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He studied law at Ceramic University, just like he did in middle school, and his grades were very good. He had the opportunity to keep his postgraduate studies, but part-time work and part-study were too tiring. He didn't want to study any more and wanted to work earlier.

He knew that his personality was not smooth enough and his social circle was too narrow to be a lawyer, so he took the civil service examination and entered a district court in C city.He passed the judicial examination the year he graduated from university, but it is not possible to become a judge immediately after passing the judicial examination. Generally, he has to work as a clerk for two years and participate in judge training before he can be qualified as a judge, and he must start as an assistant judge. .

When he was studying, like many of his classmates, he believed that serving in the court was a sacred and solemn job. After entering, he realized that the world was not as simple as he thought.No matter where it is, all kinds of open and secret fights, all kinds of sensuality, all kinds of tricks, all kinds of dirty methods...all are inevitable.

Ceramics was assigned to the civil court with the most cases. He was the only new civil servant in the office, and the others were the chief judge, deputy chief judge, or old fritters who came before him. Naturally, all the rough and heavy work fell on his head. I am as busy as a spinning top every day.

I went to the office at eight o'clock in the morning to turn on the water dispenser to boil water, turn on the air conditioner to cool the room, then sweep the floor, wipe the table, and sort out the materials needed for the day's court session. It was almost nine o'clock when the others arrived late. He followed the presiding judge to go to the court to make court records. The cases in civil courts are generally very trivial, and the parties are easy to quarrel and procrastinate. After work, he still has to stay in the office to do some chores such as filling out subpoenas and court notices.

The unit has no dormitory, only a canteen.After lunch, I squeezed the bus back to my rented house for a good night’s sleep. At 02:30, I had to go to the court for work on time. Usually there would be no court session in the afternoon, but there were many things to do. Signing by the leader, and dealing with difficult parties... When I get busy, I have to work overtime at night and on weekends.

After working for half a year, ceramics, who were not fat at all, became bean sprouts.

Physical fatigue is still secondary, what makes him even more unbearable is the complex interpersonal relationship and various entertainments in the court.

The small court has 61 civil servants, seven careers, and eleven temporary workers.He can't understand him, she was molested by him, he never talked to him, he stepped on him, her sister robbed her husband, his wife had an affair with her husband... the deputy of Min Yiting The president of the court is a woman in her 30s, and she likes to whisper these gossips with other women in the office when she has nothing to do.

Ceramics was extremely embarrassed, but still calmly pretended not to hear anything.The chief judge and their vice-president in charge are at odds. The two fight back and forth, and ceramics are caught in the middle. If you listen to one of them, you will offend the other, and if you don’t listen, you will offend both of them. All big.

It's not easy after work. Both the president and the vice president like to go out at night. Almost four or five days a week, they call ceramics to eat, sing and sauna. Where to go is a problem. Drinking is another problem.

Ceramic has a pretty face, if there are no girls to accompany him, they will tease him, no matter how he explains that he really doesn't know how to drink, they don't care, they just keep pouring him, and if he doesn't drink, they will immediately lose face.Ceramics kept complaining, so he had to bite the bullet and drink it down, and vomited several times.

In addition to these, there is another troublesome thing that makes ceramics the most troublesome.Perhaps because of his well-behaved appearance and honest personality, the women in the court liked to match him even though his family was not well off.

If you don't go to meet, you will offend others, and if you refuse to meet, you will also offend others.

From morning to night, from the beginning of the month to the end of the month, from the beginning of the year to the end of the year, there is no day when ceramics are not entangled.

In addition to those introduced by colleagues, there are also many women who have been interested in ceramics, college female classmates, high school female classmates who met by chance, girls who live in the opposite room... Some find it cute, but he has no interest in dating them. Their burning eyes made him uncomfortable.

He still doesn't have many friends. After Luo Yingxi went abroad, he lost contact with him. The relationship with his college classmates is weak, and only three roommates will contact him occasionally.

Dreaming back at midnight will also feel lonely, and I want to find someone to fall in love with.

I heard that there are quite a few GAY restaurants in the city. He passed by countless times pretending to be casual, but he dared not go in every time.He is afraid of being bumped into by acquaintances, and the matter of his being gay will be brought to the court. Even if he doesn't lose his job, he will definitely be very unhappy in his future life.He was tired enough to live, and he didn't want to endure all kinds of gossip anymore.

Ge Rui is getting more and more popular, it has become so popular that he has won various music awards, and as long as he releases an album, he must be the annual sales champion.Walking on the street, you can hear his songs and see his billboards everywhere. As the most famous alumnus at C University reunions, he will always be the focus of everyone's discussion...

Ge Rui will buy every album ceramics, learn how to sing every song, watch every MV and commercial countless times, he will buy all kinds of products he endorses as long as he can afford it, and buy tickets to the concert every year Look... Even the various scandals about him in newspapers and magazines will be seriously studied to see if they are true.

He seemed to be 16-year-old Luo Yingxi, so crazy.

At the age of 24, Ge Rui wore a red suit and returned to his alma mater in C City to sign a new album.Ceramics specially asked for leave to queue up, and when it was finally his turn, Ge Rui raised his head and saw him, his eyes lit up, "Huh, is that you?"

Ceramic is very excited, he still remembers himself?

"You also graduated from C University, right? What's your name..." Ge Rui tilted his head and struggled to recall.

Ceramics quickly replied: "Ceramics, ceramics, ceramics..."

Ge Rui laughed, "Ah, that's right, ceramics..."

He bowed his head and wrote "To Ceramics" on the album, signed his name in cursive, smiled and shook hands with Ceramics, and then moved his gaze to the person behind him.

Ceramics was a little disappointed, but he was relieved when he looked back at the long queue.Yes, there are so many people who like him, who am I? Why should I expect him to say a few more words to me? It would be nice if he could remember his own face.

On the way home, looking at the right hand that he had shaken with him, he was happy again, and he was reluctant to wash his hands all day.

The days passed slowly like this.After three years, Tao Tao became a judge, the vice president retired, there were a few newcomers in the office, and the women who wanted to be matchmakers for him gradually gave up, and he finally didn't have to be so tired anymore.

Who knows, he actually got liver cancer, which is still in the terminal stage!

His first reaction was: the hospital must have made a mistake.He goes to bed early and gets up early, eats regularly, pays attention to exercise, and has no bad habits. How could he get liver cancer? !

He went to another hospital for an examination, but the result was exactly the same, and he really had liver cancer.

He thought that he must have committed many sins in his previous life, so God will torture him like this in this life.He lost all thoughts and didn't want to go to work, so he just lay in the house for two days without eating or drinking.

At around five o'clock on the third day, he woke up and watched the lights gradually light up outside the window. He thought of his parents, his cousin, all kinds of people who had appeared in his life, and finally thought of Ge Rui. A poster of him, curled up and crying like a child.

He blamed God and fate, but he knew it was useless to complain.

Everything is a foregone conclusion, and there is no possibility of changing it.

He is going to die, maybe tomorrow, maybe next month, maybe half a year later... According to the doctor, it won't last a year.

He didn't want to die like this, he wanted to enjoy everything he hadn't enjoyed before.

With meager strength, he got up, washed himself, got dressed, had a good meal at a high-end restaurant that he was never willing to go to, then went to the mall to buy two expensive outfits for himself from head to toe, and finally went to the unit to pay Resignation.

The resignation procedure of civil servants is very complicated. He waited for a month to approve it. His colleagues did not know his condition and advised him not to be so impulsive. These days, civil servants are getting more and more difficult to take the test. After he left, he regretted it and couldn’t come back. .

Ceramic didn't have the strength to explain anything, after saying goodbye to everyone, he left without looking back with his personal belongings in his arms.

He took all his savings and went to the Maldives.

Of all the songs that Goree sang, his favorite is the relatively unpopular song "If Tomorrow Is the End of the World" in his third album. That song and the title song "hotlove" of the same album at that time were both set in Maldives Framing shots.Different from the exaggerated and monstrous costumes in "hotlove", in "If Tomorrow Is the End of the World", Ge Rui wore a white shirt and a pair of jeans, just like the sunshine boy that can be seen everywhere on campus.He was sitting under the coconut tree, playing the guitar and singing, the sea breeze was blowing his bangs, he was gazing at the blue sea, with the usual evil smile on his mouth, but his eyes were a bit melancholy.

It was a Goree that Ceramic had never seen before.Before the song ended, there was a line of small white words on the screen: If tomorrow is the end of the world, I want to go to the Maldives with you to see the sea.

After watching that MV, Maldives became the place ceramics most wanted to visit.

Civil servants are not allowed to go abroad at will, and the approval is very strict. Even if the approval is passed, he is not willing to spend tens of thousands of dollars just to go there to see the sea. He once thought that it would be impossible for him to go there in his life.

Unexpectedly, this wish came true because he was about to die.

In the Maldives, he had a lot of fun.Lie on the beach and bask in the sun every day, sing and dance around the bonfire with foreigners of all colors at night, take a cruise ship to have an adventure on an island, buy various souvenirs and send them back to people he knows... He not only learned to swim, but also Learned to dive into the sea.

At the bottom of the sea, he had an urge to pull out the oxygen tube and stay in this dreamy and beautiful world, so that he would no longer have to endure loneliness, and no longer had to wait for death in panic...

Let's end it like this...

He thought of Ge Rui again, he really wanted to see him again, really wanted to tell him that he liked him.

He returned to the shore and wrote an E-mail to Goree's mailbox in the hotel.He wrote extremely fast, writing tens of thousands of words in one breath, how he started to pay attention to him when he was a freshman in high school, and wrote every bit of the past nine years into it after writing in college.

After finishing writing, Ceramics lay down on the bed dejectedly.

Ge Rui has so many fans, there may be thousands of letters written to him, maybe he has time to read the letter himself, even if he can read it, he must not have the patience to see the end...

He sat up from the bed, deleted everything he had written, and only wrote a simple paragraph.

Goree:

I don’t know if you still remember me, but I’m your college alumni at the same level, ceramics, ceramics, ceramics.I'm about to leave this world, I have no other unfinished wish, just want to say a word to you, I like you.I have liked you for many, many years. It is not the fan worship and obsession with idols, but the kind of love that wants to see you every day and live with you... Sorry, I hope my wayward behavior will not let you down Feeling unhappy, I sincerely wish you good health and all the best.

The day after the letter was sent, the hotel reception lady called and politely asked Ceramics if she wanted to renew the room.Tao Tao checked his bank account and found that because of his extravagance, his balance was less than 1000 yuan.The consumption in Maldives is high, 1000 yuan, let alone accommodation, you can’t even eat a few meals.

Just as he was staring at the computer in a daze, his cell phone rang.

The caller turned out to be the city hospital where he went for an examination.

"Mr. Tao, I'm very sorry. Due to the mistakes of our hospital staff, you and another Mr. Tao's medical records were mistaken. In fact, you did not have cancer, and your body is very healthy..."

Ceramics didn't respond, "What are you talking about?"

The other party explained again in detail, "I'm really sorry, Mr. Tao fell ill and was admitted to our hospital today, and we only discovered our previous work mistakes..."

Ceramic's voice was trembling, "It's impossible, I went to another hospital for a follow-up visit, and that hospital also said that I had cancer..."

"It's like this. On the same day, that Mr. Tao also went to that hospital for follow-up consultation, and unfortunately, there was a work error in that hospital... If you don't believe it, you can call there to confirm , or find another hospital for a checkup..."

Ceramics, who had sorted everything out, fell on the bed, and the phone also fell to the ground.

He doesn't have cancer? !he won't die? !

After great ecstasy, thinking of the hard-earned money he had spent in the past two months and the letter he had sent to Ge Rui, he jumped up from the bed again, covered his head and screamed, swearing and swearing all his life, " Fuck - God you play with me!!"