Inhabit you as a forest

In order to take care of his family conveniently, Cheng Juan chose to fill in the university in Yujiang when he had a better choice.

In her life, there are countless unsatisfactory things, and the shortcomings accumulated over the years have accumulated into vast oceans and mountains, and she walks in them, numb and calm.

Applying for a student loan covered the tuition fee, and she relied on her part-time job to earn living expenses, and she also gave a little to the family every month.

My mother needs to take medicine every month, and my younger sister is still in school.

On weekend mornings, Cheng Juan works in a cafe.I go to the morning shift, get up at six o'clock, wash up, go to the cafeteria to have breakfast, and then go out.

The location of the store in the city center is far away, but fortunately, it can be reached directly by bus.

Before opening the store, she needs to clean up, adjust the coffee machine, and serve freshly baked bread.

The hourly salary of this part-time job is not as high as that of a tutor, but she likes the atmosphere here. In addition to the fact that the store manager and colleagues take good care of her, the work itself is also valuable.

She was immersed in the noise of procedures and irrelevant things, like pressing the pause button for her hurried life, and briefly got rid of all kinds of pressure and shortcomings.

Whether the customers in the store are young or not, leisurely and decent or not, happy and melancholy or not, they are all living a life that she cannot get.

Without this job, she would never be able to enter such a store, order a cup of coffee, and an extra useless expense is a luxury for her.

And her luxury is a necessity for "continuing life" for others.

Just like her clothes and shoes back then, they lost their shape and color after washing.And Sheng Qi has endless new clothes, which will always appear in front of her glamorously.

She wasn't jealous, and she didn't have the strength to be.

It's like seeing a line of science popularization, and said lightly, knowing that there is such a life.

Her self-esteem has been stronger than others since she was a child, which is a disadvantage for poor people.

The younger brothers and sisters can wear clothes given by others, even if they are good intentions, the clothes are very new, and some are even new, but she easily refuses to wear them.

Therefore, it is not once or twice to be laughed at because of clothes.

And Sheng Qi didn't care about her attire at all, never mentioned it, and never said embarrassingly "I'll give you one".

Cheng Juan is grateful for her ignorance.

When she first entered junior high school, a straight-talking classmate who didn't know much about her family asked her why she didn't buy two sets of clothes.

Sheng Qi said: "If you really care about it, you can pay for it and then talk nonsense. People can wear whatever they want, which is in the way of you? My shoes look good, and I wonder why you don't buy a pair?"

People can't afford her shoes, so I have to keep my mouth shut.

In the coffee shop, Cheng Juan thought of Sheng Qi frequently, it was a place for her to breathe, and Sheng Qi was once her ray of light.

She thought that if she saw Sheng Qi again, it should be in this kind of place.

It wasn't the village she fled with all her strength, nor was it the campus that Sheng Qi couldn't avoid.

Just in the coffee shop in the downtown area, imitating the customers, sipping coffee slowly, talking and laughing.

She still owes Sheng Qi 5000 yuan, she remembers it, and saves a sum of money every month, and will pay it back in the future.

She read the text messages Sheng Qi sent her countless times.

The photo they took together was the only photo of her except for the necessary ID photo.She kept it very carefully.

I still remember when the photos came out, Sheng Qi praised her for being on the camera, saying she was so pretty.

An order is taken, and her mind goes back to the store.

The day I met Wen Xu was so ordinary, I forgot whether it was sunny or rainy, Saturday or Sunday, and even what Wen Xu ordered.

She only remembered that Wen Xu was dressed like five people and six people. Unlike ordinary guests, he looked like he was either rich or noble.

When Liu Chengjuan put the coffee and desserts on the table, Wen Xu was looking at his phone, and thanked her without looking up.But somehow he was distracted again, and caught a glimpse of a red string on her wrist.

He casually said, "Did you make it up yourself?"

"My sister made it up."

I can't afford other decorations, only a simple red thread, one for each of the sisters.

"You look good in it."

After Wen Xu finished speaking, he smiled at her.

No matter what kind of face you have, it won't look ugly when you smile, let alone a beauty with thick face.

The deep and flamboyant facial features look dangerous and not easy to get along with, but the smile makes them gentle and lovable.

After that, Wen Xu didn't disturb her work anymore, as if she was just talking casually just now.

Cheng Juan didn't think too much about it, he saw many people coming and going, no matter how beautiful they were, he didn't take them to heart.

Two weeks later, when Wen Xu came to the store, Liu Chengjuan didn't even think of this person.

It wasn't until Wen Xu asked her the specific working hours familiarly, and after she finished answering, Wen Xu smiled, that she didn't remember it.

Wen Xu praised her: "It's rare to be willing to work part-time at the age of studying, and to be able to endure hardships. When I was in college, I only slept in and fell in love on weekends. It was a waste of time."

Cheng Juan did not agree with Wen Xu's indifferent praise and self-criticism.

There are many part-timers among her classmates, which is not rare.There are also many people who sleep late and fall in love, which is common for college students, but she can't do it.

She nodded and wanted to leave, but Wen Xu asked her again: "You work in the morning, should you rest in the afternoon?"

"There is afternoon work in the afternoon." I have to go to the students' home for class.

Wen Xu nodded, "Okay."

Cheng Juan doesn't like to think about others, he deals with everything numbly, and has no time to think about it.

This slightly regrettable "Okay" didn't arouse her curiosity at all, and she continued her work without caring about Wen Xu.

On the following weekends, she would see Wen Xu around ten o'clock one day and chat for a few words.

She guessed that Wen Xu lived near here, liked the coffee here, and was willing to chat with the waiter a little more.

When Wen Xu took the initiative to tell her the name, she was puzzled, but the "lifelike" "Xu" was indeed uncommon, so she said "Oh" dully.

Wen Xu was amused by her and asked her, "Your name?"

Cheng Juan didn't want to reveal it, but Wen Xu made it impossible for her to refuse.

It's not because of Wen Xu's looks or temperament, she is not that stupid.It was because Wen Xu had a serious face, as if knowing her name was important.

Wen Xu: "That Juan next to the word female?"

"No, trickle trickle."

"Wow, it's really nice." Wen Xu seemed to praise her sincerely.

Cheng Juan found that no matter what she told Wen Xu, she would praise her.The red rope is beautiful, the part-time job is rare, and the name is nice.

She was so mediocre that she was thrown into the crowd and disappeared without a trace. Is there anything to brag about?She didn't understand because no one had boasted before.

People who praise her tend to pay more attention to her ability and character, but she has to have those to survive, and she is not happy to be praised.

But being praised by Wen Xu, she felt happy, and she was also surprised.

After meeting a few times like this, Wen Xu is considered a regular customer in the store, although he only chats a few words each time.

Until one day, Wen Xu asked her, "Do you have a boyfriend?"

"No." Cheng Juan was very calm when he answered. The store manager and his colleagues also asked, and they all said that college should have a relationship.

But the next sentence shattered her calm.

Wen Xu: "Do you have a girlfriend?"

Cheng Juan looked at her with a frown. It was the first time someone asked this question. Are you kidding me?

She didn't speak, Wen Xu smiled deeply: "I offended you?"

Shaking his head, Cheng Juan replied solemnly: "I don't have a girlfriend either."

"That's great." Wen Xu said happily.

Even if Cheng Juan didn't want to think wildly, he wouldn't ignore such words. Why did Wen Xu say "that's great"?

She didn't ask.

dare not ask.

As a result, she became "narcissistic", and couldn't help but wonder, did Wen Xu come here to drink coffee because of her?

Every time I only chat with her, I will praise her and smile at her.

But this is ridiculous, a beautiful and decent woman, even if she likes women, there is no need to like her, an incomprehensible and ordinary student.

She curled up dimly in a corner of the city, exhausted from her day-to-day life.

Just guessing that Wen Xu was interested in her made her feel ashamed. This "confidence" was too outrageous.

People may see that she is a good match, and they are willing to talk to her, just say a few witty words to make her laugh.

I hope she doesn't fall in love at the age of school. This coincides with her parents' concept, so there is nothing to think about.

Cheng Juan regained his composure very quickly, and saw Wen Xu again with his usual attitude.

Wen Xu looked bored and had nothing to do, "You have a full schedule in the morning and afternoon, what about the evening?"

Cheng Juan was puzzled: "What's wrong?"

"I want to treat you to dinner."

Wen Xu raised an eyebrow at her, "Change a place and chat more."

If they have anything to talk about, just say a few words in the store.

Cheng Juan refused without thinking: "I have to go back to school at night, I haven't finished my homework, and I still have to read."

"Is this the legendary good student who does homework and reads books on weekends?"

Wen Xu teased, "Can't you spare a night's work? Not tonight, but in two days."

Cheng Juan doesn't socialize, and she tries her best to avoid dinner parties in the dormitory on weekdays, let alone with an insignificant person.

"No time."

Her "busyness" made Wen Xu helpless, and she didn't force it, "Okay, when you are free, you want to chat with me, send me a message, and I'll treat you."

She wrote her mobile phone number to Cheng Juan, "Save it after get off work, don't lose it."

Cheng Juan picked up the corner of the sticky note, it was hot, and the high temperature made her feel dizzy from the heat from her hands to her head.

The store manager joked with her privately: "If you are a male customer, maybe you can get out of the order."

Cheng Juan thought, what is that female customer for?

You can never really lack friends.

The store manager said that maybe she is pleasing to the eye, and he will give her contact information as soon as he is happy, and he doesn't have to have dinner with her.

However, Wen Xu's invisible pressure made Cheng Juan think about whether to change jobs.

But in the next few weeks, Wen Xu didn't come again.

Cheng Juan felt relaxed at first, but finally he didn't have to deal with it.

But after not seeing anyone for a month, that relaxation was quietly processed in an unknown corner and turned into an unspeakable loss.

It's like a beam of starlight, which was out of reach, didn't intend to be enough, and didn't even want to look up.

It's just that one day it suddenly stops shining overhead, and melancholy is unavoidable.

At that time, she didn't like Wen Xu, but the more ordinary a person was, the more she longed to be seen.

Wen Xu saw her and asked her this and that, making her mistakenly think that everything about her was being curious and concerned about.

She didn't feel offended, but when it came to some embarrassing situations, her inner inferiority complex was stirred up.

Wen Xu always stopped just right, without embarrassing her too much.

If people don't come, it's nothing more than a few customers. Cheng Juan feels a little sad for a while, and then doesn't think about it anymore.

Anyway, it's impossible for her to interact with such a person. When she interns, this job will be over, and she won't be able to meet again in the future.

She thought freely and freely, but meeting again was extremely natural.After all, the store is still there, and so is she. Wen Xu can come anytime.

Wen Xu was surprised: "Are you still working here?"

Cheng Juan nodded, suddenly felt so boring, everything was like a lonely and boring sky after sunset.

Wen Xu sighed pretending to be sad: "Why don't you send me a message?"

Cheng Juan said, "I don't want to disturb you."

"Why do you bother me, Liu, just say a word, I will be there whenever you are called."

Cheng Juan didn't know how to respond to this slightly exaggerated sentence, but he didn't hate it either.She didn't know why she didn't hate it, because Wen Xu was a woman?

She thought that if it was a man, she would have to change jobs immediately.

But it doesn't make sense to think this way, where is the assumption of "if you change to a man".

A woman is a woman, and a woman can do anything, whether it is comfortable or not, without the assumption that she is a man.Why do you have to compare yourself with men?

Besides, if Wen Xu was really a man, everything would have ended long ago.

It was impossible for her to answer patiently every time, revealing her information, and saving her phone number...until she heard this provocative joke.

If there is no assumption, why do it?

The fact is that the woman who is speaking beautiful words in front of her at this moment is beautiful and smart, with a provocative smile, and she is seducing her with her eyes.

Wen Xu's eyes were open and aboveboard, and he didn't feel violated, so he resisted uncomfortably.On the contrary, she is using herself as a bait to attract people to take a few more glances.

Cheng Juan was sure that he was not mistaken, and he was not narcissistic, because Wen Xu hadn't appeared for a long time, and his hint this time was bolder than before.

If you just admire her and want to be friends with her, there is no need to wink, right?

Because she understood, her expression was serious and she didn't say a word.

"I don't force you, go ahead and contact me when there is something else."

Wen Xu didn't want to embarrass her, and added after she turned around: "Anything."

This made Cheng Juan's often numb self-esteem ache again, and Wen Xu seemed to think that a person like her must need help.

She thought it was impossible for her to contact this person.

Influenced by Wen Xu, Cheng Juan thought of Sheng Qi and Wen Lian.

In high school, Sheng Qi's home helped her with homework. During the break, when Wen Lian came over, she went to the bathroom.

When he came back, Wen Lian sat in Sheng Qi's original position to check his homework, and Sheng Qi lowered his head, and kissed Wen Lian's mouth when Cheng Juan didn't expect it.

Not only did Wen Lian not hide, he put his hand on the back of Sheng Qi's head and stroked her gently.

Sheng Qi and Wen Lian are a good match, they are both radiant people.

But Wen Xu was mostly just teasing her, after all, it was easy to tease a poor and ignorant student.

Later, Wen Xu came very rarely, sometimes not once a month.

It can be seen that after being rejected, her interest has dropped a lot.

If she doesn't come, Cheng Juan is happy and at ease, but he often thinks whether she will come today or not.

People can't control their thoughts, and everyone is contradictory.

Cheng Juan thought that she had suffered enough and that she would only get better and better in the future.

But the God of Destiny will never let go of the pleading poor man, but bullies the weak and fears the hard, adding fuel to the fire.

The knife hanging on the beam was finally dropped again, her mother was seriously ill and sent to the hospital, and she fell into the abyss again.

The operation fee is an astronomical figure for her family.

She couldn't borrow it. She had already borrowed a lot to see a doctor and take medicine before. Even though she and her brother who was working jointly subsidized the family, there were still debts that had not been repaid.

Her father said forget it, the poor family can't afford the disease.

Don't borrow money to fill it in, otherwise you owe so much debt, I'm afraid he won't be able to pay it off until he dies.

The younger siblings all cry, knowing that their only option is to give up.

But the mother is half of the family to the child. Even if she is sick all the year round, the maternal love she gives is irreplaceable.Who can give up.

When he was desperate, Chengjuan remembered the mobile phone number saved in the address book.

After laughing at himself severely, he dialed decisively.

On the other side of the phone was the sound of music and loud human voices, like a rich man in a TV drama, Wen Xu raised his volume and asked who it was.

"Liu Chengjuan." She reported her family name.

"Cheng Juan, come out to play?" the other side called her familiarly.

She put on the cheap but newly bought clothes this year and went to eat, still shone into the darkest shadow by the gorgeous lights.

And Wen Xu was wearing a beautiful off-the-shoulder dress with exquisite makeup, like a glamorous dinner star.

Cheng Juan mustered up the courage to look into her eyes, slightly startled, and Wen Xu's eyes were also bright and warm.Look at her like Sheng Qi.

The difference is that Wen Xu is interested in her and tries to seduce her.

There was no contempt and playfulness as imagined, and Wen Xu didn't seem to care what she was wearing or what her purpose was tonight.

He just looked at her expectantly, as if after waiting for a long time, his wish finally came true.

After finding some topics that both of them could talk about, after a meal, Wen Xu sent her back to school.

Ask her on the road: "You are unhappy, is there anything I can do for you?"

Cheng Juan was sincerely grateful to her at that moment, and finally he could say what he had been struggling with for a long time in a logical manner.

But her lips seemed to be stuck with glue, and she couldn't move.

Wen Xu said with a smile: "Be bolder and say what you want. Maybe what you think is a big thing is just a small thing to me. Even if I reject you, you still have a lot of meat. What are you afraid of?" ?”

She is very encouraging.

Cheng Juan said that her mother was sick and needed a lot of money.

When she said it, she felt like a liar in a fraud case, with the same excuses.

Wen Xu didn't question her, just asked how much.

Cheng Juan said a number, ready to be ridiculed.

Even if Wen Xu could afford the money, he would not be willing to give it to her. Why would she get it.

But Wen Xu was very calm, "Okay, I need it urgently, and I will transfer it to you tomorrow."

Cheng Juan didn't expect it to be so simple, "I..."

After waiting for a long time, she didn't come out with "I", Wen Xu smiled again: "But I am not a kind person, and I am not generous to others. I am willing to give you this money because I think you are worth it. You know I am interested in you, can you Do you accept women?"

Cheng Juan thought, is she worth 30 yuan?

Let a person who is only interested in her pay directly.

She was even afraid that Wen Xu was a liar, after all, how could such a talkative person take advantage of him.

Sensing her emotions, Wen Xu said bluntly: "It's not that you are only worth 30, you must be priceless. I mean that I like you, as long as you can accept it, even if you want 30, I'm willing to give it."

These kind words made her accept Wen Xu.

After Cheng Juan got to know Wen Xu better, he knew that Wen Xu was the best at that kind of love talk. Her mouth could coax people, but she was also very irritating when she was messed up.

But at that time Cheng Juan didn't care, as long as Wen Xu was not a liar, he could lend her money.

Wen Xu did what he said, and the money arrived.

Cheng Juan should also fulfill his promise.

She is willing to accompany Wen Xu, but she promises to pay back the money, and when it is paid off, they will not owe each other.

Wen Xu agreed without hesitation, telling her to take it easy and take her time.

And "kindly" comforted her, don't worry about signing the deed of sale, maybe the relationship will end before she saves enough money.

At that time, Cheng Juan was relieved.

She is not afraid of Wen Xu's ignorance, and she also looks forward to her freshness passing.

On the first date, she knew that she needed to stay out all night, and it took a long time for her mental construction.

When she entered the hotel, she desperately thought that this was like the devil's deal, if you give it away, you can't get it back.

She was not bright at first, and it will only get darker after that.

Wen Xu was considerate: "You're nervous, it's okay, take your time."

Under the tension that Cheng Juan tried to restrain, she coaxed Cheng Juan to kiss.

Cheng Juan's youthfulness and imperceptible devotion caused her blood to be ignited and slowly burned.

After taking off her clothes, Wen Xu stopped, laughing so badly: "You are in such a heavy heart. It's just sex, and I don't want your life. At worst, I'm here

Cheng Juan, who was going to sacrifice himself, was stiff when he heard that, and blinked, the original tension was replaced by another kind of tension.

Wen Xu kissed her hand lingeringly, and asked softly, "Will you?"

There is no such thing as a good-looking or bad-looking red rope alone. It must be paired with a pair of slender hands and slender wrists to have a charm.