Offensive change: superficial love

They would go out almost every day, and even if Yan Ju was lazy sometimes, Chu Ruxu would even act coquettishly and beg him to take him out to play.

Yan Jun really has a way of coddling children, so he has nothing to do with each other every time.

Chu Ruxu seems to be secretly contacting a psychiatrist every day, asking how to safely and effectively help her lover cover up bad memories. Yan Yi woke up inexplicably in the middle of the night and saw the other party obediently listening to the video class at the dining table. .

Chu Ruxu was very serious and careful about this matter. He should have asked Ye Jue to check the suggestion put forward by another expert, and only after confirming the operability, he worked hard to practice it with confidence.

Ye Jue secretly came to make a small report to ask for details, but Yan Jue perfunctorily said it was just for fun.

Of course, as expected, I got a string of meaningful ellipses from my old friend and the word "beautiful" from my heart.

Yan Ju didn't mention this to Chu Ruxu, and the other party probably didn't know about it either.

It's just that when Chu Ruxu coaxed him to go out, Yan Ju's attitude became much more cooperative.

The city has changed so much, Yan Ju sometimes even feels that he is no different from a foreign tourist, but fortunately, with Chu Ruxuan, he seems to have regained the strength to observe the city carefully.

Yan Ju took Chu Ruxu to patronize the restaurants that he liked to go to in the past. Some of them have closed down long ago, some have changed owners and their tastes are not as good as before, and some have become a chain of online celebrity restaurants, and they need to make an appointment three days in advance to get a number.

Yan Jie also took the other party to the library where he would go to study alone on weekends when he was in high school.

The first floor of the museum is like a small botanical garden in the center of the city, with an ecological roundabout in the center, and the hall is surrounded by glass, which is a bit like the living room of the house in Yan Junning City.

"This side is one-way glass." Yan Yan introduced with a smile, "People passing by often stop to look in the mirror."

"I used to like to sit here and observe them. This kind of "socializing" at a close distance without any offense is quite interesting. "

Seeing Yan Ju's somewhat disappointed expression, Chu Ruxu's heart trembled, and he skillfully refined the key points of the other party's words: "One-way glass is good."

Chu Ruxu hissed: "Why don't you keep the design of your living room, and we will replace it with one-way glass."

Words are really at a loss.

It was really hard for him to understand what was going on in the minds of 19-year-olds.

No matter what he said, the other party could catch the most unscrupulous elements in it.

But he thought about the other party's proposal, and finally shrugged nonchalantly: "I don't care."

"But why change to one-way, the backyard is outside the window, and there will be no other people." Yan Ju tilted his head and asked pretendingly puzzled.

"Little friend." Yan Jue called Chu Ruxu lightly, raised his eyebrows slightly, raised his tone slightly, and teased Chu Ruxu with explicit words as if teasing, "I thought you were so anxious to decorate my backyard because you wanted to make fun of me. Come up with some tricks, so you can try it outside with me."

He glanced at Chu Ruxu, his eyes were provocative and provocative, but he also concealed some deliberate teasing: "Oh——"

"After a long time, I overestimated you again?"

Chu Ruxu couldn't help swallowing, and like a small animal pleasing its master, she carefully rubbed in the direction of Yan Ju, obviously anxious to defend herself, but she still remembered the need to keep quiet in the library.

He suppressed his voice and hugged Yan Ji's arm: "No!"

Yes or no.

"You have promised, you can't go back on your word."

"You know, I've always been good-tempered when it comes to this kind of thing." Yan Yan smiled and kissed Chu Ruxu's forehead, but he also seemed to be vaguely aware that in such a bookish place, it's not easy to talk about such a strange topic. It's very appropriate, "This is very close to my high school, aren't you clamoring to see it?"

After finishing speaking, he led Chu Ruxu, who was laughing so cheaply, to the outside.

When I arrived at the school gate, it happened to be the time after school.

Most of the day students went home directly, while a small number of boarding students were in small groups, rushing to the nearby snack street to have something to eat before evening self-study.

Yan Ju and Chu Ruxu sat side by side on the bench across the road, looked at these students who were about the same age as each other, and said to their lover with a little emotion: "I applied to live in school many times, but failed."

Chu Ruxu pinched his fingers and asked in a low voice, "Is it because of your father's case?"

Over the past few days, Yan Jue has also told him some things about that year one after another.

However, it is limited to a rough passage, and there are not enough details.

Yan Ju nodded, then shook his head again, the faint smile on his face was obviously a little stiff: "Not all."

"The school didn't know where they found out about my mother's history of mental illness." Yan Ju raised his eyebrows mockingly, "Plus Wang Yize escaped with murder, probably because of my parents' bad deeds, so they reasonably suspect that I may have similar problems." The problem."

Chu Ruxu frowned unhappily: "It's a little too much."

"It's okay, they just don't want to take responsibility and want to ensure the safety of other students." Yan Ju shrugged, "I'm not happy either, but I can understand."

"Auntie, what is it..."

Before Chu Ruxu finished his tentative question, Yan Ju interrupted him with a straightforward answer: "Schizophrenia."

"Or if you want to call it psychosis."

Chu Ruxu didn't speak, but held Yan Ju's hand even tighter.

"However, she was diagnosed relatively early and has undergone many years of systematic treatment, so she is actually well controlled. It doesn't affect her life at ordinary times, but she looks a little special." Yan Yan said in a flat tone, "I Even though Wang Yize and I don't feel that she is different from ordinary people, we will still accommodate her a little bit."

Yan Ju refused to call Wang Yize's father, and Chu Ruxu discovered this in the past few days.

But this is so normal, so normal that he doesn't want to pierce the anger hidden under Yan Ji's indifferent attitude.

Yan Ju paused for a moment, the corners of his lips curled slightly, as if he finally remembered the words that could perfectly describe his mother: "She just noticed every clue in life equally."

"She doesn't have the patience to become a gifted artist, but she does like light and flexible things, and every drifting dust can arouse her interest."

Listening to his description, Chu Ruxu couldn't help laughing.

"So her mind is too changeable, and it's easy to make people uneasy." Yan Yan's eyes drooped slightly, and it was obvious that in the following narration, the happy element began to thin out, "Her body was found in our family's home on the outskirts of the city. Found it at a fishing lodge."

"The policeman in charge of the case couldn't bear to let me see the photos of the scene, but I still took a peek." Yan Ji's voice trembled a little unconsciously, but his tone was still calm, probably since the last confession was interrupted Then, he took time out to do exercises that would make him look as decent as possible, "The beige floor was stained tan."

"Wang Yize stabbed her seven times."

Chu Ruxu was very sad, so sad that he didn't want Yan Jue to say any more, he just felt that his heart was about to be crushed, but whether it was the doctor he consulted or Ye Jue, the advice he gave was that Yan Jue Don't interrupt in the process of facing the past experience, unless he wants to end it himself.

Yan Ju was silent for a while, and then slowly opened his mouth: "There are still some high-purity drugs purchased from unknown sources at the scene. Combined with my mother's mental state, the police reasonably suspect that their original plan is to die for love, but I don’t know what happened along the way.”

"Maybe Wang Yize regretted it."

After finishing speaking, Yan Ju chose to let go of Chu Ruxu's hand, and hugged his neck face to face with nostalgia.

Unlike the high school couples around them, they can kiss wantonly, embrace boldly, and enjoy the envious or strange looks around them, while the young children only dare to go to the corner of the street, and quietly hold each other in the blind spot of surveillance and teachers. 2 minutes by hand.

Noticing all this, Yan Ji couldn't help but bend his eyes, and didn't continue the topic just now.

He originally just wanted his lover to understand this, and it was a kind of unilateral venting of emotions.

Yan Ju didn't want to discuss too much, and he didn't want to comment on Chu Ruxu, after all, the other party's side was the most perfect comfort.

The two kissed briefly, but Chu Ruxu still frowned, looking even more unhappy than him.

Yan Ju twitched the corners of his lips, then squeezed Chu Ruxu's face, and naturally shifted to an irrelevant and light topic: "I used to want to fall in love very much."

Chu Ruxu forced a smile, followed the other party's meaning, and asked jokingly: "Is there any interested puppy love?"

Yan Ju recalled for a moment: "Really not."

"It may be that I made my fear of emotional relationships too obvious. People who chased me basically couldn't last long."

Chu Ruxu finally returned to his usual relaxed look, bumped Yan Jue's shoulder, pretended to be jealous and muttered: "Then you are with Bo Lu because he chased him the longest?"

Yan Ju was slightly taken aback, and after a while, he shook his head seriously, but he didn't intend to tell Chu Ruxu the specifics.

It's not that I feel disgraceful, but I'm afraid that the other party's mood that has just calmed down will become worse because of being unwilling for myself.

"Hmm..." Yan Ju thought for a while, and explained in a tactful way, "I fell in love with an illusion."

"I read on the Internet, and many people said that liking this emotion itself is an illusion induced by various hormones in the body." Chu Ruxu shrugged, "You like me too."

"It's not the same." Yan Ju firmly retorted, "If you have to say that, all the characteristics you have shown have made me freely propelled by hormones and have a liking. This is a real illusion."

"But for Bo Lu, what I like is the false illusion that I create by constantly persuading myself."

"It's different." Yan Ju smiled and tugged at the zipper of Chu Ruxu's coat, with a light but solemn tone, "Ruxu."

"You are different."

……

The two of them were chatting on the road outside, and when the sky was completely dark, they went to the night market to join in the fun. Master Chu, who had never been to such a place, had a good time, and bought a bunch of poor quality with "rich money". , Useless little rags, but anyway, Yan Ju is willing to get used to it, so it is difficult to have any conflicts.

It was almost midnight when they were finally willing to go home, but the high beams swept lightly at the door, only to find a serious-looking man standing outside the courtyard wall of their own house.

Yan Ju asked Chu Ruxu to park the car alone, while he hurried down to ask the other party's intentions.

After carefully checking Yan Ju's appearance, the man shook hands with him expressionlessly, stuffed him with a file bag, and left directly.

There wasn't even any unnecessary greetings, only a sentence of "Mr. Yan, this is the information that Mr. Zhao consulted for you, please keep it safe".

It was only then that Yan Ju remembered that when he went to Chu Ruxu's grandfather's house that day, before leaving, the other party did indeed say that he would send some details of the case that the police had not told him back then.

But then the typhoon delayed the progress. Grandpa has been busy posting the video of Lonny catching the Frisbee in the group these two days, and he didn't think of making a new appointment with him.

Didn't expect it to arrive today.

Yan Ju murmured in his heart, and walked into the house while removing the sealing strip on the document.

But he had just entered the house, before he found a place to sit down and study carefully, the first few key words on the paper were enough to attract Yan Ji's full attention.

【Yan Ziyou, female, 35 years old】

【Stage IV lung cancer】

[Bone metastases and distant lymph node metastases have occurred at the initial diagnosis, and palliative treatment can be used, or the patient is recommended to be transferred to another hospital. 】

[There is no chance of surgery, and the chance of cure is extremely low. 】

The author says:

Come, come, come -3-

It's the third watch here, sorry for being late, I wish you all a happy National Day——