until the last minute

It's been a while since I visited Li Qing's mother. When I saw her again, Zhou Yin was very reserved. He came out to say hello. He wanted to go back to the bedroom to stay, but a thermos was stuffed in his hand.

He blinked and unscrewed the lid. The cup was filled with dark herbal tea, and before he drank it, he automatically thought of the bitter and astringent taste.

He poured a small cup of herbal tea and took a sip, which was a little bit bitterer than last time.

In the kitchen, Li Qing's mother quickly cut the ribs into small pieces and put them under the faucet to wash. Zhou Yin drank herbal tea and listened to her gossiping, "It's hot, drinking some herbal tea is good for your health. Li Ying and the others I don't even like to drink."

"Li Qing said that he drank a lot of herbal tea when he was a child, but he didn't want to drink it when he grew up." Zhou Yin smiled, "I never drank it when I was a child. My mother doesn't know how to brew it, and she always takes western medicine when she is sick."

"Taking western medicine will heal quickly." Li Qing's mother looked back at him, "Your mother should be younger than me, and you look younger than Li Qing."

"I'm the same age as Li Qing." Zhou Yin said with a smile.

He poured another cup of herbal tea and sipped it slowly. The more he drank it, the more bitter he became. When he mentioned his mother, he felt sour. He and his mother hadn’t had a peaceful chat for a long time. He didn't answer the call, and he called back this morning and it happened to be busy.

Even his friends came to ask him what was going on, and he thought that his mother had sent someone to find him, but he didn't dare to call back. The sudden resignation was against his mother's wishes, and he didn't know how to face his mother.

The boiling water in the pot was bubbling and bubbling. Li Qing's mother put the washed pork ribs into the pot and blanched them. After a few minutes, they took them out and poured cold water to rinse them.

Zhou Yin remembered that his mother also cooked ribs soup, but the method was different. He rubbed his nose, "My mother doesn't like you, she would soak the ribs for more than ten minutes first, and wait for the blood to flow out."

"That's okay. I often watch your mother cook?"

"When I was a child, I used to move a bench and stand on her to watch when she was cooking."

"How is your cooking?"

Zhou Yin said awkwardly: "Li Qing's cooking is better."

"I was the one who taught Li Qing how to cook. When he was in junior high school for his father's birthday, he cooked a whole table of dishes. As a result, I quarreled with his father, and his father overturned the table."

Li Qing's mother chopped onions and patted garlic without looking up, and prepared the ingredients for rib soup, "Li Qing hasn't cooked a dish for us since then. Although he didn't say anything, I know that he has a lump in his heart." gone."

Zhou Yin heard Li Ying say this, and it was still very unpleasant to hear it again.

He didn't answer, Li Qing's mother suddenly turned her head, the expression on her face was the gentleness that the elders used to treat the younger generation, looking at the more vicissitudes of the face that was different from the mother's, Zhou Yin felt a lump in his throat.

"Li Qing has to be strong-tempered and accept death. If he makes you unhappy, don't bother with him."

Zhou Yin nodded, poured a big gulp of herbal tea into his mouth, choked on the drink too quickly, he lowered his head and coughed, Li Qing's mother wiped his hands and patted his back, that hand was covered with callouses, The traces are branded in the palm of the hand, and the condensed truth is conveyed in nagging words, like the heart of every mother who wants to care but doesn't know where to start.

"The most important thing for two people to live is to understand and tolerate each other. No matter where they go in the future, they must support and take care of each other."

Zhou Yin's eyes were very hot, he didn't dare to raise his head, he didn't hear the advice from his elders for a long time, he had an intuition that Li Qing's mother knew something.

He thought of his mother again, and the road ahead of him would inevitably push him farther and farther away from his mother. After yesterday, he once again realized that he could only go to Li Qing's side alone, because Li Qing Qing also waited alone for him to come over.

In the past, I owed a lot to Li Qing for my mother's illness. At that time, Li Qing gave him a lot. Every minute and every second he spent with Li Qing made him like a bird breaking out of a cage for a while, desperately enjoying freedom and the unrestrained sky.

But now both he and his mother got what they wanted, what Li Qing wanted, he should try his best to make it up, he told himself this more than once, he shouldn't think too much.

Li Qing came back from get off work at noon, carrying two packed boxes of roast meat. Zhou Yin walked over to meet him. Li Qing noticed something strange and patted his head, "Do you want to go into the bedroom for a while? Leave it to me here."

Zhou Yin shook his head, went back to the kitchen to help Li Qing's mother choose dishes, Li Qing washed his hands, and took two plates for roast meat.There were three people crowded in the small kitchen, Zhou Yin voluntarily left the kitchen after choosing the dishes, and gave them the opportunity to be alone, he shook Li Qing's arm, and then returned to the bedroom.

He closed the door, sat on the edge of the bed and faced the wardrobe, the curtains were drawn, and it was dark all around. He stared at the wardrobe for a long time, and suddenly realized that he wanted to get into the wardrobe.He has long been used to punishing himself with this, and he is also used to paralyzing himself with this, deceiving himself that his fault can be eliminated in this way.

His thoughts are extreme, maybe he should stay in the closet for a long time, as long as he can become a plaything that loses himself unconsciously, there will be no inexplicable guilt, stubbornness and anxiety.

Li Qing pushed the door in when he was on the verge of collapse, and pressed him into his arms. Li Qing's smiling voice came to his ears, "What's wrong with Xiaoyin?"

"Your mother seems to know about our relationship. When did she know about it? You didn't tell me to prepare me mentally."

Zhou Yin heard his own tone of voice was very strange, he was choked up but couldn't help being wronged, obviously it was a very good thing, but he still wanted to cry.

He looked up at Li Qing, "Your mother said, we should support and take care of each other."

"There's no need to cry." Li Qing wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, "I didn't say that, she should have known it the first time she saw you."

"The time I went to pick her up at the train station?" Zhou Yin tried to recall that day, but his impression was very vague, he only remembered that Li Qing called him.

"Well, my parents knew about your existence but didn't know it was you. My mother must have understood when you appeared. She didn't tell me the truth. Since she told you that just now, it means she knows."

"What does it mean to know I exist but not know it's me?" Zhou Yin was really confused by Li Qing, Li Qing scratched the bridge of his nose, "It doesn't matter, as long as you know that your parents can't influence us, then go out to eat .”

"Isn't the soup still ready?"

"The soup should be boiled for an hour or two, and saved for dinner."

Li Qing passed his hands under his armpits, Zhou Yin was helped up, and his shirt shrank to his chest.When he met Li Qing's fiery eyes, he felt embarrassed. Li Qing didn't let go, and lowered his head to bite his lip.

Zhou Yin remembered that there were still people outside, so he pushed Li Qing a few times but didn't push him away. Li Qing caught him and kissed him wildly.

In the dark bedroom, people were intertwined, Zhou Yin hooked Li Qing's neck, unable to resist, he simply dragged Li Qing to sink together.The negative emotions that bothered him just now suddenly disappeared, and all he could think about was kissing Li Qing.

Maybe being sober can't resist the pain and sorrow, maybe Li Qing's approach is not unworkable, maybe he should give in.

In the evening, Zhou Yin finally drank the spare rib soup that had been simmering for two hours. The soup was sweet and delicious, the meat was all rotten in the soup, and the bones were crispy and delicious. A bowl full of rice.

Li Qing washed the dishes after dinner, Zhou Yin was still thinking about the fact that Li Qing's mother didn't stay for dinner at noon, he tugged at Li Qing's cuff, "Why don't I try to make soup by myself tomorrow, if it tastes good, you can use a thermos Send the decorations over, I can go, I haven't seen your sister for a long time."

Li Qing said no, Zhou Yin said, he wandered around in the kitchen, turning the bracelet on his wrist in boredom, the wristband of the bracelet was just right for him, but his left hand was still scratched with red marks .

He poked Li Qing's back, and said coyly: "The wrist is a little hot, are you allergic?"

Li Qing washed his hands, untied the bracelet on Zhou Yin's wrist, and carefully measured the red and hot skin on the wristband, "When did it start?" Li Qing frowned, obviously not expecting Zhou Yin's skin Sensitive to this level, Zhou Yin sniffled, "I don't know, I thought it was too tight."

Li Qing asked Zhou Yin to sit on the stool, holding Zhou Yin with one hand, and using the other hand to check what to do with his mobile phone.Zhou Yin played with Li Qing's free hand, grasped two fingers and did not let go, and put them into his mouth to bite from time to time, as if he was not the one who had the problem, and threw all his troubles to Li Qing.

The cell phone cited last week at the dining table rang, and he glanced at the call notification, it was a call from his mother.Zhou Yin looked at Li Qing before pressing answer, Li Qing turned on the speaker for him, Zhou Yin closed his eyes without any objection.

The mother's questioning voice came, "Zhou Yin, you resigned? Why did you resign when you did a good job?"

Under Li Qing's eager gaze, Zhou Yin replied: "I said before that I wouldn't work in that company for a long time, and it's time to leave."

"Your leader said that you have performed well recently, and he passed the application for regularization in advance. Why did you resign at this juncture? What do you do if you want to go and apply for regularization? I think you have thought clearly, Zhou Yin, did that kid force you to resign? ?”

"Nothing, I want to resign myself." Zhou Yin raised his eyes and glanced at Li Qing, before speaking after Li Qing kissed him on the lips, "It has nothing to do with him, it's my own decision."

"You come to the house tomorrow, and we will talk face to face."

"Mom, I'm not free tomorrow. It's like talking on the phone if I have anything to do."

Zhou Yin tried his best to breathe steadily, Li Qing's hand reached into his clothes, he glared at Li Qing, in exchange for Li Qing's twitching even more.Li Qing squatted down, and even wanted to lift his clothes and get his head in.

Zhou Yin stopped Li Qing in time, and the way to stop him was that he hugged Li Qing's head, Li Qing's bristly hair made his chin and neck itchy, he smiled and kissed the top of Li Qing's head.

There was silence on the other side of the phone, and when the mother spoke again, her tone became severe, "Tell me honestly, has that child restricted your personal freedom? I have seen your attendance time. You are in a hurry to leave work every day. Your team The chief has told me, you are still under his control, right?"

When his mother complained sharply, Zhou Yin covered Li Qing's ears with his hands. After his mother finished speaking, he denied it: "No, he was very good to me, and he didn't control me."

Li Qing stared at him with burning eyes, Zhou Yin paid his mother a few words absent-mindedly, and finally hung up the phone, Li Qing decisively snatched his mobile phone and turned it off in front of him.

Li Qing stood up, leaned over and lifted Zhou Yin's chin, Zhou Yin's lips moved, ready to kiss, but Li Qing didn't kiss, he couldn't help urging: "Hurry up."

Li Qing said: "What you said to your mother just now, repeat it for me."

"What do you want to hear?"

"I want to hear from you, you are voluntary."

"Resignation has nothing to do with you, it's my own decision," Zhou Yin's eyes were watery, and he put his hands on Li Qing's shoulders. Li Qing picked him up and put him on the dining table. He continued, holding back his sobs, " You are good to me, you don't control me."

Before Li Qing kissed him, he asked, "Is Xiaoyin voluntary?"

"Yes, I did it voluntarily." Zhou Yin replied following Li Qing's words, with tears streaming down his eyes.

"Is being locked up by me voluntary?"

"Yes."

"Then I will be locked up for a lifetime?"

"it is good."

He and Li Qing kept repeating this kind of dialogue, no matter how Li Qing asked him, he would answer well. He felt that this was not to please Li Qing, but to convince himself that he had already begun to believe what he said.

Zhou Yin's skills need to be dealt with urgently. Li Qing can't find any useful information on the Internet, and there are different opinions on the Internet and different ways to deal with it. He didn't dare to take medicine rashly, so he had to take Zhou Yin out and go straight to the pharmacy at the gate of the community.

The doctor at the pharmacy looked at Zhou Yin's wrist, and prescribed two kinds of ointment. After arriving home, Li Qing applied the medicine to Zhou Yin.

The creamy white ointment was applied to the wrist, and it was icy and cool. Li Qing blew on Zhou Yin's wrist, and Zhou Yin stretched out his intact right hand, "I want it here too."

Li Qing held Zhou Yin's right arm, not only blew but also kissed, Zhou Yin smiled and said, "Help me put the ring on this hand."

"I won't wear it anymore." Li Qing's mood was rare, "It's my fault, will Xiaoyin blame me?"

Zhou Yin shook his head, and leaned over to hug Li Qing, "Didn't we agree just now? It's all voluntary."

Li Qing pressed the back of Zhou Yin's head, picked him up from the sofa, went back to the bedroom and put him on the bed. As soon as Zhou Yin's butt touched the big bed, he couldn't wait to wrap around Li Qing's neck. He whispered in Li Qing's ear: "Put it on, I will obey you in everything today, aren't you afraid that I won't listen to you and run around?"

"Do you know?"

"You know I love you, right?" Zhou Yin said seriously, "For you, I even contradicted my mother. Where else can I go besides you?"

Li Qing didn't give Zhou Yin a chance to evade the answer, "Will you run around again?"

Zhou Yin muttered, shook his head, and after a while he tried to communicate with Li Qing, "I'm not traveling far away, no matter where I go, I have to go home, do you think I can still leave you today?"

Li Qing didn't answer.

Zhou Yin was short of making an oath gesture, and his expression was extremely earnest, "I assure you, what happened before will never happen again, and I will never leave you in my life."

"You don't wear the bracelet anymore, you can't get away with the location of your phone," Li Qing kissed Zhou Yin's forehead, "Xiao Yin, I don't want to listen to promises or promises, I won't place my hope and trust on others .”

Zhou Yin said angrily: "Am I someone else?"

"Of course you are not," Li Qing smiled, "You are my only one, so I have to take care of you even more."