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Wu Jingan didn't know how many jobs Xu Hui had, and he never said anything. It's just that he spent less and less time at home, so much so that Uncle Zhang worriedly asked Xiao Xu what he was doing recently. He hadn't seen him for several days. He's gone.

Wu Jingan couldn't answer.

Uncle Dumb pulled Wu Jingan aside and gave him the money left over from selling the house, but Wu Jingan refused to accept anything he said.

Uncle Zhang's next treatment will also need a lot of money, Wu Jing'an only said that they will figure it out, then turned around and left the door.

Wu Jingan called Xu Hui and asked where he was.

Xu Hui said out of breath that he was busy, and hung up the phone in a hurry.

The following days seemed to be to confirm Jin Meixuan's words, and new problems appeared one after another, forcing him to have no chance to breathe.

Hao Shi's law firm was suspected of bribing relevant personnel, and a female patient of Zhang Yin claimed to have had sex with him in the hospital.

Even Dagang called to say that the small power plant was going to adjust its staff, and it was said that a lot of people would be laid off. This time it seemed that it was serious.

Wu Jingan frowned, "Don't you arrange another unit?"

Da Gang sighed, "There is no good unit. You can either go down the well or resign. Alas, the power plant came here because you didn't want to go down the well. This time it seems that you can't avoid it."

When he got home at night, he made supper and waited for the person who came back late.

Xu Hui came back at two o'clock in the evening. When he entered the house, he saw the person guarding the sofa and was stunned, "Why aren't you asleep?"

Wu Jingan pulled a bitter smile from the corner of his mouth, "Waiting for you."

They kiss, hug, everything is so natural.

Wu Jingan saw his haggardness in his eyes, and couldn't bear to say: "Xu Hui, don't make yourself too tired, let's not shoulder the responsibility that we can't afford."

Xu Hui's smile was also weak, and his whole person completely lost the brilliance of the past.

"I'm not tired, I'm fine." He held Wu Jingan's hand and exerted a little strength. "I'll tell you when I really can't bear it. So, before that, don't fall down."

Wu Jingan squeezed his hand back hard, as if to give him strength, and also as if he wanted to hold on to this exhausted man tightly.

He thought they could hold on, even though they were exhausted and breathless, but their hearts were always connected together, no, there was no hurdle that could not be passed, no, no...

Xu Hui was sent to the hospital, and the doctor said that he was overworked after examination.

The worker who sent him anxiously said that he was almost dead, and he worked several jobs, working day and night.Ask him why he is working so hard. He said that he needs to support his family and pay off his debts. Tell me, is this guy crazy?

After seeing off his fellow workers, he sat outside the ward with a dull expression.

What the Xu family said was resounding over and over in my mind--when the matter is not over, if you insist on being with Xu Hui, you should abandon such things as conscience!

He leaned against the cold wall and closed his eyes tightly, suppressing the pain in his heart little by little.

Walking into the room, sitting in front of Xu Hui's hospital bed, he caressed this face over and over again that had been robbed of its luster by the heavy work.

There was putty on his forehead that couldn't be wiped off, his brows were tightly knit with worry, the bruise on his right eye from being injured by a loan shark who was chasing debts was still there, and his lips were chapped. Is this person Xu Hui he knew?

Xu Hui, who was handsome and energetic when we first met, is now worn down by life into another person.

Is this what he wanted?

Grandma Xu Hui once said that he was a selfish person, and he insisted on erasing all the light from Xu Hui's body, and lived a gloomy and dilapidated life with her.

This is his self-important love.

And now Xu Hui can't even say a single complaint.

Xu Hui's eyelashes trembled slightly, and after a while, he woke up.

Wu Jingan lowered his head and approached the man, calling his name softly against his face.

Xu Hui heard his voice, and his slack eyes fixed the focus. He tried hard to put on a smile to reassure him, but he was too tired to squeeze out any strength.

Wu Jingan was still whispering his name.

He didn't know why their love had to become the most tiring thing in the world, crushing his lover little by little.

Xu Hui's voice was very weak, Wu Jingan could only hear what he said clearly if he put his ear close to his lips.

Jing An, I'm fine.

Wu Jing'an also wanted to force a smile to reassure the man lying on the hospital bed, but he found that it was too difficult.

He really, couldn't do it.

Tears were welling up in his eyes, and he gritted his teeth to keep them from gushing out.

But Xu Hui defeated them with five simple words.

Wu Jingan lowered his voice and gently stroked his face, "Xu Hui, don't hold on, stop holding on, you can't hold on. Xu Hui...I'm sorry..."

Xu Hui rolled his eyes and looked at him silently.

Those agile eyes used to be like jewels in the night sky, bright and transparent.But now, it's just begging.

A simple, humble beg.

Wu Jingan's words were stuck in his throat.

After a while, Xu Hui said slowly with the last bit of strength left, "Jing An...I know...you are very tired...very tired...you will feel...I'm sorry everyone...I also want to Passed... so I can only escape... these debts of conscience... I can't bear it... I'm sorry... I left it all to you... I worked hard... so that I can temporarily forget about those things... Jing An... ...I have no other choice but to do this...more and more people are being hurt...we...became sinners...but...Jing An...do you know...I never once thought of giving up on you... Call me selfish... Call me a beast... I just can't separate from you... Jing An... In fact, I'm still like a child who hasn't grown up... I can't leave you at all... ...I'm sorry Jing'an...can you please...be patient for such a bad me...Although it's very sad...but I still hope you can hold on with me...don't leave me alone... …OK"

Wu Jing'an clenched his lower lip, hot tears fell on Xu Hui's eyes, and slid down the pillow along the corners of his eyes.

"Jing An...don't cry...seriously, I can hold on...things are not as bad as you think...I'm just a little tired...want to take a good rest...tomorrow...tomorrow everything It's all over...Jing An...we...we still have tomorrow, right?"

Wu Jingan turned his face away, but the tears from the corners of Xu Hui's eyes slipped down again.

"Jing An...ever since we met...it seems like I've been begging you...please forgive me...please give me another chance...please come back...it's tiring being with a failure like me ...Jing An...I beg you again...for me to hold on...Jing An...I really love you!"

After coming out of the hospital, Wu Jingan walked home with heavy steps.

At home there is Uncle Zhang who is not recovering, and Uncle Dumb who is waiting for news from him. He has to go back and briefly explain Xu Hui's situation, and then bring two changes of clothes.

Downstairs in the community, he couldn't find his strength anymore, and fell down on the steps.

His mind was full of Xu Hui who was lying on the hospital bed and weeping silently, and his words were full of anger.

Xu Hui's stubborn pride was gone, and the sky above his head that he had held on for so long completely collapsed.

He was vulnerable like a child, crying and begging his lover over and over again not to leave.

Wu Jing'an leaned helplessly against the edge of the flower bed, letting his heartache and grief take over wantonly.

Such Xu Hui, can he still love?

His selfishness ruined the people who should have been going smoothly, and also ruined the love they should have kept.

This love is gradually becoming a sharp knife.

Cut everyone they care about and tear Xu Hui's last self-esteem.

They struggled to move forward on a dangerous wire rope.

Perhaps, the next step is hell.

Even so, Xu Hui, who was too stupid to be cured, still wanted to hold his hand tightly.

Such Xu Hui loves him, and loves him with an unrepeatable life.

Wu Jingan's tears were mixed with sighs, and under the cramped sky, he murmured that person's name sadly.

Xu Hui, who was lying in the ward, turned his head to look at the starry sky of the same city, no expression could be found on his tired face.

They haven't given up yet, and are trying their best to make the last struggle on the road leading to a dead end.

But they already knew in their hearts that they loved Xu Hui's family deeply and would not give up.

Maybe tomorrow will be even more dangerous.

Maybe they won't last until tomorrow.

Perhaps, the ending is not far away.

On the day Xu Hui was discharged from the hospital, Wu Jing'an received a notice that he was transferred to the newly built power plant in P city to provide support.

He disobeyed the arrangement and went to argue with the leader. An hour later, the leader dismissed him by saying that he would stay on duty for half a year without saying a word.

Wu Jingan walked out of the factory with his head downcast.

City P is four hours' drive away from here. The power plant is built in the suburbs, and he can only live in a dormitory there.Even if Xu Hui wanted to follow the conditions, he was not allowed.

And how could he leave? Uncle Zhang's illness was still recuperating, and loan sharks came to make trouble every now and then.Will Xu Hui go to work desperately again? Once he leaves, who else can take care of him?

But if they don't leave, they will have a hard time staying on duty for half a year.

He knew in his heart that this was the Xu family's bad idea to force him away.

But what can he do.

When he came to the ward, he saw Xu Hui, who was thin and pale, his heart twitched suddenly, he walked forward slowly, and hugged him into his arms.

Xu Hui was puzzled, "What's wrong?"

Wu Jingan wanted to just hug him childishly and let time stop, "Let's elope and go to a place where no one knows. Without your home, without my home, it's just you and me. Let's go to a place like this, okay?"

Xu Hui's eyes dimmed, and he raised his arms to hug him tightly, "Okay, let's go to a place like this, live with him for 50 to [-] years, and don't care about anything."

Wu Jingan smiled, the smile remained in his mouth, but it was so bitter.

After Xu Hui was discharged from the hospital, he did not rest for two days and went out again.Although he promised again and again that he would not work so hard again, Wu Jingan still followed behind him suspiciously.

Xu Hui came to a construction site, greeted the people there with a smile, put on a safety helmet and gloves, and began to move red bricks onto a cart.

Wu Jing'an remembered that there was a buddy who worked on a construction site before, and his salary was calculated on a daily basis. At that time, it was [-] a day. Now the market will only increase and not decrease.

When everyone looked enviously at him, the buddy shook his head and smiled bitterly, "There is a lot of money, but the hard work is beyond your imagination. Why do you guys not want to go down the well to dig coal? This job is really better than digging coal." Not much."

In a daze, Xu Hui bent down to pick up the heavy cement and walked forward unsteadily.

In Wu Jing'an's eyes, the bag of cement was like a heavy mountain pressing on Xu Hui's body, making him unable to turn over forever.

At the same time, a deep crack was carved in my heart, which could not be healed.

Wu Jingan withdrew his gaze, turned around and walked towards the bus platform.