fall in love with a mentor

"Silly boy, you are so lonely, you know?" Although he was a little embarrassed to be called a child, in his gentle and kind voice like an elder, Jia Xi acquiesced to this title, "Jia, you should let go of yourself, Make more friends. Weave a network of interpersonal relationships for yourself. People need fetters to live. Find someone to love you, Jia. Keep your own life in the hearts of others, and engrave the lives of others in yourself Your soul, so that you will no longer feel lonely, and your life will no longer be empty. Jia, people are group animals, we need others to achieve the value of our lives, don’t isolate yourself from the crowd.”

"but……"

"I know, Jia, homosexuality has put a lot of pressure on you. You are afraid of being known by others, and you are afraid of interacting with others. On the one hand, you reject people thousands of miles away, clinging to your own loneliness, and at the same time long for a soul to communicate with you Jia, maybe so many years of lonely life have made you feel numb, thinking that this is good, but it is not like this, you need friends and lovers. Even homosexuals have the right to pursue these and enjoy family happiness.” At this time, Junyi has completely become his spiritual mentor, he understands what he thinks, just like seeing his own soul.

"Junyi, are you afraid of death?" As if hypnotized, Jiaxi poured out the fear deep in her heart.

"Ok?"

"Sometimes... I have a short circuit, um, I think of irrelevant things on inappropriate occasions. Like this afternoon... suddenly I am afraid of death, Junyi..."

Unexpectedly, Junyi's bright eyes were covered with dark clouds, his gentle expression was stiffened by pain, and he murmured in a slightly hoarse voice, "I'm afraid of death, I'm also afraid of death... There is no one who is not afraid of death... "

"Junyi?" Jiaxi looked at his changes in surprise, the feeling of deja vu made Jiaxi start searching in her memory.

"It's nothing, you know that I watched my good friend die in the hospital with my own eyes, that is a fear I have never overcome, even thinking about it now..."

Yes, after he went to the hospital that time, Junyi also shed tears because of it.Seeing that the brilliance in his eyes disappeared in an instant, Junyi turned his head away, trembling slightly, as if crying.Jia Xi regretted it too much, what a fool I was, I was so busy pouring out my thoughts, I didn't realize how much this incident would hit him, and I asked him such a stupid question!Unable to ignore his feelings like last time, Jiaxi also hoped that she could help him share the pain in his life.

"I'm sorry, Junyi, I'm sorry! I'm so out of my nerves! I'm sorry!" Unable to find any more comforting words, Jiaxi got up and hugged him from behind.Maybe physical contact is the better comfort, just like what Junyi did to himself.

"Well, do you want to hear our story?" After a long silence, Junyi opened his mouth.

"Um……"

"Then let's talk on the bed!" Jun Yi turned around with a radiant expression, only the red and swollen eye circles showed that he had indeed cried just now, otherwise Jia Xi must have thought he was acting.

"Come here, Jia, let's lean together." Jun Yi leaned on the head of the bed, wrapped his arms around Jia Xi's shoulders, and brought the two of them closer together.

"Why are you so close?" Jia Xi complained.

"Give me some support! Only then will I have the courage to recall the stories of the past."

There are quite a lot of tricks, it is obvious that they just took the opportunity to eat tofu!Jia Xi glanced at him, thinking of his pitiful appearance just now, decided to suffer a bit.

"His name is Chen Han." Jun Yi said as he took the computer next to him and called up a photo.It's a high school graduation photo. "Look and see if you can recognize me."

Jiaxi leaned over curiously and searched for Junyi's face in the crowd. The young Junyi was smiling at Jiaxi through the photo. He recognized him at a glance. He was more than 1.8 meters tall at that time. Stand in the center of the back row.Slightly fatter than now, with short black hair looking very refreshing, he is a standard handsome guy.Jia Xi smiled slightly, pointed her finger and said, "This!"

"Oh, honey! You are too bad." Jun Yi smiled and moved his fingers from the short and fat man standing in the front row to himself. "Even if the boy's [-]th change, no matter how much he changes, it's impossible to change from that body shape to the current one, right?"

"Oh, so it's this!" Jia Xi made an expression of sudden realization, "However, how did such a handsome young man become such a hooligan? It's really time!"

"Haha, you are wrong about this, as the saying goes, people should not be judged by their appearance!"

"what?"

"My hooligan temperament was brought out of my mother's womb."

"You're so proud of yourself!"

"But having said that, it is precisely because of this that I can be with Chen Han!" Jun Yi restrained his smile, pointed to a boy with glasses in the middle and said, "This is Chen Han."

"Oh!" Jiaxi took a closer look at Chen Han's face. He had a very ordinary appearance, but with a touch of bookishness, he looked very comfortable.

"Han and I have known each other for almost 20 years, right?" Junyi gently stroked the face on the computer screen, his voice was extremely soft, "Sometimes it is hard to believe that time flies by, but in the blink of an eye Between us, there are only memories left between us!"

"Junyi..." Such an opening sentence was a bit sad, Jiaxi looked up at him.Junyi forced a smile, put away the computer, put it on the bedside table, and hugged Jiaxi's shoulder to make him get closer, as if he had the courage to recall the past.

"We have known each other since the first year of high school. He is a borrower in the class. He wears thick glasses and looks like an honest and honest nerd. Other students in the class often tease him and steal his glasses away." Come and hide, and he won't see anything."

"Shouldn't you join too?" Jia Xi asked.

"Hehe! At that time, I would often do some pranks, but now I think of them as childish behaviors." A gentle smile appeared on Junyi's face, and he was immersed in the memory.

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☆, first met Chen Han