Weekly thoughts

"Don't hate your father for beating you. You are also at fault. You know your father is angry and you still talk back to him." Thinking of the cause of the family outbreak, Zhou's mother still couldn't accept it, and asked hesitantly: "Son, You really..."

"Mom, I'm with Su Nian, the kind who fall in love."

"So, how long has it been?"

"My freshman year."

"?!" Not being together for ten days and a half months, not a few months, but such a long time... Mother Zhou was taken aback, and then thought of something, "When Su Nian came to our house in winter... .”

Zhou Zhou nodded honestly, "We were already together at that time."

"But, how come you are with boys, how come?"

It's not like Zhou's mother had never heard of such people in the UK when she was studying abroad. She also felt that this group of people fell in love freely and dared to love and hate, and she admired their courage.But she never thought that her son would be included in the list one day!It's like a wild joke, but it's real.

The child Zhou Zhou can be said to be brought up by Zhou's mother. Although I don't see how close he is to girls, I don't see him having a particularly good relationship with any boy.Mother Zhou couldn't figure out how her precious son became gay overnight.

"Is it... Su misses him..."

"I took the initiative," Zhou Zhou interrupted Zhou's mother's guess, "I seduced him in the first place."

"Don't talk nonsense!" Zhou's mother reprimanded softly, how could she be willing to use such words to describe herself, but Zhou's mother also understood in her heart that Zhou Zhou cared about Su Nian very much, but she still didn't give up Asked: "Son, can we forget about him? Isn't it good to find a good girl to marry and have children. Besides, the biggest wish of Mom and Dad in life is to see you have a wife and children, and hope that you The little family can be happy."

This wish is very simple and simple, but for Zhou Zhou now, it is an impossible extravagant wish.Zhou Zhou also felt bad, he didn't want his parents to be angry and sad for him, but he also didn't want to let Su Nian go.

The black-bellied man who held his heart firmly was already an existence he couldn't let go of at will.He doesn't want to lose his parents, his lover, and the only way now is to let his parents accept this fact and accept Su Nian.

Even though he knew how hard it would be for his parents to do so, he wanted to persist and be selfish once.For his love, for his Su Nian, he wanted to work hard once.

Suppressing the guilt towards his mother in his heart, Zhou Zhou ruthlessly said to Zhou's mother: "Mom, do you want a daughter-in-law or a son?"

Mother Zhou was shocked when she heard the words, and looked at Zhou Zhou who had been staring at her in disbelief, "Are you threatening mother?"

Zhou Zhou shook his head, "It's not a threat, it's a fact."

He can marry and marry a daughter-in-law for the so-called filial piety, but he is no longer him.

There will be no second Su Nian in the world who will let him be petty and spoil him like that.Zhou Zhou who lost Su Nian's favor would not be the Zhou Zhou who could cry and laugh at will, act coquettishly, and always be so heartless and wanton.

If there is no Su Nian in Zhou Zhou's world, then there will be no Su Nian's Zhou Zhou in this world.

that is it.

Zhou's mother never expected that Zhou Zhou's feelings for Su Nian would be so deep, and she did not hesitate to use herself to threaten them to accept it.Zhou's mother, who didn't know what to do for a while, was stunned for a long time, and after a long while she slowly stood up with a sigh of relief, pretending to be calm and said to Zhou Zhou: "It's getting late, you... have a good rest, okay? Let's talk about it tomorrow."

"Mom!" Zhou Zhou couldn't help but panic when he saw his mother's calm reaction, and hurriedly stopped Zhou's mother who was walking to the door, bit her lower lip and asked softly, "Mom, are you disappointed in me?"

Mother Zhou's heart tightened, and she sighed secretly.How can you not be disappointed?How could she not be disappointed when this baby son, whom she had been obedient for nearly 20 years, suddenly brought her such a shocking rebellion?But it's because Zhou Zhou was too well-behaved and sensible since she was a child, so even if Zhou Zhou's actions made her sad and disappointed, how could she bear to blame this child?

Zhou Zhou's mother's silence made Zhou Zhou panic even more, and asked again hastily: "Mom, have I disappointed you in me?"

Zhou's mother's heart felt as if she had been sternly beaten by those words that were almost choked with tears. With her back to the nervous child behind her, Zhou's mother blinked the tears in her eyes, "Zhou Zhou to mother How about a little time? Don't force mom anymore, let me think about it. "

Staring blankly at the closed door, Zhou Zhou slowly removed the ice pack from the side of his face.The ice-numbed cheek could no longer feel pain, but Zhou Zhou wished it could hurt a little bit more.It should all be his punishment for making his parents sad, and it should all be the apology of his unfilial son.

Only in this way, the guilt in his heart will be a little bit less; only in this way, can he gather the courage to fight against his parents for love and for Su Nian.

**

The moonlight is faint, and the cold wind in the winter night lifts up the thin curtains, bringing a piece of coldness, but it can't take away a trace of melancholy.

Regardless of the cold wind, Zhou Zhou lay on the window sill and stared blankly at the moon in the sky, without any thoughts.It seems that there are too many things to think about, colliding with each other, which makes the brain chaotic. Without clarity, there will be no troubles.

Unknowingly fell asleep, Zhou Zhou was woken up by Zhou's mother's shaking, opened his eyes in a daze and saw his mother's worried eyes, Zhou Zhou felt dizzy, raised his hand and touched his forehead, awakened My own resistance really needs to be strengthened, and I caught a cold again.

I don’t know if it’s because of the depressed mood caused by the previous events, but Zhou Zhou’s cold has many complications. He has a fever and coughs, and he vomits and vomits after eating. Within two days, he haggards and loses weight for more than a day. little bit.

And because of this illness, the tense atmosphere at home has changed.Zhou's mother feels very distressed when she sees Zhou Zhou's sick and uncomfortable appearance every day. She can't even think about her son's homosexuality. Her precious son will get better soon. It is no longer a pale face, she can do anything forgive.

As for Zhou's father, he followed Zhou's mother to take care of Zhou Zhou non-stop, making light porridge for his son to drink, even though Zhou's father's face has always been smelly and cold these days.

Zhou Zhou's symptoms did not improve until the fifth day of the illness. Zhou's mother fed Zhou Zhou porridge and took his temperature before she felt relieved.

"Sleep for a while, I'll come back and deliver medicine to you later." Mama Zhou helped Zhou Zhou cover the quilt, and when she was about to leave, someone grabbed her by the hem of her clothes.

"Mom, I don't want to sleep yet, you can talk to me." Zhou Zhou Huang shook his hand coquettishly.

Zhou's mother smiled dotingly, lightly slapped Zhou Zhou's hand and feigned anger: "How old are you still acting like a baby with your mother!"

Sitting up and leaning against the head of the bed, Zhou Zhou made a small mouth and hugged the waist of Zhou's mother who was standing by the bed, "I'm still my mother's child no matter how old I am, I like my mother the most."

"I like my mother the most, you still don't listen to my mother's words, I made you forget..." Zhou's mother rubbed Zhou Zhou's hair with her hand, and the atmosphere froze for a moment.That topic, whether someone avoided it on purpose, or was really busy and forgot, it really hasn't been mentioned for several days.

Zhou Zhou lowered his eyes, took the initiative to rub his hands that were stuck on his head, and murmured softly, "Mom, I miss him."

"..." Zhou's mother was silent, but her eyes were so complicated when she looked at Zhou Zhou.

"I haven't contacted him for several days. I don't know if he will be worried if he can't find me." Zhou Zhou looked up at Zhou's mother's eyes and asked earnestly: "Mom, can I borrow your mobile phone?" Give him a call?"

"Son, you..."

"Mom, please let me call him, please."

Seeing Zhou Zhou's pitiful deer-like eyes, Zhou's mother softened her heart.Pass the phone over, "Don't let your dad know."

Zhou Zhou immediately grinned and nodded repeatedly, and excitedly dialed the phone, but what he heard was not the familiar magnetic voice, but a female voice mechanically repeating that the other party had turned off the phone.

Zhou Yi was stunned, and called again to confirm, and got the same result. "How could it be?" Zhou Zhou murmured, his fingers repeated the movement of dialing the phone, dialing, hanging up, dialing, hanging up again...

Until Zhou's mother couldn't stand it anymore and took away the mobile phone from Zhou Zhou's hand, and said in relief: "Don't call, maybe his mobile phone is out of battery."

"No..." Zhou Zhou shook his head, except that he would lose contact with Su Nian when his grandfather took him to that mysterious and harsh training ground, that man's cell phone was usually turned on, and it would never turn off even at night.

Because Su Nian knew that Zhou Zhou sometimes suffered from insomnia, or suddenly wanted him very much to hear his voice, that careful man's mobile phone would always be on standby 24 hours a day for Zhou Zhou's occasional sudden calls.

Zhou Zhou couldn't help but start thinking wildly, whether something happened to Su Nian, or... Su Nian's family also received those photos... Thinking of this possibility, Zhou Zhou's heart shuddered, his parents learned that they Su Nian's family is probably going even further than this, confiscating mobile phones, confinement, coercion and temptation, and even a direct commercial marriage to settle a marriage!

The more Zhou Zhou thought about it, the more disturbed he became, and the more he thought about it, the more panicked he became.Just about to use my mother's mobile phone to make a call again, the outstretched hand suddenly stopped, making a call?Su Nian's mobile phone is turned off, who else can he call?

When the two of them were together, Su Nian seldom took the initiative to mention family affairs, and only said a few words briefly when Zhou Zhou asked curiously.Only now did Zhou Zhou realize that he didn't seem to know anything except Su Nian's cell phone number.Parent's work unit, the exact address of the family, the family's phone number... He doesn't know anything.

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