will be judged like Wen Xu.

She said that she had had enough hardships, and the only pillar was Wen Lian. She wanted Wen Lian to be praised and envied by everyone, instead of becoming a talking point and a joke.

Seeing her mother crying, Wen Lian couldn't be tough. After hearing those words, she knew that she would never be able to be with Sheng Qi for the rest of her life.

Yujiang is a small town, and people in small towns tend to be more conservative in thinking. Sister Wen Xu is so favored and has money in her family, but she still makes trouble because of coming out of the closet.

Where did she find the strength to struggle?

The bullying incident made her vent her anger to Sheng Qi. She really hated Sheng Qi's view on making friends, and her accusations were so sharp that they hurt others.

And she probably did too many questions, and she didn't respond when she saw Sheng Qi crying in anger.

Broken thinking, it's hard for her to explain to Sheng Qi why she can't contact and be together in the future, Sheng Qi won't give up.

Instead of letting her have expectations, it's better to tear her face like this, let Sheng Qi hate her, and stop talking to her.

How can there be so many good gatherings and good breakups? Since she was about to back down, what good ending is needed.

And she said those stupid things, just after the "let's talk".

She was instinctively afraid of this sentence.

At this moment, Sheng Qi's sudden seriousness gave her a premonition.

She doesn't have a clear conscience at all, there is no fire that can be wrapped in paper, she knows it in her heart.

Sitting down facing each other, although Sheng Qi's gaze was not fierce, it seemed to be frozen, there was no smile flowing, and it was as quiet as a deep pool: "Is your diploma at home, show it to me."

The opening remark was the key point, Wen Lian didn't move, he didn't even raise his eyes.

Sheng Qi gave her enough time to be silent, unable to wait any longer, bent his index and middle fingers, and clasped his knuckles on the table.

"You said before that if I don't believe it, you will show it to me."

Wen Lian finally looked directly at her, "No, I admit that I lied."

The silent person was replaced by Sheng Qi.

Wen Lian said, "I graduated in the same year as you."

really.What Wen Xu and Wan Yuduo said was true.

She tried to calm herself down, "I said, if you hide something from me, I will be angry."

Wen Lian didn't want to argue for herself, but she was afraid that she would get angry, "What I kept from the truth will have no effect on our future, what happened in the past has passed. We can live in peace in the future."

"Will you not want me again in the future?" Sheng Qi asked her with a smile.

She replied very quickly: "No." Her tone was firm.

"Why should I believe you? You can lie to me without changing your face after others tell you the truth. You are better than I think."

She thought that Wen Lian would not lie, and even if he lied, it would be obvious, with a bunch of small movements, just like when he was young.

But that was a few years ago, and she didn't know Wen Lian now at all.

"I hope you can trust me, and I won't lie to you again. But about the past, is it okay not to ask? I really don't want to talk about it." She resisted mentioning it.

Sheng Qi shook his head, and said to himself, "You can't repeat it like me, so did you take a year off from school, or did you not finish with enough points?"

"It's impossible to delay graduation. It's strange that you don't have postgraduate insurance. Why did you suspend school?"

That was the most painful and embarrassing experience for her. It took her several years to finally heal herself, but she had to let it go for others to see.

She could only answer the words: "Lots of pressure, insomnia, poor state at school, go home to recuperate."

If that's all, then there's nothing you can't say, just tell her directly, why keep lying.

"Serious?" she guessed.

"Yes."

How serious is it?Sheng Qi swallowed this sentence, because Wen Lian's face was full of rejection, she didn't want to mention it.

But her condition was so bad that she was suspended from school, Han Ruohua could agree that she would not go to school and go home for a year, it must be very bad.

So Wen Lian didn't want her to know, did he?

Just like the scar on her forehead, when Wen Lian saw it, she panicked to death, she was afraid of being rejected by Wen Lian.

Her tone softened, "I asked you before why you refused to come out when you called. You are also lying to me. It's not because of the high pressure of work or the bad relationship with your mother, is it?"

"I'm not completely lying to you. Half a year before graduation, I was struggling between studying for graduate school and returning to Yujiang. I was under a lot of pressure, and my state became unstable. I didn't want to see you. When I first came back, I really didn't pay much attention to my mother."

She spoke very slowly, but explained seriously, she didn't want to lose Sheng Qi because of it.

Why is she ignoring her mother?

Is it just stressful?

Sheng Qi thought of this, and found that besides Wen Lian, she should love herself at the moment: "Do you think I'm particularly lacking in love?"

Wen Lian struggled to make a swallowing movement, but didn't make a sound.

She probably didn't want to lie anymore, and the truth was hard to hear.

"Your mother obviously can't accept me and doesn't want you to be with me. But you want to make me think that she likes me very much. Wen Lian, you are really good to me, and you make me happy to be sentimental."

Sheng Qi was not being sarcastic, but really affirming her efforts.

She tried her best to get her mother, and then made up a fairy tale to fall in love with her.

In the past two days, she stroked it carefully.

The farewell in the third year of high school was too abrupt. Before that, Wen Lian encouraged her, hugged her and kissed her. Within a few days, she felt that she was wasting time.At that time, she thought that losing the monthly exam was really important to Wen Lian.

Later, he obviously liked her, but when he was contacted, he refused to meet her because of the so-called high work pressure, and he did not take the initiative after that.

The graduation time is fake, she just graduated when she answered the phone.

And the most important person in her life, Ms. Han Ruohua, although she loves her, is the legendary tiger mother.I can't wait for Wen Lian to win the provincial champion exam without sleep, and win glory for her on the TV station.

How could such a person not allow Wen Lian to continue studying and force her to return to Yujiang.

Will such a person who seems gentle but actually has a strong self-esteem really be enlightened enough to allow his daughter to like women regardless of the world?

Just because the object is Sheng Qi, so you can trust her?

Sheng Qi believed it before because she loves this version too much, and she lacks a good story.

She would rather it was true, she just had to believe it and be with Wen Lian.

But once you calm down, you will know how ridiculous this is.

How could Han Ruohua like her so much, he didn't want her to disturb Wen Lian before the exam, and after grandma was hospitalized, he didn't pay much attention to her, even a little indifferent.

Since she wanted Wen Lian to get married and have children, why would she make an exception for someone who had known her for less than two years.

The one who should be sad after knowing the truth is Sheng Qi, but Wen Lian choked up and said, "I'm sorry."

Sheng Qi laughed instead, helplessly, wondering which of the two of them worked harder and who was more embarrassing.