not sad planet

After hanging up the phone, Yu Ling turned around and met Liang Shu who was standing outside the glass door of the balcony.

"Are you awake?" He put the phone in his pocket casually, and said in the usual tone, "What do you want to eat?"

Liang Shu came back to his senses as if he had just woken up from a dream, and shook his head, "I'm not hungry."

"Who are you calling?" He looked into Yu Ling's eyes.

"A former colleague who worked together on foreign projects before."

"I heard...he likes you?"

Yu Ling thought about it for a while, walked back to the living room, and explained as he walked: "Well, I used to have a good relationship with him, but because of this and some other things, it was quite unpleasant. After that, I didn't contact him again. .”

"I also heard you say," Liang Shu followed behind him, paused, and said with difficulty: "You don't like men, what does that mean?"

"It's nothing interesting." Yu Ling stopped and turned his head, the thick eyelashes concealed the emotion in his eyes, "I just want him to give up."

His voice was cool, and it sounded like his attitude towards most things, without any emotion, indifference, and indifference.

This attitude made Liang Shu's spirit tense into a string that was about to be broken.

His calmness is like a mirror, reflecting Liang Shu's anxiety at the moment more clearly.

The calmer he is, the harder it is for Liang Shu to remain calm.

"He has liked you for six years, and he still hasn't given up?" Liang Shu heard himself asking.

He raised the corner of his mouth slightly, but felt that his expression at the moment should be ugly.

"It's not like I like it, but I just don't like it." Yu Ling replied.

"A few days ago, I received a notice from the company that I was going to be transferred to the headquarters. I asked my colleagues at the headquarters to find out that it was his suggestion to the leader, and the last time I was transferred to the overseas business department, it should be him. the meaning of."

Yu Ling's tone was neither painful nor itchy, as if he didn't feel that this was something worthy of Liang Shu's fuss, "He hasn't even seen me in the past six years, and he doesn't know what he likes. I also call and WeChat Blocked him and never contacted him. This time I called him, just to let him stop bothering me. "

"They want you to be promoted. It's been six years, and you can still do this for you. You call this unwilling?" The remaining smile on Liang Shu's face completely disappeared.

The voice lowered: "There is no need to draw conclusions on other people's likes like this."

"He's not for me, but for himself," Yu Ling said firmly, "I don't think it's like liking. I can't bear this kind of liking when I always have the argument of 'everything I do is for you'. "

"I have never given him any hints or hopes, and I have always refused clearly," Yu Ling finished speaking, as if he was a little incomprehensible: "Is there something wrong with this?"

"……you are right."

Yu Ling didn't hide anything from him, and calmly explained the cause and effect of the matter to him, presenting the facts and reasoning, he knew that Yu Ling couldn't have any other thoughts about the person on the phone.

Then why does my heart still feel uncomfortable?

Maybe it's because of what Yu Ling said - he doesn't like men.

Liang Shu had an intuition in his heart that this was not like Yu Ling's random nonsense just to make that person give up.

He suddenly remembered that one Christmas, when they were not together, on the way back from watching a movie, they talked about children and marriage.

I remember Yu Ling said that he would not get married.At that time Liang Shu thought that Yu Ling was just like him.

Thinking about it now, he will not marry, maybe he just resists marriage, and has nothing to do with sexual orientation.

If Yu Ling wasn't gay, why did he want to be with me?

Yu Ling made it clear that he liked him.He is not gay, but he likes him, Liang Shu should be happy, because of the special and exclusive nature of this relationship.

But it also means that he can withdraw from this relationship at any time.

Maybe he just wants to find someone to live with, and doesn't care if that person is a man or a woman.

What if it was a cute and beautiful female ground crew who helped her find the storyboard at the airport?What if the person who pursued him was a girl?

These hypotheses are meaningless at the moment, but Liang Shu inevitably imagines various possibilities.

Liang Shu was going to be convinced by his own strange logic. He knew that this kind of logic was very unreasonable, but he couldn't help thinking like this.

His temper always came up as soon as he said it, but when facing Yu Ling, he always tried his best to cover it up, trying to leave the best side for Yu Ling.I hope Yu Ling can like himself like this.

"I was wrong." Liang Shu said in frustration.

Dinner was cooked by Yu Ling. He usually cooks less, but the dishes are delicious. He made sweet and sour pork ribs and stir-fried lotus root slices.

Yu Ling put a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs in his bowl, but Liang Shu didn't eat it, and just took small bites of rice into his mouth, as if eating it was extremely painful.

"The food I cook is so unappetizing?" Yu Ling glanced at him and said coldly, "If you don't want to eat it, don't eat it."

Liang Shu sat on the dining chair, put down his chopsticks, slumped back, and leaned hard against the back of the chair, "Do you think I can eat?"

"Then what do you want?" Yu Ling seemed to be really confused by Liang Shu's question, "You don't believe me?"

"It's better for you to provide a solution. I can do as you say."

"I..." Liang Shu suddenly became dumb.

Yu Ling's light words can block all his doubts.

Even though the company announced the news of the marriage, Yu Ling still had a lot of suitors in the open and in the dark, and Yu Ling would immediately kill any signs of it.

No matter what time it is, Liang Shu can trust him unreservedly, so it's not that he doesn't trust him.

But not confident.

The equality of all beings is just a rhetoric, a lie used by the privileged class to deceive the "inferior people".There has never been anything equal in this world. Parents and children, bosses and employees, rich and poor... There is always one side that is superior.

And love is just one of many unequal relationships.

Love itself cannot bring people a sense of security, but a good lover can.

There is no doubt that Yu Ling is the best lover, which gives him a sense of security.However, if a person is truly confident, he does not need to find the so-called "sense of security" in an intimate relationship.

Liang Shu didn't have such confidence.

If one party's posture is lower than the other's, it is destined to be less respectable.

"Sometimes I feel that I know you very well, and sometimes I feel..." Liang Shu spoke slowly, his eyes drifted away, unable to find where he was going, "It seems that I have never understood you before."

He doesn't know what Yu Ling has experienced, and the cartoons he draws always have a strong gloomy background; he doesn't know where Yu Ling has been, and has he liked anyone; What kind of past did they share together? To be able to get an evaluation of "the relationship is okay" from Yu Lingkou shows that their previous relationship was far more than okay.

"What do you want to know?" Yu Ling propped his elbows on the table, resting his chin on the back of his crossed hands, and said slowly, "Tell me."

There is no end to talk, Liang Shu thought in a dull voice.He wants to know too much.

After a brief silence, Liang Shu said an extremely abrupt sentence: "Were you gay before?"

Yu Ling smiled lightly, "You ask me that way, do you think I used to be?" He narrowed his eyes slightly, his tone mocking, "I've been in a relationship with you for five years, and now you're asking me if I'm gay, it's really interesting. "

Liang Shu also thought it was a stupid question to ask, so he kept silent.

"What if I say no?"

Yu Ling tossed out another sentence lightly.