Summer of Fireflies

Ask him in general.I vaguely feel that although the smile on Bai Lan's face is as bright as usual, the smile is always alienated that doesn't reach the eyes.

"If Lisa wants to ask something, I can answer it for you for free~" He tucked a marshmallow into his mouth, and smiled lightly at me with a rippling voice.

A smile without any warmth, the strange Bailan.I looked at his smiling face, and the world in my heart was like pieces of cold wind falling into an ice cellar.

I took a deep breath and tried to calm down the turbulent emotions in my heart. I opened my mouth to ask my question, but the next second I didn't know what to ask.

Ask him if you planned the death of senior Luo Hua, and ask him if you deliberately showed me the incident that I met last night in the afternoon, in order not to let me go to the appointment, and ask him, together with our initial meeting, , Is it also a link that you have planned long ago? However, even if he admits it himself and proves my guess, so what?

Senior Luo Hua will not come back from the dead again, the indirect crimes I bear are still as heavy as iron, and the heart that purely loves Bai Lan was smashed to pieces by his own hands after vaguely knowing the truth just now, riddled with holes.

Once the damage has been done, it is a pain that can never be erased. It will be rooted in your memory like a brand and will accompany you for the rest of your life.

I gritted my teeth and hesitated, and at the end of all the questions I could only choke out this sentence: "Do you love me, Bai Lan?"

Bai Lan squinted her eyes and propped up his chin with her hands, her slender eyes slightly evoked a nice arc: "What do you think, Lisa?" He asked me back with a smile.

A familiar scene appeared in my mind, and I remembered that the dialogue between us was the lines I had seen in a certain TV series.

"Do you love me?"

"What do you think, dear?"

"……I understand."

I smiled at Bai Lan, and the sunlight outside the house fell on me, making my complexion even paler and embarrassing.

"Do you love me, Prynne?"

"What do you think, Lisa?"

"So... I see."

Turn around and leave without looking back.

I seem to see that I am picking up a knife, facing my old emotional bond with Bai Lan, I swung down the butcher knife, mercilessly cutting off countless warm daily memories.

Where the heart beat, there was blood dripping down.

With nothing in my hands, I stumbled into the busy street.

Maybe it was a time error from the beginning of the encounter, and this relationship ended too quickly, so fast that it almost caught me off guard.

I'll keep going on

I'll still be singing

As just another one

I am no longer the me of yesterday

With another song

Accompanying me is only one song different from the past

.........

The video store across the street is playing Stanford's song "inyour arms". I still remember Valentine's Day, the day I met Prynne.

Now when I hear this song again, my mood is different from the past.

Put an end to a wrong encounter and wrong relationship with my own hands, I straightened my back and wiped away my tears, even if there is no Bailan in my life, even if the pain wiped out yesterday's me, there will never be only the same sad song that will accompany me on a long journey song.

A person's life is too long, who hasn't fallen in love with a few wrong people?I think that in the near future, the endless time will naturally gradually eliminate the wrong feelings I encountered at the wrong time.

When Janice held her wedding, in order to avoid seeing Bai Lan, I tried to keep myself and An An on the second floor for dinner.

The little guy also seemed to know my intentions, stayed with me quietly, and didn't make any noise to go to the auditorium to watch Janice's wedding, which made me feel a lot more at ease.

Although it's a pity that I didn't witness the declaration of Janice and Jos exchanging rings with my own eyes, but Anna went to see it instead of me, which is the same as if I was at the scene.

Neither Janice nor Anna blamed me. The tacit understanding between the three of them in the past was enough for them to understand the abnormality of my absent-mindedness today, so they followed my intention very considerately.

On the day of the wedding, An'an and I were the first to return home, but the brown-haired young man did not come back that night.

There are too many events in my life that I need to worry about. Meeting Bai Lan at Janice's wedding was just an accident in my life.

Afterwards, I quickly forgot about seeing Bai Lan.

"Did senior sister and An An also attend Jos and Janice's wedding that day?" the brown-haired young man asked me suddenly a few days later.

I hesitated and replied, "Janice is a good friend of mine."

"What a coincidence, Josi is also my good friend." The young man's brows and eyes curved into a beautiful arc, "I saw the shadow of my senior at the wedding, and I thought I was dazzled at that time."

I blinked and replied, "But I didn't see Tsunaji-kun."

I subconsciously didn't want the young man to know the fact that I saw him at the wedding, but just thinking about it, I already told this lie, and then I felt that the young man in the next second really died because of my lie I breathed a sigh of relief.

Why do I have to lie to young people... This kind of thing, even I am baffled.

"Senior sister didn't see me?" The young man put his hand on his chin thoughtfully, he smiled at me and said in a regretful tone: "That's really... too unfortunate."

Yes, it was so unfortunate that I saw the other side of the young man's indifferent smile at the wedding, so I found that whether it was Bai Lan or the young man standing in front of me, after seeing their different faces, it is possible Never got to know them.

Maybe it's because I'm too stupid, maybe it's because men are used to hiding their thoughts in front of others, it's not that they haven't tried to understand, but the deeper I go, the more I will fall into trouble, so this time I simply choose to do nothing .Human nature has not been thoroughly studied by scientists. Trying to understand men's psychology is really stupid enough. I have done one stupid thing enough to learn from it.

Although the distance between me and the young man has become a little bit different because of the last incident, the life under the same roof will always go on as usual. Since I have already lied, I can only pretend that nothing happened , Continue to take care of the youth as a big boy.

The young man will also show his rare useless nature in front of me as always. For example, if you wash a bowl for me, you will definitely break the rice bowl; Leave rice grains on the table or something.

The brown-haired young man with a gentle smile on the surface but an indifferent and alienated attitude at the wedding, whose aura is called BOSS aura, seems to be just an illusion of mine.

Soon, Janice sent another good news. She was pregnant with Jos during their honeymoon. Anna and I went to see them together. Nisi lived happily, and Anna and I finally let go of a big rock in our hearts.

Janice took maternity leave at work because she was pregnant, which should have been a good thing, but I really couldn't laugh if Janice's duties in the Foreign Office fell to me.I don't know what Malik was thinking in his heart, but he actually transferred me from the design department to the Ministry of Foreign Affairs to take up various social occasions.

Although it feels good to receive two salaries, even so, I still don’t want to go to those public relations places where the lights are focused and play Tai Chi with various households. Which eye of his can see that I have diplomacy in me? Excavated?

First, in terms of appearance, I am not as beautiful as Janice. Second, in terms of diplomatic skills, it is my kindness that I did not scare away customers. The company's customers are God. Smiling at them, this smiling etiquette almost didn't make me facial paralyzed. I can't do this kind of fake and real smile and still have the ability to talk and laugh naturally with others without changing my expression.

I think Malik must have a grudge against me, so he transferred me to the Ministry of Foreign Affairs to take over Janice's position temporarily. I remembered how I rejected Malik's marriage proposal with mocking words a long time ago. The more I think about it, the more I feel that he is really taking revenge on me. At first he was merciless.

"Lisa, there is a client who wants to see you." Malik, who was arranging the copywriting and signing on the desk, did not raise his eyes. He took a sip of coffee, and suddenly frowned and told me: "The coffee is cold. Now, you can make another cup for me." He continued his great work of organizing files.

My eyebrows twitched at the right time. Although I was reluctant and forced by reality, I took the initiative to take the coffee cup on the table for Malik when I walked out of Malik's office. In other words, I have almost been called by him all these days Secretary, I turned my back to the glass door and took a deep breath. Thinking about my double salary, I finally chose to endure it.

Sooner or later, I will kick Malik's handsome face once to express my resentment towards the narrow-minded man. Doesn't he love his seductive face the most?Then I stepped on his face, and I turned my head and waved my small fists gloomyly at the back of the desk.

But specifying to see my client?I frowned and thought about it. There was no record in my memory that any family wanted to specify that they met me. My right eyelid twitched at the right time.