after double rebirth

Ji Huai slightly arched his body and took a painful breath.His mind was buzzing, and those flowing piano sounds were like a spell, lingering in his ears, mocking his overreach and wishful thinking.

"Dong dong dong."

After knocking on the door several times in a row, Ji Huai finally got out of the suffocation, and was already covered in sweat.

He raised his head and saw a tall figure in casual clothes standing at the open door of the ward.

"Doctor Cheng." Ji Huai recognized it for two seconds before he recognized it.

Patients in the hematology department often suffer from immunodeficiency. In order to protect patients, most doctors and nurses wear masks, and Cheng Yousheng is no exception. Therefore, Ji Huai can only see his cool short hair and a pair of gentle eyes. Now that he has taken off his white coat, his whole face is exposed , he didn't recognize it for a while.

It's a face that matches his eyes very well. It's not as sharp and aggressive as Tan Yi, but very gentle and amiable. It's really suitable for a doctor.

"What's the matter, aren't you feeling well?" Cheng Youcheng looked at him, "I heard that Zhao Peng is here, let's see if you get along."

There is another level of deep worry that he didn't mention. Cheng Yousheng doesn't know how Ji Huai's mental state will be after the operation. He is very worried, and it seems that this worry is not superfluous at present.

"Thank you doctor, I'm not feeling sick." Ji Huai forced a smile, fumbled for the remote control, and turned off the TV.

Cheng Yousheng stepped in, without any equipment at hand, he stretched out his hand and put his warm palm on his forehead: "It doesn't burn."

Ji Huai shrank back slightly.

At this moment, Zhao Peng came back from buying food outside, and he greeted Cheng Yousheng familiarly, and put the food in his hand on Ji Huai's small table: "I bought several items, you can eat and see."

Cheng Yousheng glanced at the meals in the plastic box. Zhao Peng was familiar with taking care of patients and chose light and nutritious food, but he still told him: "Eat more high-calorie and nutritious meals, and fruits and vegetables. Spicy and stimulating taboo."

"Okay." Zhao Peng said.

"I know you like spicy food, so don't eat it in the ward, don't make him greedy." Cheng Yousheng said to Zhao Peng with a smile.

"That must not be the case. Don't you worry about me?" Zhao Peng said, "The patients entrusted by Dr. Cheng will definitely be taken care of properly by you."

"Okay," Cheng Yousheng patted Zhao Peng's shoulder, "give him some warm milk at night. You should rest well, and we will start chemotherapy after your body recovers. Don't be afraid, it's just an IV drip."

Ji Huai was still a little dazed, out of his wits, and only recovered after being called twice, nodded: "...OK."

What else is there to be afraid of?

In the next few days, Zhao Peng almost tried his best to coax and push Ji Huai to eat, rest and take a walk on time. Ji Huai couldn't bear to live up to this kindness, so he tried his best to cooperate. Three days later The body barely adjusted to a passable state and officially entered the first chemotherapy cycle.

Ji Huai's chemotherapy takes four weeks as a cycle, with chemotherapy drugs for the first two weeks and rest for the next two weeks.Although Ji Huai was mentally prepared for the discomfort that chemotherapy might bring, when the side effects came, he was still tossed to death.From the second week onwards, dizziness, fatigue, and nausea began to surround him like maggots attached to the bone. For a long time, Ji Huai could only lie on the hospital bed in a dazed state.

At the beginning of the second chemotherapy cycle, Ji Huai could not help but feel panic. If there is really no place for him in this world, Ji Huai hopes to leave with dignity, rather than being tortured by the drugs until he is broken and embarrassed. .

"What's the matter?" Cheng Youcheng was the first to notice that something was wrong with Ji Huai, because the hem of his white coat was suddenly grabbed by someone.

"I don't want to..." Ji Huai said with a trembling voice.

Before Ji Huai could finish speaking, Cheng Yousheng suddenly grabbed his hand: "Don't give up, you can't give up now. Yesterday there were two preliminary matching donors in the spinal cord bank. After the review is over, we have to do further research. Matched. Do you know how many people can't wait for a suitable donor? You've been very, very lucky, you're going to survive."

Ji Huai was taken aback: "Really?"

"I won't lie to you about this kind of thing." Cheng Yousheng said, "If you persist, you will be fine. I don't know what you have experienced before, but I have seen many deaths, and nothing is more important than your life .”

Ji Huai also saw with his own eyes the grief-stricken parents of a young girl in her 20s who died next door.Obviously that girl is still preparing for IELTS, and she still greets him every day.There are countless possibilities in her life, Ji Huai watched her mother cry until she collapsed on the ground, at that moment she wanted to exchange her life for her.

"My life is not important," Ji Huai's eyes dimmed, "No one will be sad when I die."

"I will be sad." Cheng Youcheng said firmly, "You are my patient, and I hope you can live a good life more than anyone else—including yourself. All I have learned all my life is to restore my patients to health. "

"...Thank you." Ji Huai was attracted by his eyes, that kind of persistent and firm eyes, with a strong contagion, even Ji Huai felt a little bit of pain in his lifeless heart. courage.He shook Cheng Yousheng's hand backhand, "You are a very good doctor."

"Then you also strive to be a good patient, don't let the doctor coax you to treat your illness every day, okay?" Cheng Yousheng tried to make the atmosphere more relaxed, "I'm not a pediatrician."

Ji Huai raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, "Thank you, I... will."

After chemotherapy, the nurse sent Ji Huai back to the ward.Ji Huai's dizziness was severe, and when he closed his eyes and rested on the bed in a drowsy state, there was a sudden knock on the door.

Zhao Peng or the medical staff should come in directly. Besides, Ji Huai can't think of anyone who will visit him. Could it be that he went to the wrong ward.

"Excuse me," a girl's voice came from outside the door, clear and refreshing, "Is Ji Huai here?"

Ji Huai was stunned for a moment: "...Sister Nuan Nuan?"

Hearing his echo, the girl pushed the door open and walked in. Behind her was a 50-[-]-year-old fat woman with a kind face and worried eyes, "Xiao Qi!"

Ji Huai had a sore nose and struggled to sit up, but his body was so weak that he fell back on the bed after trying twice, "Teacher Bai..."

"Hurry up, kid, don't tell us when you're sick, who will take care of you? Can the nurse take care of you?" Bai Mei put a bag of fruit on the bedside table, and stretched out her hand to take care of you. Ji Huai pressed it back, and his fat and warm palm quickly tucked him in the quilt, adjusted his neckline, and then touched Ji Huai Lu's hand outside which received whitening injections, "Hands are so cold, warm, Go find a plastic bottle, fill it with hot water, and wrap it around the infusion tube, the medicine is cold."

Ji Huai lay on the hospital bed and saw the two of them busily busy. It seemed that they had returned to the time when he was very young. He was in the orphanage and fell ill, and they took care of him in the same way.

But how could he have the face to contact them?

After being with Tan Yi, he also summoned up the courage to introduce to Tan Yi the sister who had the best relationship with him when he was a child and the teacher who was as close as his biological mother to Tan Yi, but Tan Yi obviously showed a lack of interest.Later, Ji Nuannuan and Bai Mei came to visit Tan Yi's house—at that time, Ji Huai naively thought it was their home.Tan Yi didn't say anything in person, and he was courteous, but he was also polite and distant, rejecting people for thousands of miles.After they left, he transferred a donation of 500 million to the orphanage where Ji Huai lived before.

It was like a slap in the face to them.

Later, Ji Nuannuan and the others never came again, and they had less and less contact with Ji Huai, until finally they basically broke off the relationship.

But today, they all tacitly did not mention this matter again, and took care of Ji Huai wholeheartedly without any grievances.

When Zhao Peng, who went out to fetch water, came back, he saw the people in the room and couldn't help being stunned: "This is?"

"My sister and my teacher." Ji Huai lacked strength, his voice was so soft that it seemed to be blown away by a gust of wind, but there was a rare smile on his face.

"Oh! Hello, hello, I'm Mr. Ji's nurse, my name is Zhao Peng, you sit down, I'll put the hot water here, and I'll go wash the clothes, if you have anything to do, just call me."

After that, he backed out.Bai Mei poured Ji Huai a cup of hot water and helped him drink it: "This young man looks pretty good."

"It was introduced by Doctor Cheng." Ji Huai obediently drank the water.

"I know, Doctor Cheng notified us to come here, otherwise we wouldn't have known you were so seriously ill." Bai Mei complained again.

Ji Huai was stared at by her angry eyes, but laughed again.

"Okay, Mr. Bai, don't blame him, you see his face is so bad, it makes people feel very distressed." Ji Nuannuan said.

"Oh, blame me, blame me, the teacher won't say anything. Xiaoqi, if you want to eat something, the teacher will make it for you." Bai Mei looked at him kindly.

"Don't bother," Ji Huai said, "The canteen in the hospital is pretty good."

"How can there be delicious food made by yourself in the cafeteria? Why do you grow up and become more polite with the teacher? When you were sick when you were young, the teacher made you minced meat custard. Do you still like to eat it now?"

Ji Huai clenched his teeth, but his voice was still choked with sobs: "...I like it."

"Okay, I'll make it for you and bring it to you at night. Go to sleep." Bai Mei stroked Ji Huai's forehead with her callused hand, like smoothing a cat's fur.

Ji Huai had a rare good sleep.

The arrival of Bai Mei and Ji Nuannuan obviously improved Ji Huai's mentality, and he was more cooperative with the doctor's treatment. Ji Huai couldn't help but be grateful to Cheng Yousheng, so he specifically asked the nurse Cheng Yousheng's duty time, and waited outside the clinic for a long time , I picked a time when no one was around and went in.

Cheng Yousheng had just finished seeing the doctor, and at this time he leaned back on the back of the chair, gently rubbing the bridge of his nose to relieve fatigue.

"Doctor Cheng." Ji Huai called.

Cheng Yousheng paused, then sat up straight: "Ji Huai, what's the matter?"

Ji Huai put a card on the table and gently pushed it over, "I just came to thank you."

Cheng Youcheng glanced down at the bank card on the table, on which the password was pasted on a sticker.He closed his eyes and let out a short sneer from his chest.

"Take it back, I don't need it."

It was the first time Ji Huai did such a thing, and he was so nervous that he wrung his fingers tightly, "I have no other intentions, but I am very grateful..."

"If you want to thank me, I will cooperate with the doctor's treatment and get better as soon as possible." Cheng Yousheng pushed the card back.

Ji Huai bit his lower lip in embarrassment, and put the card away awkwardly: "I will."

Cheng Youcheng glanced at the person opposite, the hospital gown was empty, the wrists exposed by the cuff buttons were slender, the twisted hands were red, and the head was drooping like a primary school student who was scolded by the teacher.

He became soft-hearted, and couldn't bear to lose the vitality that Ji Huai had acquired so hard, so he calmed down and comforted him, "I, like you, hope that your illness can be cured quickly, this is my duty." For work, I have a salary, which is very high."

Ji Huai couldn't help laughing, rubbed the tip of his nose embarrassingly, and apologized again: "I'm really sorry."

"It's okay, let's go back quickly." A message notification sound came from Cheng Yousheng's computer, and he said to Ji Huai while opening the chat software.

However, when Ji Huai had already reached the door, Cheng Yousheng stared at the computer screen, and suddenly said, "Wait."

Ji Huai turned his head suspiciously.