revenge in the name of love

Meeting the right person at the right time is a lifetime of happiness, meeting the wrong person at the right time is a heartbreak, meeting the wrong person at the wrong time is absurd, meeting the right person at the wrong time is a lifetime sigh.Maybe people are like this: they don't cherish what is easy to get, but try their best to get it back when they are lost.The years that have been missed, and the hearts that have been moved, are like a river that has passed away, and it can never flow back.There are no free people in the world. As long as a person has feelings and desires, he can never be free.

The operation took me 3 hours, which once again set a new record for the longest time I had for a second operation.It was all the fault of the doctor who performed the operation. Some operations and handling were improper, even in the sterile ward, some wounds were infected.

I took off the surgical gown, put on the white coat, and walked outside the operating room.

"Qin Feng!"

"Yixun?" I turned my head and saw Yixun suspiciously.

"How's Yuzhe's surgery going?"

"I've taken care of everything, it's fine." I stroked his head as before.

"Really? That's great! I knew it, I knew it!" A smile from the heart that he hadn't seen for a long time spread across his face, "Don't touch your head, I won't grow taller!"

"You are not tall!" I playfully continued to ravage Yixun's hair and cheeks.

"Master, here I am at the hospital..."

The pain of love is doomed the moment Haoyue arrives.

"Yue..." Didn't it mean that after a long time apart, I will gradually forget his face?However, I clearly remember his appearance, but the posture he appears in front of me now is different from the previous one.

"Excuse me." His eyes were cold and ruthless, every word he uttered was like a needle in my heart, and then he silently turned away from my sight.

"Hurry up and chase! Why are you standing still! Waiting for the food to be served!" Yixun pushed me, and I suddenly realized, and immediately chased after him.

He was smoking a cigarette in the smoking area, looking like he was giving up on himself, and I slowly approached him.

"Why do you want to escape?" Why do you want to escape in such a hurry to have my space...

"I didn't!" He exhaled at me.

"When did you learn to smoke!" I looked at him, "Didn't you hate the smell of cigarettes?"

"When you are unhappy, smoke a cigarette. The feeling of being drunk is as sad as being drunk. It can relieve my pain!" He sighed, "Qin Feng, you will never understand this feeling!"

"How do you know, I don't understand..." I kissed those soft lips, the smell that I thought about day and night was mixed with a faint smell of tobacco, but it fascinated me so much.

"Woo...let go...the wind...no..." He panted delicately, "This is a public...place..."

"There's no one here!" I let go of his lips, "I miss you so much, Yue...give it to me, okay?" My hands wandered on his straight buttocks.

"Qin Feng! Stop!" He pushed me away in panic, and before leaving, he said, "I'm not the Jin Haoyue I used to be..."

Hearing this sentence, I couldn't help being taken aback, and my clenched fist slowly loosened as his figure got farther and farther away.If memory has a scent, it is the scent of camphor, sweet and safe, like a well-remembered piece of music, sweet and melancholy, like forgotten sorrow.I hate myself, why I don't know how to cherish it when I have it.

"Dr. Qin Feng, the patient in ward 105 ICU shows signs of awakening, please go for an examination immediately." The radio rang, coiled in the empty smoking area, making me really uncomfortable.

He stepped up and walked towards the ward.

When I arrived, I saw two big men, Ling Yuzhe and Xia Chengxi, arguing.I watched the farce quietly at the door.

"Yu Zhe, are you thirsty?"

"..." Ling Yuzhe turned his face away, not looking at him.

"How about eating an apple, okay? I'll cut it just right." Xia Chengxi smiled awkwardly.

"..." Ling Yuzhe still put on a bad face, ignoring Xia Chengxi.

"Yu Zhe..." Chengxi seemed anxious, even his voice began to tremble, "Yu Zhe, I know you're still mad at me...can you give me a chance to make amends?"

"Make up? You fucking serve me now because you want to make up for me! Isn't it?"

"Yes……"

"Xia Chengxi, look at me! Have you ever fucking loved me!!!"

"..."

"Okay, very good! Xia Chengxi! Get the fuck out of here, I won't see you in this life, in the next life!"

Seeing that Ling Yuzhe was about to punch him down, I stopped him.

"It's so much strength just after waking up! It seems that he is recovering well!"

"Qin Feng, this is none of your business!"

"Yes! I'm going to have a routine inspection!" I sneaked a glance at Xia Chengxi, who was full of tears, and couldn't help frowning.

"Why don't you go!"

"Yu Zhe, don't be like this!" Yi Xun came back from buying water and knew what happened when he saw such a scene.

"Yixun, Qin Feng, I'm leaving first." He wiped away his tears, "Yuzhe, I..."

"Get the hell out of me!" His roar was deafening, and Xia Chengxi left amidst this extremely shocking roar, no, to be precise... it should have escaped.

In the next examination, the "lion" lying on the hospital bed turned into a "kitten"!

"How is it? Is there any problem with his body?" Yixun asked worriedly.

"Yes!" I said seriously.

"Where? Where?" Yi Xun believed it was true, and dragged me to ask non-stop.

"He's out of his mind!" I avoided his wound and thumped his shoulder, "Hey! Ling Yuzhe! You're out of your mind, do you know what you were doing just now?"

"I know..." When he closed his eyes, he saw something coming out of his eyes again.

I sighed: "Then why..."

"I have accepted the reality. I want to make the reality a little more cruel, so that I can give up on myself and let him go..."

Now, I finally understand-willing to pretend to be myself for a person, maybe the smallest love and sacrifice, tears in the smile.I suddenly envied him and Xia Chengxi, I couldn't tell what I envied them for, it was just... much better than my current relationship with Haoyue.

I watched him walk out of the ward after taking the medicine, and saw Xia Chengxi squatting at the door of the ward, tightly covering his mouth, tears streaming down his hands.

"Chengxi?"

"..."

"Chengxi, tell me the truth, do you love him?" I knelt down and grabbed his shoulder.

"Love..." His tears flowed down again, "But, he doesn't love me anymore!"

"If you love! Just stay by his side and wait until he loves you again!"

He looked at me blankly and nodded heavily.

Yes, Haoyue, I will do the same, always by your side, waiting...

I think I'll just wait until you understand how much I love you!

Maybe a person has to go a long way, and he will become mature after experiencing countless sudden prosperity and desolation in his life.The wound you once felt doesn’t hurt anymore, it’s not that it doesn’t hurt, it’s just that you’re used to the pain; the person you once missed, you feel forgotten, not really forgotten, but just getting used to the suffocating miss.We don't want to bear such a ruthless habit, so we should cherish the hard-won happiness in front of us even more. —— Qin Feng