Abuse's extravagance

Staring blankly at the phone in his hand, Roy's whole body strength was taken away as the other party hung up the phone, his feet suddenly became weak, and he fell heavily on the sofa.

(Jie proposed to her...) There was a ringing in his ears, his pupils were out of focus and he looked ahead, only these words kept revolving in his mind.

The body temperature quickly receded from the fingertips, and the hand holding the phone trembled involuntarily.

In an instant, a soreness hit the nasal cavity, and the damp water vapor quickly gathered in the eye sockets, blurring his vision. As the eyelids blinked, crystal clear water drops rolled down silently one by one.

He quickly covered his mouth with his hands, trying not to let his voice escape.

He thought his tears had been shed dry, but when he heard the news, he burst out uncontrollably.

He knew in his heart that he asked Luo Jie to do this, and begged him all night in such a tormenting way.However, after the goal was achieved, he couldn't feel happy at all, only melancholy and uncontrollable grief in his heart.

Now that Jie decides to marry her, it means that the relationship between them is over, and they can't return to the close and loving relationship as before.

from now on. ． ．The people standing beside him and accompanying him are not themselves but their mother and daughter.

They can no longer share life together, hold hands through the next road; they can no longer cuddle up to sleep, in each other's arms, to welcome every morning in the future.

Luo Jie no longer belonged to him.

His happiness, anger, sorrow, joy, every frown and smile no longer bloom and exist only for himself.

His appearance, his voice and touch can only be imagined in the future, and he can no longer feel deeply with his own soul and body.

That contagious smile, and the sweet words that touch the heart.Thick warm embrace, and sometimes tender, sometimes domineering, with a faint smell of tobacco kiss.

Watch him move his thin lips, call out his name in a doting tone, or move his black eyes, and say I love you affectionately.

The throbbing when two people fell in love, the promise after the kiss, all the happiness and joy they had, from now on, it is just a memory, which can no longer be continued, and can never go back. ． ．

Looking at everything in front of him with tears in his eyes, this place has given him many good memories and allowed him to hold happiness in his hands.

He used to think that even if the whole world spurned them, they still had this little world that only belonged to each other.

However, after tonight, this world no longer belongs to him, and there is no place for him anymore.

After he leaves this house, the distance between him and Luo Jie will become farther and farther, all promises will no longer be important, all love will be in the past, and only the hateful and indelible blood relationship will remain. ． ．

In Luo Jie's future life, his role is just that of a younger brother, pretending to be a younger brother who has never been attracted to him or loved him deeply.

Before he lost it, he was imagining this scene all the time, rehearsing his heartbreak, thinking that by doing so, he would reduce the pain.

However, when faced with loss, he realized that heartbreak cannot be imitated in advance, it is beyond imagination, unbearable, and it is a pain that is burned in his heart and carved in his bones.

At this moment, Roy completely collapsed, letting his tears run away uncontrollably.

Let the emotions churn in his chest, cry out without reservation, let the tears flow all over his cheeks and wet his clothes.

His chest twitched uncontrollably, every time it twitched, it was as if a wooden awl was nailed to his heart and soul, being beaten violently again and again, the tyrannical pain screamed in his body, spreading wildly to his limbs and bones, making him tremble and unable to breathe.

He tightened his grip on the fabric on his chest, trying to stop his heart from crying, but no matter how much he suppressed it, or beat it violently, the pain in his heart was still vivid and could not be stopped.

(Roy, you are so useless!) His tightly closed lips suddenly loosened, and he took several breaths excitedly, laughing at his own weakness.

A big man can cry like a child, and he can't get his things back by crying and making a fuss.No matter how unwilling, how sad and angry, Luo Jie still can't return to him, and they still can't be together again.

Why didn't he realize this sooner?If I could have seen the cruelty of reality earlier and suppressed the throbbing when I reunited with him four years ago, maybe I would not be so uncomfortable now.

Bending his knees and legs, he shrunk himself into a ball, buried himself between his legs and sobbed loudly, letting the pain brutally devour his blood and nerves without any resistance.

Anyway, he has already lost the most important thing in his life, what else can he do with his heart in vain?

Just let him cry happily, toss and toss happily until his whole body is paralyzed, his soul is emptied, and only a skeleton remains.

Anyway. ． ．Luo Jie no longer needs him!

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After staying in the same position for a while, Roy thought that the heartache would continue and drive him crazy.

However, human beings are such wonderful creatures, they can adapt to pain very quickly, and they can even blend into the situation immediately.

He stared blankly ahead a little bit, becoming one with the silent house.

Suddenly, a pleasant ringtone rang in his ears, the sound was transmitted from the mobile phone in his hand, and finally there was a slight change in that lifeless face.

The hand holding the mobile phone was slightly raised, but it was squeezed tightly again and put down.Roy asked himself not to pay attention to it, and not to incite a dead heart because of the other party's every word.

With a wave of his long arm, he threw it to the other end of the sofa. He closed his eyes, trying to let himself go.

However, after less than a moment of silence, the rationality still couldn't suppress the urge to watch, and the body betrayed itself and acted directly.

He picked up his mobile phone to check, and it was indeed a message from Luo Jie.

Roy:

I will go home late, wait for me at home, I have something important to tell you.

Looking at the words on the screen, his dry eyes overflowed with liquid.

(Roy, you idiot...) There was a bitter smile on the corner of his mouth, and he lowered his hand holding the phone.

Knowing that Luo Jie is with that woman right now, when he returns home, he will cruelly announce this to him, why do he have to be so cheap to confirm.

What is he still looking forward to?

He should be troubled, what expression should he use to face him then?

Should I pretend to be calm and thank him for agreeing to my request, or should I accept this matter in silence and continue to treat him indifferently?

(No!) Frowning, he shook his head sadly.

He thought: He can't listen to Jie pronounce his heartbreak face to face, he will go crazy, he will collapse again. ． ．

The human heart is not made of iron, it is hot and alive, how can it withstand being torn and destroyed time and time again.

Although the wound will scab and heal, it will not take long for it to be opened abruptly; although the pain will be numb, it has become a part of oneself, accompanied by breathing, tossing oneself all the time, making life worse than death.

Call him a coward!

He was afraid that he really wouldn't be able to pass this level. ． ．

Roughly wiping away the tears with his hands, he stood up, took the car keys from the TV cabinet, and left the house.