evening tide

There's not even a sound of electric current there.

Xiang Wan sat in front of the desk, staring at the darkened computer screen in a daze.

Press the Enter key once, enter the password, make the screen come alive, stare at the lock screen, and raise your hand again to light up the screen.

There is still magic in modern society. Lighting is one kind. As long as you light it up, it can always give people the illusion of being in the daylight forever.

Twenty minutes later, Xiang Bancai belatedly recalled what he had said to Chao Xin.

Teacher Chao said that she would break up with her and not meet again, because Xiang Wan couldn't accept being like her sister.

You see, Xiang Wan's worry is not unreasonable. If there is any conflict between himself and Chao Wang, even if it is not a direct conflict, Chao Xin will abandon her without any scruples.

No hesitation.

The phrase "don't meet" was said so quickly that it almost blurted out.

Tears welled up in Xiang Wan's eyes as well. Like her roommates, she lifted her feet up, put them on the iron railing under the table, put her hands on them, bowed her head and began to cry.

In fact, there is no social practice, she is the only one in the whole dormitory.

She didn't want to type because she was afraid of hearing Chao Xin's voice, but she still called. She wanted to say that she was very disturbed. In fact, she had always wanted to find a fulcrum in this world, a fulcrum that was completely her own.

She thought it would be Chao Xin, and even Chao Xin's shortcomings of having no social relationship, in Xiang Wan's view, were all advantages.

She yearns so much for the feeling of two people hugging each other to hide from the rain, she will feel that this embrace is her real private property.

Then she goes out to study, manage, and change. No matter what environment she is in, she will not feel uneasy.

It turned out that Chao Xin, who said that as long as Xiang Wan wanted to, would always wait for her, would leave her.

Why can't I stop crying, even my nose and throat are blocked, obviously I'm not very sad, just a little sad and sad.

Xiang Wan raised his hand, wiped away his tears with the back of his hand, then combed his hair again, sniffed his nose, and took a basin to wash his face.

The basin was also bought by Chao Xin.

She looked up, and so did the bed curtain.

She was sad just now, but now she was wronged, and she was so wronged that she collapsed a bit, raised her head and lowered her head, lowered her head and raised her head, and she didn't know where to put her eyes.

I'm so annoying.

She hid in the bathroom and sat on the toilet. In the confined space, she finally didn't want to cry.

But her heart began to ache, it was a physical, pulling pain, the pain made her hiccup, the pain made her want to vomit.

She covered her lips and tried to swallow the vomit, only to realize that she didn't seem to have eaten all day.

Stomach bloated, so started belching non-stop.

Xiang Wan covered his face with his palm, pressed his fingers against the bridge of his nose, blinked slowly and vigorously between breaths, and kept telling himself that the body is important, the body is important.

Then she asked herself, what would she like to eat? She must be very hungry after not eating for so long.

The nausea came back, and she hiccupped, feeling bloated and without any appetite.

She felt a little bad, so she sent a WeChat message to Lou Pingping.

"Lou Pingping."

"???" Xiang Wan rarely looked for her, and Lou Pingping was frightened to death.

"What? What homework?"

"No, I just want to ask you what you eat."

"??????"

Lou Pingping replied: "I ate the dumplings made by my mother, what's wrong? You want to find someone to eat?"

"No, I don't know what to eat." Xiang Wan continued typing.

"Scared me, you look through my circle of friends, I ate so many good things recently, I took pictures of them, you may have some inspiration if you look at them."

Xiang Wan thanked her, and then started looking through Lou Pingping's circle of friends.

Her mentality gradually calmed down, because all the delicacies were mouth-watering, even if she didn't want to fill her stomach, it was still pleasing to the eye.

The thumb slides slowly on the screen, and suddenly a drop of water falls on the center of the photo, Xiang Wan wipes it off without stopping, and there is no second one.

Xiang Wan didn't have many things in Chao Xin's house, to be precise, she didn't have many things of her own.

All the necessary daily necessities were taken to the school, and what was left at Chao Xin's house were just a few clothes that he didn't often wear.

So she was not in a hurry to get it. After thinking about it for a while, if it was appropriate, ask her to send it to school, or ask Yu Zhou to help her get it.

It's better not to tell Peng Hengzhi, lest she be anxious.

Xiang Wan has never been in a relationship, let alone broke up, and this time with Chao Xin is no different from breaking up.

Therefore, after she cleared up her emotions, she always wanted to be an ex who would not cause trouble to others.

She can only learn from movies, and also from Weibo jokes. It seems that many people say that the most perfect ex is--death is the best.

Thinking of the speed at which Chao Xin hung up the phone, and the act of never being in contact with Zhenzhen, Chao Xin might agree with this point of view.

Xiang Wan has returned to the stage of restraint she is best at and proud of, just like before meeting Chao Xin.

Just like coming to this world.

Occasionally, she will be unwilling, because she once had hallucinations, that is, she can be presumptuous, self-willed, and be herself in front of Chao Xin. Not at all.

However, Xiang Wan learned another lesson, because she found that time passed faster after separation.

On the first day of separation, she cried a lot because of plastic basins, bed curtains and water bottles.

On the second day after they separated, she went downstairs in the sunshine at nine o'clock, and took a special look at the bench where Chao Xin had sat.

On the fifth day of separation, she was buying Roujiamo at the school gate. When the car whistle sounded, she turned around with anticipation that she refused to admit, and swept up from the wheels, wondering if the car body would be silver.

In the second week of separation, she no longer remembered Chao Xin's instructions when making soup.

On the fourth week of separation, tomato ball soup appeared in the cafeteria. She ordered one, and found that the original method was different. Chao Xin would boil the tomatoes first, then cut them, and the soup would be more rotten and softer. The ones in the cafeteria will be harder. Tomatoes are tomatoes, and water is water.

In the middle of the second month of separation, she began to rejoice when she ran at night that she hadn't had time to take Chao Xin to the playground for a walk, otherwise the withdrawal would have been even stronger.

Chao Xin is different. Although she has never been in a relationship, she has experienced too many separations.

It's just that the ending with Xiang Wan is a little unusual.

In the past, she didn't pay much attention to who proposed to end the relationship. She vaguely remembered the last time, she leaned against the door with her pockets in her pocket, and heard the hysterical woman inside say, you loser, how far can you go? Far.

After listening to the whole sentence casually, she still had the strength to bend down and tie her shoelaces, then Shi Shiran turned and went out.

But when she heard Xiang Wan's voice on the phone that day, she was actually scared.

She was afraid of hearing hurtful words from Xiang Ban, so she wanted to speak first.

Chao Xin is very good at "fighting poison with poison", or it may be because of the gentleness she is accustomed to towards Xiang Wan.

I can't bear to see her in a difficult situation, and I can't bear to feel guilty to Wan because of the end of mentioning it. A kind girl like her will definitely feel guilty the more she thinks about it in the future.

The second abnormal point is that Chao Xin stayed for ten seconds after finishing his concluding remarks.

She didn't know what she was waiting for in those ten seconds, maybe she just needed Xiangwan's hesitation to speak, or maybe it was Chao Xin's rare kindness to her.

Maybe she was saying to herself, give yourself a chance, Chao Xin, maybe it's different this time.

But ten seconds was too short for her to finish the sentence.

After hanging up the phone, she got up from the carpet. The instant noodles were completely cold, with a layer of low-quality grease floating on them, which made people sick to their stomachs.

Chao Xin then began to recall what kind of dishes Paipai liked to eat, and then wrote down which ones he should buy in the memo.

Originally, she was familiar with this kind of thing by heart, so she didn't need to resort to pen and ink at all.

But when she thought about the next dish, she found that the one that was ordered two seconds ago had been forgotten, and after finally salvaging it from her memory, she forgot the second dish.

Repeatedly, she frowned and pulled out the memo.

Then there is buying vegetables, preparing vegetables, and receiving cards.

Thank goodness, Papai didn't have a make-up class today, and school was over early.

Hearing what Pa Pai had heard all the way, he told her to make her favorite coke chicken wings today. Pa Pai said "Long live Chao Xin" with a huff, and Chao Xin smiled. The gate of Jiang University happened to be outside the car window.

She drove past without looking sideways.