evening tide

Chao Xin misunderstood.

Because of her attitude, Xiang Wan's heart twitched slightly, but she still said, "I don't mean what you think. I just..."

It's just that I finally know where my anxiety comes from.

If she is a normal person who has been rooted in this world from the very beginning, Xiang Wanxing might not think so much. Whether she looks like her sister, her grandmother, or even her kitten is not that important. .

But for people like Xiang Wan, they don't have a sense of identity.

All along, it has been difficult for her to convince herself, which Xiang Wan is Xiang Wan, and whether Xiang Wan is still Xiang Wan.

And Chao Xin is such a person, he has always been alone and does not need to manage social relations.

Therefore, without Chao Wang's passport, Xiang Wan might not be able to enter her world at all, and she might just be one of Chao Xin's casual and nodding acquaintances, which made her feel a little uncomfortable.

As much as she liked Chao Xin, she thought that she had come to her by herself.

It's absurd. She used to think that the problem between her and Chao Xin was that they only had each other, but it turned out that it wasn't. They used to be separated by someone, but she didn't know it.

Xiang Wan suddenly felt very cold, and got goosebumps for no reason.

Chao Xin stretched out his hand to stroke her forearm, and said, "I know what you mean, but it's you I like, and to Chao Wang..."

She was a little bit speechless, explaining this was tantamount to humiliating herself.

"Stop talking." Xiang Wan hugged her and rested his head on her neck.

Don't bring up this topic again, let's go back to the past, no matter what, now that they like each other, Xiang Wan thinks that's enough.

After the Spring Festival, they lived together for another ten days, shopping and cooking, watching movies and chatting together.

But they didn't kiss again, and they didn't make love again.

Xiang Wan suddenly realized that he and Chao Xin couldn't do it anymore. They watched a movie that day, and Chao Xin brushed Xiang Wan's hair. Chin, and they went to bed.

The curtains were not closed tightly, and the moonlight came in and fell across Chao Xin's face.

Xiang Wan suddenly thought of a wonderful question, that is, since she looks like Chao Wang, does she look like Chao Xin?

So she carefully traced Chao Xin's facial features with her eyes, without moving her hands.

The interest disappeared suddenly, and when Chao Xin opened his eyes and wanted to kiss her, Xiang Wan instinctively hid for a moment, then hugged her and said that he was a little tired.

The kitten was still coquettish as usual, Chao Xin hugged her with a smile and said, "Then go to sleep."

The indulgence was the same as before, but Xiang Wan broke his defense because of this sentence.

She couldn't control herself to keep thinking, what was the reason for Chao Xin's bottomless tolerance and pampering towards her at the beginning?

She would think of it when Chao Xin said "you can eat this", she would think of it when Chao Xin said "you can watch whatever you want", and even when Chao Xin was teased out of desire, she would still bear to follow She remembered when she said, "Then go to sleep."

The most frightening thing was that she noticed her self-esteem that had been suppressed for a long time.

She is the daughter of the Xiangfu, a lady who is loved by thousands of people. She was pardoned to enter and leave the palace without having to observe the curfew. Like an emperor.

The empress dowager told her that we, Axi, want to choose the best husband-in-law in the world.

She can tolerate all injustices, but the most unbearable thing for her is that someone once put other people's gentle indulgence on her.

This made her feel more pitiful than disgusting her.

She has the arrogance of being nourished by the rich and beautiful horses, and the self-respect that is cultivated by the peak of power. In the process of trying to adapt to modern life, she is struggling to suppress, from a superior to a human.

From a phoenix holding a pearl to a bird in the mountains.

Gorgeous jewels, noble status, these are not important, what is important is that Xiang Axi is still Xiang Axi.

Later she fell in love with Yu Zhou, Yu Zhou didn't have her in his heart, and was not selected for the first time, she buried her self-esteem very well, as if she had never heard it cry out in the grave.

Later, she talked to her self-esteem, and it said, that's fine, you should belong to a person who only has you in his heart, and when we come here, we need to have a clean and impurity-free relationship.

They made a deal, looking forward to a love that only related to Xiang Wan.

In such anticipation, she fell in love with Chao Xin.

It turned out that no one approached her and chose her just because she was Xiang Wan.

It turns out that she is rooted in this world and still needs to "be someone else" at some point.

When did Chao Xin's special treatment of her start to break away from Chao Wang, and it was only because of Xiang Wan?She didn't dare to ask, and she was almost sure that Chao Xin couldn't explain it himself.

She remembered Papai's words again, she likes herself because she looks like Chao Wang, and she doesn't like herself because she doesn't feel like Chao Wang anymore.

The childish words explained the goodwill she earned by relying on others in a cruel and clean way.

The relationship between people is like a wooden barrel filled with water, in which are years of wild thoughts, but as long as the wooden barrel is intact, they will live quietly in the barrel without any storms.

But if there is a gap in the wooden barrel, as long as there is a slight gap, those thoughts like water flow will come one after another.

The "unfairness" that used to be considered negligible has been magnified. Why didn't Chao Xin tell her about his past?Is it more absurd and difficult to talk about than Xiang Wan's past?

When you tell Wan Tong Chao Xin about your experience, don't you need courage, not afraid of not being understood, and never afraid of being regarded as a lunatic?

Chao Xin has never been in a relationship, but she also understands the basic principles of interpersonal communication, but she only asked Xiang Wan if she could accept the cards, but never planned to tell Xiang Wan the origin of the cards.

How to believe in the words "treat each other honestly"?

The stamina is so great that Xiang can't get over it.

Chao Xin received a call from Yu Zhou after Xiang Wan returned to school. At that time, she was tidying up Xiang Wan's room. Xiang Wan said that she would go back to school early to do a social practice project, but did not say when she would come back.

But Chao Xin thought that she would not be staying in the next semester, so she wanted to tidy up her room.

She can sleep in the master bedroom with herself, so Xiang Wan's room can be used as a study for her, where she can do homework, do homework and so on.

But Yu Zhou said to her: "Teacher Chao, I'm very presumptuous to disturb you, but I want to ask, what happened to you and Wanwan?"

Chao Xin's heart shrank: "No, what's wrong with Wan Wan?"

"I seem to have heard her say that the school only arranges compulsory accommodation for one semester."

"Yes." Chao Xin rested his fingers on the desk and felt that the receiver was not clear, so he put down the phone and pressed the speaker.

"But I heard her talk about the dormitory next semester two days ago."

At that time, Yu Zhou asked, hey, aren't you living in Henghu International next semester?

Xiang Wan didn't answer.

Yu Zhou was more sensitive, and knew that Xiang Wan didn't want to say more, but he was still a little worried, so after deliberation, he decided to call Chao Xin.

Chao Xin was silent for about ten seconds, then told Yu Zhou that she knew and would ask Xiang Wan later.

After hanging up the phone, Chao Xin flicked his finger on the top of the screen, and then pressed a few times, wanting to call Xiang Wan.

But she thought about it, exhaled, exited the call interface, opened WeChat, and sent her a text message.

"Aren't you going to come back next semester?"

These words are actually very weak.

Because Chao Xin is also a woman in love, with a delicate mind and a good use of intuition and sixth sense, she knows that Xiang Wan has not been so enthusiastic about her recently, and has gradually become a little perfunctory and evasive.

But she wasn't sure if it was because of Chao Wang's incident that Xiang Wan instantly "bowed her head" and felt that she and she were not so suitable, or there were other reasons.

For example... During the Spring Festival, she was a little dull and not very talkative.

Maybe both, but neither is so convenient to spread out.

After three o'clock, Chao Xin went to record another sound, then made another bowl of noodles for lunch, and finished eating quietly before receiving the news from Xiang Wan.

"After thinking about it, it's more convenient to live in school."

"Then what about your recording?"

Almost like retention.

"The studio hasn't given me too many jobs recently, so I can go to the studio to record together on weekends."

Oh.

This was the only word in Chao Xin's mind, but she didn't reply for a while.

She sat on the carpet, put down the instant noodles on the coffee table, and looked at her own shadow reflected in the dark TV. It was strange, but she suddenly felt at ease.

The person in the black frame inside, who is supposed to be alone, may look glamorous at first glance, but as soon as she starts to confide, you will find a core of rotting straw under the gold foil.

Ordinary people find it hard to accept, let alone Xiang Wan who is like Mingyue.

Sometimes Chao Xin would be reluctant.

The most painful thing is not being willing, not willing to be with her, not willing to be with Xiang Wan, not willing to face some things that she has never seen or even thought about, but not willing to let Xiang Wan go without asking more questions .

So Chao Xin picked up the phone again, dialed and deleted, deleted and dialed, and finally asked a question.

"You've figured it out, haven't you?"

When sending it out, she pulled back her curly hair, as if she was just replying with a work message.

Xiang Wan didn't reply, she was still chatting just now, the phone should be by her side, but the words "the other party is typing" didn't appear.

"We agreed to think about it for a semester. In fact, any idea is ok. You can tell me, please." Chao Xin sent a voice, in a very candid tone.

After releasing the voice button, her breath was disturbed for a second, and then she swallowed it, and there was still a smell of inferior seasoning packets for instant noodles.

"Teacher Chao."

Xiang Wan sent these three words.

What follows is a long "The other party is typing..."

But Chao Xin didn't wait for Xiang Wan's reply, but waited for Xiang Wan's call.

As soon as she opened her mouth, her voice was very low: "My mentality is not very good, and I may not be able to accept some things for the time being."

"You mean?" Chao Xin hesitated.

Xiang Wan didn't really want to mention Chao Wang, so he said, "About your...family."

She was afraid that Chao Xin would explain so sadly again, so she spoke very tactfully.

family……

Chao Xin changed his posture, hugged his knees, and did not speak.

Does Xiang Wan know?Probably, she has a friend as powerful as Su Chang, so it shouldn't be difficult to check her past.

It's no wonder that Yu Zhou suddenly called himself.

So Xiang Wan couldn't accept it, it was human nature.

Chao Xin moistened his lips, lowered his head and smiled bitterly: "You should have told me earlier."

"I……"

Xiang Wan didn't think clearly either, but she felt that she should calm down.

"Let me help you, let's not meet again."

Chao Xin spoke very gently, and finally smiled, then sighed amidst Xiang Wan's silence, and hung up the phone.