[American Entertainment] The road to becoming a god

The first meeting between Mr. Hodge and Gaspar was not in the car. Only Hodge knew about it, and no one else, including Gaspar himself, may not have the impression.Hodge was very satisfied with this. He finally kept something with Gaspar that belonged to him and had no memory of being tampered with by anyone.

It was the autumn of 1993. He moved his office to New York due to work, and bought a manor in the suburbs. The person in charge took him to see the house. On the way back, he happened to pass through a slum, and his car was stopped by an accident.Hodge didn't care about this, and told the driver to wait a while, but at this moment, he glanced out the window in a strange way.

There is a dark alley less than 5 meters away from his car door, which has all the characteristics of a slum area, dark, dirty, full of garbage that no one cleans up, is home to homeless people, drug addicts, drunkards and rats, and at this time inside But an incompatible figure appeared - the black-haired boy was bending over to talk to the woman lying on the ground like mud. He tried to pull the woman up, but he offended the woman. The woman picked up the wine bottle and threw it at him. He was skillfully dodged.

Perhaps it was because of the boy's astonishing appearance, or because the deliberately strong face on his face made people feel distressed. Hodge couldn't help but look at it a few more times. In the end, the boy cleaned up the broken glass and helped the woman tidy up her clothes , and walked out of the alley after stuffing a few crumpled banknotes in her hand.

Hodge couldn't help but look at it a few more times, and he's been looking at it for 20 years.

It only took a week from inquiring about the whole area to finding someone to check the other party's information, but it took a full year to really dare to take action.

During the middle period, Hodge used to talk to the psychiatrist, because when he saw the boy's profile showing that he was only 16 years old, he once wondered if he had some kind of disgusting hobby. Fortunately, more than 3 Psychologists gave him a negative answer.

After that, it was their first meeting.

What refused to inherit the title, what family conflicts, what character creation, all are fake, they are the perfect plan he planned to let Gaspar stay by his side.Of course, it's not completely false, for example, the title is real, but the family title is not only inherited by him, the mother just thinks that he is the best one, and it is more important for him to go back and forth.

But Gaspar believed it, and so did his agent.

No one knows that the night before he came to the door with a draft contract, Michael Hodge had a rare insomnia. He simulated the scene of meeting his boy countless times in his mind, and how surprised the boy would be , What will the expression on his face be like, he only knows one thing, from today onwards, there will be him in those eyes.

Hodge loved him, wanted to help him, and maybe occasionally thought about waiting for him to do something when he was an adult, but it never occurred to him to possess him, or in other words, lock him up.

He was 23 years older, which means Gaspar was born two years after he reached drinking age.

They couldn't have turned out well, not under any circumstances.

So when the boy made love to him for the first time, Hodge pushed him away.

"Your love is not real, it's just a dependence on the role of father, you are too young, I will not have feelings for you."

That's what he said at the time.

Then what?

After the kiss, Hodge took Gus, who was drunk and asleep, back to the room. He helped him change his pajamas and covered him with a quilt, and gave him a goodnight kiss. However, just as he was about to leave, the boy subconsciously stopped him. He opened his hands and opened his eyes, with a hazy smell of alcohol, teasing him with jerky methods.

For a long time afterwards he couldn't look directly at the boy's slender, white fingers.

Unfortunately, Gaspar seems to have no memory of what happened.

Although it's a bit regretful, it's good that way. Hodge focused his attention on the document in front of him. Since it is destined to have no results, then don't continue.

He gradually distances himself from his boys, giving him back custody of his younger siblings and letting them move out, while Gaspar begins a new relationship amid disappointment.

Then, something big happened.

When he was about to return to the UK, Gaspar's younger brother ran to be a drug dealer, but a problem caused him to be involved. Hodge couldn't ignore it, and he immediately put down his hands after receiving a call from the police station. The work rushed over.

When he showed up at the door with his sister, Gaspar was visibly surprised by this, and took the boy in his arms to comfort him after the police left.

No matter what the newspapers and TV say, in Hodge's eyes, Gaspar will always be the boy in the dark alley that made him lose his soul at a glance.

They had a brief relationship.

But for him, the joy of the moment is also the eternal pain.

Because he noticed that when he held Gaspar's waist hard, there was no love in those eyes.

The next day, due to his negligence, the boy was taken away by the group of drug dealers. When he arrived at the scene and saw the door panel in two, a cold current spread from his chest to his whole body from the outside to the inside.He used all his connections in the United States to find out where Gaspar was located in the fastest possible time. Then, despite the warning from the person in charge, he asked them for equipment and went to the scene together.

I forgot to mention that he served as a soldier in the UK more than ten years ago and became a brigadier general.

In the end, Gaspar was successfully rescued, and he finally made up his mind to let go of his unyielding brother. It was obviously the best time, but Hodge left. He returned to England and walked cleanly.

At least on the surface.

Paying attention to Gaspar is already an instruction engraved in his life. Checking the Hollywood Journal to find trends is an indispensable routine for him every morning after getting up. He can see his boy, but he must know that he has picked up again recently What movie, what did she do, and who did she have an affair with.

It cannot be denied that hearing scandals in the newspapers is more uncomfortable than hearing them in reality.

He thought he could control it well.

"—Mr. Hodge, here he is."

The nurse's voice interrupted Hodge's memories. He returned to the present from 20 years ago. The rapid increase in age added all the pain to him. He coughed twice and tried to open his eyes.

The oxygen mask was such a nuisance that he couldn't see anything behind it.

Hodge tried to reach out and touch the remote control button to sit up, but he couldn't reach what he could do so easily.

"Don't move, I'll help you."

A slightly cool hand covered the back of his hand, the touch was still in his memory, he raised his eyes and looked over, in the morning light, his boy was standing beside his bed.

Gaspar didn't say anything else, and silently helped him adjust the bed to the height where he was sitting up, and put a pillow on it thoughtfully.Hodge just looked at him like that, with extremely calm eyes.

His boy was the same as ever, and the years seemed to have left no mark on him.

But he has come to the end of his life.

Looking at Gaspar's heavy eyes, Hodge suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. He was very grateful for the decision he made back then, and fortunately he was not blinded by love and tied him by his side. If that was the case, he I'm afraid his eyes will be even sadder than they are now.

Hodge looked at his boy, and his boy looked at him, and after what seemed like a lifetime, the boy spoke.

"Why don't you accept chemotherapy?" He asked in a deep voice, trembling imperceptibly, "You will die."

Believe him, what he feared was never death.

"——I know." After Hodge finished speaking weakly, the corners of his lips curled up slightly. "Chemotherapy will make people more painful, and they will become bald. You know, it will be very ugly if I become bald."

Gaspar didn't speak, lowered his head, and peeled an apple for him with a feeling of incomprehension.

"I'll be with you," the boy said, "don't worry, I'm pretty good at taking care of people."

"You will take good care of me, I know you will." Hodge gasped after speaking, "Let's talk about you, how are you doing recently? I heard they said that you have a new film There is a movie called "Sonata of the Old Days", and I was also included in it, how about it, did you win the award? The news about the Oscars is all about you recently, why, the judges finally realized that they want to award you a lifetime award— —”

Halfway through the joke, he coughed violently again.

"Stop talking," Gasper tucked up the quilt for him, "You need to rest well."

"I'm already like this, do you still want to deprive me of my only happiness?" Hodge said with a smile, he suppressed his discomfort and held back his cough, "It's okay if you don't want to talk, there is a wheelchair at the door, push me out for a while, This is where I grew up and the biggest tree in the yard is hundreds of years old and I used to play on it as a kid."

After entering old age, Hodge found that he, like many old people, was more and more chatty, so he shut up.

"Get out the wheelchair," he said, "I want you to come with me and see the tree."

Gaspar disagrees: "You're going to catch a cold."

"I'm already at the terminal stage of cancer, and I may not even see the sunrise tomorrow. Why should I care about a small cold." He sat up as he said, "Please, please fulfill my dying wish."

Gaspar was sad, especially when he said the words 'dying'.

Hodge saw with his own eyes that the expression on the boy's face turned from sadness to anger, and then from anger to sadness. In the blink of an eye, the boy left the room.

But soon he came back, without saying anything, silently helped him take out the wheelchair, silently helped him sit on it, and then silently pushed him into the garden.

They came to the oldest and thickest tree in the center. There was a wooden bench there. Although it was well maintained, it could still be seen that it was old.

Today's weather is exceptionally good. London, which is shrouded in cloud all year round, is rarely sunny. The golden sun shines on the entire garden, and the mottled tree shadows sway on their shoulders.

"When I was a child, I liked to step on it, and then climb up the tree. At that time, I always imagined that one day someone would sit with me on the branch of the tree and watch the squirrels run around." He said softly , "But when I was a little older, my father hired a teacher to teach me, and then sent me to school. I never had the chance to climb this tree again."

Good weather brings a good mood.

"You don't want me to help you relive your childhood memories and help you climb the tree again, do you?" Gaspar rubbed his shoulders and joked, "You know, Mr. Hodge, I It's been a long time since we've played this kind of playful sport, and the two of us will roll down together."

Hodge was amused by Gasper's description of the scene.

"That would be nice," he said. "You sit on the bench, I have an idea."

His boy didn't seem to understand what he meant, but he followed suit anyway.Afterwards, Hodge stood up from the wheelchair with difficulty, slowly walked to the bench with his last strength and lay down a little bit. He curled up his legs so that his neck just rested on the boy's lap.

In this way, he is wrapped in his scent.

The elderly relax.

"if--"

Hodge closed his eyes and fell asleep to the sun and the smell of Gaspar.

Would it have been different if he had been born ten years later, or if he had been born ten years earlier.

Gaspar looked up, brushing Hodge's temples gently.

"Good night, Mr Hodge."

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