fall in love with a mentor

At noon, we had lunch at Phi Phi Island, and after a short rest, the speedboat began to head towards Mosquito Island.Because the bow of the boat was not blocked and the view was wide, Jiaxi sat on the bow.Junyi tried cautiously, sat down opposite him, observed his words, and felt at ease when he saw that Jiaxi didn't pay attention to him.The afternoon sun was shining on my body, and the speedboat was sailing through the wind and waves. The wind was strong and the waves were rough, and the bow of the boat was splashed several meters high. Under the hood, the clothes that had just been dried by the sea breeze were quickly wet.The brisk hull undulates with the waves, is thrown up rhythmically, and then falls heavily, which is more thrilling than riding a roller coaster.Junyi, who was still calm at first, became excited and stood at the bow of the boat, whistled, and chanted along with the ups and downs of the waves, "Oh-ah-oh-ah!" Infected by Junyi, people became jubilant and began to cheer with him. The atmosphere suddenly became enthusiastic, and everyone who did not know each other began to say hello to each other and asked about their respective nationalities and occupations.

Jiaxi used to take a ferry when she was in Shanghai. At that time, she always liked to stand on the bow of the boat and feel the thrill of riding the wind and waves.But the sea is not the same as the Huangpu River.As far as the eye can see is the undulating sea water, and the edge cannot be seen. The speedboat I am on is really just a drop in the ocean!The wind is getting stronger and stronger, the waves are getting higher and higher, and the universe is floating.The bow bears the brunt of the impact. The excitement at the beginning is slowly thwarted by the endless bumps. Boredom and panic follow waves of waves.

The sea is really a hopeless existence!

In front of such a vast and vast sea, everyone is small and helpless.

While in a trance on Jiaxi, the speedboat turned off.

"One engine is broken!" Junyi was a little curious when he saw Jiaxi, and asked the crew.In the gap between starting the other engine, the speedboat is in place, rising and falling with the waves.Jiaxi suddenly felt that her stomach began to churn, and she had a strong feeling of vomiting.Soon the speedboat started again, and the wind and waves still showed no sign of subsiding.Jiaxi's body became more and more uncomfortable, and her mood became extremely bad.When the engine was turned off just now, many pictures about accidents at sea broke into my mind and I couldn't get rid of it.The fear of death overflowed from the depths of my heart.Thinking that one day my soul will sink into darkness and never see the light of day, ignorant, silent, and the world will continue to run forever, I can't help but tremble physically and mentally.

Yes, afraid of death!I am very afraid of death. At the age of jjj, he knew that death was the complete end. At that time, he was in a trance all day long, listening to his family's steady breathing during those sleepless nights, but he was gnawed by such fear and couldn't sleep. .I can't believe that one day I will disappear like a bubble, my body, my mind, everything.This is a fact that cannot be changed no matter how hard you try, a fact that makes people completely desperate.It took him nearly 20 years to bury this fear in his heart, but at this moment he recalled it again...

Woo!Jia Xi covered her mouth, she was about to spit out the food she just ate.

"Honey, what's the matter with you?" Junyi quickly handed over the plastic bag prepared by the speedboat.

Life turned out to be nothingness... and my 30 years of careful and diligent life did not leave any happiness worth remembering... This is the most terrible thing!

"Jia, are you alright?" Jun Yi hurriedly sat down beside him, patted his back lightly.Jiaxi vomited out all the bitterness in her stomach, and then gradually calmed down.There was no trace of blood on his face, his cold hands grabbed Junyi's arms, but he couldn't restrain his body trembling.

The crew noticed the abnormality, and arranged for Jiaxi and Junyi to sit in the seats at the stern, and the buffer of the bumps passing through the hull was much relieved.

"Jia, are you alright?" Junyi asked worriedly again.Jia Xi just shook her head, how could she express her cowardly thoughts, but her weak nerves needed a warm embrace to comfort her.Junyi wrapped his arms around his waist, letting him lean on his body, while holding Jiaxi's cold hand with the other.Jiaxi didn't resist either, and gradually calmed down in his arms.The warm reliance around his arms conveyed a calming force, making him feel that he was no longer alone in the face of those fears.

"Honey, did I make you angry today?" Junyi couldn't help asking after seeing Jiaxi taking a shower early and lying on the bed, looking listless.

If I want to be angry with you, I can't be mad at you!Jia Xi rolled his eyes at him, and said lazily, "I'm just a little tired, the bumps of the day will break my old bones."

"Hehe, old bone?" Hearing his joking tone, Junyi was relieved and couldn't help laughing out loud.After drying her hair with a bath towel, she leaned over on the bed with one leg, looked down at Jiaxi tenderly and said, "How about I squeeze it for you? My technique is definitely better than the massage girls!" The classmate next door After dinner, I went to have a massage. Jiaxi has always been afraid of contact with strangers. The thought of having a pair of strange hands walking on her body gave goosebumps all over her body.So I politely declined on the grounds that I was not feeling well.

"Go away!" Seeing Junyi making a gesture to reach out, Jiaxi raised her body vigilantly, ready to run away.

"Okay, can't I not touch you?" Junyi raised his hands in a gesture of surrender.Jiaxi saw that he didn't seem to be joking, so she lay down in peace.

"Well, what happened to you today?" Jun Yi sat down beside him and asked softly.

"It's nothing." Thinking of the helpless appearance on the boat today, Jia Xi turned away a little embarrassed.

"Tell me, what happened?" Junyi leaned over and turned his head around, making him face himself, his persistent gaze full of worry made Jiaxi's eyes ache a little, and she shed tears impulse.Every time when she is sad, Jiaxi only needs to say "nothing" to dismiss the friends around her.But Junyi is different. His roguelike persistence makes him have nowhere to escape. In the end, he can only hand in his gun and surrender, allowing him to spy into the most vulnerable corner of his heart.Sweetness and happiness permeate the feeling of shyness, and Jiaxi has no resistance in this regard.

"I feel like 30 years of my life is pretty much blank... so scared. I can barely think of memories that I feel happy with... I always want to escape, from every place I've lived. Every journey of life There is a little bit of hope, but it always ends in despair."

Junyi was taken aback by the painful words, and then said softly, "Fool, why did you run away?"

"Because I feel that my lonely footsteps are left on every street. You know that when I first went to work in Shanghai, I lived in a house provided by the company, and there was only my footsteps in the four-bedroom and one-living room. , every night I hear my footsteps wandering in the huge house..." Jiaxi paused, feeling that her thoughts were very confused, she didn't know why she started talking about these old things, it seemed that it had nothing to do with the question just now Irrelevant, the voice suddenly echoed in my mind and said it.Junyi looked at him very seriously, encouraging him to continue talking with his eyes. "Well, I always want to grasp something, but I can't grasp anything. I hope to live a meaningful life. I think that life may be valuable. But I have lived for 30 years, and only the infinite is left in my heart. Regret, I am very scared, Junyi...I am afraid that my next 30 years will be the same blank...I am very confused..."

The author has something to say: because there is no update on Saturday, two chapters will be updated today, and daily updates will start next week.It seems that no one is watching!

But I still hope it will be over before the winter break!

☆, the gate of memory