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Wu Jing'an stared intently at the person in front of him. This was Xu Hui, whom he had loved for three years, and the lover who had shared the same quilt with him a few months ago and talked passionately.Wu Jing'an couldn't figure out how they came to this point.

"Xu Hui, do you really want to do this?"

With bulging veins on Xu Hui's forehead, he gritted his teeth and said, "You'd better not force me."

Xu Hui's words easily tore the last thread between them.

The man's face in front of him became more and more blurred, and Wu Jing'an's eyes turned red when sadness took over his mind.

I have experienced too many things over the years, and many of them can be seen.But at this moment, he still couldn't help--

His eyes were still fixed on the man he loved so much, his eyes were picturesque, and his spirit was high. How many times he stroked the man's face, how many times he kissed him affectionately, and how many times he looked forward to their future.

Now, everything is over.

He opened his mouth slowly, his voice was low and weak, he looked into the man's eyes, trying to find a trace of truth from there, "Xu Hui, you said you love me, but you didn't come out to your family, and lived with me in an open and honest manner." Together, you say you love me, but you just want to hide me in a shady corner and just be your plaything for the rest of your life," a line of tears slipped out of their eyes, and the unbearable weight fell on the hearts of the two of them, "You said You love me, you ruined Jiang Lu, next is Jing Cheng, and then what? It’s my parents, Uncle Dumb and Uncle Zhang, Kong Xin Dagang and the others. Don’t you? You will, you already I am used to using this method, and there will always be reasons to force you to do this in the future. You say you love me, but you just want to use your power to wipe out everyone around me one by one. Finally, finally lock me up in a bird In the cage. Xu Hui, you said you love me, is this your love?" Another line of tears ran out of the eyes, more and more injuries burned a big hole in the heart, "What else can I do to make you Believe me, what can I do to get you back. Xu Hui, let me hide behind you for the rest of my life, watching you marry a wife and have children, do nothing, say nothing, such Wu Jingan is still the one you love Human? I can’t do it. Xu Hui, I’m here to ask you, please come out for me, ask for understanding and respect, are you willing to do it for me?”

Xu Hui looked at the man's tears without saying a word, every drop was like a liquid soaked in a huge poison, burning his heart.

"You can't do it, you can't do it. Xu Hui, we fell in love once, although the ending wasn't very ideal, but... just like this, can't it just end like this? I won't force you, Xu Hui, I I never thought of forcing you to make a choice, I just hope you can let me go. I loved you, is it wrong? Xu Hui..."

Wu Jing'an had never shed tears in front of Xu Hui, he always turned his back and hid his fragility where men couldn't see, but today——

Tears were uncontrollable, like a woman, he tried to tie a person's heart with tears and retrieve the last conscience of that person.

His love was so deep that even he couldn't believe it.Letting go is never a pain alone.

Xu Hui gradually let go of him, frowning tightly, opened his mouth several times, but couldn't utter a word.

Wu Jingan couldn't wait for the answer he wanted, so he closed his eyes in disappointment.

From then on, Xu Hui was just passing by with him, two years, just a moment.

He burned the joy and sorrow that that person brought him, together with those promises of your peace, in the depths of his memory.

He opened his eyes, stopped his tears, and said calmly: "Xu Hui, just do whatever you want, I can't stop you. But you have to understand, I am a human being, I am a man, I will not accept my fate, I don’t know how to accept fate. Therefore, until the moment of death, I will fight. I will also let you see that no matter what, you can’t defeat me. Because you have lost the capital to make me sad.” He lifted up Put your right hand on the man's shoulder, "In the days to come," the palm tightened, feeling the tight body under the palm, "Take care."

He turned and left, this time, without leaving any regrets.

Wu Jingan disappeared.

Xu Hui received a call from Kong Xin, saying that he could not be reached, his phone was down, and his house could not be knocked on. The neighbors said that they had not seen him in or out for several days.

Xu Hui panicked, he pushed aside the chair and ran out the door regardless of having dinner with his family.

He called Wu Jingan's cell phone, but it stopped.I called the work unit, and the response was that he hadn't come to work for a few days, and if he was absent from work for more than [-] consecutive days, he would be automatically fired.

He rushed home anxiously, opened the door, the curtains in the room were closed, and things were neatly arranged, but it was so deserted that it made his heart chill.

He rushed into the bedroom and found that there were a few winter clothes missing in the closet.Opening the money drawer, all of Wu Jingan's documents, cards, and passbooks were gone, and in the huge cabinet lay alone the salary he had handed over to the man with a proud face.

The man forgot to take, or rather didn't want to take, anything that belonged to him.

A passbook draws a clear boundary between the two and erases the two years of time spent together.

Xu Hui sat helplessly on the edge of the bed, accepting this fact little by little.

Wu Jingan disappeared.

Deliberately disappear, to completely put an end to their relationship.

Xu Hui stared blankly at the milky white ceiling, there was nothing there, but it seemed to be filled with everything about him and Wu Jingan.

He thought of the man's tears. He had known him for three years, and that was the first time he saw his tears.

Wu Jing'an was too stubborn and would argue and fight with him, but he would never let himself see his fragility and powerlessness.

When he misunderstood the man and Lin Jiajia, the man would suppress his anger and squeeze out a smile, gritting his teeth and say the words of getting married early; when he put the man's past on the screen, the man would hold back the pain with a blank expression, and just ask A "why"; when he cheated and the two almost broke up, the man would say coldly, "Not everything can have a next time," and would point at him and scold him, "Support me Wu Jingan? In the next life!"

He has seen too many expressions of men, but the tears that should not belong to him, for the first time, completely shocked his heart.

The one he has always loved, the so strong Wu Jing'an, was forced to shed tears in front of him.

Xu Hui's heart seemed to be gouged out by someone, and he curled up on the ground in pain, gasping frequently.

Jingan, Jingan, Jingan...

He hid in his ivory shell and licked the pain, but he didn't realize that these actions of healing brought more harm to the man.

That sentence you said you love me made him the worst man in the world.

In Jing An's heart, Xu Hui was worthless.

He knew that he shouldn't be so decadent and useless, he should stand up and cheer up to find the man back, he knew that the man can't disappear without a trace, it's not too difficult to find a man with his ability , just a little bit of time, a little bit of time.

He closed his eyes and said the man's name silently, expecting him to appear suddenly in the next second, kicked him who was lying on the ground, and said in a helpless tone: "I'm going to lie down on the bed, how old is I, and I'm still with a child." Like."

But until it was dark and the night was getting cooler, the man never appeared, and his dream was forced to end.

During the days when Wu Jingan disappeared, Xu Hui looked for people everywhere like a headless chicken.

He called Mother Wu, went to Uncle Dumb's bun shop, contacted Da Gang and Xiao Qiao, and asked everyone in the factory who knew him, but found nothing.

Wu Jing'an, like a kite with a broken string, never returns.

There was no bank withdrawal, no check-in, and no record of his ride at the train station, bus station, or airport.

How big is China, and he needs more time to find a person who is deliberately hidden.

Time, time, he has time to wait, but his heart and brain don't allow him to wait any longer.

He got confused, he called Hao Shi and Zhang Yin, he didn't want to let go of any possibility.

Hao Shi's answer was only a sigh, and Zhang Yin asked him back, why did you find Lao Wu, and what do you want to do after you find him? You've already driven people to disappear, so why don't you stop? Xu Hui, let's end here. Leave him a way out.

He had no choice but to stay at their home all day and night, waiting for any news from that person.

This kind of waiting is a punishment that tears the soul. He is waiting for someone who does not want to come back in a place full of memories.

Gradually, he began to doubt himself, was it really wrong?

From which step to start, let that person move the idea of ​​leaving.

Until this moment, Xu Hui still didn't think that Wu Jing'an would disappear completely, he knew him too well.Be stubborn, be strong, be realistic.

He has too many scruples, mother, dumb uncle, work, he can't let go of any of them, and he will never leave.

Xu Hui also believed that the relationship between them could not be broken, it was impossible.It's been two years, he doesn't know how much Wu Jingan loves him, they have fought, scolded and quarreled, but no one has really thought about breaking up.

Two years, two years is enough to make their hearts grow together, inseparable.

Xu Hui told himself over and over that he would come back, he would definitely come back.

He couldn't let go of his own, it was impossible to do what he said so absolutely!

The relationship will not be broken overnight, and escaping is just a way of avoiding it.

Wu Jing'an will come back eventually.

One day, two days, three days, Jin Meixuan came to the door and asked him what he wanted to do. He didn't go home, he didn't go to the company, he didn't answer the phone. Was he hiding here to protest against her?

Four days, five days, six days, Hao Shi couldn't see it, and persuaded him that Lao Wu was a rational person, he just needed time to think about some things, don't worry too much, he will be back in a few days.

A week later, Xu Hui could no longer lie to himself.

Wu Jing'an, I won't be coming back.