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The marriage in the previous life was actually not that bad at the beginning.

Probably in the first few years of marriage, all the couples in the world have a sweet relationship, so he and Sheng Yingqi are too.

One late night, Qin Mingzhu came out of the shower and found that Sheng Yingqi who was at home had disappeared.

On that day, Nancheng broadcast the news of today's typhoon all day long. The weather was extremely bad, and the power was cut off in a large area of ​​the city, and the signal was very poor.

He called Sheng Yingqi, but couldn't get through, so he contacted the property manager. The property manager said he saw Sheng Yingqi driving out more than half an hour ago. At that time, they tried to persuade him, but Sheng Yingqi said that he had to go out because of something urgent.I couldn't contact the person, and I didn't know where the person went, so I could only wait at home, which took more than two hours.

During those two hours, Qin Mingzhu thought that she was about to lose another very important person, and many images flashed through her mind uncontrollably——a big tree on the side of the road fell in the middle of the road, and Sheng Yingqi was covered in blood in the car .

This is his fantasy.

And what actually happened.

Standing on a barren hill, he was surrounded by cries, the cries of the families of the victims.

What is he here for?

Ah, I remembered, he came to find Yan Jiayu's remains.

But no matter how hard he searched, his fingers were covered in blood and mud, and he couldn't find Yan Jiayu.

People around were mourning and crying, they were all the families of the victims.

He is not a family member, he is at most a friend of the victim, a brother of the victim, or an ex of the victim. He may not even be qualified to cry, because Yan Jiayu boarded this flight because he came to see him.

Before that, Yan Jiayu went back and forth between the cities where the two of them were located several times a year, and each journey took at least ten hours, but he never knew it.

"Ding--"

There was a sound of unlocking the electronic lock.

Qin Mingzhu stood up abruptly, and when she saw the person walking in, her tense emotions were finally relaxed for a moment, followed by anger.

He wanted to ask Sheng Yingqi why he went out in this weather without even saying hello, did he know that he was worried.

He was afraid, he was too afraid, he no longer wanted to lose anyone he cared about.

But before saying it, Qin Mingzhu first saw the hot food Sheng Yingqi took out from his arms.This food was seen in a TV commercial before he took a shower.

While looking at it, he took a photo and posted it on Moments, "This looks delicious, I want to eat it."

Unexpectedly, Sheng Yingqi went out just because of such a circle of friends.

Sheng Yingqi, who came back on the night of the typhoon, was soaked in clothes, shoes and socks. Water dripped down his clothes and formed a small puddle beside his feet. He looked miserable and stupid.

Qin Mingzhu's anger gradually turned into helplessness, and finally turned into a smile leaking from his lips.

The change in married life is never an earth-shaking change, it is very subtle and changes in day-to-day life.

At the beginning, there were no small intimate gestures, and then there were no good morning kisses and good night kisses in the same bed, and then there was no longing for each other's body.

Qin Mingzhu could detect those subtle changes. He searched the Internet for relevant information and saw a sentence——

A middle-aged couple kisses, and the nightmare can last for a few nights.

Middle-aged couple?

He and Sheng Yingqi may not be as good as a middle-aged couple. Sheng Yingqi is still very young, but he is not young anymore.

Sexual intercourse has always been a very critical link in married life, and it may even determine the basis of the relationship.Qin Mingzhu has lost it before, but he cherishes what he has now, and facing Sheng Yingqi, he doesn't want to just give up and do nothing.

It turned out that Sheng Yingqi had also done a lot for him.

Now it's just a change, it doesn't matter.

Qin Mingzhu comforted herself from the bottom of her heart.

So he got under the covers one morning.

This was a very bad experience, and he never liked it. It turned out that no matter how much Sheng Yingqi coaxed him, he would not let go.This was the first time he did it for Sheng Yingqi, and when the quilt was lifted, his tears filled his eyes uncontrollably.

Qin Mingzhu didn't dare to look at Sheng Yingqi's face, and raised her hand to slightly cover her eyes, because she felt ashamed.

"Wait for me, it's almost ready." He said vaguely.

And Sheng Yingqi grabbed his arm, stopped him from lowering his head, and said, "It's not necessary." After a pause, he added, "I'm going to work soon."

Just like that, she got up and left in front of him.

Qin Mingzhu, who was still sitting on the bed, felt blood rushing to his face, especially when he smelled the residual smell in the bathroom Sheng Yingqi had used.

He had never felt so ashamed before, so shamed that he hid in the studio that day, using the excuse of needing to work overtime.

He didn't dare to call Sheng Yingqi, only sent a message.

About two hours later, a concise word came from over there——

"Ah."

Even after hearing the confession, Qin Mingzhu still couldn't control her trembling, even more trembling than before, and unconsciously lowered her head.

He couldn't forget what happened in his previous life. Yan Jiayu once confessed to him at his 19th birthday party on a cruise ship, but he refused that time, or ran away in a panic.

Now Yan Jiayu confesses again.

Yan Jiayu could naturally notice that something was wrong with Qin Mingzhu at this time. He tightened his hand holding Qin Mingzhu, and then slowly loosened it, "It may not be very appropriate to say such things to you at this time. You don't need to feel that there is a big problem. Pressure, don't rush to answer me, and rejecting me is your right, you can use it as you like."

Qin Mingzhu's hands slowly curled up, holding the corner of Yan Jiayu's clothes in his palm.The time of Midsummer Night passed bit by bit in silence, and the air was humid and hot.Yan Jiayu lowered her eyes, and her eyes fell on the fine sweat on Qin Mingzhu's neck.

Like water drops on white greasy pearls, it attracts people to kiss them.

But the next moment, these drops of water were carefully wiped off with a handkerchief, Yan Jiayu lowered her head slightly, wiped from her neck to her chin, and then changed hands, preparing to lead Qin Mingzhu back to the room first.It was too hot outside, and he was afraid that Qin Mingzhu would not be able to bear it.

The person who was still trembling and reluctant to utter a word before suddenly threw himself into his arms in a completely embedded posture.

He heard the person in his arms say——

"do not……"

Qin Mingzhu only said one word, then closed her eyes in an evasive manner, her eyelashes fluttering, but she hugged Yan Jiayu tightly again.Later, when she was picked up, her arms subconsciously hugged Yan Jiayu's neck tightly.

He was afraid.

After rebirth, he has hugged Yan Jiayu like this several times.It seems that only by holding her like this, Yan Jiayu will not disappear suddenly.Perhaps for him, the ivory tower that really belongs to him is Yan Jiayu's embrace, hiding in it, any harm can be eliminated, and time can also be stopped.

After about a few minutes, Qin Mingzhu raised his head. He realized that Yan Jiayu had walked all the way with him in his arms, and that he was going to Qingri Hall in this direction.

He wanted to ask about the condition of Yan Jiayu's legs, but thinking of his previous life, he swallowed the words.

Yan Jiayu has an old leg disease, which becomes obvious when she walks fast, and she usually uses a walking stick to cover it up.He noticed Qin Mingzhu's gaze, and pursed his lips slightly, "Go to my place? Okay?"

Normally, this question shouldn't be so embarrassing to ask, but tonight he just confessed.

Qin Mingzhu saw the faint blush under Yan Jiayu's eyes, he couldn't help touching her with his hands, then quickly withdrew his hands, and adjusted his posture silently, trying to make her hug easier.

He hummed.

The Qingri Hall is exactly the same as in Qin Mingzhu's memory, with bean-green dyed bamboo curtains, lilac-colored porcelain vases, silk-colored pillows, and begonia-red carpets.Yan Jiayu never touched these things, because Qin Mingzhu liked them.

Stepping into the room through the beaded curtain, there is an illusion of yellow beams and dreams.

He seemed to see him and Yan Jiayu in childhood, two and a half older children squeezed together.When I was a child, I always liked to discuss a topic, what will happen in the future, and what will be like when I grow up.

"I hope that when I grow up, I don't have to change anything. I still want to be with my grandfather, grandmother, grandfather, mother, father..." Xiao Qin Mingzhu read aloud to many people, but in the end he didn't forget Yan Jiayu. He tilted his body and fell on Yan Jiayu's shoulder, "And brother Jiayu, we have to continue living together, otherwise I will be very sad, even more sad than not having ice cream today, many times sadder."

Little Yan Jiayu's lips curled slightly, and after a while she said, "Okay."

"Okay." Qin Mingzhu repeated across time and space.

When he was a child, he would be very sad if he didn’t eat ice cream, or if he had diarrhea after eating ice cream. When he grew up, he realized that there are really many things in the world that are more sad than ice cream.

For example, without Yan Jiayu by her side.

From the breakup at the age of 26 to the years before Yan Jiayu's death, he used various things to forget Yan Jiayu, various parties, a circle of friends that changed faster than flowers, and a large number of photos on social software to prove one thing.

Without Yan Jiayu, he can live well.

But looking back now, he can't remember the most impressive things in those years, and his memory is muddy. He can't even remember the faces of his new friends who drank and smoked cigars with him the night before, not even a single one.

Later, he realized that he really couldn't live without Yan Jiayu.

But Yan Jiayu left him a suicide note, telling him to live well and cherish the rest of his life.