distant light

Admitting liking is not a hard thing to say.I think it's beautiful...and sad.

Sad because he doesn't feel the same way about me.

…I’ve seen him reject girls’ confessions in a gentle and polite way, “Thank you. It’s just that my mind is only on basketball, so I’m sorry.”

... I have seen girls bow their heads and say shyly, "I didn't cook well for the first time, but I really put my heart into it..." Facing the dark mass, he Also smiled and ate it.

... I have seen him teach the girls in his class how to play basketball, as patiently and meticulously as he did to me.

...I have seen...

Xiandaojun has always been a very gentle person.

Those girls who are obsessed with him have done so much for him, but they can't make him like him, let alone me who have done nothing for him?

I don’t have a kitchen where I live, so I can’t make delicious lunches for him; I can’t even spare time to watch him play and cheer for him…

Besides, one year later, when the contract expires, I will go back to the original school and continue my original life...

I am not just far away.

Ha ha.

Probably no one will understand my feelings like me, and I will face the loss of love.Tearing the corners of his mouth self-deprecatingly, it was the first time he had shed tears in a crowd at such a big age, it was so embarrassing.I miss pia for being so hypocritical... But, let me rely on him and cry without scruples, the first and last time.

My long hair slid down my cheeks and hid my expression, how thankful I was that no one saw my tearful face.

18,

On the platform, all the noisy and noisy voices were far away. I caught a glimpse of my red and swollen eyes reflected in the window glass, but my face was as indifferent and calm as usual.

"Thank you, Lord Xiandao."

"Suddenly remembered that I have something to do, so I can't go with you. Sorry."

"Goodbye."

He saluted lightly, turned around and merged into the crowd of people regardless of his reflection, and in just a moment, he had already walked out of the station, and came to the world outside where the lights had just come on.

The world doesn't stop turning because of your sadness.

The right hand holds the left arm, holding it where he once held it. It seems that he can still feel the warmth of the palm, which warms the whole body and mind along the blood. I think I will always remember that I liked such a person: Handsome, outstanding ability, calm and wise, indifferent and calm, gentle and considerate... All good words can be used to describe him.

Sendoh Akira

The corners of my eyes were moist again, I smiled and looked up at the vast galaxy, and said softly, "Goodbye."

19,

When I solemnly asked "Can I get off work 10 minutes earlier in the future, and pay a little less salary", Mingyue looked at me so strangely that it made my heart shudder, and Xiaonan even rushed over and rubbed my forehead. After a long time, I wondered, "You don't have a fever? Don't you lose your money? Why don't you even care about deducting money today?"

"..." You are only in the eyes of money, your whole family is in the eyes of money, and your family is in the eyes of money in a radius of eighteen miles...

Mingyue glanced at me whose mouth was twitching, gracefully picked up the coffee cup, and asked calmly, "Why is it 10 minutes earlier? I need to know the reason, otherwise the approval will not be granted."

It is the uncle who pays the salary!

I don't know whether my face is red with anger or shame, "...I like Lord Xiandao."

"puff!"

I stared dumbfounded at Mingyue choking on the coffee and coughing, tears splashing, "Mingyue...do you have to be so excited?"

"Cough cough," Mingyue managed to stop her coughing. Regardless of Xiao Nan who was consoling, she slapped the table and stood up, pointing at me and yelling, "Yuan Shanyao! Are you deliberately torturing people?! At that time, Xiao Nan and I had good intentions. I wanted to match you up, but you said melancholy that you only wanted to live an ordinary life and didn’t want to cause troubles, which made us very uneasy and guilty! As a result, what is your request now? If you leave work 10 minutes earlier, you will not meet club activities After the end, you’re the one who bought the cake, right? You’re too ashamed to even meet him when you’re rejected by him? Why are you so cowardly and cowardly? I’ve misjudged you!”

I was baffled, "Who said my confession was rejected?"

"..."

Mingyue almost gritted her silver teeth, Xiao Nan couldn't believe it, "You said...you haven't confessed yet? You didn't even get rejected, just thinking about giving up?"

"...Even if I mustered up the courage to confess, he would definitely not accept it. Instead of that, I might as well avoid him. We didn't meet much at first... As time goes by, I will gradually forget him " I muttered lying on the table, clutching the clothes on my chest tightly with one hand, feeling as if someone had cut my heart with a knife.

"...If I hadn't taken my image into consideration, I would have beaten you long ago." Mingyue's tone of hatred made me shrink my neck subconsciously, and whispered, "Mingyue... from the moment you slapped the table You have no image, okay..."

Xiao Nan sighed, "Yaoyao... I have seen dull people, but I have never seen such a dull person like you." I looked over in amazement, and I couldn't accept being said by the innocent Xiaonan.

"I've dated at least a few boys... Yaoyao, is this the first time you've fallen in love with someone else?" Now Xiaonan looked at me in surprise.

I nodded honestly, "En..." Then I noticed that the corners of the two people's mouths twitched at the same time, "Do you have to be so contemptuous..."

Mingyue stroked her forehead, "I don't even know what expression to use to face you..."

I looked at her sincerely, "Just smile."

Xiao Nan covered her face, "What time are you still talking about your lines... Yaoyao, do you really not care or are you covering it up too well?"

I thought about it and told her very seriously, "Actually, I was reading my lines." I swear to God that I was telling the truth.

Mingyue finally couldn't help but slapped Pia over, and the queen announced with all her might, "Yuan Shanyao, go and confess to Xian Daozhang!"

...The tone is relaxed and simple, just like saying "you go to the vegetable market to buy a Chinese cabbage"...

It was Xiaonan's gentle consolation, "Yaoyao, think about it, you went to confess, at least there is one more chance, right?"

"……kindness……"

"If you decide to give up without even confessing, won't you be unwilling?" Make persistent efforts.

"……kindness."

"You dare not confess because you are afraid of losing face after being rejected? Yuan Shanyao I know is definitely not such a cowardly person!"

"……kindness……"

"So don't be careless, go and confess!"

"No."

"..." Both of them froze at the same time, "Why?"

"Because..." I smiled wryly, "I'm not afraid of losing face, I'm not afraid of being rejected..."

"Then what are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid that after being rejected, I will feel very heartbroken."

I twitched the corners of my mouth and smiled wryly. As soon as I finished speaking, the originally noisy atmosphere suddenly became extremely silent. I looked up in puzzlement. Both of them looked at me with "pity" eyes. Xiao Nan sighed and touched my cheek gently. "Yaoyao... must really like Xiandaojun very much, that's why I'm so afraid of the heartache after being rejected."

Heartache... I suddenly remembered the time when I made a decision on the tram, my heart seemed to be cut back and forth with a knife, the pain that I had never felt before was so sharp that I exerted all my willpower , Gritting his teeth tightly so as not to let out a whimper.

"Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain." Mingyue was silent for a while and her face softened, "Are you willing to live in the pain of suppressing the desire to see him every day, or simply ask for a heartache, but a one-hundredth answer? ? If it's the latter, you don't have to change your life for others."

"Besides, what if he happens to like you? Don't insist that it's impossible. I don't understand. Why don't you have any confidence in yourself?"

"Because... I can't even compare to other ordinary girls. I haven't done anything for him. How could he like me?"

"It's inexplicable to like it. If he likes you, even if you don't do anything for him, he still likes you."

I was at a loss, "I will fall in love with him even if I don't do anything for him... is it possible?"

"Maybe!" Mingyue answered decisively, and Xiao Nan looked at me very sincerely, "It's just a sentence anyway, Yaoyao, long-term pain, short-term pain, smart as you are, which one would you choose?"

...It's just a sentence...If you try, at least there is still a chance...Even if you are rejected, if you have the courage to confess, you will have no regrets...

It was as if someone had pushed away the cloud and mists surrounding the eyes, and the eyes were suddenly clear.

"Long pain...short pain..." I gritted my teeth, stood up and slapped the table like Mingyue, "I choose short pain! Hiss! My hand hurts!"

Mingyue Xiaonan looked at each other, and laughed out loud at the same time, "Idiot!"

"...I'm really an idiot..." Isn't it just a confession, it's just a sentence to answer or not.Thinking of crying sadly on the tram yesterday, I feel... I am so stupid.

"Okay! I'm going to confess!" Clenching my fists and looking up to the sky, I rushed back to the lounge to change clothes, and when I hurried out, Mingyue handed me a box, "Take it, use this to express your heart Bar."

Looking down at the contents of the box... tiramisu?

……Take me away……

"It's so straightforward. I still think it's more in line with my ladylike temperament to be reserved..."

"Hey, why are you all looking at me with contempt?"